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Elnar\u0259 AK\u0130MOVA<\/span><\/h3>\n

\"Az\u0259rbaycan<\/p>\n

Az\u0259rbaycan humanitariyas\u0131nda Ya\u015far Qarayev imzas\u0131 – miqyas v\u0259 missiya\u00a0– Elnar\u0259 AK\u0130MOVA<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya ba\u015flark\u0259n, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 ill\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259 Nizami G\u0259nc\u0259vi ad\u0131na \u018fd\u0259biyyat Muzeyind\u0259 Ya\u015far Qarayevin xatir\u0259sin\u0259 h\u0259sr olunmu\u015f t\u0259dbird\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u015f\u00fcnas alim Azad\u0259 R\u00fcst\u0259movan\u0131n onun haqq\u0131nda s\u0259sl\u0259ndirdiyi v\u0259 yadda\u015f\u0131mda ili\u015fib qalan bir fikri xat\u0131rlad\u0131m: “Savadl\u0131 olmadan savadl\u0131 kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 olmadan a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 kimi d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259k olar, ancaq ziyal\u0131l\u0131q el\u0259 bir \u015feydir ki, ziyal\u0131 olmadan ziyal\u0131 kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. Ya\u015far Qarayev \u0259sl ziyal\u0131 idi”.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\u0130ndi, getdikc\u0259 bozla\u015fan, \u0259qid\u0259 v\u0259 inam b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn azald\u0131\u011f\u0131, m\u0259n\u0259viyyats\u0131zl\u0131q sindromu ya\u015fayan c\u0259miyy\u0259timizd\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 daha \u00e7ox buna ehtiyac var. B\u00f6y\u00fck ziyal\u0131 v\u0259 ziyal\u0131l\u0131\u011fa! Ya\u015far Qarayevin Az\u0259rbaycan humanitariyas\u0131na g\u0259tirdiyi \u00f6z\u0259llik ilk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259, b\u0259nz\u0259rsiz z\u0259kaya, f\u0259rqli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259tin\u0259 qadir olmas\u0131 il\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r \u00f6z ziyal\u0131l\u0131q m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259tinin b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7alarlar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131m\u0131za \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259si il\u0259 \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fclm\u0259lidir. O, i\u00e7inin \u0259d\u0259biyyat sevdas\u0131 say\u0259sind\u0259 t\u0259dqiqata c\u0259lb etdiyi m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri, \u0259d\u0259biyyat tariximizd\u0259 h\u0259r birinin m\u0259zmun y\u00fck\u00fc olan probleml\u0259ri yeni \u0259saslar \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcl tapan \u00fcmumi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 sistemimizin n\u0259inki m\u00fch\u00fcm t\u0259rkib hiss\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259 bildi, h\u0259m\u00e7inin \u0259n yeni milli \u0259d\u0259biyyat tarixinin \u0259sas\u0131n\u0131 qoydu. \u00d6z\u0259l d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259d\u0259n qidalanan \u00f6z\u0259l \u00fcslub, qanadl\u0131 romantikaya b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f fikrin ifad\u0259 t\u0259rzind\u0259ki elmilik, \u0259d\u0259bi fakta, proses\u0259 yana\u015fmada n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdirdiyi obyektivlik, elmi-analitik t\u0259hlil bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131 say\u0259sind\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 boyu Ya\u015far Qarayev b\u0259dii-estetik fikri pozitiv \u0259d\u0259bi meyll\u0259ri v\u0259 axtar\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 z\u0259nginl\u0259\u015fdirdi.<\/p>\n

Ya\u015far Qarayevin vard\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 h\u00fcdudlar\u0131, qeyri-adi f\u0259hminin g\u00fcc\u00fc ona t\u0259qib q\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 v\u00fcs\u0259tli m\u0259qamlardan – hadis\u0259l\u0259rin \u00fcf\u00fcq\u00fcnd\u0259n, pik n\u00f6qt\u0259sind\u0259n n\u0259z\u0259r yetirm\u0259y\u0259 imkan vermi\u015fdir. “Faci\u0259 v\u0259 q\u0259hr\u0259man”, “S\u0259hn\u0259miz v\u0259 m\u00fcasirl\u0259rimiz”, “T\u0259nqid: probleml\u0259r, portretl\u0259r”, “Realizm: s\u0259n\u0259t v\u0259 h\u0259qiq\u0259t”, “\u018fd\u0259bi \u00fcf\u00fcql\u0259r”, “Meyar-\u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259tdir” v\u0259 s. kimi \u0259lvan spektrli, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif m\u00f6vzulu t\u0259dqiqat istiqam\u0259tl\u0259rini ehtiva ed\u0259n bu kitablarda Ya\u015far Qarayev dramdan dan\u0131\u015fanda dramaturgiyan\u0131n, t\u0259nqidd\u0259n b\u0259hs ed\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259nqidin probleml\u0259rini y\u00fcks\u0259k elmi-n\u0259z\u0259ri-metodoloji m\u00f6vqed\u0259n t\u0259hlil\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi, realizmin estetik prinsipl\u0259rind\u0259n, “renessans romantizminin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan” (N.Konrad) milli \u0259d\u0259bi-m\u0259d\u0259ni \u015f\u00fcurun spesifik hadis\u0259si kimi b\u0259hs etdi. Kim olursan ol, \u00f6nc\u0259 insan olma\u011f\u0131 bacar – aksiomas\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259lim, platforma s\u0259viyy\u0259sind\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyata, humanitar elm\u0259 g\u0259tirib \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259ti meyar elan ed\u0259n d\u0259 Ya\u015far Qarayev oldu… B\u0259lk\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, bir \u00e7ox ba\u015fqa n\u0259sn\u0259l\u0259r kimi uca Yaradan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n se\u00e7ilmi\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131 alimlik missiyas\u0131n\u0131n da ilk \u00f6nc\u0259, insani sevgid\u0259n mayaland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rk etmi\u015fdir.<\/p>\n

“Kim ki, insan\u0131 sev\u0259r, a\u015f\u0131qi h\u00fcrriyy\u0259t olur. B\u0259li, insanl\u0131q olan yerd\u0259 d\u0259 h\u00fcrriyy\u0259t olur” – Sabirin insanl\u0131q f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259n yo\u011frulmu\u015f bu misralar\u0131n\u0131n Ya\u015far Qarayevin yarad\u0131c\u0131 milli d\u00fchas\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259r h\u00fcceyr\u0259sin\u0259 hakim k\u0259sildiyini duymaq \u00e7\u0259tin deyildi. Alimin 1996-c\u0131 ild\u0259 n\u0259\u015fr olunan “Tarix:yax\u0131ndan v\u0259 uzaqdan” fundamental toplusu bu fikirl\u0259rin \u0259n bariz s\u00fcbutudur. Bu kitab yaln\u0131z \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131n tarixini deyil, h\u0259m d\u0259 insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n tarixini, onun m\u0259n\u0259vi-\u0259d\u0259bi irsd\u0259 kodla\u015fan d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259rini milli s\u0259rv\u0259t kimi reablitasiya edib xalqa, yadda\u015fa \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k missiyas\u0131na xidm\u0259t edirdi. Diqq\u0259t ets\u0259k, alimin son yaz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n, m\u0259ruz\u0259 m\u0259tnl\u0259rinin, h\u0259tta m\u00fcsahib\u0259l\u0259rinin m\u0259\u011fzinin bel\u0259 bu ritm\u0259, insan d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259rinin \u00f6n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259sin\u0259 k\u00f6kl\u0259ndiyini g\u00f6r\u0259rik. Bu, \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n h\u0259r zaman qay\u0259si olmu\u015f insan\u015f\u00fcnasl\u0131q, xalq\u015f\u00fcnasl\u0131q kimi m\u0259n\u0259vi keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259rin t\u0259bli\u011fi istiqam\u0259tinin yeni modifikasiyada t\u0259qdimi deyildi. Bu, subardinasiyas\u0131 pozulmu\u015f c\u0259miyy\u0259tin, yeni ba\u015flanan postmodern epoxas\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 qloballa\u015fma n\u0259hrinin d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 heyr\u0259td\u0259 qalan ruhun huzur, dinclik namin\u0259 etdiyi \u00e7abalar\u0131n pey\u011f\u0259mb\u0259rsaya\u011f\u0131 ifad\u0259si idi.<\/p>\n

Hans-Ulrix Humbrextin fikridir: “Tarixi n\u00f6qteyi-n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7mi\u015f adland\u0131r\u0131lan \u015fey-bizim arxada qoydu\u011fumuzun \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fcd\u00fcr, o \u015feydir ki, \u0130ndi il\u0259 k\u0259si\u015fmir, ona m\u00fcdaxil\u0259 etmir v\u0259 m\u0259hz bu \u015f\u0259rt daxilind\u0259, bilik kimi istifad\u0259 oluna bilir, o \u015feydir ki, obyektiv t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259 m\u0259x\u0259zi t\u0259k ona \u0259saslan\u0131b, \u0130ndi, bu d\u0259m G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 y\u00f6n\u0259li q\u0259rarlar verir, f\u0259aliyy\u0259timizi qururuq”. Dem\u0259li, “b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z boyu bizim “indi”d\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259yimiz yoxdur” (Artur \u015eopenhauer). Amma bu g\u00fcnk\u00fc “indi” sabah \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259k (ke\u00e7mi\u015f el\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259dir) v\u0259 bizd\u0259n ya\u015fanan bu g\u00fcn-indi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn hesabat sorulacaq. Ya\u015far Qarayev tarixin indi adlanan zaman k\u0259simind\u0259n d\u00fcn\u0259nin\u0259, uzaq ke\u00e7mi\u015fin\u0259 rakurs etdi. “…q\u0259dimd\u0259n indiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r, mifd\u0259n, folklordan m\u00fcasir g\u00fcnl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r Az\u0259rbaycan xalq\u0131 d\u00fcnya \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii fikrin\u0259 hans\u0131 yenilikl\u0259ri g\u0259tirib, hans\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259vi, \u0259xlaqi, b\u0259dii d\u0259y\u0259r v\u0259 s\u0259rv\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259 onu z\u0259nginl\u0259\u015fdirib?” kimi suallara cavab aramaq m\u0259qs\u0259di il\u0259 b\u0259dii-m\u0259d\u0259ni ke\u00e7mi\u015fimizin b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00f6vrl\u0259rini t\u0259dqiqat obyektin\u0259 \u00e7evirdi. Tarix yaln\u0131z yadda\u015fa v\u0259 idraka \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259nd\u0259 (yaln\u0131z onda!) \u015f\u00fcuru manqurtluqdan, sklerozdan xilas etm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olur, “\u0259razinin b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fcy\u00fc d\u0259, h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l, yadda\u015f\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fc, q\u0259dimliyi v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fcy\u00fc il\u0259 qorunur”. Ya\u015far Qarayevin yarad\u0131c\u0131 milli d\u00fchas\u0131nda zaman k\u00f6k\u00fcn\u0259 v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 boylanaraq dild\u0259 da\u015fla\u015fan v\u0259 yadda\u015fla\u015fan tarix\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fc. 1990-c\u0131 ill\u0259rin xaotik prosesl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131n qalm\u0131\u015f humanitar elm\u0259 Ya\u015faq Qarayevin g\u0259tirdiyi yeni konsepsiya – Yadda\u015f konsepsiyas\u0131 bir sill\u0259 kimi s\u0259sl\u0259ndi, alim ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za a\u00e7\u0131lan b\u00fct\u00fcn f\u0259ci v\u0259 g\u0259rgin olaylar\u0131n n\u0259d\u0259nini yadda\u015fs\u0131zl\u0131q, yadda\u015fdan m\u0259hrumluqla \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259ndirib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu kimi nicat\u0131 da el\u0259 ona – yadda\u015fa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Ya\u015far Qarayev 1990-c\u0131 ill\u0259rin ayd\u0131nlanan \u0259d\u0259bi m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259 m\u0259fkur\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 konseptual yana\u015fan azsayl\u0131 aliml\u0259rd\u0259n oldu. Onun \u018fli b\u0259y H\u00fcseynzad\u0259nin, \u018fhm\u0259d Cavad\u0131n, H\u00fcseyn Cavidin, M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d Hadinin, C\u0259f\u0259r Cabbarl\u0131n\u0131n yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na yana\u015fmada s\u0259rgil\u0259diyi m\u00fcnasib\u0259t bu bax\u0131mdan \u00e7ox d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcd\u00fcr. T\u0259hlill\u0259rind\u0259 k\u00f6kl\u0259ndiyi m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r ancaq bu \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259tl\u0259rin yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 v\u0259t\u0259n, h\u00fcrr duy\u011fular\u0131, m\u0259fkur\u0259y\u0259 xidm\u0259tin \u00e7alarlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xartmaq olmu\u015fdur. Bu, Ya\u015far Qarayevin h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 b\u0259l\u0259dliyinin, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bunlar\u0131 sovet d\u00f6vr\u00fcnd\u0259 bilib, i\u00e7ind\u0259 b\u0259sl\u0259m\u0259 narahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259tic\u0259si idi. D\u00f6vr\u00fcn ruporuna \u00e7evrilib ad\u0131 ke\u00e7\u0259n \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 iftira atmaq, onlar\u0131 az qala “d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n” c\u0259bh\u0259sind\u0259n d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndirm\u0259k onluq deyildi. \u018fksin\u0259, \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u015f\u00fcnas alim Tehran \u018fli\u015fano\u011flunun dediyi kimi, “Ya\u015far Qarayev \u00f6zg\u0259 bir yol – z\u0259man\u0259nin i\u00e7ind\u0259 olub, onunla m\u00fccadil\u0259 yolunu tutdu”. Sovet d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fcn ir\u0259li s\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc “materialist”, “idealist”, “m\u00fcrt\u0259ce” kimi anlay\u0131\u015flar\u0131n ac\u0131 t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259sini g\u00f6r\u0259n alim, \u0259ks q\u00fctbd\u0259 dayan\u0131b zaman\u0131 b\u00fct\u00f6v m\u00fcst\u0259vid\u0259 alma\u011f\u0131n z\u0259ruriliyini daha vacib bildi: “\u018fg\u0259r Zaman-tarixi v\u0259 estetik \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcd\u0259rkin fakt\u0131na v\u0259 hadis\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evrilmirs\u0259, dem\u0259k, idrakla v\u0259 yadda\u015fla Zaman aras\u0131nda t\u0259mas ba\u015f vermir”. Bu m\u0259nada, d\u00f6vr d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259n kimi onun m\u00fcst\u0259qillik iqlimin\u0259 asan oturu\u015fu t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb do\u011furmur. H\u0259m d\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259kild\u0259: Ya\u015far Qarayev az zaman k\u0259simind\u0259 \u018flib\u0259y\u015f\u00fcnas, Cavad\u015f\u00fcnas, Hadi\u015f\u00fcnas olaraq \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 meydana. Sovet rejiminin buxovunda deyil\u0259 bilinm\u0259y\u0259n \u0259d\u0259bi-estetik hadis\u0259l\u0259r Ya\u015far Qarayevin t\u0259fsirind\u0259 obyektiv elmi-n\u0259z\u0259ri qiym\u0259tini, akademik \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc tapd\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, poetik siql\u0259t, milli oyan\u0131\u015f v\u0259 m\u0259fkur\u0259 ideyalar\u0131n\u0131n dol\u011funlu\u011fu bax\u0131m\u0131ndan f\u0259rqli proses olan M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d Hadi yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 Ya\u015far Qarayev \u0259d\u0259bi-tarixi gedi\u015fat\u0131n \u00f6z inki\u015faf m\u0259ntiqind\u0259n do\u011fan ger\u00e7\u0259klik adland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 haql\u0131 olaraq, Hadi romantizminin m\u0259n\u015f\u0259yini t\u00fcrk romantizmin\u0259 ba\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131: “XIX-XX y\u00fczill\u0259rin b\u00f6y\u00fck T\u00fcrk romantizmini \u018fbd\u00fclh\u0259q Hamid, Namik Kamal, Mahmud \u018fkr\u0259m, Tofiq Fikr\u0259t, \u018fli b\u0259y H\u00fcseynzad\u0259, M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d Hadi, H\u00fcseyn Cavid, Abbas S\u0259hh\u0259t, Abdulla \u015eaiq, Divanb\u0259yo\u011flu… dem\u0259k olar ki, birlikd\u0259 yaratm\u0131\u015flar. M\u0259hz onlar\u0131n bir s\u0259n\u0259tkar, ideoloq v\u0259 m\u00fct\u0259f\u0259kkir xidm\u0259tind\u0259n (h\u00fcn\u0259rind\u0259n!) d\u00fcnya romantizminin Q\u0259rbd\u0259n v\u0259 Rusiyadan (M.Y.Lermontov) sonra ikinci klassik intibah\u0131 Asiya-\u0130slam, \u015e\u0259rq dal\u011fas\u0131 yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r”.<\/p>\n

Yaxud “Cavid kimi Hadinin d\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259ni Az\u0259rbaycan, milliyy\u0259ti t\u00fcrk, zehniyy\u0259ti islam v\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcf olub… T\u0259sad\u00fcfi deyil ki, \u00f6z v\u0259t\u0259nl\u0259rind\u0259 Hadi v\u0259 Cavid uzun ill\u0259r qada\u011fan olunmu\u015f \u015fairl\u0259r s\u0131ras\u0131na m\u0259hz “pant\u00fcrkist” v\u0259 “panislamist” dam\u011falar\u0131 il\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r…”, – kimi fikirl\u0259rl\u0259 \u0259srin h\u0259qiqi varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na ayna tutur, ger\u00e7\u0259k \u0259d\u0259biyyat ruhunu ifad\u0259 edirdi.<\/p>\n

Tarix n\u0259inki “m\u00fc\u0259llim olmaqdan qal\u0131r”(Alber Kamyu), \u0259ksin\u0259 ondan d\u0259rs g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 bu d\u0259rsi d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 t\u0259krar etmi\u015f olur. H\u0259r halda XX \u0259srin \u0259vv\u0259li v\u0259 sonu aras\u0131nda harmoniya, hadis\u0259 v\u0259 prosesl\u0259rin adekvat s\u0259sl\u0259ni\u015fi v\u0259 ox\u015far t\u0259zah\u00fcr\u00fc s\u00fcbut etdi ki, tarixd\u0259n he\u00e7 k\u0259sin he\u00e7 bir d\u0259rs g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259m\u0259si bizi ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015flar\u0131 bir d\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011fa, g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ri bir d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 vadar edir. V\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 bir halda ki, tarixin d\u0259rsl\u0259rind\u0259n ibr\u0259t g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00fcnahkar zaman yox, \u015f\u00fcur olur, o zaman \u015f\u00fcuru naqis stixiyadan, yad d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259d\u0259n v\u0259 s\u00f6n\u00fck t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcrd\u0259n t\u0259mizl\u0259m\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Ya\u015far Qarayev \u0259sasland\u0131rd\u0131 ki, indi t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcrd\u0259 m\u0259hz bel\u0259 katarsis i\u015fin\u0259 ehtiyac var, milli ruhun yenid\u0259n b\u0259rq\u0259rar olmas\u0131, milli \u015f\u00fcurun, yadda\u015f kultunun dir\u00e7\u0259ldilm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn elmi konsepsiyalar, doktrinalar, t\u0259liml\u0259r i\u015fl\u0259nib haz\u0131rlamaq zaman\u0131n t\u0259l\u0259bidir. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onun meyara \u00e7evirdiyi \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n biri \u018fli b\u0259y H\u00fcseynzad\u0259nin \u00e7oxy\u00f6nl\u00fc yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 oldu. 1994-c\u00fc ild\u0259 “K\u00f6k\u00fcn\u0259 v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 boylanan yadda\u015f – \u018fli b\u0259y H\u00fcseynzad\u0259” m\u0259qal\u0259sind\u0259 yaz\u0131rd\u0131 ki, “1998-ci ild\u0259 “Siyas\u0259ti-f\u00fcrus\u0259t”in 90 illiyini bir yubiley kimi qeyd etm\u0259k olar. Lakin bu “doxsan il” “Siyas\u0259ti-f\u00fcrus\u0259t” \u0259traf\u0131nda s\u00fckutun doxsan ilidir”.<\/p>\n

B\u0259li, doxsan illik s\u00fckut buzunu q\u0131rmaq, vulqar sosioloji \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u015f\u00fcnasl\u0131q yana\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131, rejimin if\u015fa v\u0259 l\u0259n\u0259t kompaniyas\u0131n\u0131 yerl\u0259 yeksan edib meydana ger\u00e7\u0259k bir \u018fli b\u0259y H\u00fcseynzad\u0259 obraz\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xarmaq o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 asan m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 deyildi. \u00c7\u00fcnki \u018fli b\u0259yin ifad\u0259 v\u0259 t\u0259msil etdiyi \u0259d\u0259bi missiyan\u0131n y\u00fck\u00fc a\u011f\u0131r idi, bunu etiraf etm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin oldu\u011fu kimi, h\u0259zm edilm\u0259si m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si d\u0259 vard\u0131. Bax\u0131n, Ya\u015far Qarayev bu dahinin – b\u00f6y\u00fck ideoloq, miqyasl\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 sahibi, milli m\u0259fkur\u0259 adam\u0131 olan \u018fli b\u0259yin xidm\u0259tini nec\u0259 d\u00fcr\u00fcst ifad\u0259 edir: “Bayra\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdak\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 r\u0259ngin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 r\u0259ssam\u0131 \u018fli b\u0259ydir. Milli gerbimizd\u0259ki boya simvolikas\u0131 da onun “t\u00fcrkl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k, islamla\u015fmaq, avropala\u015fmaq” – d\u00fcsturunun r\u0259ngd\u0259 ifad\u0259sind\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey deyildir. \u015e\u00fcbh\u0259siz, s\u00f6hb\u0259t yaln\u0131z boyadan v\u0259 k\u0259tandan getmir, h\u0259m d\u0259 t\u0259m\u0259ld\u0259n, b\u00fcn\u00f6vr\u0259 da\u015f\u0131ndan, d\u0259mir \u00f6z\u00fcld\u0259n gedir: \u018fli b\u0259y Az\u0259rbaycanda yox, b\u00fct\u00fcn t\u00fcrkl\u00fck miqyas\u0131nda q\u00f6vmi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcd\u0259rkin, istiqlal d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259sinin t\u0259kc\u0259 r\u0259ssam\u0131 deyil, h\u0259m d\u0259 memar\u0131d\u0131r… M\u0259hz bu m\u0259nada n\u0259inki M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d \u018fmin v\u0259 N\u0259riman N\u0259rimanov, \u00fcst\u0259lik, Ziya G\u00f6yalp v\u0259 Kamal Atat\u00fcrk d\u0259 \u018fli b\u0259y H\u00fcseynzad\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015flay\u0131r”.<\/p>\n

\u018fli b\u0259y H\u00fcseynzad\u0259 Ya\u015far Qarayevin m\u00fcst\u0259qillik ill\u0259rind\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259, geni\u015f b\u0259hs etdiyi \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n olmu\u015fdur. X\u00fcsusil\u0259 onun erm\u0259nil\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 g\u00fcz\u0259\u015ftsiz milli m\u00f6vqe s\u0259rgil\u0259m\u0259si, b\u00fct\u00fcn istiqam\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259 b\u00fct\u00f6v, qay\u0259li v\u0259 konseptual xidm\u0259ti ustad \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u015f\u00fcnas\u0131n n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n yay\u0131nmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, \u018fli b\u0259y H\u00fcseynzad\u0259nin erm\u0259ni m\u0259krinin tarixin\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259t bar\u0259d\u0259 indi d\u0259 \u00f6z n\u0259z\u0259ri v\u0259 metodoloji \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tini qoruyub hifz ed\u0259n m\u00fcdrik m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 bigan\u0259 yana\u015fmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. M\u0259ntiq, a\u011f\u0131l, rasional yana\u015fma, tarixi faktlara istinad\u0259n \u0259sasl\u0131 d\u0259lill\u0259rl\u0259 meydana \u00e7\u0131xmaq \u018fli b\u0259yin t\u0259krars\u0131z \u00fcslubunun \u0259sas \u00e7alarlar\u0131 idi. Unudulmaz \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u015f\u00fcnas alim Ya\u015far Qarayev haql\u0131 olaraq yaz\u0131rd\u0131 ki, “1905-1918-ci ill\u0259rd\u0259 t\u00fcrk \u0259leyhin\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259n milli q\u0131r\u011f\u0131n v\u0259 genosid aktlar\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259hlilind\u0259n \u018fli b\u0259yin irsi yarand\u0131. 1937, 1948-52, 1988-95-ci il hadis\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 is\u0259 siyasi-ideoloji reaksiya kimi bu sanbalda v\u0259 siql\u0259td\u0259 \u0259d\u0259bi v\u0259 f\u0259ls\u0259fi-irs yaranmad\u0131. Odur ki, Qafqazda v\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycanda real ger\u00e7\u0259klikd\u0259 v\u0259 ideologiyada erm\u0259ni genosidinin mahiyy\u0259tin\u0259 v\u0259 \u0259n\u0259n\u0259sin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7evrilmi\u015f \u018fli b\u0259y irsini \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k V\u0259t\u0259nimizd\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259n m\u00fcasir eksponizmin d\u0259 psixologiyas\u0131n\u0131, ideya qaynaqlar\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 tarixi k\u00f6kl\u0259rini \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k dem\u0259kdir”.<\/p>\n

B\u00f6y\u00fck alman filosofu Hegel\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 “m\u00fctl\u0259q ideya” \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dind\u0259n v\u0259 f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259d\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l s\u0259n\u0259td\u0259 d\u0259rk edir. \u0130ctimai \u015f\u00fcur \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259td\u0259n g\u00fcc al\u0131r. S\u0259n\u0259tin n\u0259yi t\u0259lqin edib-etm\u0259m\u0259sinin \u015f\u00fcura b\u00f6y\u00fck v\u0259 \u0259v\u0259zsiz t\u0259siri var. B\u0259dii-estetik d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259nin, onun elmi-t\u0259nqidi d\u0259rkinin meyarlar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259sasl\u0131 t\u0259b\u0259dd\u00fclata m\u0259ruz qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ke\u00e7id d\u00f6vr\u00fc kimi xarakteriz\u0259 olunan 90-c\u0131 ill\u0259rd\u0259 Ya\u015far Qarayevin t\u0259lqin etdiyi konsepsiyan\u0131n keyfiyy\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259ricil\u0259ri elmi-n\u0259z\u0259ri fikrin potensial imkanlar\u0131n\u0131n real v\u0259 \u0259yani t\u0259zah\u00fcr\u00fc, ondak\u0131 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin, yeni elmi-estetik \u0259m\u0259ld\u0259 dir\u00e7\u0259li\u015fin t\u0259sdiqi kimi m\u0259nalana bildi. O, b\u00f6y\u00fck bir imperiyan\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n \u015fa\u015f\u0131ran \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u015f\u00fcnasl\u0131q elminin s\u00fctunlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6km\u0259sin\u0259 imkan verm\u0259di. \u00c7iyinl\u0259rini \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fckl\u0259r alt\u0131na verm\u0259yin sizif \u0259zab\u0131 is\u0259 onunla sonucland\u0131 ki, bizd\u0259 h\u0259m milli b\u0259dii t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259nin imkanlar\u0131na, h\u0259m d\u0259 bu t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259ni \u00fcmumil\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n milli elmi-n\u0259z\u0259ri fikrin q\u0259na\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259, m\u00fchakim\u0259 tutumlulu\u011funa inams\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 aradan qald\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259k Ya\u015far Qarayev ad\u0131 kifay\u0259t etdi.<\/p>\n

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G\u00fcnel Natiq<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"H\u0259ssas<\/p>\n

\u015eu\u015fadan sonra<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

\u015eu\u015fadan sonra \u00e7ox sular axd\u0131,
\namma o an\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 yadda\u015f\u0131mdan silinm\u0259di.
\n\u201c\u015eu\u015fa getdi\u201d dey\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259
\nt\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb v\u0259 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259 baxma\u011f\u0131m\u0131,
\n\u201cb\u0259lk\u0259 yaland\u0131\u201d dey\u0259 israrla g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259yimi
\nv\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kilib
\nx\u0131s\u0131n-x\u0131s\u0131n a\u011flama\u011f\u0131m\u0131 unutmad\u0131m…<\/p>\n

\u015eu\u015fadan sonra \u00e7ox \u015fey\u0259 inanmad\u0131m.
\nM\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, M\u0259likm\u0259mm\u0259din quyudan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b
\ndevl\u0259rin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259s\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259,
\ng\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131zlar\u0131 \u0259b\u0259di xo\u015fb\u0259xt ed\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259…<\/p>\n

\u015eu\u015fadan sonra \u00e7ox \u015fey\u0259 inand\u0131m.
\nQaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir gec\u0259 yuxumu yar\u0131b
\n\u201c\u0259zizini apar\u0131ram\u201d dey\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259
\nv\u0259 m\u0259nim o g\u00fcn\u00fc
\nd\u0259h\u015f\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259diyim\u0259…<\/p>\n

\u015eu\u015fadan sonra \u00e7ox sular axd\u0131,
\namma m\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u0259 o an\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259dim \u2014
\n\u015eu\u015fan\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259diyim kimi,
\nd\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n balam\u0131,
\nd\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259n \u0259zizimi
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259diyim kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259dim.<\/p>\n

V\u0259 indi \u2014 \u015eu\u015fadan sonra \u2014
\n\u00e7ox \u015fey\u0259 inan\u0131ram:
\ns\u0259n\u0259 \u0259ziz olanlar\u0131n
\ns\u0259ni he\u00e7 vaxt t\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259.
\nD\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u0259nin d\u0259,
\nd\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259n \u0259zizinin d\u0259
\nbir g\u00fcn
\n\u201cm\u0259n g\u0259ldim\u201d deyib
\ns\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131laca\u011f\u0131na…<\/p>\n

\u015eeir haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

\u015eeir haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n
\nNaz\u0131m Hikmet g\u0259lir a\u011fl\u0131ma
\nonun b\u0259yaz \u00fcmidl\u0259ri,
\nb\u0259yaz k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259ri.<\/p>\n

K\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259ri d\u0259 \u00fcmidl\u0259ri kimi
\nb\u0259yaz v\u0259 m\u0259sum.
\nEl\u0259 bil k\u0259d\u0259rinin \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259
\nbir \u015feirdir.<\/p>\n

\u015eeir haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n
\no k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259r g\u0259lir a\u011fl\u0131ma
\nayr\u0131l\u0131qlarla \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc
\nqapal\u0131 Bursa Prison…<\/p>\n

V\u0259 azad ruhlu bir \u015fair
\nh\u0259bsxana divarlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda
\n\u00fcmidl\u0259 krujeva toxuyur.<\/p>\n

\u015eeir haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n
\no \u00fcmid g\u0259lir a\u011fl\u0131ma
\no krujevalarla
\nh\u0259yatlar\u0131na sevgi toxuyan insanlar.<\/p>\n

\u015eeir haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n
\no sevgi g\u0259lir a\u011fl\u0131ma.<\/p>\n

Naz\u0131m Hikm\u0259tin k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259rinin i\u00e7ind\u0259
\nyenid\u0259n do\u011fulan sevgi,
\nv\u0259 o sevgid\u0259n do\u011fulan insanlar…<\/p>\n

Krujevalarla sevgi toxuyan,
\nk\u0259d\u0259rin i\u00e7ind\u0259n
\nyeni insan kimi do\u011fulan,
\nh\u0259yata sevinc toxuyan insanlar.<\/p>\n

\u015eeir haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n
\nm\u0259hz onlar g\u0259lir a\u011fl\u0131ma
\no insanlar,
\no k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259r,
\no sevincl\u0259r
\nv\u0259 o sevgi.
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Zemfira M\u018fH\u018fRR\u018fML\u0130<\/b><\/i><\/span><\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131-publisist<\/i><\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

\"He\u00e7<\/p>\n

\u0130mran h\u0259bsxana h\u0259yat\u0131na yenic\u0259 \u0259lvida demi\u015fdi. Q\u0259rib \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 h\u00fcnd\u00fcr “t\u00fcrm\u0259” divarlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ill\u0259r, \u00f6l\u00fcm-z\u00fcl\u00fcml\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, ba\u015fa \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 \u015f\u0259xsi h\u0259yat\u0131, \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 dolanan ata-anas\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ki\u00e7ik bac\u0131-qarda\u015f\u0131, dostlar\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k imkan\u0131 olmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

G\u0259ncliyi \u00e7ox tez \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7m\u0259kd\u0259ydi. Sa\u00e7\u0131na d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f,\u00a0 \u0259vv\u0259lki h\u0259yat e\u015fqi\u00a0 yoxa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sevdiyi q\u0131z\u0131 da tez-tez xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. Xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131 dey\u0259nd\u0259, \u0259slind\u0259, onu yad etm\u0259diyi g\u00fcn yox idi. Amma \u00e7ifayda, g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sin\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/p>\n

… \u0130ndi is\u0259 qohum-\u0259qr\u0259ba, qonum-qon\u015fu, dostlar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na c\u0259m olmu\u015fdu. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n h\u0259r k\u0259s ona “Ki\u015finin ba\u015f\u0131na i\u015f g\u0259l\u0259r, ke\u00e7mi\u015f olsun” deyirdi.<\/p>\n

Yem\u0259k masas\u0131\u00a0bo\u015falm\u0131\u015f, \u00e7ay s\u00fcfr\u0259sin\u0259 is\u0259\u00a0 \u0259n yax\u0131nlar\u0131 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 sor\u011fu-sual\u00a0da bundan sonra ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Vaxtil\u0259 bir sinifd\u0259 oxudu\u011fu K\u0259rim:<\/p>\n

– G\u00f6r ne\u00e7\u0259 ilin h\u0259bsd\u0259 ke\u00e7di. O b\u0259db\u0259xt o\u011flu b\u0259db\u0259xt hardan yolunun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131?!\u00a0 \u018fsg\u0259rlikd\u0259ki o\u011flan\u0131 deyir\u0259m ee…<\/p>\n

\u0130mran\u0131n\u00a0 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n v\u00fccudu titr\u0259di, k\u0259d\u0259r dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rini onunla qabaq-q\u0259n\u015f\u0259r oturmu\u015f ki\u015fil\u0259rin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 zill\u0259di. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r susdu, sonra bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ona matd\u0131m-matd\u0131m baxan insanlardan yay\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131b qeyri-m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n istiqam\u0259t\u0259 tu\u015flad\u0131. Beynind\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q, k\u0259l\u0259fi dola\u015f\u0131q d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n fikirl\u0259r vard\u0131 ki… Ac\u0131l\u0131-\u015firinli xatir\u0259l\u0259r sanki ayaq tutub yeriyir, x\u0259yal k\u00f6hl\u0259ni d\u00f6rdnala \u00e7ap\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

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Be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nda ik\u0259n ail\u0259l\u0259ri axar-baxarl\u0131 yurd yerind\u0259n Bakiya k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Atas\u0131n\u0131n i\u015fi il\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u0131 bu q\u0259rar\u0131 vermi\u015fdil\u0259r. \u00dc\u00e7u\u015faql\u0131 ail\u0259nin ilki idi \u0130mran. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r sonra m\u0259kt\u0259b zaman\u0131 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. \u0130nsaf\u0259n d\u0259rsl\u0259rini yax\u015f\u0131 oxuyurdu, m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rinin sevimlisiydi. Ona d\u0259rs dey\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259, valideynl\u0259ri d\u0259 bu f\u0259ras\u0259tli o\u011flan\u0131n ali m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259\u00a0 q\u0259bul olunaca\u011f\u0131na \u00fcmid edir, \u0259sl insan kimi yeti\u015f\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 inan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yay aylar\u0131nda Novxan\u0131dak\u0131 ba\u011flar\u0131na k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr, d\u0259niz k\u0259nar\u0131ndak\u0131 bu xudmani ya\u015f\u0131l m\u0259kandan geri d\u00f6nm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdil\u0259r. Bac\u0131-qarda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 birg\u0259 ata-anas\u0131na yalvar\u0131b ba\u011fda bir az da qalmalar\u0131n\u0131 xahi\u015f edirdil\u0259r. U\u015faql\u0131q xatir\u0259l\u0259ri bu ba\u011fdan ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. Qon\u015fu ba\u011fdak\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131dlar\u0131 il\u0259 dostla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. \u0130ki d\u0259st\u0259y\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcb, sapsar\u0131, k\u0259hr\u0259bat\u0259k qumun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 topald\u0131qa\u00e7 oynay\u0131r, uduzanda m\u0259yus olur, s\u0259s-k\u00fcyl\u0259ri al\u0259mi ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 quyudan vedr\u0259 il\u0259 su \u00e7\u0259kir, sal da\u015f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259l-ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 yuyurdular. Bu di\u015fg\u00f6yn\u0259d\u0259n sudan doyunca i\u00e7ir, vedr\u0259d\u0259n ovuclay\u0131b bir-birinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 at\u0131rd\u0131lar. Qa\u015f qaralanda is\u0259 ba\u011f evl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259r, bug\u00fcnk\u00fc s\u0259rg\u00fcz\u0259\u015ftl\u0259rind\u0259n a\u011f\u0131zdolusu dan\u0131\u015far, g\u00fclm\u0259kd\u0259n u\u011funub ged\u0259rdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

R\u00fcf\u0259tl\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fc-s\u00f6hb\u0259ti tuturdu. Onunla h\u0259r\u00a0 m\u00f6vzuda dan\u0131\u015fmaq, fikir b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn idi. R\u00fcf\u0259tin anas\u0131 Tahir\u0259 xala \u0130mran\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 onu \u00f6z balas\u0131 kimi dindirib dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, ev\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t edir, u\u015faqlara \u00e7ay s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. R\u00fcf\u0259t, dostuna b\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z avtomobili il\u0259 q\u0259za t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyini, vurdu\u011fu piyadan\u0131n h\u0259lak oldu\u011funu n\u0259ql etmi\u015fdi. \u0130mran onun\u00a0 bu \u00fczd\u0259n h\u0259bsxanada c\u0259za \u00e7\u0259km\u0259sini \u00e7ox a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

R\u00fcf\u0259tgil atalar\u0131n\u0131 erk\u0259n itirmi\u015f, evin b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 analar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Tahir\u0259 xala he\u00e7 yerd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, x\u0131rda al\u0131\u015f-veri\u015fl\u0259 evi doland\u0131r\u0131r, ail\u0259sini korluq \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 qoymurdu.<\/p>\n

Ail\u0259nin yegan\u0259 q\u0131z \u00f6vlad\u0131 Sevinc R\u00fcf\u0259tin \u0259kiz tay\u0131 idi. \u0130mranla da ya\u015f\u0131d olan bu qon\u015fu q\u0131z onuncu sinifd\u0259 oxuyurdu. \u015eux qam\u0259ti, g\u00fcl\u0259rk\u0259n yanaqlar\u0131nda sezil\u0259n ki\u00e7icik \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259kl\u0259r, iri qara g\u00f6zl\u0259ri, tuta\u015f kirpikl\u0259ri ona x\u00fcsusi g\u00f6z\u0259llik verirdi. Asta dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131 \u0259d\u0259bl\u0259, s\u0259brl\u0259 dinl\u0259m\u0259si, m\u00fctali\u0259y\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259si onu ya\u015f\u0131dlar\u0131ndan \u00e7ox f\u0259rql\u0259ndirirdi.<\/p>\n

Sevinc a\u00e7\u0131q-\u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcll\u0259rin l\u0259\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rini siniy\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b qay\u00e7\u0131yla x\u0131rdalayaraq ar\u0131tlay\u0131rd\u0131. Bak\u0131 k\u0259ndl\u0259rind\u0259 “h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259bahar” adland\u0131r\u0131lan bu q\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcl\u00fcn l\u0259\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259n m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259 bi\u015fir\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. Tahir\u0259 xala h\u0259min g\u00fcn u\u015faqlar\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259fr\u0259ngid\u0259 \u00e7aya qonaq el\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u0130mran \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259traf\u0131 ba\u011flar\u0131n yara\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 say\u0131lan bu h\u00fcnd\u00fcr, yel\u00e7\u0259k\u0259n gu\u015f\u0259d\u0259 var-g\u0259l edib s\u0259rinl\u0259yir, \u0259n yuxar\u0131 pill\u0259d\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 boylan\u0131b Sevinci g\u00f6zd\u0259n qoymurdu. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t idi ki, qon\u015fu q\u0131za b\u0259sl\u0259diyi m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 yuva qurmu\u015fdu. \u0130mran\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan duyuq d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n\u00a0 yanaqlar\u0131 allan\u0131r, o\u011flan\u0131, ani d\u0259 olsa, g\u00f6zalt\u0131 s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Anas\u0131\u00a0ba\u011fdan d\u0259rdiyi\u00a0gil\u0259nar\u0131 bo\u015fqaba y\u0131\u011f\u0131b Sevinc\u0259 verdi:<\/p>\n

– K\u00fcl\u0259fr\u0259ngiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x, n\u00fcbar pay\u0131 u\u015faqlara ver, q\u0131z\u0131m, – dedi.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z azca duruxdu. Sonra anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yer\u0259 salmay\u0131b, bo\u015fqab\u0131 ondan alaraq pill\u0259l\u0259ri qalxd\u0131. Qon\u015fu K\u0259r\u0259m day\u0131n\u0131n o\u011fluyla n\u0259rd oynayan R\u00fcf\u0259tin s\u0259s-k\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n qulaq tutulurdu. Sevinc \u0259n yuxar\u0131 pill\u0259d\u0259 \u0130mranla \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Bir an bax\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. \u0130lk a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259ni dil\u0259 g\u0259tirdi:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n, Sevinc. Nec\u0259 olub ki, h\u0259r yay s\u0259ni g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259 bunu anlaya bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m…<\/p>\n

Yanaqlar\u0131 gil\u0259nar r\u0259ngin\u0259 \u00e7alan q\u0131z h\u0259y\u0259candan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 itirmi\u015fdi ki… \u018flind\u0259ki bo\u015fqab\u0131 tezc\u0259 \u0130mrana verib, bir g\u00f6z q\u0131rp\u0131m\u0131nda a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 endi. Anas\u0131 onun hal\u0259tini duymas\u0131n dey\u0259, meyv\u0259 a\u011faclar\u0131n\u0131n yamya\u015f\u0131l \u00e7\u0259tirind\u0259 g\u00f6zd\u0259n itdi.<\/p>\n


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\u0130ndi a\u015fkar dinm\u0259kd\u0259 olan m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t \u0130mran\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131na bir az \u00f6nc\u0259 sakitc\u0259, s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Q\u0259bul imtahanlar\u0131na haz\u0131rla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir vaxtda bu sevgi onu hardan tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 bel\u0259?! Fikrini toplaya bilmir, ist\u0259klisinin yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259si h\u0259r an g\u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 canlan\u0131rd\u0131. Sevinci g\u00f6rm\u0259k, ona yetm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yollar aray\u0131rd\u0131. Bir g\u00fcn bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n telefon kitab\u00e7as\u0131nda bel\u0259 bir qeyd\u0259 rast g\u0259ldi: “Ba\u011f qon\u015fumuz Sevinc”. Gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0131zla indi dan\u0131\u015fa bil\u0259rdi. \u00dcr\u0259yi qu\u015f kimi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan \u0130mran ert\u0259si g\u00fcn Sevinc\u0259 z\u0259ng edib\u00a0 ona h\u0259r \u015feyi anlatm\u0131\u015f, “Yollar\u0131m\u0131z birl\u0259\u015f\u0259rs\u0259, qovu\u015fub xo\u015fb\u0259xt olar\u0131q!” demi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z is\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 susmu\u015f, sonra\u00a0titr\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

– Tanr\u0131\u00a0n\u0259 yaz\u0131bsa, o da olacaq, – demi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130mran d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc: “Dem\u0259li, sevgimiz qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ql\u0131d\u0131r. H\u0259r ikimiz ali m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyacaq, bir i\u015fin qulpundan yap\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131q. M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259timizi qoruyacaq, sonra ail\u0259 quraca\u011f\u0131q”. O q\u0259d\u0259r sevinirdi ki, h\u0259r \u015feyi anas\u0131na dan\u0131\u015fmaq, atas\u0131na bildirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

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G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, valideynl\u0259ri n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259kdi? \u00dcr\u0259k sirrini \u00f6nc\u0259 anas\u0131 Nafis\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Xo\u015f bir cavab alaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 z\u0259nn ets\u0259 d\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259diyinin \u0259ksini e\u015fitmi\u015fdi:<\/p>\n

– O\u011flum, \u0259vv\u0259la, s\u0259nin h\u0259l\u0259 n\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131nd\u0131, evl\u0259nm\u0259k e\u015fqin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259s\u0259n. – Anas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri az qala h\u0259d\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. – \u0130kincisi, m\u0259nd\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259t: Eli h\u00fcrk\u00fct, axsa\u011f\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015f!<\/p>\n

\u0130mran bu “n\u0259sih\u0259tl\u0259rin” m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 bir q\u0259d\u0259r sonra daha d\u0259rind\u0259n anlayacaqd\u0131. S\u0259n dem\u0259, Nafis\u0259nin\u00a0 \u0259ndi\u015f\u0259si bo\u015funa deyilmi\u015f. Anas\u0131n\u0131n bel\u0259 yana\u015fmas\u0131 q\u0259lbini q\u0131rsa da, fikirl\u0259\u015firdi ki, onun hirsi, hikk\u0259si tezlikl\u0259 ke\u00e7ib ged\u0259r. Vaxt g\u0259l\u0259r, \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6n\u00fcl m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259r. Heyhat!..<\/p>\n

Son z\u0259ng \u00e7al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, m\u0259zunlar m\u0259kt\u0259b ill\u0259riyl\u0259 vidala\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130mran s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rini Neft v\u0259 Kimya \u0130nstitutuna vermi\u015fdi. Sevinc is\u0259 Pedaqoji \u0130nstitutu se\u00e7mi\u015fdi, m\u00fc\u0259llim olmaq ist\u0259yi il\u0259\u00a0 q\u0259bul imtahanlar\u0131na haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Art\u0131q vaxt-v\u0259d\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Kitabxanadan ev\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b d\u0259rslikl\u0259rini bir daha v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259yirdi. Sevincgil\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259n Nafis\u0259nin gur s\u0259si bird\u0259n otaqlara yay\u0131ld\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Tahir\u0259, bu n\u0259dir, aaz, o\u011flumu tora sal\u0131bs\u0131n\u0131z?! Ke\u00e7m\u0259z bu arzu-kam\u0131n! \u00d6z k\u0259nd-k\u0259s\u0259yimd\u0259 q\u0131z q\u0259h\u0259tdir b\u0259y\u0259m?<\/p>\n

\u0130mran bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri e\u015fidib tez qon\u015fu ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di. \u018fsib-co\u015fan anas\u0131na ac\u0131ql\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259r sal\u0131b:<\/p>\n

– Ana, s\u0259n n\u0259 edirs\u0259n, ay\u0131bd\u0131r ax\u0131, – dey\u0259 bildi.<\/p>\n

Yer-g\u00f6y ba\u015f\u0131na f\u0131rland\u0131. Bu c\u00fcr t\u0259hqiramiz q\u0131na\u011fa m\u0259ruz qalan Sevincin hal\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Anas\u0131 iki cavan\u0131n sevgisini h\u0259zm ed\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu k\u00f6nt\u00f6y add\u0131m\u0131 atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u00a0 v\u0259 beynind\u0259 dola\u015fan fikirl\u0259ri o\u011fluna\u00a0 s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n usanm\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Qarda\u015f\u0131 “t\u00fcrem\u015fik” olan q\u0131z\u0131 ala bilm\u0259rik. Anas\u0131 alver\u00e7i olan q\u0131z da biz\u0259 he\u00e7 g\u0259r\u0259k deyil. O\u011fluma \u00f6z k\u0259ndimd\u0259n q\u0131z se\u00e7\u0259c\u0259m!<\/p>\n

Anas\u0131 il\u0259 s\u00f6z g\u00fcl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259yin m\u0259nas\u0131z oldu\u011funu h\u0259l\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131 k\u0259s\u0259nd\u0259n anlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 atas\u0131 Qadir ki\u015fi ona s\u00f6z \u00e7atd\u0131ra bilmirdi, o ki qala \u00f6vladlar\u0131. Bu h\u00f6kml\u00fc, \u0259dal\u0131 qad\u0131n ail\u0259d\u0259 s\u00f6z sahibi idi.<\/p>\n

Anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tind\u0259n q\u0259lbi q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, qa\u015f\u0131s\u0131al\u0131nmaz arzusunun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n qara x\u0259tt \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. \u0130mran evd\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 bildirm\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259rbi komissarl\u0131\u011fa ged\u0259r\u0259k \u0259riz\u0259 yaz\u0131b vaxt\u0131ndan \u0259vv\u0259l h\u0259qiqi h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259t\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rilm\u0259sini xahi\u015f etmi\u015f v\u0259 tezlikl\u0259 ordu s\u0131ralar\u0131na qo\u015fulmu\u015fdu. Yola d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l Sevinc\u0259 \u00fcnvanlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259ktubu bac\u0131s\u0131na verib ona \u00e7atd\u0131rma\u011f\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259ktubda\u00a0 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131: “M\u0259n orduya getdim. S\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m, Sevinc! M\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 inan\u0131ram”.<\/p>\n


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U\u015faql\u0131q dostu K\u0259rimin “N\u0259 yaman x\u0259yala dald\u0131n, ay \u0130mran”, – dem\u0259si il\u0259 sanki g\u00f6yd\u0259n yer\u0259 endi:<\/p>\n

– H\u0259\u0259, yerd\u0259 qalan\u0131n\u0131 is\u0259 az-\u00e7ox bilirsiniz, – dedi. – M\u00fcst\u0259qillik ill\u0259ri biz\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rli oldu. \u0130ndi cavanlar\u0131m\u0131z \u00f6z yurdumuzda, Milli Orduda xidm\u0259t edirl\u0259r. M\u0259nim \u0259sg\u0259rlik ill\u0259rim is\u0259 sovetin h\u0259l\u0259 duru\u015f g\u0259tirdiyi vaxtlara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Uzaq \u015e\u0259rqd\u0259, Usinsk \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259ki h\u0259rbi hss\u0259d\u0259 xidm\u0259t etmi\u015f\u0259m. B\u00f6l\u00fck komandiri idim. B\u00f6l\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259 G\u00fcrc\u00fcstan\u0131n Marneuli b\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259n S\u0259m\u0259d adl\u0131 b\u0259d\u0259nc\u0259 z\u0259if, \u00e7\u0259limsiz bir \u0259sg\u0259r d\u0259 qulluq edirdi. Qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q mill\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n olan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 “dembel”in-t\u0259rxis m\u00fcdd\u0259ti yax\u0131nla\u015fan \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rin S\u0259m\u0259di\u00a0 la\u011fa qoymas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, onlara t\u0259pinmi\u015fdim.<\/p>\n

Bir \u015faxtal\u0131 q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259si yenic\u0259 yuxuya getmi\u015fdim ki, S\u0259m\u0259d h\u0259y\u0259can i\u00e7ind\u0259 m\u0259ni silk\u0259l\u0259yib oyatd\u0131. Onun \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fc qan i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi. Dedi ki, m\u0259ni h\u0259min “dembel”l\u0259r d\u00f6y\u00fcbl\u0259r. H\u00f6vlnak yerimd\u0259n s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131b h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 “S\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 toxunma” dediyim yek\u0259p\u0259r \u0259sg\u0259rin yaxas\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015faraq ona nec\u0259 z\u0259rb\u0259 endirdims\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131 \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n tinin\u0259 d\u0259yib yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n ona a\u011f\u0131r b\u0259d\u0259n x\u0259sar\u0259ti\u00a0 yetirmi\u015fdim.<\/p>\n

Bu xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z hadis\u0259d\u0259n sonra m\u0259ni qaupvaxta sald\u0131lar. Qarl\u0131-\u00e7ov\u011funlu bir g\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u0259n saxland\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259bsxanaya\u00a0 g\u0259lmi\u015f ata-anam\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. N\u0259 hissl\u0259r ke\u00e7irdiyimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edin… \u018fll\u0259rimi don vurdu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259ni h\u0259rbi hospitala yerl\u0259\u015fdirdil\u0259r. Bar\u0259md\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan cinay\u0259t i\u015finin istintaq\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc ay idi ki, davam edirdi. Valideynl\u0259rim m\u0259n\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yen\u0259 Bak\u0131dan Usinsk\u0259, m\u00fcalic\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m hospitala\u00a0 g\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Bir g\u00fcn palatada dan\u0131\u015f\u0131q s\u0259sin\u0259 oyand\u0131m. Yar\u0131yuxulu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259\u00a0 idim. Anam sakit s\u0259sl\u0259 atamdan:<\/p>\n

– Ay Qadir, g\u00f6r\u0259n tan\u0131\u015f-bili\u015fd\u0259n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z borcun alt\u0131ndan nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131q – dey\u0259 soru\u015furdu. Sonra is\u0259:<\/p>\n

– D\u00fcn\u0259n \u0259rzaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda yol\u00fcst\u00fc bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ma\u011fazaya girdim. M\u00fcnasib qiym\u0259t\u0259 qad\u0131n paltarlar\u0131 al\u0131b \u015f\u0259h\u0259rimizd\u0259 bir az baha satsaq, borclar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rik. Ax\u0131, bizim d\u00fckanlarda bel\u0259 r\u0259ngar\u0259ng mallar yoxdur…<\/p>\n

Atam raz\u0131l\u0131q \u0259lam\u0259ti olaraq ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 ona cavab verdi. Ki\u015finin \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259n sanki da\u011f g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc. M\u0259nd\u0259n gizl\u0259ts\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, e\u015fitmi\u015fdim ki, atam\u0131n i\u015fl\u0259ri el\u0259 d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 deyil, ail\u0259d\u0259 dolan\u0131\u015f\u0131q \u00e7\u0259tinl\u0259\u015fib.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi yana\u015f\u0131 oturub p\u0131\u00e7-p\u0131\u00e7la dan\u0131\u015fan valideynl\u0259rim b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcman edirdil\u0259r ki, h\u0259l\u0259 yatm\u0131\u015fam. \u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc onlara \u00e7evirib hal-\u0259hval tutanda u\u015faq kimi sevindil\u0259r. Anam boynumu qucaqlay\u0131b:<\/p>\n

– Anan \u00f6ls\u00fcn, a\u00a0 bala, – deyib g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 saxlaya bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tir\u0259n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ba\u011fr\u0131ma basd\u0131m. Anam\u0131n sol\u011fun v\u0259 p\u0259jm\u00fcrd\u0259 g\u00f6rk\u0259mi vard\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259n\u00a0 olaylarda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcnahkar\u00a0 say\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bir h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259n sonra ke\u00e7iril\u0259n m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259 iclas\u0131nda m\u0259n\u0259 Rusiya qanunlar\u0131 il\u0259 h\u00f6km oxundu v\u0259 d\u00f6rd il h\u0259bs c\u0259zas\u0131 verildi. C\u0259za \u00e7\u0259kdiyim d\u00f6vrd\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259qiq\u0259tini – Allah\u0131 d\u0259rk etdim. Anlad\u0131m ki, uca Yaradan\u0131n h\u00f6km\u00fc olmadan he\u00e7 bir ist\u0259yimiz\u0259 yet\u0259 bilm\u0259z, mal, m\u00fclk, i\u015f, v\u0259zif\u0259 sahibi ola bilm\u0259rik. Amma anam n\u0259 vaxtsa n\u0259l\u0259r, n\u0259l\u0259r deyirdi… B\u0259s \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 n\u0259 oldu?<\/p>\n

Budur, z\u0259if bir insan\u0131 m\u00fcdafi\u0259 ed\u0259rk\u0259n \u0259limd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan x\u0259ta \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n\u00a0 ad\u0131ma “t\u00fcrem\u015fik” dam\u011fas\u0131 vurulan h\u0259bsxanadan ev\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. D\u0259miryolu va\u011fzal\u0131nda m\u0259ni ilk qar\u015f\u0131layan u\u015faql\u0131q dostum R\u00fcf\u0259t oldu. M\u0259nim n\u0259 vaxt qay\u0131daca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 atamdan \u00f6yr\u0259nibmi\u015f. \u0130ll\u0259rin ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan sonra do\u011fma qarda\u015ft\u0259k g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. \u0130ki o\u011ful atas\u0131 oldu\u011funu, Tahir\u0259 xalan\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r x\u0259st\u0259likd\u0259n sonra d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdiyini, bu g\u00fcn\u0259d\u0259k ail\u0259 qurmayan Sevincin is\u0259 anas\u0131ndan sonra qarda\u015f\u0131\u00a0 R\u00fcf\u0259t\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259ndim. Tale \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb, h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n \u0259n nisgilli sual\u0131na cavab alm\u0131\u015fam: O, h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yib!<\/p>\n

Ev\u0259 \u00e7atanda is\u0259 daha bir xo\u015f x\u0259b\u0259r\u0259 sevinmi\u015f\u0259m: bac\u0131m Sevincgilin k\u0259ndind\u0259n olan bir cavanla ail\u0259 qurub, o\u011ful-u\u015faq sahibidir. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar Allah\u0131n m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259si deyilmi?<\/p>\n

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S\u00fcdab\u0259 S\u0259rvi<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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“V\u0259t\u0259nin\u0259 g\u00f6z dik\u0259ni \u0259z o\u011flum, Tarixini \u015f\u0259r\u0259finl\u0259 yaz, o\u011flum!” (Serhat Kabakl\u0131)<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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O V\u018fT\u018fND\u0130, TORPAQ \u00dc\u00c7\u00dcN \u00d6L O\u011eLUM!<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Aslan igid babalar\u0131n s\u0259l\u0259fin,
\nD\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r torpaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bil, o\u011flum.
\nV\u0259t\u0259nindi g\u00f6z b\u0259b\u0259yin, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fin,
\n\u015e\u0259hidl\u0259rin qisas\u0131n\u0131 al o\u011flum!<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 t\u0259p\u0259r olsun h\u0259r zaman,
\nVur d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259ri anbaan.
\nQoy yox olsun yurd yerind\u0259n \u00e7\u0259n, duman.
\nBu torpa\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sil, o\u011flum!<\/p>\n

H\u00f6rm\u0259t el\u0259 qocaya, yol \u00f6t\u0259n\u0259,
\nYurd sevgisi \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 bit\u0259n\u0259.
\nPolad kimi M\u00fcbariz ol V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259,
\nXainl\u0259rin g\u00f6zl\u0259rini d\u0259l, o\u011flum!<\/p>\n

Q\u0259lbin ocaq, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 yurd yeri,
\nYadellinin bu torpaqda yox yeri!
\nHayd\u0131, qo\u00e7um, q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131m, dur yeri,
\nO V\u0259t\u0259ndi, torpaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6l, o\u011flum!
\nO V\u0259t\u0259ndi, torpaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6l, o\u011flum!!<\/p>\n

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S\u0259ni sevdim, n\u0259 qazand\u0131m,
\nT\u0259rk ets\u0259m, n\u0259 qazanacam?
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n el\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcn ki,
\n\u0130tirs\u0259m, n\u0259 qazanacam?<\/p>\n

Bir qocayam, \u0259ld\u0259 \u00e7\u0259lik,
\n\u00dcr\u0259k oldu \u00e7ilik-\u00e7ilik.
\nBu sevgini bird\u0259f\u0259lik,
\nBitirs\u0259m, n\u0259 qazanacam?<\/p>\n

S\u0259rvi dey\u0259r, yol s\u0259nindi,
\nHaqq-\u0259dal\u0259t g\u0259r\u0259yindi.
\nYer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yindi,
\nG\u00f6t\u00fcrs\u0259m, n\u0259 qazanacam?<\/p>\n

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G\u00fcnay Novruz<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"M\u0259n<\/div>\n
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\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00a0ki\u00e7ilsin<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Vaqif\u00a0S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flu\u00a0\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<\/em><\/div>\n
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\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00a0n\u0259\u00a0x\u0259b\u0259ri\u00a0var\u00a0m\u0259n\u00a0do\u011fulmu\u015fam,
\nB\u0259lk\u0259\u00a0\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc\u00a0aldad\u0131m\u00a0bel\u0259…
\nDeyim\u00a0ki,\u00a0ay,\u00a0\u00d6l\u00fcm,\u00a0bu\u00a0m\u0259n\u00a0deyil\u0259m,
\nDeyim\u00a0ki,\u00a0burax\u00a0gedim,\u00a0\u00f6l\u0259n\u00a0deyil\u0259m.
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00a0d\u0259\u00a0\u00e7a\u015f-ba\u015f\u00a0qal\u0131b,\u00a0dursun\u00a0qar\u015f\u0131mda
\nB\u0259lk\u0259\u00a0\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc\u00a0\u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00a0bel\u0259.
\n\u00d6ld\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00a0insanlar\u00a0daha\u00a0\u00f6lm\u0259sin,
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00a0ki\u00e7ilsin,\u00a0he\u00e7\u00a0b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259sin.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Ah\u00a0bu\u00a0\u00fcr\u0259yim<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Ah\u00a0bu\u00a0musiqil\u0259r,
\nH\u0259r\u00a0biri\u00a0q\u0131l\u0131nc\u00a0kimi.
\nK\u0259sir…\u00a0k\u0259sir\u00a0s\u0259ni.
\nAh\u00a0bu\u00a0g\u00f6zl\u0259rim…
\nQa\u00e7haqa\u00e7dad\u0131
\nG\u0259zir…\u00a0g\u0259zir\u00a0s\u0259ni.
\nAh\u00a0bu\u00a0can\u0131m…
\n\u00e7\u0131rp\u0131r\u00a0\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc\u00a0da\u015fa,\u00a0divara
\n\u018fzir…\u00a0\u0259zir\u00a0s\u0259ni.
\nAh\u00a0bu\u00a0\u00fcr\u0259yim…
\nd\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00a0h\u0259l\u0259
\nSevir…\u00a0sevir\u00a0s\u0259ni
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G\u00fclnar\u0259 C\u0259mal\u0259ddin<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"\u018fD\u018fB\u0130YYAT<\/p>\n

Biz\u0259 d\u0259 n\u00f6vb\u0259 \u00e7atacaq,
\nDar\u0131xma,k\u00f6n\u00fcl,dar\u0131xma.
\nD\u00fcnya bizi d\u0259 satacaq,
\nDar\u0131xma,k\u00f6n\u00fcl,dar\u0131xma.<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu fani al\u0259m,
\nD\u0259ymiy\u0259c\u0259k bir telin\u0259,
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 lap baha satacaq,
\nUcuzdan ucuz \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n xeyri, \u015f\u0259ri,
\nYoluna hardan \u00e7\u0131xacaq?
\nD\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n b\u0259d \u0259m\u0259li,
\nBa\u015f\u0131na hardan g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k?<\/p>\n

N\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n b\u0259xt \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259,
\nN\u0259 zaman,hardan g\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k?
\nD\u00fcnyan\u0131n t\u0259miz adam\u0131,
\nHans\u0131 \u0259c\u0259ln\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k?<\/p>\n

Ham\u0131 \u00f6z cismind\u0259 q\u0259rib,
\nHam\u0131 \u00f6z i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u0259sir.
\nBu d\u00fcnya \u015feytan t\u0259l\u0259si,
\nH\u0259r\u0259 bir n\u00f6yn\u0259n ili\u015fib.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r g\u00fcn i\u00e7imiz s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr,
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr,g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr.
\n\u0130nsan bir ucdan b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fcr,
\nA\u011f b\u0259l\u0259y\u0259,a\u011f k\u0259f\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 sirrs\u0259n,sirri xudasan,
\nA\u00e7\u0131lmaz ba\u011fl\u0131 odasan,
\nD\u00fcnya ad\u0131ynan aldad\u0131b,
\nAtm\u0131san bizi oda s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

M\u0259\u015fh\u0259r el\u0259 bu faniymi\u015f
\nQiyam\u0259ti qopur h\u0259r g\u00fcn.
\nBu d\u00fcnya q\u0131l k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fcym\u00fc\u015f,
\nNe\u00e7\u0259 insan ke\u00e7ir h\u0259r g\u00fcn.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Sar\u0131ld\u0131m g\u00fcnahlara,
\nG\u00fcld\u00fc,\u015feytan sa\u011folmu\u015f.
\nD\u0259rdi basd\u0131m ba\u011fr\u0131ma,
\nBax\u0131b g\u00f6rd\u00fcm da\u011folmu\u015f.G\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 ya\u015f qoymad\u0131,
\nOvcumda da\u015f qoymad\u0131,
\nCan almaqdan doymad\u0131,
\nBu verana,da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f.Ald\u0131m m\u0259nim olmad\u0131,
\nBildim q\u0259mim olmad\u0131,
\nQibl\u0259m,\u00e7\u0259mim olmad\u0131,
\nKim bizl\u0259ri \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f.B\u0259xt \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259di,
\nG\u00f6yd\u0259n alma g\u0259lm\u0259di,
\nNec\u0259 oldu bilm\u0259dim,
\nBaxd\u0131m g\u00f6rd\u00fcm na\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f.
\n______________________________<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
Afaq \u015e\u0131xl\u0131<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
\n

\"Afaq<\/p>\n

YADINA M\u018fN D\u00dc\u015e\u018fC\u018fM<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 sakitlik \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb, yen\u0259 qa\u015f qaralanda,
\n\u018fl-ayaq \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259nd\u0259 yen\u0259 t\u0259nha qalanda,
\n\u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz x\u0259yallara dalanda
\nYad\u0131na m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Sahil boyu… sev\u0259nl\u0259r hey \u0259l-\u0259l\u0259 ver\u0259nd\u0259,
\nKims\u0259 sevgilisinin sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 h\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259,
\nYen\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcstd\u0259 g\u00f6yqur\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259
\nYad\u0131na m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Meydanlar b\u0259z\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259, bayraqlar sal\u0131nanda,
\nXon\u00e7a b\u0259z\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bayraml\u0131q al\u0131nanda,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyin anda qap\u0131n\u0131z \u00e7al\u0131nanda
\nYad\u0131na m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Kims\u0259 \u00f6z eyvan\u0131nda aynas\u0131n\u0131 sil\u0259nd\u0259.
\nKims\u0259 divar dal\u0131nda b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259rc\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259nd\u0259,
\nKimins\u0259 z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259si qula\u011f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259
\nYad\u0131na m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mtini azan k\u00fcl\u0259k p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni vuranda,
\nY\u00fckl\u00fc xatir\u0259l\u0259rin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259ni yoranda,
\nM\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tsiz ya\u015famaq g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 duranda
\nYad\u0131na m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Evinin h\u0259r buca\u011f\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb baxanda,
\nH\u0259sr\u0259t s\u0259ni m\u0259nimt\u0259k sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xanda,
\nKitab\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n iki yonca \u00e7\u0131xanda \u2013
\nYad\u0131na m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t uman zaman h\u0259r saatdan, h\u0259r ild\u0259n,
\nN\u0259zir verib bir dua g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259rk\u0259n s\u0259fild\u0259n
\n\u0130t\u0259n yadigarlar\u0131m tap\u0131lacaq q\u0259fild\u0259n \u2013
\nYad\u0131na m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Yad\u0131na g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcn xo\u015f anlar\u0131n\u0131,
\nCavanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tin xo\u015fb\u0259xt zamanlar\u0131n\u0131,
\nSevgi umduqlar\u0131n\u0131, sevgi umanlar\u0131n\u0131 \u2013
\nYad\u0131na m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m.
\nYad\u0131na m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

ANAMA<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz anam, \u00f6m\u00fcr adl\u0131 qatardan
\nAyr\u0131lar\u0131n s\u0131ras\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.
\nDo\u011fmalar\u0131m yadlar\u0131ma qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b,
\n\u0130ki d\u00fcnya aras\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn imi\u015f d\u00fcn\u0259nl\u0259rin yar\u0131n\u0131,
\nSev\u0259n sevib, g\u0259z\u0259n tap\u0131b yar\u0131n\u0131.
\nD\u0259r\u0259n d\u0259rib n\u00fcbar\u0131n\u0131 – bar\u0131n\u0131,
\nM\u0259n talenin uras\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u0130sm\u0259timd\u0259n p\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259,
\nDar g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259.
\nArxalan\u0131b a\u011f dil\u0259kli s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259,
\nMisralar\u0131n qaras\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259rib eld\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr ke\u00e7ib talanda,
\nXeyir- \u015f\u0259rd\u0259, h\u0259qiq\u0259ts\u0259 yalanda.
\n\u015eeirl\u0259rim sar\u0131 simmi\u015f, \u00e7alanda
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin yaras\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m!<\/p>\n

Mizan \u0259yri, \u00e7ox da ona d\u00fcz deyin!
\nF\u0259l\u0259k say\u0131r bildiyini, y\u00fcz deyin!..
\nM\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, tapammad\u0131m, siz deyin –
\nT\u0259rs qism\u0259tin haras\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m?
\n_________________________________________<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Xan\u0131m \u0130smay\u0131lq\u0131z\u0131<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

<\/div>\n
\n

\"Xan\u0131m<\/p>\n

Q\u0259rib\u0259 yer\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131m,
\nBir add\u0131m g\u00f6y\u0259 atd\u0131m,
\nS\u00f6z\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc tutdum,
\nS\u00f6z il\u0259 yaraland\u0131m.<\/p>\n

N\u0259f\u0259simdi \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259n,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimdi s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n,
\nX\u0259nc\u0259r kimi dikil\u0259n
\nG\u00f6z il\u0259 yaraland\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Taleyimdi yaz\u0131lan,
\nHissim, ipd\u0259n as\u0131lan,
\nYaram \u00fcst\u0259 bas\u0131lan
\nK\u00f6z il\u0259 yaraland\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Bir a\u011fr\u0131 var y\u00fckl\u0259n\u0259n,
\nQ\u0259m il\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259n\u0259n,
\nSar\u0131 sim\u0259 k\u00f6kl\u0259n\u0259n,
\nSaz il\u0259 yaraland\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Allah, m\u0259n s\u0259nin k\u00f6l\u0259n,
\nD\u0259rdin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259n,
\n\u00dcst\u00fcm\u0259 qona bil\u0259n,
\nToz il\u0259 yaraland\u0131m.<\/p>\n

**\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 **<\/p>\n

H\u0259r g\u00fcn bu g\u00fcn deyil ki,
\nH\u0259r g\u00fcn d\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259 olur.
\nH\u0259r g\u00fcn g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131q,
\nYan\u0131b s\u00f6n\u0259n d\u0259 olur.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r adam bir b\u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259
\nH\u0259r an ke\u00e7ir z\u00fcl\u00fcmd\u0259n.
\nH\u0259r c\u0259llad\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n
\n\u00c7\u0131x\u0131b d\u00f6n\u0259n d\u0259 olur.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r g\u00fcc\u00fcn bir sonu var,
\nH\u0259r d\u0259rdin bir donu var,
\nH\u0259r k\u0259sin t\u0259k can\u0131 var,
\nSusub din\u0259n d\u0259 olur.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131r ki,
\nH\u0259r yoldan qa\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131r ki,
\nH\u0259r adam u\u00e7ulmur ki,
\nDurub en\u0259n d\u0259 olur.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r a\u011fr\u0131 dil\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259z,
\nH\u0259r fikir \u0259l\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259z,
\nH\u0259r yanan k\u00fcl\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259z,
\nBax\u0131b \u00f6l\u0259n d\u0259 olur.<\/p>\n

___________________________<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Telli P\u0259nahq\u0131z\u0131<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

\"Telli<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
\u00c7ay\u0131n\u0131n\u00a0 seli quruyub,
\nDa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n beli quruyub,
\nA\u011fz\u0131nda dili quruyub,
\nD\u00fcnya biz\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb gedir.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yumub y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcr,
\n\u0130r\u0259li cumub y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcr
\nHam\u0131dan umub y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcr,
\nD\u00fcnya biz\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb gedir.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
S\u0131\u011fm\u0131r ar\u011faca- \u0259ri\u015f\u0259
\nQal\u0131b\u00a0 iri\u015f\u0259- iri\u015f\u0259.
\nBax\u0131b d\u00f6vrana- g\u0259rdi\u015f\u0259
\nD\u00fcnya biz\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb gedir.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
**\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 **<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
M\u0259n kim\u0259m, d\u0259rd m\u0259ni \u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 bildim,
\nDost kimmi\u015f, x\u0259trim\u0259 dey\u0259nd\u0259 bildim,
\nZ\u0259h\u0259r n\u0259…ac\u0131 s\u00f6z yey\u0259nd\u0259 bildim,
\nBu da bir imtahan, bu da s\u0131naqd\u0131r!<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
X\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259dim do\u011fman\u0131n, yad\u0131n.
\nSatq\u0131n\u0131, yalta\u011f\u0131 yax\u0131n qoymad\u0131m…
\nB\u0259z\u0259n nadana da pislik q\u0131ymad\u0131m,
\nBu bir t\u0259n\u0259mi,\u00a0 yoxsa q\u0131naqd\u0131r?!<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
\u0130nsalar c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr, ce\u015fid-ce\u015fiddir,
\nAnlamaz, him el\u0259, g\u00f6z vur,\u00a0 e\u015fitrdir,<\/div>\n
Onun\u00e7\u00fcn bu d\u00fcnya n\u0259nni, be\u015fikdir,
\nYa a\u011f\u0131ldan s\u0259qq\u0259t, q\u0259m\u0259\u00a0 ortaqd\u0131r…<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
N\u0259 d\u0259rdd\u0259n anlayar,\u00a0 q\u0259m ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r,
\nS\u00f6z des\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131b iri\u015f\u0259r,
\n\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 vuru\u015far Xeyir il\u0259 \u015e\u0259r,
\nAnlam\u0259z\u00a0 d\u00fcnyaya qara\u00a0 yamaqd\u0131r!<\/div>\n
\n

______________________________________<\/p>\n

Nar\u0131ng\u00fcl Nadir<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

<\/div>\n
\n

\"Nar\u0131ng\u00fcl<\/p>\n

Bir zaman s\u00f6yl\u0259mi\u015fdin,
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131q u\u00e7an qu\u015fdu.
\nS\u0259n getdin uzaqlara,
\nHam\u0131 birlikd\u0259 susdu.<\/p>\n

Ham\u0131 birlikd\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fc,
\n\u015e\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259 bo\u015fal\u0131bd\u0131.
\n\u0130p \u00fcst\u0259 yaddan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b
\nBir k\u00f6yn\u0259yin qal\u0131bd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 adamlardan,
\nBir k\u00f6yn\u0259k yax\u0131n idin.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yim\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n,
\nBir g\u00f6yn\u0259k yax\u0131n idin.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni kim\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131m?
\nDey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim, getm\u0259.
\nDeyir\u0259m ki, q\u0259m yem\u0259,
\nUzaqlar\u0131 incitm\u0259.<\/p>\n

**\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 **<\/p>\n

Gizl\u0259npa\u00e7 oyunudur,
\nYa\u011f\u0131\u015f ged\u0259r, g\u00f6y qalar.
\nG\u00f6y\u00fcn yiy\u0259si yoxdur,
\nA\u00e7\u0131q qalar qap\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011far, torpa\u011fa
\nSu \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u011f\u0131\u015flar.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimiz \u015fumlanar,
\nYa\u011f\u0131\u015flara qar\u0131\u015far.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r yaz bir \u00fcmid it\u0259r
\nSel g\u0259l\u0259r, su aparar.
\nGed\u0259k, \u00f6mr\u00fc \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259k
\nGed\u0259k, n\u0259 olar, olar.
\n_____________________<\/p>\n

Al\u0259mz\u0259r Sad\u0131qq\u0131z\u0131<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

\"Al\u0259mz\u0259r<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

El\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fcr…<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

Tanr\u0131m, birc\u0259 g\u00fcn ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla,
\n\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 d\u0259rd, q\u0259m olmas\u0131n.
\nN\u0259 verirs\u0259n dop-dolu ver,
\nBir an\u0131 da k\u0259m olmas\u0131n!<\/p>\n

S\u0259n Yaradan, biz yaranan,
\nS\u0259n yazd\u0131ran biz d\u0259 yazan,
\nMadam \u0259lind\u0259dir pozan,
\nEl\u0259 sil\u00a0 din\u0259n olmas\u0131n…<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 duman g\u0259lib,
\nM\u0259ni m\u0259nd\u0259n uman g\u0259lib,
\nQap\u0131na bir adam g\u0259lib,
\nYolunda sis-\u00e7\u0259n olmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 g\u00f6z qal\u0131b, n\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131,
\nA\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r k\u00f6nl\u00fcmun ba\u015f\u0131,
\nT\u00f6k \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259n t\u00f6k da\u015f\u0131,
\nEl\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fcr n\u0259m olmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n

\u00d6mr\u00fcm he\u00e7\u0259-pu\u00e7a gedir,
\nXo\u015f g\u00fcn u\u00e7a-u\u00e7a gedir,
\nAl\u0259m s\u0259nd\u0259n na\u00e7ar gedir….
\nHe\u00e7 bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 d\u0259m olmas\u0131n?<\/p>\n

\u00d6mr\u00fc uduzur…<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Deyirl\u0259r x\u0259yal qur a\u011fr\u0131n ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k…
\nBir \u00f6mr\u00fc x\u0259yalla ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam m\u0259n…
\nHekay\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fam, na\u011f\u0131l\u00a0 qurmu\u015fam,
\nMin a\u011fr\u0131, min ac\u0131 da\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u015fam m\u0259n.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
N\u0259 atam qay\u0131d\u0131b uzaq s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n,
\nN\u0259 d\u0259 yuxular\u0131m ger\u00e7\u0259k olmay\u0131b.
\nM\u0259n x\u0259yal qurduqca u\u00e7ulub d\u00fcnyam,
\n\u00d6t\u00fcb ill\u0259r, aylar yeri dolmay\u0131b.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
\u018flimd\u0259n tutmay\u0131b birc\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0131m,
\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcmd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259r \u00f6mr\u0259\u00a0 dolmay\u0131b…
\nM\u0259n x\u0259yal evimd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan,
\nH\u0259yatla aramda bir ev olmay\u0131b…<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
Daha unutmu\u015fam x\u0259yal qurma\u011f\u0131,
\nOndan i\u00e7im \u015faxta soyuqdu bay\u0131r…
\nM\u0259n daha saym\u0131ram \u00f6z\u00fcm sayan\u0131,
\nM\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259r say\u0131ram,f\u0259l\u0259k n\u0259 say\u0131r…<\/div>\n
Al\u0259min Allahdan t\u0259k ist\u0259yi var,
\nBir azca \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u00fc , bir azca huzur,
\nDaha \u0259ll\u0259rimi qald\u0131rd\u0131m g\u00f6y\u0259,
\n\u018fll\u0259rim bilir ki, \u00f6mr\u00fc uduzur…
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Fir\u0259ngiz Sabirq\u0131z\u0131<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n
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\"\u015eair\u0259d\u0259n<\/p>\n

Baxm\u0131rsan \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259, \u00fcz\u00fcm t\u0259k qal\u0131b,
\nH\u0259r k\u0259sin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bilir\u2026
\nS\u00f6yk\u0259yib ovcuma yanaqlar\u0131n\u0131,
\nK\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u00fc u\u015fa\u011f t\u0259k \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bilir.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 sual verir\u0259m \u2013 cavab\u0131 birdir,
\nN\u0259 sual verir\u0259m \u2013 susub ke\u00e7irs\u0259n.
\n\u00c7iy\u0259l\u0259k doda\u011f\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259sd edir,
\n\u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc silib ke\u00e7irs\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n

N\u0259 k\u00fcs\u0259 bilir\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259n d\u0259rs al\u0131b,
\nN\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259 bilir\u0259m t\u0259rs u\u015fa\u011f kimi.
\nBir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 dik, g\u0259l,
\nBunu yozaca\u011fam bar\u0131\u015f\u0131q kimi.<\/p>\n

**\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 **<\/p>\n

Bir az d\u0259rd adamla\u015f\u0131r,
\nBir az adam d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fir.
\nBir az yol yoxu\u015fla\u015f\u0131r,
\nBir az ayaq s\u0259rtl\u0259\u015fir.<\/p>\n

Bir az \u0259l a\u011facla\u015f\u0131r,
\nBir az g\u00f6z eyn\u0259kl\u0259\u015fir.
\nBir az d\u0259ri k\u00f6hn\u0259lir,
\nBir az q\u0259lb g\u00f6yn\u0259kl\u0259\u015fir.<\/p>\n

Bir az dizin b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fcr,
\nBir az bel \u0259yril\u0259\u015fir.
\nBir az qolun bo\u015fal\u0131r,
\nBir az g\u00fcc seyr\u0259kl\u0259\u015fir.<\/p>\n

Bir az sa\u00e7\u0131n t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr,
\nBir az sa\u00e7\u0131nda k\u0259p\u0259k.
\nBu kimin q\u0259bridir ki?
\nBir az da\u015f\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u0259k!
\n________________________<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259f\u0259q Sahibli<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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M\u018fN T\u018fNHA QU QU\u015eUYAM<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

M\u0259n t\u0259nha qu qu\u015fuyam ,
\nD\u0259rdl\u0259riml\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa.
\nKah suya \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131l\u0131ram,
\nGah qayaya gah da\u015fa.<\/p>\n

Bax\u0131ram g\u00f6y d\u0259niz\u0259,
\nBoylan\u0131ram s\u0259maya.
\nG\u00fcnd\u00fcz g\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131ram,
\nGec\u0259s t\u0259nha Aya.<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat \u00f6z axar\u0131nda,
\n\u0130nsan \u00f6z ist\u0259yind\u0259.
\nM\u0259n t\u0259nha qu qu\u015fuyam,
\nK\u0259d\u0259r var \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259.<\/p>\n

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**\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 **<\/p>\n

Sevgi ba\u015fdan yalansa,
\n\u00dcr\u0259k da\u015fdan yonulsa.
\nD\u00fcnya \u00f6z\u00fc oyunsa
\nDolusu n\u0259, bo\u015fu n\u0259?!<\/p>\n

G\u00fcn\u00fcm aya qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ,
\nTaleyimi qar a\u015fd\u0131.
\nH\u0259yat yolu yar\u0131\u015fd\u0131
\nEni\u015fi,yoxu\u015fu n\u0259?!<\/p>\n

Bu da \u00f6mr\u00fcn s\u0259rt \u00fcz\u00fc,
\nK\u0259d\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fc , D\u0259rd \u00fcz\u00fc.
\nG\u00f6rd\u00fcns\u0259 nam\u0259rd \u00fcz\u00fc,
\nN\u0259xo\u015fu n\u0259, xo\u015fu\u00a0 n\u0259?
\n__________________________<\/p>\n

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S\u0259may\u0259 G\u00fcl\u0259liq\u0131z\u0131<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"Foto\u011fraf<\/p>\n

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Sevgi g\u00f6zd\u00fc….<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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Tanr\u0131m, m\u0259n\u0259 sevgi g\u00f6nd\u0259r,
\nN\u0259 duman, n\u0259 sis olmas\u0131n.
\nT\u0259r-t\u0259miz q\u0131z\u0131l k\u00fcl\u00e7\u0259si
\nMayas\u0131nda mis olmas\u0131n..
\n*****\u00a0 ***** ****
\nQuzu k\u0259s\u0259r\u0259m ad\u0131na..
\n\u015eahp\u0259r ollam qanad\u0131na,
\nQ\u0131z\u0131naram t\u0259k oduna,
\nAlovunda his olmas\u0131n.
\n**** ***** ****
\nSevgi g\u00f6zd\u00fc… bax\u0131\u015f\u0131 n\u0259?
\nMin b\u0259z\u0259k vur nax\u0131\u015f\u0131na,
\nBu h\u0259yat\u0131n ax\u0131\u015f\u0131na,
\n\u00dclvi olsun, s\u00fcs olmas\u0131n…
\n**** **** ***** *****
\n\u00c7\u0131xaq pay\u0131z\u0131n seyrin\u0259…
\nS\u0259may\u0259nin taleyin\u0259,
\nKim q\u0259ml\u0259n\u0259, kim sevin\u0259…
\nBar\u0131\u015f olsun, k\u00fcs olmas\u0131n…<\/p>\n

**\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 **<\/p>\n

Birini sev\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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Bir g\u00fcn birin sev\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n
\nUnudarsan m\u0259ni \u0259b\u0259s.
\nSev\u0259n q\u0259lbin\u00a0 od tutacaq,
\nOna g\u0259l\u0259r adi h\u0259v\u0259s.
\n***
\nG\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7\u0259r bo\u015f,say\u011f\u0131s\u0131z,
\nQalm\u0131sanm\u0131,getmis\u0259nmi?!
\nM\u0259nim kimi dem\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,
\n” Can\u0131m,nahar etmis\u0259nmi”?
\n***
\nX\u0259yallar bo\u011facaq s\u0259ni,
\nD\u0259rdini dey\u0259n tap\u0131lmaz.
\nSevgin\u0259 imdad dil\u0259rs\u0259n,
\nBuna he\u00e7,m\u0259h\u0259l d\u0259 qoymaz.
\n***
\nO, da s\u0259ni bel\u0259 sev\u0259r,
\nS\u0259n m\u0259ni sevdiyin kimi…
\nAldanmaq yaxacaq s\u0259ni,
\nYaxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yim kimi.
\n____________________________<\/p>\n

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Ayb\u0259niz \u018fliyar<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"Ayb\u0259niz<\/p>\n

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Ucal\u0131qdan deyilmi\u015f<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

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Ya insan yox, ya inam yox insana,
\nYox olmaq da ucal\u0131qdan deyilmi\u015f.
\nE\u015fq n\u0259 laz\u0131m hissl\u0259ri tox insana,
\nTox olmaq da ucal\u0131qdan deyilmi\u015f.
\nS\u00f6zd\u0259n qa\u00e7d\u0131m, ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n do\u011fuldu,
\nS\u00f6z\u00fc sevdim, e\u015fq i\u00e7imd\u0259 da\u011f oldu,
\nSevdam\u0131z da \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 a\u011f oldu,
\nA\u011f olmaq da ucal\u0131qdan deyilmi\u015f.
\nM\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015f \u00fcr\u0259yimin ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131,
\nG\u00fcn ovutmaz bu da\u011flar\u0131n q\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131,
\nZaman-zaman bulud ald\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131,
\nDa\u011f olmaq da ucal\u0131qdan deyilmi\u015f.
\nDey\u0259nmi var, \u015fair xo\u015fb\u0259xt biriydi,-
\n\u015eeir masam \u0259sl sevda yeriydi,
\n\u0130nsan g\u00f6rd\u00fcm \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcyl\u0259 diriydi,
\nSa\u011f olmaq da ucal\u0131qdan deyilmi\u015f.
\nAyb\u0259niz\u0259m, q\u0259m yediyim \u00e7ox oldu,
\nQazanc\u0131m s\u00f6z, \u00e7\u0259kdikl\u0259rim ah oldu.
\nBeynim yen\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 \u015fah oldu,
\n\u015eah olmaq da ucal\u0131qdan deyilmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

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Qar\u0131\u015fqa yuvas\u0131<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

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Dolub qar\u0131\u015fqayla evim-ota\u011f\u0131m,
\nBahar \u00e7oxdan g\u0259lib, siz gecikmisiz.
\nKim siz\u0259 bir bel\u0259 ixtiyar verib,
\nEvimin i\u00e7ind\u0259 yuva tikmisiz?<\/p>\n

Bu n\u0259 haray-h\u0259\u015fir, eyib deyilmi?
\nYen\u0259 \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f qonaq olmusuz.
\nQanad \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131s\u0131z k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259k kimi,
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 g\u0259lin gedir bir qar\u0131\u015fqa-q\u0131z?<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 sevgi kimi yoxdu yeriniz,
\nBel\u0259mi bildirir hicran \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc?
\nYen\u0259 at oynad\u0131r s\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259riniz,
\nP\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259m uzunu, p\u0259rd\u0259m uzunu.<\/p>\n

Yatm\u0131\u015fam sizi d\u0259 verib yuxuya,
\nBu gec\u0259 ovcuma dolmusuz n\u0259d\u0259n?
\nBir e\u015fqi-p\u00fcnhan\u0131 sevmi\u015f\u0259m dey\u0259,
\n\u018flim bala bat\u0131b b\u0259lk\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n?…<\/p>\n

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Aida Ad\u0131g\u00f6z\u0259l<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"Aida<\/p>\n

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\u00d6l\u00fcmd\u0259n sonras\u0131<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

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Bilirs\u0259n, nec\u0259 olur g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rin getm\u0259si?
\nG\u0259l, \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259 gec\u0259nin s\u00fckut s\u0259sin…
\n\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 s\u0131nan \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259, qanadan q\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131n,
\n\u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 u\u00e7an divar, qap\u0131-p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rin.
\nG\u0259l, \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131,
\nyumursan g\u00f6zl\u0259rini, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7ind\u0259 O!
\nHaransa a\u011fr\u0131 verir, \u0259linl\u0259 axtar\u0131rsan,
\nh\u0259, s\u0259n dem\u0259 buraym\u0131\u015f, sancan z\u0259hrimar o sol…
\nSonra… sonras\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259! \u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259 ac\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f,
\nbir azca g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131, divara ba\u015f d\u00f6ym\u0259l\u0259r.
\n– “Axma\u011f\u0131n yek\u0259sis\u0259n, d\u0259linin d\u0259 z\u0131r t\u0259ki”, –
\n\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ya\u011fd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u0259n yeddiqat s\u00f6ym\u0259l\u0259r.
\nBel\u0259c\u0259 ke\u00e7ir g\u00fcnl\u0259r, bel\u0259c\u0259 sa\u011fal\u0131rsan,
\n\u00f6yr\u0259\u015firs\u0259n h\u0259r gec\u0259 da\u015f-divara d\u00f6nm\u0259yi.
\n\u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7ir gedir milyon kainat ili,
\ng\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259nirs\u0259n ulduz kimi s\u00f6nm\u0259yi.
\nBax, yeri bel\u0259 olur g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rin getm\u0259si.
\nS\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f vulkan oca\u011f\u0131, sunami yumu\u015f \u015f\u0259h\u0259r…
\n\u00dcst-\u00fcst\u0259 qalaqlanm\u0131\u015f \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f xatir\u0259l\u0259r,
\nz\u0259lz\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r u\u00e7urmu\u015f minillk s\u0259rdab\u0259l\u0259r…<\/p>\n

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Durnam<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

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Qanad\u0131 q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f yaral\u0131 durnam
\nM\u0259nd\u0259n uzaqlarda, oral\u0131 durnam.
\nS\u0259nd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rim yox xeyli zamand\u0131r,
\n\u00fcmid yox! Kiml\u0259r\u0259 soral\u0131 durnam.
\nDeyir yaralar\u0131 sagald\u0131r zaman,
\nqalmad\u0131 ovunum t\u0259s\u0259lli filan.
\nYolun ged\u0259rg\u0259lm\u0259z, d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn yalan,
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcm yollar\u0131nda saral\u0131 durnam.
\nVidalar do\u011fulur ayr\u0131l\u0131qlardan,
\nvidalar yo\u011frulur g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131ndan.
\nGedi\u015fin \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc d\u0259yi\u015fdi yaman,
\ng\u00fcn\u00fcm gec\u0259m t\u0259ki qaral\u0131 durnam.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm qara bulud, icimd\u0259 tufan,
\nq\u0131\u015f\u0131m ba\u015flamam\u0131\u015f haqlad\u0131 boran.
\nOcaqs\u0131z yan\u0131ram at\u0259\u015fd\u0259 aman,
\nsa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r daral\u0131 durnam.
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T\u0259ran\u0259 Vahid<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"T\u0259ran\u0259<\/p>\n

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\u00c7oxlu \u00fcr\u0259k<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

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H\u0259vva \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 Ad\u0259m tarlada dar\u0131 \u0259kirdi…<\/i><\/p>\n

Qa\u015f qaralanda Mirz\u0259 o\u011furlu\u011fa ged\u0259n adam kimi d\u0259vik\u0259-d\u0259vik\u0259 Firudinin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 iki d\u0259f\u0259 astadan d\u00f6yd\u00fc. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n Firudinin h\u0131qq\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 e\u015fidildi:<\/p>\n

– G\u0259lir\u0259\u0259\u0259m \u0259, g\u0259lir\u0259m…<\/p>\n

G\u0259ldi d\u0259. \u018flind\u0259 \u00e7ay d\u0259smal\u0131, qap\u0131n\u0131 Mirz\u0259nin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b onu u\u015faq kimi danlad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– \u018f, g\u0259l \u00e7\u0131x da, zal\u0131m\u0131n balas\u0131, el\u0259 bil da\u011f dal\u0131na getmis\u0259n…<\/p>\n

Mirz\u0259 burnunu \u00e7\u0259kdi, \u0259linin daban\u0131nda g\u0259tirdiyi pay\u0131 Firudin\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, yanp\u00f6rt\u00fc qap\u0131dan i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7ib \u00e7axmaq g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 bir anda ev\u0259 g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdi. Allah\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u0259 ev s\u0259liq\u0259-s\u0259hmanl\u0131yd\u0131. He\u00e7 demz\u0259din, bu evd\u0259 on \u00fc\u00e7 ildir qad\u0131n ya\u015fam\u0131r.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131q s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 sata\u015fanda: “R\u0259hm\u0259tlik qaynanam m\u0259ni \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirdi, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 ist\u0259yir…” – deyib \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n g\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Firudin \u00e7ay s\u00fcz\u0259-s\u00fcz\u0259 “\u0130ndi ist\u0259m\u0259sin”, – dedi.<\/p>\n

Mirz\u0259 oturma\u011f\u0131na oturdu, bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fc q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcll\u00fc nim\u00e7\u0259d\u0259ki \u00fcr\u0259k formal\u0131 \u015firniyyata ili\u015fdi, eyni a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, kefi duruldu, q\u0131m\u0131\u015fa-q\u0131m\u0131\u015fa:<\/p>\n

– Yen\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ri isti-isti bi\u015firib y\u0131\u011fm\u0131san haaa…<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131, el\u0259mi?<\/p>\n

Mirz\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn birini yumub, birini a\u00e7d\u0131, m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ri g\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ri g\u00f6zd\u0259n ke\u00e7irib:<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131 n\u0259di, bu d\u0259f\u0259 qu\u015fu g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n vurmusan, Mirz\u0259 can\u0131, bazara \u00e7\u0131xarsan, g\u00f6yd\u0259 ged\u0259r. S\u0259n d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259ksatan Firudin kimi q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 ad-san qazanarsan. H\u0259l\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131na halal s\u00fcd\u0259mmi\u015fin biri d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar.<\/p>\n

Firudin utand\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Kiri \u0259, gic-gic dan\u0131\u015fma, dad\u0131na bax, – deyib \u00e7ay\u0131 s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 qoydu.<\/p>\n

– Q\u0131ymaram! Adam \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259 toxunar?! Bunlar yem\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil, s\u0259n\u0259tkar, baxmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr, nec\u0259 ki, s\u0259n\u0259t \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri olur ha, adamlar uzaqdan bax\u0131r, bax\u0131r, bax\u0131r, \u00fcr\u0259yi titr\u0259yir, el\u0259 bir \u015feydir.<\/p>\n

Mirz\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qurtaranda doda\u011f\u0131 qa\u00e7d\u0131, q\u0131z\u0131l di\u015fl\u0259rinin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0259fil \u00e7axan \u015fim\u015f\u0259k kimi \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 dola\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Onda \u00fcr\u0259yin ist\u0259diyi q\u0259d\u0259r bax, – dedi Firudin.<\/p>\n

Araya s\u00fckut \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. Yaqut r\u0259ngli \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259r h\u0259r\u0259sinin a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b bir yana apard\u0131. El\u0259 bir yer\u0259 ki, o yer\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 indi \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ri g\u0259lm\u0259zdi…<\/p>\n

Mirz\u0259yl\u0259 Firudin ki\u00e7ik q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Qohum deyildil\u0259r, he\u00e7 qon\u015fu da say\u0131lmazd\u0131lar, \u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u0259 ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131 i\u015fin-g\u00fcc\u00fcn qulpundan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar, yatanda da biri Yax\u0131n \u015e\u0259rq\u0259, biri Uzaq \u015e\u0259rq\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Onlar\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131ran d\u0259rdl\u0259riydi. \u0130kisi d\u0259 ah\u0131l \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda arvaddan yetim qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu ya\u015fdan sonra evl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 ham\u0131 pis bax\u0131r ax\u0131, o da ola o\u011ful, u\u015faq, n\u0259v\u0259 ola… Amma bir g\u00fcn o\u011ful-u\u015faq h\u0259r\u0259si \u00f6z yuvas\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259nd\u0259 Mirz\u0259yl\u0259 Firudin dam\u0131n alt\u0131nda t\u0259k-t\u0259nha qald\u0131lar, balaca q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259nin g\u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 canl\u0131 kamera kimi \u00fcstl\u0259rind\u0259…<\/p>\n

Bil\u0259nl\u0259r bilirdi, Mirz\u0259nin g\u00fcn\u00fc pis ke\u00e7mirdi. D\u0259rd Firudinin d\u0259rdiydi. Qad\u0131n g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirir, \u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 dola\u015f\u0131r, yax\u0131nla\u015fma\u011fa da \u00fcr\u0259k el\u0259mirdi. Arvad\u0131 G\u00fcls\u0259n\u0259ml\u0259 bir dastanl\u0131q \u00f6m\u00fcr ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, g\u00fcl kimi sevgisinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 toz qondurma\u011fa \u00fcr\u0259yi g\u0259lmirdi. D\u00fcnyada bel\u0259 ki\u015fil\u0259rin oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259 arvadlar\u0131 doluxsunur, “Firudinin qadas\u0131n\u0131 alaq, ba\u015f\u0131na dolanaq, k\u00fcl bizimkil\u0259rin ki\u015fi ba\u015f\u0131na” – deyirdil\u0259r. All\u0131-g\u00fcll\u00fc s\u00f6zl\u0259r Firudinin qula\u011f\u0131na \u00e7atar-\u00e7atmaz, ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q sevda k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259ri p\u0131rr el\u0259yib Qaf da\u011f\u0131nacan u\u00e7ur, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259n sonra da\u015flara sin\u0259-sin\u0259 geri qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. D\u00fczd\u00fc, Firudin s\u0259daq\u0259tli ki\u015fiydi, amma \u00f6l\u00fc deyildi, n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131, n\u0259f\u0259s verirdi, yeyirdi, i\u00e7irdi.<\/p>\n

Ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131? Bax, bu yalan olard\u0131. Ya\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131! Ya\u015famaq ba\u015fqa \u015feydi. S\u0259ks\u0259n ya\u015fl\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259si \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 babas\u0131 Savalan ki\u015fi demi\u015fdi ki, sevgi ba\u011f\u0131 q\u0131r\u0131landa adam \u00f6l\u00fcr. Arvad\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131rx\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015f \u00e7\u0259liyini \u0259sdir\u0259-\u0259sdir\u0259 k\u0259ndin \u0259n kifir qar\u0131s\u0131na el\u00e7i d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Pis el\u0259m\u0259di ki, s\u0259kkiz il bir-birin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nib ya\u015fad\u0131lar. Firudin d\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi, sevm\u0259k ist\u0259yidi. Amma onun sevgi limitinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 “ab\u0131r” etiketi yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259nin g\u00f6z\u0259g\u0259limli yerind\u0259n asm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. O da ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n sevgi oyunlar\u0131 uydurur, \u00fcr\u0259k formal\u0131 pe\u00e7enyel\u0259r, \u015firniyyatlar bi\u015firib \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ovudur, h\u0259rd\u0259n bi\u015firdiyi \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ri sevib \u0259zizl\u0259yir, h\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131na at\u0131b yeyirdi.<\/p>\n

Amma Mirz\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr ovudurdu. Yolunu tez-tez qad\u0131n alt paltarlar\u0131 satan S\u0259may\u0259nin d\u00fckan\u0131ndan sal\u0131r, guya ondan n\u0259s\u0259 soru\u015fur, imkan tapan kimi g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yar\u0131\u00e7\u0131lpaq, inc\u0259belli manikenl\u0259r\u0259 dikib bir anl\u0131q d\u00fcnyadan z\u00f6vq al\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259may\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fct\u00fck arvad\u0131yd\u0131, Mirz\u0259nin qarn\u0131n\u0131n azar\u0131n\u0131 bildiyind\u0259n:<\/p>\n

– \u018f, bunlardan birini al, dayna, – deyib onunla m\u0259z\u0259l\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n

Mirz\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00f6z alt\u0131nda qalm\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Onu niy\u0259, ay S\u0259may\u0259, g\u0259l el\u0259 s\u0259ni al\u0131m, – deyirdi.<\/p>\n

Firudingild\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259kli s\u00fcfr\u0259nin arxas\u0131nda Mirz\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 baxa-baxa \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ndi:<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, Firudin ki\u015fi, deyir\u0259m, S\u0259may\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 kad\u0131nd\u0131, – dedi.<\/p>\n

Firudinin eyni a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131:<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131, \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131, indi el\u0259 kad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131raqla da axtarsan, tapa bilm\u0259zs\u0259n, – dedi.<\/p>\n

Mirz\u0259 diksindi, \u00e7\u0259p\u0259ki Firudin\u0259 baxd\u0131. Mirz\u0259nin qarn\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259rdind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz olan Firudin ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 sevda qu\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 u\u00e7urdub, yen\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n s\u00f6z sald\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Xavar\u0131n var, yeni \u00fcr\u0259k q\u0259libl\u0259ri haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fam: inc\u0259, k\u00f6k, butavari, \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259r… G\u0259l\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 hay\u0131l-may\u0131l qalacaqsan.<\/p>\n

Mirz\u0259 q\u0259fil yerind\u0259n qalx\u0131b “day gedim, i\u015fim var”, – dey\u0259nd\u0259 Firudin \u0259l-aya\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– \u018f, hara gedirs\u0259n, kefin ist\u0259y\u0259n k\u0259ll\u0259-pa\u00e7a bi\u015firmi\u015f\u0259m, k\u0259ndd\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131xamurlu da g\u00f6nd\u0259ribl\u0259r, getm\u0259, – dedi.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fqa vaxt olsayd\u0131, Mirz\u0259 \u0259l\u00fcst\u00fc raz\u0131la\u015far, sevindiyind\u0259n s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259ri oynayard\u0131. Amma bu d\u0259f\u0259 bel\u0259 olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Mirz\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 Firudin \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd\u00fcn\u00fc ka\u011f\u0131za b\u00fck\u00fcb d\u0259rd orta\u011f\u0131n\u0131n cibin\u0259 qoydu. Mirz\u0259 d\u0259 haval\u0131-haval\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lar-a\u00e7\u0131lmaz x\u0259b\u0259r g\u0259ldi ki, b\u0259s, bu gec\u0259 Mirz\u0259yl\u0259 S\u0259may\u0259 k\u0259bin k\u0259sdiribl\u0259r. Firudin x\u0259b\u0259ri e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki k\u00f6t\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc, \u00e7iyinl\u0259ri b\u00fck\u00fcld\u00fc, s\u0259si titr\u0259y\u0259-titr\u0259y\u0259: neyl\u0259sin, ham\u0131ya ikinci \u00fcr\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r, – deyib k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

O g\u00fcn Firudin \u00fcr\u0259k bi\u015firm\u0259di…
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Xuraman V\u0259fa\u00a0<\/span><\/strong><\/div>\n
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\"Xuraman<\/div>\n
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\u0130nanma k\u00f6nl\u00fcm<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

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H\u0259r e\u015fqin, sevdan\u0131n b\u0259xti bir olmur,
\nB\u0259xtini e\u015fqind\u0259 s\u0131nama k\u00f6nl\u00fcm,
\nH\u0259l\u0259 sa\u011falmay\u0131b ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n yara,
\nS\u0131n\u0131q \u00fcst\u0259 s\u0131n\u0131q calama, k\u00f6nl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

G\u0259l k\u00f6n\u00fcl dostunun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dinl\u0259,
\n\u00c7ox \u015fey ya\u015fanacaq h\u0259l\u0259 s\u0259ninl\u0259.
\nZarafat el\u0259yib \u00f6z taleyinl\u0259,
\nM\u0259ni bir d\u0259 oda qalama, k\u00f6nl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ninl\u0259 sevinib, g\u00fcl\u00fcr g\u00f6zl\u0259rim,
\nSevincin, f\u0259r\u0259hin b\u00f6l\u00fcr g\u00f6zl\u0259rim.
\nYad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131n bu son s\u00f6zl\u0259rim,
\nKims\u0259y\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u011flama, k\u00f6nl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Sanma o v\u0259fas\u0131z anlayar s\u0259ni,
\nYenid\u0259n h\u0259yata ba\u011flayar s\u0259ni.
\nQorx ki, ov\u00e7u kimi ovlayar s\u0259ni,
\nA\u011fz\u0131m yan\u0131b, m\u0259ni q\u0131nama, k\u00f6nl\u00fcm.
\nB\u0259xtini e\u015fqind\u0259 s\u0131nama, k\u00f6nl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

B\u0259s niy\u0259 unuda bilmir\u0259m s\u0259ni?<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

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S\u0259n ki, q\u0259rar\u0131n\u0131 verib getmis\u0259n,
\nB\u0259s niy\u0259 unuda bilmir\u0259m s\u0259ni?
\nM\u0259ni \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n silib getmis\u0259n,
\nB\u0259s niy\u0259 unuda bilmir\u0259m s\u0259ni?<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Talan\u0131b e\u015fq adl\u0131 s\u0259rv\u0259tim, var\u0131m,
\nYalq\u0131zam, yan\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb qollar\u0131m.
\nArt\u0131q s\u0259nsizl\u0259\u015fib \u00f6m\u00fcr yollar\u0131m,
\nB\u0259s niy\u0259 unuda bilmir\u0259m s\u0259ni?<\/div>\n
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\u00dcz-\u00fcz\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fam k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259, q\u0259ml\u0259,
\nBacara bilmir\u0259m m\u0259n \u00f6z q\u0259lbiml\u0259.
\nDey\u0259s\u0259n, taleyim k\u00fcs\u00fcb m\u0259niml\u0259,
\nBilmir\u0259m, unuda bilmir\u0259m s\u0259ni.<\/div>\n
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S\u0259nli xatir\u0259l\u0259r boynunu b\u00fck\u00fcr,
\nHicran k\u0259rpic-k\u0259rpic q\u0259lbimi s\u00f6k\u00fcr.
\nH\u0259sr\u0259tin g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n qanl\u0131 ya\u015f t\u00f6k\u00fcr,
\nBilmir\u0259m, unuda bilmir\u0259m s\u0259ni.<\/div>\n
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T\u0259klik \u0259zab\u0131ndan usan\u0131b can\u0131m,
\nQ\u0131r\u0131l\u0131b \u00fcmidim, itib g\u00fcman\u0131m.
\nA zal\u0131m, d\u00fcz s\u00f6z\u00fc m\u0259n nec\u0259 dan\u0131m,
\nV\u0259fayam, unuda bilmir\u0259m s\u0259ni.
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N\u0259zak\u0259t M\u0259mm\u0259dli\u00a0<\/b><\/span><\/div>\n
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\"M\u0259n<\/p>\n

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M\u018fN ZAB\u0130T ANASIYAM!<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

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Milli Ordumuzun zabiti o\u011flum Ramil\u0259<\/em><\/p>\n

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Be\u015fiyini asm\u0131\u015fam, g\u00f6z\u00fcmt\u0259k qorumu\u015fam,
\nYuxusuz gec\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r\u0259 qatm\u0131\u015fam.
\n\u015eirin-\u015f\u0259k\u0259r balama h\u0259zin layla \u00e7alm\u0131\u015fam,
\nBe\u015fiyim\u0259, laylama, \u00f6vlad\u0131ma ba\u011fl\u0131yam,
\nM\u0259n zabit anas\u0131yam!<\/p>\n

\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr, s\u0259nin yan\u0131nda aln\u0131m a\u00e7\u0131qd\u0131r, V\u0259t\u0259n.
\nBir c\u0259sur, bir q\u0259hr\u0259man o\u011ful b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n.
\nBir qar\u0131\u015f torpaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn can\u0131n\u0131 f\u0259da ed\u0259n,
\nBayra\u011f\u0131na, himnin\u0259, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 and i\u00e7\u0259n
\nZabit anas\u0131yam m\u0259n!<\/p>\n

Rahat yuxu yatm\u0131ram, \u00e7\u00fcnki d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n yatmay\u0131b.
\nH\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox “arzusu” var, arzusuna \u00e7atmay\u0131b.
\nB\u0259xti yatm\u0131\u015f d\u0259rdl\u0259ri bir kims\u0259 oyatmay\u0131b.
\nD\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nin arzusunu g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259n
\nZabit anas\u0131yam m\u0259n!<\/p>\n

Da\u011flar\u0131m\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda buludlar\u0131m a\u011flay\u0131r,
\nDili batm\u0131\u015f o yetim bulaqlar\u0131m a\u011flay\u0131r.
\n\u0130\u00e7imd\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259b, nifr\u0259t \u00e7aylar kimi \u00e7a\u011flay\u0131r,
\nM\u0259ni bu intiqama, bu qisasa s\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259n
\nZabit anas\u0131yam m\u0259n!<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u0259 “g\u00f6z da\u011f\u0131”san, g\u00fcc\u00fcms\u0259n, q\u00fcvv\u0259tims\u0259n.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin t\u0259p\u0259ri, g\u0259r\u0259yim, k\u00f6m\u0259yims\u0259n.
\nV\u0259t\u0259nin “dar g\u00fcn\u00fc”nd\u0259 s\u0259sin\u0259 hay ver\u0259ns\u0259n,
\nBu torpa\u011fa, bu el\u0259, bu V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131san.
\nS\u0259ni V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 verdim,
\nS\u0259n V\u0259t\u0259nin o\u011flusan!<\/p>\n

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V\u018fT\u018fN<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

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D\u00fcnyaya a\u00e7\u0131lan qap\u0131msan m\u0259nim,
\nRuhumun, k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u00fcs\u0259n, V\u0259t\u0259n.
\nMayas\u0131 s\u0259nd\u0259dir m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sliyin,
\n\u0130lahi q\u00fcdr\u0259tin \u00f6z\u00fcs\u0259n, V\u0259t\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259lbimin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn nuru,
\nUludan ulusan, ucadan uca.
\nSal\u0131m qollar\u0131m\u0131 boynuna, V\u0259t\u0259n,
\nS\u0259ni misra-misra \u00f6p\u00fcm doyunca.<\/p>\n

Zirv\u0259l\u0259r s\u00f6z a\u00e7\u0131r ucal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan,
\nD\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r \u015fahiddir d\u0259rinliyin\u0259.
\nS\u0259nin b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tli, barl\u0131 torpa\u011f\u0131n,
\nGeni\u015f s\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259ri geyib \u0259ynin\u0259.<\/p>\n

H\u00fcn\u0259r d\u00fcnyas\u0131na g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u00fc sanki.
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr kitab\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259r s\u0259hif\u0259si.
\nH\u0259r bir qar\u0131\u015f\u0131nda duyulur, V\u0259t\u0259n.
\nZaman\u0131n add\u0131m\u0131, tarixin s\u0259si.<\/p>\n

Ulu \u0259cdadlar\u0131n da\u015fla\u015fan \u00f6mr\u00fc,
\nBoylan\u0131r La\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n qayalar\u0131ndan.
\nH\u0259r da\u015fda bir igid n\u0259r\u0259si yat\u0131r,
\nQan dam\u0131r tarixin yaralar\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n

Ell\u0259rin arzusu qanadlanaraq,
\nS\u00fcz\u0259c\u0259k s\u0259mada bir g\u00fcn qu\u015f t\u0259kin.
\n\u015e\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259 qorunan yurd yerl\u0259rind\u0259,
\nRuhu g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir ulu Bab\u0259kin.<\/p>\n

Taleyind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n q\u0259rin\u0259l\u0259rin,
\nAln\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259z\u0259yir \u0259r\u0259n imzas\u0131.
\nS\u0259nin q\u00fcdr\u0259tin\u0259 qo\u015fa qanadd\u0131r,
\nX\u0259tai q\u0131l\u0131nc\u0131, \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r saz\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ana laylas\u0131ndan h\u0259nir al\u0131bd\u0131,
\n\u00dcr\u0259kd\u0259 al\u0131\u015fan qeyr\u0259t oca\u011f\u0131.
\nDo\u011fmal\u0131q \u0259tirli h\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f torpaq,
\nAna quca\u011f\u0131d\u0131r, ana quca\u011f\u0131.<\/p>\n

O\u011ful qeyr\u0259tini \u0259ynin\u0259 gey\u0259n
\nCanl\u0131 s\u0259ng\u0259rl\u0259rin m\u00fcbar\u0259k, V\u0259t\u0259n.
\n\u0130lahi sevgiyl\u0259 yo\u011frulubdusa,
\nH\u0259r duy\u011fu V\u0259t\u0259ndi, h\u0259r \u00fcr\u0259k V\u0259t\u0259n.<\/p>\n

D\u0259rb\u0259nd qalas\u0131ndan T\u0259briz\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r,
\nUzanan bu yurdun s\u0259si i\u00e7imd\u0259.
\nM\u0259nim \u015eah babam\u0131n, \u015eah X\u0259tainin,
\n\u018fb\u0259di haray\u0131, \u0259rzi i\u00e7imd\u0259.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r bahar g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 s\u0131z\u0131ldayacaq
\nQ\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f buda\u011f\u0131n q\u00f6n\u00e7\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131.
\nBilir\u0259m q\u0259lbind\u0259 he\u00e7 uyumad\u0131
\nZ\u0259ng\u0259zur h\u0259sr\u0259ti, G\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ana laylas\u0131na hopan m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t
\nS\u0259nin t\u0259rav\u0259tin, \u0259trindi, V\u0259t\u0259n.
\nMill\u0259tin ruhunda, elin dilind\u0259,
\nDaim \u0259zizl\u0259n\u0259n x\u0259trindi, V\u0259t\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u00d6mr\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u00fcr o\u011ful qeyr\u0259ti,
\nC\u00fcr\u0259t qanad a\u00e7\u0131b h\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f\u0131nda.
\nV\u0259t\u0259n \u0259sg\u0259rinin m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tind\u0259n,
\n\u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259 sevgi var da\u011f\u0131n, da\u015f\u0131n da.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nin qeyr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n o\u011fullar
\nUlu q\u00fcdr\u0259tini duyur d\u0259rind\u0259n.
\nDurub ke\u015fiyind\u0259 igid \u0259r\u0259nl\u0259r,
\nQeyr\u0259t \u0259tri g\u0259lir s\u0259ng\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n.
\n_________________________________<\/p>\n

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Adil\u0259 N\u0259z\u0259r<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

<\/div>\n
\n

\"Ya\u015famad\u0131qlar\u0131m<\/p>\n

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K\u00d6N\u00dcL<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

T\u0259z\u0259 t\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259ri verdin k\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259,
\nBar\u0131 g\u00fcnortaya dur b\u0259l\u0259n, k\u00f6n\u00fcl.
\nAx\u015fam\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k, bir az tez el\u0259,
\nBir g\u00fcl\u0259- b\u00fclb\u00fcl\u0259 cilv\u0259l\u0259n, k\u00f6n\u00fcl.<\/p>\n

Ya\u015fa bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc toy-ni\u015fan kimi,
\nS\u00fcz\u00fcls\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259rin ball\u0131 \u015fan kimi.
\nQa\u011fay\u0131 d\u0259niz\u0259 yara\u015fan kimi,
\nS\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x sahil\u0259, l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259n, k\u00f6n\u00fcl.<\/p>\n

Dinl\u0259 bulaqlar\u0131, xo\u015fdur ah\u0259ngi,
\nHicrana, h\u0259sr\u0259t\u0259 bir az da l\u0259ngi.
\n\u0130lham\u0131n g\u0259tirsin n\u0259\u011fm\u0259 \u00e7\u0259l\u0259ngi,
\nBir t\u0259z\u0259 e\u015fq\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f, t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259n, k\u00f6n\u00fcl.<\/p>\n

Adil\u0259, n\u0259 olsun, quru buda\u011fam,
\nPay\u0131za yol ged\u0259n sar\u0131 yarpa\u011fam.
\nCadar-cadar olmu\u015f susuz torpa\u011fam,
\nYa\u011f\u0131\u015f ol, \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259n, k\u00f6n\u00fcl.<\/p>\n

***
\n\u00c7ox \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcr yaz k\u00fcl\u0259yi,
\nG\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r susur yar\u0131da.
\n\u018fl\u0259yir f\u0259l\u0259k \u0259l\u0259yi,
\nK\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr cavan da, qar\u0131 da..<\/p>\n

Q\u0131\u015f kimi ke\u00e7irik yaz\u0131,
\nBitm\u0259k bilmir a\u011fr\u0131, s\u0131z\u0131,
\nZal\u0131m geyir al-q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131,
\nM\u0259zlum soluxur sar\u0131da..<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan yer\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259yir..
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn axtar\u0131r, s\u0259sl\u0259yir.
\n\u018fkir, b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcr, b\u0259sl\u0259yir,
\nQism\u0259t olmay\u0131r bar\u0131 da.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259lbd\u0259n qeyri yer oymuruq,
\nQ\u0259mi \u00e7\u0259km\u0259kd\u0259n doymuruq.
\nO bizik, he\u00e7 n\u0259 duymuruq,
\nQulaq var d\u0259lir dar\u0131 da…<\/p>\n

Utan\u0131r\u0131q s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259,
\nSual verm\u0259k olmaz, dey\u0259..
\nD\u0259rdi g\u00f6nd\u0259rir b\u0259nd\u0259y\u0259,
\nD\u0259rman\u0131 qal\u0131r Tanr\u0131da.<\/p>\n

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Mahcamal Babayeva<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

<\/div>\n
\n

\"Mahcamal<\/p>\n

Alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 d\u0259nizd\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u00fcrr, Ay gec\u0259 yar\u0131.
\nAy nurlu iz \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r say gec\u0259 yar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bir k\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015faq vaxt\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n n\u0259z\u0259r etdi,
\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcm dil\u0259 g\u0259ldi, dedi lay-lay gec\u0259 yar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Durmaz \u0259b\u0259diyy\u0259t yuxusundan, daha durmaz,
\nVerm\u0259z s\u0259n\u0259 bir xo\u015f n\u0259f\u0259sin pay gec\u0259 yar\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnd\u00fcz g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn l\u00f6vh\u0259sin h\u00fcsn\u00fcnd\u0259 niqab et!
\nA\u011flar g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00e7a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n yay gec\u0259 yar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Mart \u00e7\u0131xsa da candan \u00e7\u0131xa bilmir yeni d\u0259rdin,
\nAprel bitib, atm\u0131\u015f q\u0259d\u0259min May gec\u0259 yar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yetmir ki \u0259lim, b\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259sim yetdi deyirdin,
\n\u018ffsus ki \u201cO\u201d da, verm\u0259di bir hay gec\u0259 yar\u0131.<\/p>\n

A\u00e7d\u0131n bu \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u0259hn\u0259sinin p\u0259rd\u0259sin a\u011flar!
\nEy Mahcamal etdin yen\u0259 ah-vay gec\u0259 yar\u0131!<\/p>\n

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Apard\u0131<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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Bo\u015funa ke\u00e7irmir vaxt\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm!
\nQurur sin\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 taxt\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm!
\nS\u0131nay\u0131r h\u0259r bir an baxt\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm!
\nB\u0259xti g\u0259tirm\u0259s\u0259 bir ya\u011fl\u0131 nadan,
\nB\u0259xti g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259\u00a0 Sabir apard\u0131!<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u00fcn\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6y\u0259ndir \u00f6l\u00fcm.
\nYax\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00f6y\u0259ndir \u00f6l\u00fcm.
\nH\u0259r g\u00fcn m\u0259rd qap\u0131s\u0131n d\u00f6y\u0259ndir \u00f6l\u00fcm!
\nQap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lmasa bir q\u0259birqazan,
\nQap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131landa Cabir apard\u0131!<\/p>\n

Talay\u0131r arzunu, dil\u0259yi \u00f6l\u00fcm.
\nS\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131r arxan\u0131, dir\u0259yi \u00f6l\u00fcm!
\nSusdurmaq ist\u0259yir \u00fcr\u0259yi \u00f6l\u00fcm!
\nSusdura bilm\u0259s\u0259 bir yolun azan,
\nSusdura bil\u0259nd\u0259 Mahir apard\u0131!<\/p>\n

Kimin\u0259 \u0259n n\u0259h\u0259ng nifr\u0259tdir \u00f6l\u00fcm!
\nKimin\u0259 \u0259n y\u00fcks\u0259k qiym\u0259tdir \u00f6l\u00fcm!
\nKimin\u0259 \u015f\u0259r\u0259fdir, \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tdir \u00f6l\u00fcm!
\nBu g\u00fcn \u201cO\u201d \u015f\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259, \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tl\u0259 yazan,
\nBir Arif\u00a0 ad\u0131nda \u015eair\u00a0 apard\u0131!
\n___________________________________<\/p>\n

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Aysel Xanlarq\u0131z\u0131<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

<\/div>\n
\n

\"\u018fD\u018fB\u0130YYAT<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

S\u018fN G\u018fLD\u0130N\u00a0<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

Xatir\u0259l\u0259r kirl\u0259nmi\u015fdi o gec\u0259,
\nYudum, yudum, kirpikl\u0259rimd\u0259n asd\u0131m.
\nYad \u0259ll\u0259rd\u0259 isitdiyin \u0259lini,
\nK\u00f6z el\u0259yib \u0259ll\u0259rim\u0259 da\u011f basd\u0131m.
\nM\u0259n ovcumda \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259kdim,
\ns\u0259n g\u0259ldin…<\/p>\n

Bir u\u00e7qunda da\u011f\u0131nt\u0131lar alt\u0131ndan,
\n\u00d6lm\u0259mi\u015fdim, yaralan\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m.
\nBir gec\u0259d\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rinin tumar\u0131,
\nBoya kimi sa\u00e7lar\u0131mdan axm\u0131\u015fd\u0131…
\nM\u0259n sa\u00e7\u0131mdan \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259kdim,
\ns\u0259n g\u0259ldin…<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 qay\u0131q oldu h\u0259sr\u0259tin,
\nBo\u011fulanda tutub \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m na\u0259lac.
\nBu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n h\u0259r n\u0259yin\u0259 tox ruhum,
\nT\u0259kc\u0259 s\u0259nin saf e\u015fqin\u0259 acd\u0131, ac,
\nM\u0259n ac\u0131ndan \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259kdim,
\ns\u0259n g\u0259ldin…<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yim\u0259 g\u00fcn do\u011fmad\u0131 bir d\u0259f\u0259,
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr ke\u00e7di gec\u0259 kimi qoynumda…
\nUnutma\u011fa g\u00fcc y\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m i\u00e7imd\u0259,
\nSoyunurdum bu sevgini \u0259ynimd\u0259n.
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcc\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259kdim,
\ns\u0259n g\u0259ldin…<\/p>\n

Son \u015feirimi son n\u0259f\u0259s t\u0259k, yazmam\u0131\u015f,
\nS\u00f6z i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259kdim,
\ns\u0259n g\u0259ldin…<\/p>\n

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\n

S\u018fNS\u018fN<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Qollar\u0131na avar \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin,
\nQuca\u011f\u0131nd\u0131r s\u0259cd\u0259 yeri, and yeri.
\nH\u0259sr\u0259tin\u0259 yor\u011fun d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin
\nYana\u011f\u0131nda biri var ki\u2026 o, s\u0259ns\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Dan yerinin sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 saraldan,
\nQay\u0131d\u0131\u015f yox, q\u00fcrub adl\u0131 bir yoldan.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimi g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn va\u011fzalda
\nGecikdiyim bir qatar ki\u2026 o, s\u0259ns\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Bahar qollar\u0131mda, pay\u0131z sa\u00e7\u0131mda,
\n\u015eehli bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n kirpik ucunda.
\n\u015eirin g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin titr\u0259k ovcunda,
\nBir xatir\u0259 yeri var ki\u2026 o, s\u0259ns\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Ulduzlar\u0131n gec\u0259 r\u0259ngli g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259,
\nV\u00fccudumun h\u0259r s\u0259tirlik izind\u0259,
\nBir \u015feirin k\u00f6z\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259
\nMisralar\u0131 dar\u0131xar ki\u2026 o, s\u0259ns\u0259n.<\/p>\n

N\u0259f\u0259sin\u0259 qurban etdim zaman\u0131,
\nKitab-kitab s\u00f6z\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259n insan\u0131m.
\nBu dunyada sevgi adl\u0131 unvan\u0131m,
\nHardan bilsin adamlar ki\u2026 o, s\u0259ns\u0259n.
\n\u00a0____________________________________<\/b><\/p>\n

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Sevil Azadq\u0131z\u0131<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

<\/div>\n
\n

\"\u270d<\/p>\n

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C\u018fNN\u018fT N\u018fF\u018fSL\u0130\u00a0 ANAM<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bilir\u0259m,
\nd\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rini d\u0259rs\u0259m,
\nYen\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rinin \u0259trini verm\u0259z…
\nS\u0259n m\u0259nim h\u0259m ilk s\u00f6z\u00fcm,
\nH\u0259m son s\u0131\u011f\u0131naca\u011f\u0131msan, Anam!<\/p>\n

S\u0259n el\u0259 bir qad\u0131nsan ki,
\ndualar\u0131nla taleyimi toxuyursan.
\nSa\u00e7\u0131ndak\u0131 h\u0259r a\u011f tel
\nm\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir f\u0259dakarl\u0131q dastan\u0131d\u0131r.
\nBax\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda dinc\u0259lir ruhum,
\nG\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259 bahar gizl\u0259nib, Anam!<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn t\u0259kc\u0259 t\u0259qvim bayram\u0131 deyil,
\nBu g\u00fcn m\u0259nim d\u00fcnyam\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr.
\n\u00c7\u00fcnki d\u00fcnya s\u0259ninl\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r,
\nS\u0259nin sevgini geyininc\u0259 isinir \u00fcr\u0259yim, Anam!<\/p>\n

Yax\u015f\u0131 ki var\u0131msan,
\nYax\u015f\u0131 ki m\u0259nim Anamsan!
\nBayram\u0131n m\u00fcbar\u0259k, ey d\u00fcnyam\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n insan!
\nBayram\u0131n m\u00fcbar\u0259k, Anam!<\/p>\n

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\u00d6MR\u00dcM\u018f G\u018fL\u018fN YAZ, SEV\u0130ND\u0130R M\u018fN\u0130<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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G\u0259li\u015finl\u0259 buz ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f s\u00fckutu da\u011f\u0131t,
\nBarmaqlar\u0131n toxunsun ruhumun titr\u0259k siml\u0259rin\u0259.
\nS\u0259n sad\u0259c\u0259 t\u0259qvimin d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259n v\u0259r\u0259qi deyil,
\n\u0130ll\u0259rdir yor\u011fun d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f \u00fcmidl\u0259rimin canlan\u0131\u015f\u0131san.
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n yaz, sevindir m\u0259ni!<\/p>\n

Bax, h\u0259r tumurcuq bir suald\u0131r \u0259slind\u0259:
\n“Niy\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 dayan\u0131rsan?”- deyir k\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259.
\nK\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fcz torpa\u011f\u0131n qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda olsa da,
\n\u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fcz g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u0259dal\u0259tin\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259fdir.
\nH\u0259yat \u2013 itirdikl\u0259rimizl\u0259 qazand\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n
\no q\u0259rib\u0259, o amans\u0131z tarazl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin r\u0259ngini deyil,
\nOnlar\u0131n dik durmaq c\u0259sar\u0259tini g\u0259tir.
\nPay\u0131zdan qalan o sar\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259ri
\nYa\u015f\u0131l\u0131n sonsuz s\u0259das\u0131yla \u00f6rt.
\n\u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259r k\u0259s bahar\u0131 r\u0259sm ed\u0259 bil\u0259r,
\nAmma h\u0259r k\u0259s bahar\u0131 ya\u015faya bilm\u0259z i\u00e7ind\u0259.<\/p>\n

G\u0259l ki, zaman\u0131n o k\u0259sici t\u0259r\u0259fi k\u00fctl\u0259\u015fsin,
\nG\u0259l ki, gedi\u015fl\u0259rin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 q\u00f6n\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 gizl\u0259nsin.
\nBir u\u015faq sevinci q\u0259d\u0259r sad\u0259,
\nBir filosof s\u00fckutu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259rin ol.
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n yaz…
\nYaln\u0131z p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259m\u0259 deyil,
\nYor\u011fun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rim\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f sal,
\nSevindir m\u0259ni.
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n yaz,\u00a0 sevindir m\u0259ni!
\n____________________________________<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Esmira M\u018fH\u0130QIZI<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"Esmira<\/p>\n

* * *
\nS\u0259ni g\u00fcn a\u011flada, bulud a\u011flada,
\nsonra da bir islaq umud a\u011flada,
\ns\u0259ni etm\u0259diyin s\u00fcbut a\u011flada-
\ndey\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259n etm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Barma\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda t\u0259tik olasan,
\nq\u0259fil a\u00e7\u0131lma\u011fa \u00fct\u00fck olasan,
\nham\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 itik olasan-
\ndey\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259n itm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Uzaqdan ke\u00e7\u0259s\u0259n, gend\u0259n ged\u0259s\u0259n,
\nqona bilm\u0259diyin g\u00fcnd\u0259n ged\u0259s\u0259n,
\nged\u0259nd\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n, kimd\u0259n ged\u0259s\u0259n-
\nsonra dem\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259n getm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.
\n______________________________________<\/p>\n

M\u0259n bel\u0259 gedir\u0259m, bel\u0259 y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcr,
\nm\u0259n bel\u0259 g\u0259lir\u0259m, g\u0259l\u0259 y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcr,
\nel\u0259 ayaq a\u00e7\u0131b, el\u0259 y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcr-
\nm\u0259ni \u00f6t\u00fcb gedir d\u0259rdl\u0259rim bel\u0259.<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcr, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcr s\u00f6z-bez,
\nd\u0259rdin duman\u0131nda yolu sez ki sez,
\n\u0259vv\u0259l dala\u015fard\u0131m, k\u00fcs\u0259rdim tez-tez-
\nindi bar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam d\u0259rdl\u0259rim il\u0259.<\/p>\n

Bir yola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, yol d\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r,
\nol d\u0259rdd\u0259n ba\u015flay\u0131r, \u00f6l d\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r,
\n\u00fcz tutub hayana gets\u0259m d\u0259, ax\u0131r –
\nm\u0259n gedib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram d\u0259rdl\u0259rimgil\u0259..<\/p>\n

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\u00a0 \u00a0 \u015eahnaz \u015eahin<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"\u015eu\u015fada<\/p>\n

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\u00a0 \u00a0 Gec\u0259nin duas\u0131…<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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Ha su t\u00f6kd\u00fcm, yaz olmad\u0131 bu d\u0259rdim,
\nKotan \u00e7\u0259kdim, d\u00fcz olmad\u0131 bu d\u0259rdim.
\nS\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa kim\u0259 des\u0259m bu d\u0259rdi…
\nBa\u011f\u0131\u015flamaz…
\nAllah, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla…<\/p>\n

Bir hasar \u00e7\u0259k, dibl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00fcl d\u0259 \u0259k,
\nQ\u0259l\u0259m g\u00f6t\u00fcr, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 s\u00fcrm\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k.
\n\u00c7\u0131x\u0131b ged\u0259r b\u0259ni-Ad\u0259m t\u0259kb\u0259t\u0259k…
\nBa\u011f\u0131\u015flamaz…
\nAllah, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla…
\nS\u0131x g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011f vara\u011fa qara yaz,
\nSar\u0131 deyil Sar\u0131 g\u0259lin… bir d\u0259 yaz.
\nG\u00fcnah\u0131m var, n\u0259 f\u0259rqi ki, \u00e7ox, ya az..
\nBa\u011f\u0131\u015flamaz…
\nAllah, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla…<\/p>\n

Quru yerdi ba\u015f qoydu\u011fum and yeri.
\nHey s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr arzular\u0131n b\u0259nd yeri.
\nDilimd\u0259di T\u00f6vb\u0259, \u0130man, F\u0259nd yeri…
\nBa\u011f\u0131\u015flamaz?
\nAllah, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla… ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla…<\/p>\n

**\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 **<\/b><\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yim\u0259 yatmad\u0131
\nOxudu\u011fun bu n\u0259\u011fm\u0259.
\nGec\u0259l\u0259rin i\u00e7ind\u0259n,
\nS\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u0259l eyl\u0259m\u0259.
\nSevgi m\u0259ktubu yazma,
\nTa m\u0259n\u0259 qu\u015f dilind\u0259.
\nG\u00f6yl\u0259r yerl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r,
\nNar\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u00a0 dilind\u0259.
\nRuhum u\u00e7du\u011fu yer d\u0259,
\nRuhlar al\u0259mi deyil.
\nF\u0131rt\u0131nalar \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259,
\nNeyl\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259r sahil.
\nBiz ki, qohum deyilik,
\nAx\u0131 niy\u0259 qan \u00e7\u0259kir.
\n\u018flimd\u0259 yol biletim,
\nM\u0259ni son g\u00fcman \u00e7\u0259kir.
\nUnuduram \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc,
\nUnuduram s\u0259ni d\u0259.
\nO oca\u011f\u0131, o k\u00f6z\u00fc,
\nO b\u0259nz\u0259rsiz t\u0259mi d\u0259…
\nBurax, burax \u0259limi,
\n\u0130caz\u0259 ver, qoy gedim.
\nBir d\u0259 qovu\u015facaqm\u0131,
\nYollar….
\nM\u0259n hardan bilim.
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G\u00fcl\u0259r Natiq \u0130sak<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n
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\"\u0130ndi<\/p>\n

M\u0259n s\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131m<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

M\u0259n s\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131m – bu, m\u0259\u011flubiyy\u0259t deyil,
\nSusma\u011f\u0131 se\u00e7dim, k\u0259sdim m\u0259nas\u0131z hayq\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131.
\nDa\u015fla\u015fan bu s\u0259brimd\u0259 t\u00fck\u0259ndi h\u0259r n\u0259 varsa,
\nBa\u011flad\u0131m \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 bir sevgi qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

Gizlind\u0259 \u00e7ox a\u011flad\u0131m, gizl\u0259tdim aynalardan,
\n\u00c7ox yalanlar dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259, ke\u00e7sin dey\u0259.
\nA\u011fr\u0131sam da s\u0131nma\u011f\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 yara\u015fd\u0131rmad\u0131m,
\nL\u0259yaq\u0259tl\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259tdim d\u0259rdimi b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n

Neyn\u0259k, m\u0259ni itirm\u0259k s\u0259nin se\u00e7imin idi,
\nQalmaq m\u0259nim s\u0259brimd\u0259n do\u011fulan k\u00f6rp\u0259 oldu.
\nSit\u0259mli yalvar\u0131\u015flar bit\u0259n g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcn idi,
\nS\u0259nin z\u0259rb\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bu e\u015fq \u00f6l\u00fc do\u011fuldu.<\/p>\n

Qoy, \u0130sadan sonra da el\u0259 \u00e7arm\u0131xa \u00e7\u0131xan
\nBu q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00e7atan n\u00f6vb\u0259si olsun.
\nM\u0259ni unutma\u011f\u0131n da, m\u0259ni itirm\u0259yin d\u0259
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcnahlar\u0131n\u0131n sonsuz t\u00f6vb\u0259si olsun!<\/p>\n

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13-\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

Saat on \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131 idi,
\ngec\u0259nin q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir b\u0259ndi…
\nBu gec\u0259 yen\u0259 oyaq idim,
\nsabaha sa\u011f \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m,
\naln\u0131ma dir\u0259nmi\u015f kirpik uclar\u0131ndan.
\nKe\u015fikd\u0259 idim – ay\u0131q-say\u0131q.
\nBir az da qorxurdum,
\n\u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n bir h\u0259rf d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r, it\u0259r dey\u0259…
\nP\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla \u0259zb\u0259rl\u0259yirdim
\nyeni yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u0259ndi.
\nBir \u015feir
\nt\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259nirdi gec\u0259nin duy\u011fusunda.
\nArada var-g\u0259l ed\u0259n
\nn\u0259f\u0259sim\u0259 oxuyurdu:<\/p>\n

\u201cG\u00f6rd\u00fcn, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcrs\u0259n, yand\u0131r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc…\u201d
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Niluf\u0259r \u015e\u0131xl\u0131<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"\u018fD\u018fB\u0130YYAT<\/p>\n

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N\u018f ZAMAN K\u0130…<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

N\u0259 zaman ki, bir g\u00fcn unudularsan,
\nS\u0259fal\u0259t k\u00f6lg\u0259si ad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r,
\nEtdiyin s\u0259hvl\u0259r\u0259 pe\u015fman olarsan,
\nVarlar\u0131n, yoxlar\u0131n yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni xar el\u0259y\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259r
\nO m\u0259\u011frur ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 salar.
\nAmma n\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259r… \u00f6t\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb ill\u0259r…
\nGe\u00e7ikmi\u015f etiraf \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qalar.<\/p>\n

Geriy\u0259 qay\u0131tmaz birc\u0259 an bel\u0259,
\n\u00c7irkabdan t\u0259miz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131lmaz daha.
\nBatd\u0131qca batarsan s\u0259n bil\u0259-bil\u0259,
\n\u0130tirdiyin zaman d\u00f6nm\u0259z sabaha.<\/p>\n

\u00d6mr\u00fcn\u0259-g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 buraxma \u015f\u0259ri,
\nPe\u015fman olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yoxdur d\u0259y\u0259ri!<\/p>\n

***
\nBir-bir \u0259l \u00fczd\u00fcy\u00fcn \u015firin arzular
\nYuxuna g\u0259ldikc\u0259 a\u011flasan \u0259g\u0259r,
\nSabaha baxmasan yeni \u00fcmidl\u0259,
\nD\u0259rdini \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 saxlasan \u0259g\u0259r,<\/p>\n

K\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259s\u0259 b\u0259xtin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n,
\nG\u00f6z\u0259l duy\u011fular\u0131n solsa, saralsa,
\nD\u00fcn\u0259ni g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n salan qorxular
\nS\u0259ni d\u0259 bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n salsa,<\/p>\n

Q\u0131nama kims\u0259ni – \u00f6z g\u00fcnah\u0131nd\u0131!
\n\u0130ntiqam alma\u011fa b\u0259ra\u0259tin yox!
\nDem\u0259k ki, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yoxdu inam\u0131n,
\nYa da inanma\u011fa c\u0259sar\u0259tin yox?!<\/p>\n

U\u011fur g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xmaz arzulamaqla,
\nO, al\u0131n t\u0259rind\u0259n c\u00fcc\u0259rib \u00e7\u0131xar!
\nSabah\u0131 q\u0259lbiyl\u0259 suvaran insan
\nH\u0259r k\u0259sin g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 v\u00fcqarla baxar!
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Sevinc Yunuslu<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"\u018fD\u018fB\u0130YYAT<\/p>\n

***<\/b>
\n\u00d6t\u0259n q\u0131\u015f \u00f6td\u00fc \u015faxtal\u0131,
\nDedim\u2026 dedim ki, yaz g\u0259l\u0259.
\nUnut m\u0259ni, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m gedim,
\nGedim\u2026 gedim ki, yaz g\u0259l\u0259.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131md\u0131 ya\u011fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f,
\nSevgim b\u0259z\u0259k, sevgim nax\u0131\u015f.
\nG\u0259r\u0259k sevdiyim\u0259 bu q\u0131\u015f,
\nYetim\u2026 yetim ki, yaz g\u0259l\u0259.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131\u015fdan q\u0131\u015f\u0131 d\u0259rib bahar,
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rib bahar,
\nBu q\u0131\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u0259rib bahar,
\nedim\u2026 edim ki, yaz g\u0259l\u0259,
\nGedim, gedim ki, yaz g\u0259l\u0259.<\/p>\n

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Tufanl\u0131 havada, boranl\u0131 q\u0131\u015fda,
\n\u015eehl\u0259ns\u0259 bilin\u0259r g\u00fcl\u00fcn sevinci.
\nKi\u00e7icik nam\u0259d\u0259, b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00fcmidl\u0259,
\nNec\u0259 sevindirdiz, bilin, Sevinci.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ay da\u015fdan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb birl\u0259\u015fs\u0259 da\u011fla,
\nQar\u015f\u0131s\u0131 al\u0131nmaz hasarla,ba\u011fla.
\nHa \u00e7arp\u0131\u015f, ha toqqu\u015f, yolunu ba\u011fla,
\nN\u0259 olsa a\u015farm\u0131\u015f selin sevinci.<\/p>\n

Bahar arzusunu nurlu \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259,
\n\u00c7atd\u0131rar h\u0259r yana xo\u015f bir k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259.
\nDill\u0259ns\u0259 bir arzu t\u0259miz dil\u0259kl\u0259,
\n\u00dcr\u0259kd\u0259n da\u015farm\u0131\u015f dilin sevinci.
\n________________________________<\/p>\n

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\u015eahin\u0259 K\u00f6n\u00fcl\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n
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\"G\u00f6r\u0259n<\/div>\n
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NA\u011eIL<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n
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G\u0259ls\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fam,
\nBir qarag\u00f6z q\u0131z na\u011f\u0131l\u0131.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ax\u0131b getsin,
\nBir \u015f\u0131d\u0131r\u011f\u0131 yaz na\u011f\u0131l\u0131.<\/div>\n
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S\u00f6yl\u0259yim, \u00f6yr\u0259n q\u0259d\u0259rin
\n\u015eahididir g\u00f6r n\u0259l\u0259rin-
\nQara-qara gec\u0259l\u0259rin
\nD\u00fcma\u011f, b\u0259mb\u0259yaz na\u011f\u0131l\u0131.<\/div>\n
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K\u00f6ks\u00fc \u00fcstd\u0259 buludu var,
\nK\u00f6ks\u00fc altda umudu var.
\nBird\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259r, unudular,
\nG\u00f6t\u00fcr, qarda\u015f, yaz na\u011f\u0131l\u0131.<\/div>\n
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AL\u00c7AQ \u00dcR\u018fY\u0130M<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n
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Dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam s\u0259nin\u00e7\u00fcn,
\nAy t\u0259miz, a\u011f \u00fcr\u0259yim.
\nHardasan, ay b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259,
\nN\u0259rgiz, zanba\u011f \u00fcr\u0259yim?Kimdi s\u0259n\u0259 da\u015f atan,
\nKimd\u0259n g\u0259ldi xo\u015f xatan,
\nE\u015fqi qan\u0131na q\u0259ltan,
\nK\u00f6ks\u00fc da\u011f-da\u011f \u00fcr\u0259yim?A\u011flama, b\u0259sdi, kiri,
\nDedimmi, sevm\u0259 \u015feri,
\nAy bir zaman dipdiri,
\nAy sappasa\u011f \u00fcr\u0259yim?!\u0130ndi yan-yax\u0131l bel\u0259,
\n\u0130ndi \u00e7ox s\u0131x\u0131l bel\u0259.
\nM\u0259rd \u015eahin\u0259 K\u00f6n\u00fcl\u0259,
\nNam\u0259rd, al\u00e7a\u011f \u00fcr\u0259yim.
\n_________________________<\/div>\n
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\u018ff\u015fan Yusifq\u0131z\u0131<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n
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\n

\"\u0130nsandan<\/p>\n

\u00d6td\u00fc g\u0259nclik ill\u0259ri,
\nSoldu k\u00f6n\u00fcl g\u00fcll\u0259ri.
\nM\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin tell\u0259ri,
\nTamam q\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131 getdi.<\/p>\n

G\u0259ncliyim\u0259 ya\u011fan qar,
\nEtdi bu d\u00fcnyam\u0131 dar.
\nQocald\u0131qca arzular,
\nK\u00f6n\u00fcl xar oldu getdi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259hv oldu ewq b\u0259h\u0259rim
\nBogur m\u0259ni q\u0259h\u0259rim,
\nA\u00e7ilmayir s\u0259h\u0259rim,
\nGec\u0259m zar oldu getdi.<\/p>\n

Bir vaxt axar \u00e7ay idim,
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f idim,Ay idim.
\nAllahdan xo\u015f pay idim,
\nG\u0259nclik\u00a0 yoruldu getdi.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 h\u0259yas\u0131,
\n\u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259 var ziyas\u0131.
\n\u018ff\u015fan\u0131n e\u015fq d\u00fcnyas\u0131,
\n\u00c7\u00f6kd\u00fc,tar oldu getdi.
\n_________________________<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Yen\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131r ah\u0259st\u0259 bir s\u0259s,
\n\u015eair, ilham\u0131n\u0131 al gec\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n.
\nQ\u0259l\u0259mim bir s\u0259trin telin daray\u0131r,
\nBir n\u0259\u011fm\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr bal gec\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n.<\/div>\n
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Bir zaman aldad\u0131b sevgi oynuna,
\nHicran qollar\u0131n\u0131 sald\u0131 boynuma,
\nAxd\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m gizli qoynuma,
\nD\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 xal, gec\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n.<\/div>\n
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G\u00f6zl\u0259dim sabah\u0131 dan s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcnc\u0259,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259dim\u00a0 sa\u00e7\u0131ma d\u0259n t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcnc\u0259,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259dim k\u0259f\u0259n\u0259 can b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fcnc\u0259,
\nBir \u00f6m\u00fcr \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc lal gec\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n.
\n________________________________<\/div>\n
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Mahir\u0259 N\u0259rimanq\u0131z\u0131 Mahi<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Yen\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 g\u0259zir x\u0259yal\u0131m,
\nDey\u0259s\u0259n, \u015f\u0131d\u0131r\u011f\u0131 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011facaq…
\nGedim buludlar\u0131n qadas\u0131n al\u0131m,
\nYoxsa, m\u0259lul-m\u0259lul durub baxacaq.<\/p>\n

Tutum\u00a0 k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259rin \u0259t\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259n,
\nA\u011fappaq bant vurum g\u0259linl\u0259r kimi,
\n\u015eim\u015f\u0259yin t\u00fcf\u0259ngin al\u0131m \u0259lind\u0259n,
\n\u00c7axma\u011f\u0131n qopar\u0131m bil\u0259nl\u0259r kimi…<\/p>\n

Al\u0131m Ay n\u0259n\u0259min ip\u0259k yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n,
\nSilim g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn al\u0131n t\u0259rini,
\nAts\u0131nlar da\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qoy subayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n,
\nUlduzun ulduza verim \u0259lini.<\/p>\n

Sevinsin g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc, ya\u011fmas\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f,
\nGec\u0259ni qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z ke\u00e7ir\u0259k bu g\u00fcn,
\nGed\u0259nl\u0259r getmi\u015fdir, x\u0259yallar qalm\u0131\u015f,
\nBir m\u0259n\u0259m, bir ke\u00e7mi\u015f… bir \u00fcr\u0259k bu g\u00fcn…
\n____________________________________<\/p>\n

GETM\u018fK<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

Getm\u0259k t\u0259k qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xmaq deyil\u00a0 ki,
\nb\u0259z\u0259n bir s\u00f6z il\u0259 getm\u0259k d\u0259 olur,
\nB\u0259z\u0259n bir bax\u0131\u015fla, bir i\u015far\u0259yl\u0259,
\ns\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00a0 il\u0259 getm\u0259k d\u0259 olur.<\/p>\n

Bir dam alt\u0131nda da getmi\u015f olursan,
\nb\u0259z\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yin \u00f6z qap\u0131s\u0131n az\u0131r,
\nB\u0259z\u0259n \u00f6z i\u00e7ind\u0259 itmi\u015f olursan,
\nq\u0259lbin\u0259 bir yadl\u0131q, \u00f6zg\u0259lik s\u0131z\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Bo\u015f qal\u0131r k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fck hiss\u0259si,
\ndolur ora bo\u015fluq, dolur he\u00e7 n\u0259l\u0259r,
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcnd\u0259n silinir ilin\u00a0 \u00fc\u00e7 f\u0259sli,
\nbir f\u0259sl\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131r bo\u015f q\u0259rin\u0259l\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Bo\u015f qalan yuva t\u0259k olursan o an,
\np\u0259r\u011fular\u00a0 k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259 sovrulub gedir,
\nF\u0259rqi olmur \u00f6t\u00fcr…, dayan\u0131r zaman,
\n\u00f6mr\u00fcn s\u0259hra kimi qovrulub gedir.<\/p>\n

Getm\u0259k t\u0259k qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xmaq deyil ki,
\nYuxudan oyanmaq kimidi getm\u0259k…
\n_____________________________________<\/p>\n

Naib\u0259 Yusub\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

\"Poetik<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Ki\u00e7ilib, ovuca q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131b d\u00fcnya,
\n\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa oyuq g\u0259zir\u0259m.
\nF\u0131rlan\u0131r durmadan, h\u0259rl\u0259nir ba\u015f\u0131m,
\nS\u0259rxo\u015f d\u00fcnyam\u0131zda ay\u0131q g\u0259zir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
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D\u00fcnyadan as\u0131l\u0131b \u0259srl\u0259r, aylar,
\nCan verir \u00e7arx\u0131nda q\u0131z\u0131l saraylar,
\n\u00c7\u0259kdikc\u0259 hesab\u0131 k\u00fckr\u0259y\u0259n \u00e7aylar
\nSahil\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa qay\u0131q g\u0259zir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
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Gizl\u0259yib cismind\u0259 d\u0259fin\u0259l\u0259ri,
\nBat\u0131r\u0131b qoynunda s\u0259fin\u0259l\u0259ri,
\nA\u00e7\u0131b yaxas\u0131ndan q\u0259rin\u0259l\u0259ri,
\nZaman\u0131 udma\u011fa a\u015f\u0131q g\u0259zir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
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\u018fsrin bad\u0259sin\u0259 dolduqca ill\u0259r,
\nB\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb d\u00f6vr\u0259sin ki\u00e7ik s\u0259fill\u0259r,
\nBitib-t\u00fck\u0259ndikc\u0259 soylar, \u0259sill\u0259r,
\nD\u0259rdini \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 a\u015fiq g\u0259zir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
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\u0130nl\u0259yir ovucda \u0130slam d\u00fcnyas\u0131,
\nY\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 Q\u0259rbin riyas\u0131,
\nHan\u0131 Ulu \u015e\u0259rqin parlaq ziyas\u0131,
\nZ\u00fclm\u0259tl\u0259r qoynunda i\u015f\u0131q g\u0259zir\u0259m?<\/div>\n
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\u00dcmidl\u0259r ba\u011flan\u0131b \u0259s\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259,
\nBir g\u00fcn qanad ver\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n l\u0259l\u0259y\u0259…
\n\u0130xtiyar\u0131 verib T\u00fclk\u00fc l\u0259l\u0259y\u0259
\nPay\u0131m\u0131 alma\u011fa qa\u015f\u0131q g\u0259zir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0<\/div>\n
Bir h\u0259zin n\u0259\u011fm\u0259y\u0259m,oxuya bils\u0259n,
\nBir z\u0259rif l\u0259\u00e7\u0259y\u0259m, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcls\u0259n,
\nSularda boy ver\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc sils\u0259n,
\nSanaram, ulduz da, Ay da m\u0259nimdir…<\/div>\n
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G\u00fcl \u0259tirli yaz\u0131n mehini bils\u0259n,
\nUlduzlu s\u0259man\u0131n \u015fehini bils\u0259n,
\n\u00d6t\u0259n h\u0259r zaman\u0131n behini bils\u0259n,
\nSanaram, bahar da, yay da m\u0259nimdir.<\/div>\n
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Dayazda \u00fczm\u0259r\u0259m, d\u0259rini bils\u0259n,
\nGec\u0259d\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn \u015f\u0259rini bils\u0259n,
\nNaib\u0259, d\u00fcnyada yerini bils\u0259n,
\nSanaram, d\u0259niz d\u0259, \u00e7ay da m\u0259nimdir.
\n_____________________________________S\u0259ad\u0259t Buta\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n

\"Az\u0259rbaycan<\/p>\n

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G\u018fLD\u0130M, G\u018fLM\u018fD\u0130N<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

S\u0259n g\u0259z\u0259n yerl\u0259ri, yar, add\u0131m-add\u0131m
\nYoxlamaq ist\u0259dim, g\u0259ldim, g\u0259lm\u0259din.
\n\u018ftrin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fc, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yi
\nQoxlamaq ist\u0259dim, g\u0259ldim, g\u0259lm\u0259din.<\/p>\n

D\u00f6nd\u0259rib bir s\u0259rin meh\u0259 \u0259limi,
\nOx\u015famaq ist\u0259dim b\u0259yaz telini.
\nDoldurub g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 da\u011flar g\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fc
\nSaxlamaq ist\u0259dim,\u00a0 g\u0259ldim, g\u0259lm\u0259din.<\/p>\n

Apara bilm\u0259r\u0259m gora sevdam\u0131,
\nButan\u0131n ba\u011fr\u0131nda yara sevdam\u0131.
\nQara taleyimi, qara sevdam\u0131
\nBa\u011flamaq ist\u0259dim, g\u0259ldim, g\u0259lm\u0259din.<\/p>\n

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A \u011e L A<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Bayram\u0131n m\u00fcbar\u0259k,anam m\u0259nim.<\/div>\n
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Ana ,m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcn a\u011fla,
\nYad a\u011flasa yalan a\u011flar.
\n“D\u0259rdi dem\u0259 d\u0259rt bilm\u0259z\u0259,”
\nD\u0259rdi olan yanar a\u011flar.<\/div>\n
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G\u00fcn yand\u0131rar k\u00f6lg\u0259nd\u0259 tut,
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc yox, d\u0259rdi unut.
\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcm t\u0259\u015fn\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm bulud,
\nLeysan kimi\u00a0 ya\u011far a\u011flar.<\/div>\n
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G\u00fcnd\u00fc, ayd\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259r ged\u0259r,
\nZaman bizi \u0259l\u0259r ged\u0259r.
\nBir g\u00fcn\u00a0 \u015eird\u0259 m\u0259l\u0259r ged\u0259r,
\nBizd\u0259n bet\u0259r yaman a\u011flar.<\/div>\n
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D\u00fcnya gerc\u0259k yalan dem\u0259,
\nVar d\u00fcnyada qalan dem\u0259.
\nA\u011flayanda balam dem\u0259,
\nG\u00f6z-g\u00f6z olar yaram a\u011flar.<\/div>\n
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Nadan ya\u015far l\u0259l i\u00e7ind\u0259,
\nButa qordu,k\u00fcl i\u00e7ind\u0259.
\nAna, b\u00fclb\u00fcl g\u00fcl i\u00e7ind\u0259
\n\u00d6z ba\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 yarar a\u011flar.
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P\u0259rvan\u0259 Z\u0259ng\u0259zurlu<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n
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\"P\u0259rvan\u0259<\/p>\n

G\u0259tirin m\u0259n\u0259<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

N\u0259 m\u00fcdd\u0259tdir h\u0259sr\u0259t m\u0259ni da\u011flay\u0131b,
\nO g\u00fcll\u00fc-g\u00fcl\u015f\u0259ni g\u0259tirin m\u0259n\u0259.
\nV\u0259t\u0259nsiz \u00fcr\u0259yim yara ba\u011flay\u0131b,
\n\u018fv\u0259lik m\u0259lh\u0259mi g\u0259tirin m\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcm qal\u0131b bahar\u0131nda,yay\u0131nda,
\nNi\u015fanl\u0131 q\u0131zlar\u0131n pay\u0131z toyunda,
\nG\u0259l\u0259si olsan\u0131z bayram ay\u0131nda,
\nBir ya\u015f\u0131l s\u0259m\u0259ni g\u0259tirin m\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yim \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r,s\u0131zlay\u0131r yaram,
\nD\u0259rman\u0131m ordad\u0131r,yaman na\u00e7aram.
\nQar alt\u0131ndan Q\u0259rib-q\u0259rib boylanan,
\nO a\u011f b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259ni g\u0259tirin m\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

Bil\u0259n bilir P\u0259rvan\u0259nin d\u0259rdi n\u0259?
\n\u0130ll\u0259rdi ki,qal\u0131b v\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259rdin\u0259,
\nDa\u011f yerin\u0259 qorxuram ki,d\u0259rd din\u0259,
\nSiz b\u00fct\u00f6v v\u0259t\u0259ni g\u0259tirin m\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

Da\u011flar\u0131n<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

\u0130ll\u0259rdi h\u0259sr\u0259t\u0259m isti qoynuna,
\nN\u0259d\u0259ndir a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131r yolu da\u011flar\u0131n.
\nG\u00f6r\u0259n bizd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc dar\u0131x\u0131rm\u0131 he\u00e7 ,
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi da\u011flar\u0131n,g\u00fcl\u00fc da\u011flar\u0131n .<\/p>\n

Qu\u015flar oxuyurmu yen\u0259 oba\u015fdan,
\nO yerl\u0259r birc\u0259 an \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rki ba\u015fdan .
\nXo\u015f \u0259tir duyma\u011fa torpaqdan,da\u015fdan ,
\nYaman q\u0259ribs\u0259yib eli da\u011flar\u0131n .<\/p>\n

S\u0131zlay\u0131r g\u00f6r ne\u00e7\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259n yaral\u0131 ,
\nP\u0259rvan\u0259nin bitmir d\u0259rdi,m\u0259lal\u0131,
\nG\u00f6r\u00fcn do\u011fma \u00f6vladlardan aral\u0131 ,
\nKe\u00e7ibdi n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ili da\u011flar\u0131n ,
\nN\u0259 zaman a\u00e7\u0131lar yolu da\u011flar\u0131n .
\n_________________________________<\/p>\n

Aydan X\u0259ndan<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"Aydan<\/p>\n

Z\u0259riflik axtarma kobud adamda
\nOnun ruh al\u0259mi ba\u015fqa qurulub ,
\nBa\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r qap\u0131s\u0131 z\u00f6vq d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131n ,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 hasar vurulub.
\nKobud insan bilmir inc\u0259lik n\u0259dir ,
\nAl\u0259mi a\u011f -qara r\u0259ngl\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr ,
\nUlduzlar onunla k\u00fcs\u00fcl\u00fc kimi
\nParlay\u0131b, vaz ke\u00e7ir yanmaqdan, s\u00f6n\u00fcr.
\nBuludlar onunla s\u0259mada g\u0259zmir,
\nD\u0259niz l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259ri susur, dill\u0259nmir,
\nAy bel\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259r ondan gizl\u0259nir
\nG\u00f6z\u0259l kainat\u0131n q\u0259nimidir o.<\/p>\n

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\u018fsg\u0259r\u0259 m\u0259ktub<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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Bu m\u0259ktub q\u0259lbimin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259n
\nS\u0259n\u0259 \u00fcnvanlan\u0131b, \u0259zizim \u0259sg\u0259r!
\nBilir\u0259m, kifay\u0259t olmaz k\u0259lm\u0259l\u0259r
\nS\u0259nin etdiyini v\u0259sf ets\u0259m \u0259g\u0259r.
\nKe\u00e7diyin yollar\u0131n yaman \u00e7\u0259tindir
\nOralar yurdundur, \u00f6z v\u0259t\u0259nindir!
\nZal\u0131m d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nl\u0259ri vuran, yox ed\u0259n
\nS\u0259nin q\u00fcdr\u0259tindir, s\u0259nin \u0259lindir!
\nBiz isti evl\u0259rd\u0259, s\u0259ns\u0259 s\u0259ng\u0259rd\u0259
\nBiz ekran ba\u015f\u0131nda, s\u0259n \u00f6n c\u0259bh\u0259d\u0259
\nDualar s\u0259sl\u0259nir h\u0259r bir a\u011f\u0131zdan
\nTanr\u0131 yar\u0131n olsun, s\u0259n\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fd\u0259!
\nIll\u0259rdir s\u0259br etdik, cavab g\u00f6zl\u0259dik,
\nD\u00fcnya g\u00f6z\u00fcn yumdu haqs\u0131zl\u0131qlara
\nXalq\u0131m \u00f6z yurduna h\u0259sr\u0259t qalark\u0259n,
\nYadlar sahib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcstan\u0131ma.
\n\u0130ndi zaman, d\u00f6vran d\u0259yi\u015fib art\u0131q
\nG\u00fccl\u00fc ordumuz var, s\u0259rk\u0259rd\u0259miz var!
\nQoy al\u0259m e\u015fitsin haqq s\u0259simizi!
\nQaraba\u011f \u0259b\u0259di bizim olacaq!
\n\u018fsg\u0259rim, \u015f\u00fcca\u0259t yara\u015f\u0131r s\u0259n\u0259
\n\u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259rd bir xalq\u0131n \u00f6vlad\u0131san s\u0259n
\nQ\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 u\u011frunda d\u00f6z\u00fcb a\u011fr\u0131ya
\nOdlara at\u0131l\u0131b daim \u00f6nd\u0259s\u0259n!
\n\u0130gidl\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcb bizim analar
\nBu v\u0259t\u0259n torpa\u011f\u0131 siz\u0259 yar olar
\n\u0130\u015f\u011faldan qurtulmu\u015f zirv\u0259l\u0259r boyu
\nUcalar \u0259b\u0259di bizim bayraqlar!
\n\u018fsg\u0259rim, paytaxtdan s\u0259n\u0259 salam var
\nQ\u0259lbimiz sizl\u0259rl\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 atar
\nHalal olsun siz\u0259, qorxmaz o\u011fullar
\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r siz vars\u0131z, v\u0259t\u0259n var olar!<\/p>\n

Do\u011fma \u015f\u0259h\u0259r<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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Do\u011fma \u015f\u0259h\u0259r do\u011fma insan kimidir
\nH\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc uzun ill\u0259r bilirs\u0259n.
\nDar\u0131xanda qoynuna at\u0131l\u0131rsan,
\n\u0130nciy\u0259nd\u0259 gen g\u0259zir, deyinirs\u0259n.
\nDo\u011fma \u015f\u0259h\u0259r do\u011fma insan kimidir
\nOnu b\u0259y\u0259nirs\u0259n , d\u0259y\u0259r verirs\u0259n,
\nH\u0259r k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259si xatir\u0259l\u0259r da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r
\nUnutdum des\u0259n d\u0259, vaz ke\u00e7m\u0259yirs\u0259n.
\nDo\u011fma \u015f\u0259h\u0259r do\u011fma insan kimidir
\nOndan qa\u00e7san bel\u0259, geri d\u00f6n\u00fcrs\u0259n,
\nYa\u015flan\u0131b d\u0259yi\u015fs\u0259 \u00fczd\u0259n ilb\u0259il,
\nOnu s\u0259n ham\u0131dan g\u00f6z\u0259l bilirs\u0259n.
\nDo\u011fma \u015f\u0259h\u0259r do\u011fma insan kimidir
\nVaz ke\u00e7\u0259 bilmirs\u0259n, can\u0131m deyirs\u0259n .
\nQ\u0259lbini s\u0131nd\u0131rsa, k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259ys\u0259,
\nYen\u0259 \u0259fv edirs\u0259n, \u00e7\u00fcnki sevirs\u0259n!<\/div>\n
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Bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n
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V\u00fcsal n\u0259dir tapan bilir susuz s\u0259hrada d\u0259ryan\u0131,
\nH\u0259sr\u0259t n\u0259dir \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n bilir r\u0259smini bitmi\u015f sevdan\u0131n,
\nAc\u0131 n\u0259dir dadan bilir \u015firin sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 x\u00fclyan\u0131,
\nR\u0259ngl\u0259ri solan deyildir, al \u0259lvand\u0131r
\nbu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n.<\/div>\n
O d\u0259ryan\u0131n sular\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259md\u0259m ararsan,
\nO \u00e7\u0259kdiyin r\u0259sm\u0259 bax\u0131b niy\u0259l\u0259rini sorarsan,
\nDad\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259y\u0259nm\u0259s\u0259n d\u0259, ac\u0131lara qatlanarsan,
\n\u018fb\u0259bi s\u00fcr\u0259n deyildir h\u0259r \u00e7il\u0259si bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n.
\nS\u0259bir daim h\u0259md\u0259m olar h\u0259yatdan bezdiyin anda,
\n\u00dcmid yola i\u015f\u0131q salar qaranl\u0131qlar qorxudanda,
\nNiyy\u0259t s\u00f6z\u0259 sadiq qalar do\u011fu\u015fdan t\u0259miz olanda,
\nQoynuna at\u0131l, \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259, s\u0259nin olan bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n.
\n____________________________________<\/div>\n
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C\u0131\u011fatel \u0130saq\u0131z\u0131<\/strong><\/span><\/div>\n
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\n

\"C\u0131\u011fatel<\/p>\n

\u0130NSANDAN K\u00d6\u00c7\u00dcR D\u00dcNYA !..<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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Daha insan \u0259lind\u0259n,
\nF\u0131rlanm\u0131r, qa\u00e7\u0131r d\u00fcnya..
\n\u0130nsan d\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fcr,
\n\u0130nsandan k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr d\u00fcnya..<\/p>\n

Yeyilib f\u0131rlanqac\u0131,
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 t\u00fck\u0259nib p\u0259ri?
\n\u00c7\u0131x\u0131bd\u0131r \u00f6z oxundan,
\nD\u00fcnya olub s\u0259r-s\u0259ri..<\/p>\n

Gah t\u0259rsin\u0259 f\u0131rlan\u0131r,
\nDayand\u0131r\u0131r zaman\u0131,
\n\u0130nsanlar\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259,
\nQal\u0131b d\u00fcnyan\u0131n can\u0131..<\/p>\n

G\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcb aradan,
\nYerin-g\u00f6y\u00fcn p\u0259rd\u0259si.
\nUtan\u0131r, f\u0131rlanma\u011fa,
\nQalmay\u0131blar h\u0259v\u0259si..<\/p>\n

Gah da qa\u00e7\u0131r s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259,
\nSaat zaman\u0131 qovur,
\nQ\u0131sal\u0131r insan \u00f6mr\u00fc,
\nZaman saat\u0131 qovur..<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259li g\u00f6yd\u0259,
\n\u018fr\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r nal\u0259si..
\n\u0130nsan m\u0259sk\u0259ni olmaq,
\n\u0130st\u0259mir Yer K\u00fcr\u0259si !…<\/p>\n

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K\u00f6nl\u00fcm S\u00fcleyman ist\u0259yir<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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D\u0259rman g\u0259tirib g\u0259lmis\u0259n,
\nT\u0259bib, can\u0131m can ist\u0259yir.
\nX\u0259st\u0259 hal\u0131m \u015f\u0259fa bulmaz,
\nF\u0259l\u0259kd\u0259n aman ist\u0259yir…<\/p>\n

Han\u0131 m\u0259lh\u0259m, yan\u0131r can\u0131m,
\n\u018frsi titr\u0259dir f\u0259qan\u0131m
\nGedibdir dinim, iman\u0131m,
\nRuhum din-iman ist\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

\u018flacs\u0131zd\u0131r d\u0259rdi-s\u0259rim,
\nAydan, G\u00fcnd\u0259n yox x\u0259b\u0259rim,
\nUzun olur gec\u0259l\u0259rim,
\nGec\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcm dan ist\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

C\u0131\u011fatel\u0259m, d\u00f6nd\u00fcm ney\u0259,
\nDeyin, sevinsin F\u0259l\u0259y\u0259.
\nD\u0259rman neyl\u0259r m\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259y\u0259
\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcm “S\u00fcleyman ” ist\u0259yir!
\n______________________________<\/p>\n

G\u00fcll\u00fc Eldar Tomarl\u0131<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"G\u00fcll\u00fc<\/p>\n

Olsun \u2013 olsun<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

\u015eair D\u0259d\u0259m, s\u0259nin sirin \u2013sirda\u015f\u0131n ,
\nArzumdu h\u0259r zaman s\u00f6z olsun\u2013olsun .
\nH\u0259r k\u0259lm\u0259n bir \u00e7\u0259l\u0259ng qoysun ba\u015f\u0131na .
\nH\u0259r misran od olsun , k\u00f6z olsun \u2013 olsun .<\/p>\n

S\u00f6zd\u0259n –\u00a0 s\u00f6z\u0259 el\u0259 qala qurubsan ,
\nO qalada \u00e7ox m\u0259rdan\u0259 durubsan .
\n\u00c7ox m\u0259n\u0259m dey\u0259ni yolda yorubsan
\nTa ki , ilham p\u0259rin saz olsun \u2013 olsun .<\/p>\n

Tale s\u0259n\u0259 verdiyini bol verib
\nH\u0259r \u015feirin\u0259 qanad verib , qol verib .
\nEl\u0259 bil ki , da\u011fdan g\u0259l\u0259n sel verib ,
\nAllah \u00f6z\u00fc s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6z olsun \u2013 olsun .<\/p>\n

\u0130sti t\u0259bin , daim co\u015fan qan\u0131n\u00a0 var ,
\nEl i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tin var , \u015fan\u0131n var .
\nH\u0259l\u0259 yaz\u0131las\u0131 \u00e7ox dastan\u0131n var
\nDaim q\u0259lbin bahar, yaz olsun olsun .<\/p>\n

Z\u0259r k\u0259lamlar h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7oxdu ba\u015f\u0131nda ,
\nMirvaril\u0259r d\u00fcz\u00fcm \u2013 d\u00fcz\u00fcm qar\u015f\u0131nda ,
\nG\u00fcll\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcb s\u0259ni m\u00fcdrik ya\u015f\u0131nda .
\nArzumdu ka\u015f \u00f6mr\u00fcn y\u00fcz olsun \u2013 olsun .<\/p>\n

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YA\u015eATDI M\u018fN\u0130<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

Taleyimd\u0259 duman-\u00e7\u0259n,
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcm-g\u00fcn\u00fcm oldu t\u0259n.
\nQ\u0259vvas olub d\u0259rind\u0259n
\n\u00dczm\u0259k ya\u015fatd\u0131 m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Bir az d\u0259d\u0259-babadan,
\nBir az eld\u0259n-obadan.
\nBir az yurddan-yuvadan,
\nYazmaq ya\u015fatd\u0131 m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Haqqa a\u00e7d\u0131m g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc,
\nHaqqa dedim s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc.
\nD\u00fcz bir \u00f6m\u00fcr \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc
\nG\u0259zm\u0259k ya\u015fatd\u0131 m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcll\u00fc, \u00f6nd\u0259 da\u011f-d\u0259r\u0259,
\n\u0130nan yen\u0259 m\u0259rdl\u0259r\u0259.
\nD\u0259rdl\u0259rimi d\u0259ft\u0259r\u0259
\nD\u00fczm\u0259k ya\u015fatd\u0131 m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

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H\u0259yat \u015e\u0259mi<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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\"Foto\u011fraf<\/p>\n

G\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Kim n\u0259 bilir, nec\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259,
\nD\u0259rd qalas\u0131n ke\u00e7ib, g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259.
\nDolanm\u0131\u015fam dua kimi ba\u015f\u0131na,
\nb\u0259la kimi gec\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259.<\/div>\n
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Kim n\u0259 bilir, ne\u00e7\u0259 k\u0259r\u0259 sevmis\u0259m,
\nH\u0259r sevgini n\u0259d\u0259ndi s\u0259n bilmi\u015f\u0259m,
\nE\u015fq yolunda \u0130rfanat\u0259k yetmi\u015f\u0259m,
\nD\u00f6n\u00fcb orda he\u00e7\u0259, g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259.<\/div>\n
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M\u0259n g\u0259linc\u0259 bahar d\u00f6n\u00fcb, g\u00fcl solub,
\nYol ba\u011flan\u0131b, k\u00f6rp\u00fc yan\u0131b, da\u015f donub.
\nBil\u0259-bil\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 ya\u015f olub,
\nAlmam\u0131\u015fam vec\u0259, g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259.<\/div>\n
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He\u00e7 bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 z\u00fclml\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f\u0259m,
\n\u018fn M\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s arzulardan ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m.
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 alaq kimi bi\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m,
\nD\u0259rdd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259-ke\u00e7\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259.<\/div>\n
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Bir \u015f\u0259h\u0259rs\u0259n, torpa\u011flar\u0131n yad olub,
\nAyaqlar\u0131n \u00f6zg\u0259 yar\u00e7\u00fcn yorulub,
\nDaha burda yer g\u00f6y il\u0259 t\u0259n olub,
\nBir xaraba k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259.<\/div>\n
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M\u0259n g\u0259linc\u0259 bilm\u0259m kim\u0259 yar oldun,
\nDa\u011f ba\u015f\u0131nda \u0259l\u00e7atmayan qar oldun.
\nBurda idin, n\u0259 oldun, nec\u0259 oldun,
\nRuh can\u0131mdan k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259, g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259.<\/div>\n
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Ay Allah\u0131m, s\u0259n\u0259 qald\u0131 \u0259lac\u0131m,
\nh\u00fczurunda nurun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259l a\u00e7\u0131m,
\nSolub getdi sevgi adl\u0131 a\u011fac\u0131m,
\nG\u00f6r h\u0259 halda, nec\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259.<\/div>\n
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Sifari\u015f\u00a0<\/b><\/span><\/div>\n
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Ordan bir yuma\u011f \u00f6m\u00fcr,
\nHavas\u0131 isti olsun.
\n\u0130ki g\u00f6zl\u00fc evinin,
\nbacas\u0131 t\u00fcst\u00fc olsun.
\nBa\u011f\u00e7ada dib\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri,
\nH\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 quyusu,
\nA\u011faclar\u0131nda heyva,
\nuza\u011f\u0131nda qayas\u0131.
\nM\u0259n d\u0259 olum i\u00e7ind\u0259,
\no h\u0259y\u0259tin, o ba\u011f\u0131n.
\nQara g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6t\u00fcr get,
\nQadas\u0131n al\u0131m a\u011f\u0131n.
\nEl\u0259 bu c\u00fcr t\u0259rs olum,
\nYaln\u0131z bir az da xo\u015fb\u0259xt.
\nYad\u0131ma sal arada,
\nYa\u015fay\u0131ram b\u0259xt\u0259b\u0259xt.
\nOrdan bir i\u00e7im sevgi,
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fcn olsun yaln\u0131z.
\nC\u00fct na\u011f\u0131l uydurmay\u0131m,
\nGec\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 yalq\u0131z.
\nKiray\u0259y\u0259 olmas\u0131n,
\nsevginin \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri,
\nno\u011fulunda sevinc var,
\nu\u011furdan b\u00f6c\u0259kl\u0259rin.
\nOrdan bir ucuz \u00f6l\u00fcm,
\nKims\u0259yi a\u011fr\u0131tmayan.
\nN\u0259 anam, n\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131m,
\nAnlamayan duymayan.
\nEl\u0259 bil olmam\u0131\u015fam,
\nBu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259,
\nBir g\u00fcl boyda can\u0131m yox,
\nBu \u00fczd\u0259 bu bi\u00e7imd\u0259.
\nOrdan bir az ayr\u0131l\u0131q,
\nBu d\u00fcnyan\u0131 unudum,
\nordan bir az laylay ver
\n\u00d6z can\u0131m\u0131 uyutum.
\n_____________________________<\/div>\n
R\u0259smiyy\u0259 Sabir<\/span><\/strong><\/div>\n
<\/div>\n

\"\u018fD\u018fB\u0130YYAT<\/p>\n

\n

 <\/p>\n

\u015eE\u0130R QADIN<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Z\u0259rifliyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb,<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni<\/p>\n

\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259tdil\u0259r…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u015e\u0131ltaql\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni<\/p>\n

k\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259tdil\u0259r…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb,<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni<\/p>\n

d\u0259niz\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259tdil\u0259r…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Sonsuz v\u0259fan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb,<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni<\/p>\n

torpa\u011fa b\u0259nz\u0259tdil\u0259r…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

S\u0259n<\/p>\n

Tanr\u0131n\u0131n yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131<\/p>\n

\u015feirs\u0259n, qad\u0131n.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni<\/p>\n

ruhumu ox\u015fayan<\/p>\n

\u015feir\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259dir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u015eeirdir s\u0259nin ad\u0131n…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u015eeir kimi do\u011fulmusan.<\/p>\n

Kuplet-kuplet ya\u015fayarsan.<\/p>\n

Heca-heca a\u011flayarsan.<\/p>\n

S\u0259tir-s\u0259tir g\u00fcl\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnl\u0259 yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn<\/p>\n

k\u0259d\u0259rini sil\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Gah \u015feir kimi sevinclis\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Gah \u015feir kimi k\u0259d\u0259rli…<\/p>\n

Lakin<\/p>\n

\u015feir kimi \u0259b\u0259dis\u0259n, qad\u0131n!<\/p>\n

\u015eeirdir s\u0259nin ad\u0131n…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

QIZIMA<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Roman\u0131n m\u0259\u015fhur k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rini<\/p>\n

dola\u015fd\u0131qca<\/p>\n

yad\u0131ma S\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Dar\u0131x\u0131ram, Q\u0131z\u0131m…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Kolizeyin yan\u0131nda<\/p>\n

anas\u0131n\u0131n quca\u011f\u0131nda<\/p>\n

tarix\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259n q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz<\/p>\n

S\u0259nin g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rini xat\u0131rlad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Dar\u0131x\u0131ram, Q\u0131z\u0131m…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Az qald\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rini<\/p>\n

s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb yand\u0131rana kimi,<\/p>\n

V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 – S\u0259n\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

Dar\u0131x\u0131ram, Q\u0131z\u0131m…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu tarixi yerl\u0259rd\u0259<\/p>\n

i\u00e7imd\u0259 S\u0259ni g\u0259zdirir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Birlikd\u0259 dola\u015f\u0131r\u0131q<\/p>\n

Roma Forumunu, Navona meydan\u0131n\u0131,<\/p>\n

\u0130span pill\u0259l\u0259rini, Palatino t\u0259p\u0259sini.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259rinl\u0259 bax\u0131ram h\u0259yata…<\/p>\n

Dar\u0131x\u0131ram, Q\u0131z\u0131m…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bilirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n buluddan<\/p>\n

n\u0259m \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n adamam.<\/p>\n

Durduq yerd\u0259<\/p>\n

i\u00e7im\u0259 q\u0259m \u0259k\u0259n adamam.<\/p>\n

Amma<\/p>\n

S\u0259nd\u0259 tapd\u0131m<\/p>\n

itirdiyim g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Romaya ged\u0259rk\u0259n<\/p>\n

arxamdan buludlar a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi Romada pay\u0131zd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

A\u011faclar a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131<\/p>\n

Yarpaq-yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr…<\/p>\n

Dar\u0131x\u0131ram, Q\u0131z\u0131m…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu s\u0259tirl\u0259ri yazark\u0259n<\/p>\n

S\u0259nd\u0259n mesaj g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

\u201cS\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131ram, Ana!\u201d…<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 ya\u015f g\u00f6y\u0259rdi…<\/p>\n

M\u0259n d\u0259<\/p>\n

Qu\u015fun s\u0259ma,<\/p>\n

Torpa\u011f\u0131n su<\/p>\n

Dal\u011fan\u0131n sahil \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<\/p>\n

dar\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi<\/p>\n

S\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131ram, Q\u0131z\u0131m…<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131m, S\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131ram…<\/p>\n

___________________________<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Nuran\u0259 Nur\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\"D\u0259rin<\/p>\n

Gets\u0259m…<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

Gets\u0259m ,t\u0259k getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m,
\nBir dost, bir sirda\u015f,
\nBir ana , bir bala ,
\nBir sevgili g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259…<\/p>\n

Gets\u0259m t\u0259k getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m,
\nBir do\u011fmal\u0131q , bir anlay\u0131\u015f,
\nBir rahatl\u0131q,bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm,
\nBir d\u0259,
\nbir il\u0131q bax\u0131\u015f g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259…<\/p>\n

Gets\u0259m t\u0259k getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m,
\nAy\u0131, G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi, G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc,
\nD\u0259nizl\u0259ri, \u00e7aylar\u0131,
\n\u0130ll\u0259ri , aylar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259…<\/p>\n

Gets\u0259m t\u0259k getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m ,
\nT\u0259mizl\u0259ri , \u0259sll\u0259ri,
\nYa\u011f\u0131\u015flar\u0131, qarlar\u0131,
\nBir d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn f\u0259sill\u0259ri
\nG\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259…<\/p>\n

Gets\u0259m t\u0259k getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m
\nAparacam ham\u0131n\u0131,
\nAparacam h\u0259r \u015feyi .
\nGets\u0259m ged\u0259c\u0259k m\u0259nl\u0259,
\nDo\u011fulmayan , \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259n
\nO k\u00f6rp\u0259 balam\u0131z da,
\nOnu b\u00f6l\u0259 bilm\u0259rik,
\nAmma bu kainat\u0131 ,
\nB\u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck aram\u0131zda .<\/p>\n

Gets\u0259m ,t\u0259k getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m,
\nArxamca \u00e7ox a\u011flama.
\nhe\u00e7 n\u0259 qalmad\u0131 m\u0259nc\u0259,
\nY\u0131\u011fd\u0131m ki\u00e7ik ba\u011flama.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Dar\u0131xmaq kimi…<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Dar\u0131xmaq kimidir h\u0259r \u015fey,
\nG\u00fcn\u00fcm d\u0259, m\u0259nim g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u0259
\nBu g\u00fcn dey\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m,
\nAd\u0131n islan\u0131b dilimd\u0259.<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r, g\u00fcn\u00fcm do\u011far ,
\nUlduz-ulduz x\u0259yal\u0131ma.
\nArzular\u0131m\u0131 udmu\u015fam ,
\nA\u011fr\u0131 verir sol yan\u0131ma.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcn\u00fcn qap\u0131s\u0131 aral\u0131,
\nSabah dolur bir anl\u0131\u011fa.
\nGec\u0259nin \u00f6mr\u00fc yetm\u0259di,
\nBir p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 qaranl\u0131\u011fa.<\/p>\n

\u00dc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr \u015f\u0259klin \u0259limd\u0259,
\n\u00dcrp\u0259nir bax n\u0259f\u0259sim d\u0259.
\nQ\u0131\u015f\u0131n da \u00fcr\u0259yi \u0259sir,
\nQu\u015fba\u015f\u0131 qar h\u0259v\u0259sind\u0259.<\/p>\n

Dar\u0131xmaq kimidir h\u0259r \u015fey,
\nG\u00fcn\u00fcm d\u0259, m\u0259nim g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u0259.
\nBu g\u00fcn dey\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m,
\nAd\u0131n islan\u0131b dilimd\u0259.<\/p>\n

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 <\/p>\n

Xan\u0131m Ayd\u0131n<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\"\u015eeirl\u0259r<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

El\u0259 unut…<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

M\u0259ni el\u0259 unut ki, el\u0259 bil sevm\u0259mis\u0259n,<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc aldat,<\/p>\n

De ki, yuxu g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n…<\/p>\n

X\u0259zri als\u0131n-apars\u0131n,<\/p>\n

Gilavara \u00e7atd\u0131rs\u0131n,<\/p>\n

O da sovursun g\u00f6y\u0259,<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 izim d\u0259 qalmas\u0131n –<\/p>\n

Bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin, bu yurdun,<\/p>\n

Bu \u00f6lk\u0259nin s\u0259rh\u0259dsiz,<\/p>\n

H\u00fcdudsuz enliyind\u0259n…<\/p>\n

S\u0259sl\u0259rim da\u015fa d\u0259ysin,<\/p>\n

S\u00f6zl\u0259rim qaya olsun,<\/p>\n

Qoy hardasa q\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131n, bir ovuc torpaq olsun.<\/p>\n

Xatir\u0259l\u0259r toz-duman,<\/p>\n

Qoy s\u0259rilsin d\u0259niz\u0259,<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 yelk\u0259n aparar, b\u0259lk\u0259 l\u00f6vb\u0259r bat\u0131rar.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 bir h\u0259nir, bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nt\u0131 qalmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni el\u0259 unut ki, ad\u0131m da qoy yad g\u0259lsin,<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcm, s\u00f6z\u00fcm bir yana,<\/p>\n

K\u00f6lg\u0259m d\u0259 \u00f6zg\u0259l\u0259\u015fsin…<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn rastla\u015fsaq \u0259g\u0259r h\u0259r hans\u0131sa d\u00fcnyada<\/p>\n

Ruhumu da tan\u0131ma, o da yad olsun daha.<\/p>\n

Bir titr\u0259tm\u0259, bir soyuq<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015fs\u0259\u00a0 bird\u0259n can\u0131na<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcnl\u0259 t\u0259k qalanda.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259n bir a\u011fr\u0131<\/p>\n

Qopsa, m\u0259n\u0259m uzaqda.<\/p>\n

D\u0259rman i\u00e7m\u0259 bo\u015funa…<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni el\u0259 unut ki…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

V\u00fcsal\u0131n t\u0259rs, hicran\u0131n d\u00fcz \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fck<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atmaq ulduzlara \u00e7atmaq q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin,<\/p>\n

Ovuca su g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r asan.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 toxunur,<\/p>\n

\u00c7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m,<\/p>\n

V\u00fcsal\u0131na g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

V\u0259…<\/p>\n

V\u0259 ulduza \u00e7atmadan hicran ba\u015flay\u0131r…<\/p>\n

T\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131n y\u00fcz ili kimi \u00e7\u0259kir<\/p>\n

\u00d6m\u00fcrd\u0259n s\u0259nsiz ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259r g\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n is\u0259…<\/p>\n

S\u0259n is\u0259 m\u0259nsiz ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259r g\u00fcn<\/p>\n

D\u00fcn\u0259nkind\u0259n daha \u00e7ox can at\u0131rsan<\/p>\n

Sonsuzlu\u011fa…<\/p>\n

S\u0259nl\u0259 m\u0259n v\u00fcsal\u0131n t\u0259rs,<\/p>\n

hicran\u0131n d\u00fcz \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fck –<\/p>\n

Ads\u0131z barma\u011fa tax\u0131lan q\u0131z\u0131l \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fck…<\/p>\n

____________________________________<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Aysel Fikr\u0259t\u00a0<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

 <\/p>\n

\n

\"Yerd\u0259<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u0130st\u0259dim \u015feir yaz\u0131m,<\/p>\n

M\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6nc\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259ndi g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259,<\/p>\n

Birc\u0259 damla g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

N\u0259 dili var, n\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131,<\/p>\n

N\u0259 bilim, n\u0259di d\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc kirpiyim\u0259,<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131b-yaxd\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Yanan \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259rin,<\/p>\n

Qanan adama d\u0259rin.<\/p>\n

G\u0259lin g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u0259rin,<\/p>\n

Qurub taxt\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

N\u0259 m\u0259n soru\u015fdum ondan,<\/p>\n

N\u0259 o anlatd\u0131 m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bel\u0259, s\u0259ssizc\u0259,<\/p>\n

Dolub baxd\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u018fz\u0259ld\u0259n bir i\u015f tutdum,<\/p>\n

B\u0259xtim, g\u00fclm\u0259z \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259.<\/p>\n

G\u0259l ki indi d\u0259rd\u0259 bax,<\/p>\n

Olub baxtl\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bilm\u0259dim<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc bu can\u0131mda.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f-ba\u015fa verib susduq<\/p>\n

M\u0259n, O, G\u00f6z\u00fcm, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni yanp\u00f6rt\u00fc ya\u015fad\u0131m, \u00f6m\u00fcr,<\/p>\n

El\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm m\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 son deyil.<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259n da\u015f\u0131d\u0131m, \u00f6m\u00fcr,<\/p>\n

H\u0259r g\u00fcn bir olmaz\u0131m yeni don geyir.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t aldatd\u0131, h\u0259qiq\u0259t satd\u0131.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 vard\u0131 \u0259limd\u0259 samana d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rim\u0259 isin\u0259mm\u0259d\u0259n.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 zamana d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

U\u015faqt\u0259k qa\u00e7mad\u0131m g\u00f6y \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nlikd\u0259,<\/p>\n

G\u0259nc olub g\u00fclm\u0259yim yad\u0131ma g\u0259lmir.<\/p>\n

Ucada al\u0131nmaz qala misal\u0131,<\/p>\n

H\u0259r geydiyim sevgi ad\u0131ma g\u0259lmir.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Qorxdum d\u0259nizind\u0259n, qorxdum \u00e7ay\u0131ndan,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y\u00fcn buludundan \u00fc\u015f\u0259ndim, heyhat.<\/p>\n

G\u0259l \u00f6mr\u00fcn sonunda bird\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259,<\/p>\n

\u018flli ild\u0259 bir yol \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 yat.<\/p>\n

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Qorxuram d\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259n g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u0259,<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnyan\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259dim des\u0259m g\u00fcl\u0259rl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Allahdan \u00f6zg\u0259si bilm\u0259y\u0259n d\u0259rdi<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131ndan sezib bil\u0259rl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

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Sevgid\u0259n a\u011fr\u0131dan uydurub \u015feir,<\/p>\n

Ka\u011f\u0131zdan g\u00f6y \u00e7\u0259kdim, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi oldum.<\/p>\n

Bax\u0131ram son e\u015fqin ucsuz yoluna,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, insan yox, m\u0259n el\u0259 yoldum.<\/p>\n

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\u015eahan\u0259 M\u00fc\u015ffiq\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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\"M\u0259n<\/p>\n

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DARIXAN QADIN<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

N\u0259 \u00fczl\u00fc qonaqm\u0131\u015f bu dar\u0131xmaq da,<\/p>\n

Fikrimd\u0259n qovuram, q\u0259lbimd\u0259n g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi bahar f\u0259sli deyil, m\u0259n bil\u0259n,<\/p>\n

B\u0259s nec\u0259 burnumda qoxun g\u00fcll\u0259nir?<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131 kim icad edib?<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u00fcm dar\u0131xmaqdan m\u0259nt\u0259k bo\u011fulsun…<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz g\u00f6zl\u0259rim d\u0259 yolun itirib,<\/p>\n

G\u0259l ki, yaz\u0131qlar da \u201cev\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131ls\u0131n\u201d…<\/p>\n

Xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n xatir\u0259 \u015f\u0259kil \u2013<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn k\u00f6k\u00fct\u0259k saral\u0131b indi.<\/p>\n

Yollar da \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 s\u0259nsiz qay\u0131d\u0131r,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u00fcm z\u0259hrimara qals\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259ti!<\/p>\n

Boyumdan yek\u0259di, \u0259ynim\u0259 gendi,<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 itmi\u015f\u0259m bu dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Qay\u0131t, duman g\u00f6zl\u00fcm, qay\u0131t, yubanma,<\/p>\n

Yolunda boy at\u0131b \u201cDar\u0131xan qad\u0131n\u201d.<\/p>\n

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AYRILAQ…<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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Bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q he\u00e7 xo\u015fuma g\u0259lm\u0259di,<\/p>\n

G\u0259l bar\u0131\u015faq, sonra yen\u0259 ayr\u0131laq.<\/p>\n

Birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 ayr\u0131lma\u011f\u0131n n\u0259 dad\u0131,<\/p>\n

T\u0259krar-t\u0259krar, d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 ayr\u0131laq.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa m\u0259n nec\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcm?!<\/p>\n

G\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ayr\u0131la g\u00f6z\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

\u0130nadkar q\u0259lbim\u0259 yetm\u0259yir s\u00f6z\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

\u018flim k\u00fcss\u00fcn \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259, ayr\u0131laq…<\/p>\n

Al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 yana\u011f\u0131m,<\/p>\n

Unutsun ad\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259r\u0259k doda\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ssiz getm\u0259, tutulacaq qula\u011f\u0131m,<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0131xaq zil\u0259, d\u00fc\u015f\u0259k b\u0259m\u0259, ayr\u0131laq.<\/p>\n

G\u0259l t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259, ayaq saxla bir anl\u0131q,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qoy \u00e7antana yavanl\u0131q.<\/p>\n

Deyirl\u0259r ki, soyuq olur ayr\u0131l\u0131q,<\/p>\n

H\u0259sr\u0259tini s\u0259r \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259, ayr\u0131laq…<\/p>\n

…bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q he\u00e7 xo\u015fuma g\u0259lm\u0259di,<\/p>\n

G\u0259l bar\u0131\u015faq, sonra yen\u0259 ayr\u0131laq.<\/p>\n

Birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 ayr\u0131lma\u011f\u0131n n\u0259 dad\u0131,<\/p>\n

T\u0259krar-t\u0259krar, d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 ayr\u0131laq!<\/p>\n

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K\u0259mal\u0259 Mirz\u0259yeva<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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\"\u018fD\u018fB\u0130YYAT<\/p>\n

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D\u00fczbucaq<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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Yen\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n qan\u0131n\u0131 qaraltd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Bilmirs\u0259n, yumurta bel\u0259 bi\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n yemir\u0259m. Ax\u0131 n\u0259 olan \u015feydir ki, s\u0259n onu da bu iyirmi iki ild\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259din…<\/p>\n

El\u0259 ist\u0259yirdi and i\u00e7sin ki, yumurtan\u0131 qaynama\u011fa qoyanda saata bax\u0131b v\u0259 d\u00fcz d\u00f6rd d\u0259qiq\u0259nin tamam\u0131nda g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb.<\/p>\n

Qap\u0131 m\u00f6hk\u0259m \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131. El\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131 ki, Nar\u0131n bir anl\u0131q m\u0259tb\u0259xin aynalar\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131b t\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

H\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b darvazan\u0131 ba\u011flamaq ist\u0259di.\u00a0Amma bir-iki add\u0131m at\u0131b dayand\u0131. Nar a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Ad\u0259t\u0259n, bel\u0259 vaxtlarda – \u00fcr\u0259yi dolanda, a\u011flayanda \u015eirin g\u0259lib onu qucaqlayar v\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259zdi:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n \u0259rini tan\u0131m\u0131rsan, ay mama, ax\u0131 niy\u0259 bel\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 sal\u0131rsan? M\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7andan o, h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n naraz\u0131d\u0131r da…<\/p>\n

Bir az susar, sonra g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259:<\/p>\n

– Xo\u015fu g\u0259lir d\u0259 s\u0259ni incitm\u0259kd\u0259n…<\/p>\n

Daha sonra anas\u0131na yol g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259rdi:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n d\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 onunla bel\u0259 r\u0259ftar ed\u0259ydin…Onda ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdi y\u0259qin… \u018fn yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 s\u0259n onu h\u0259rd\u0259n qorxut daa… De ki, bel\u0259 el\u0259s\u0259n ax\u0131rda t\u0259k qalacaqsan… De ki, ba\u015f al\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259m… Atam evin\u0259 qay\u0131dacam.<\/p>\n

Ad\u0259t\u0259n, \u015eirin bunlar\u0131 dey\u0259nd\u0259 ikisini d\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259k tutard\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki \u015eirin d\u0259, o \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi ki, bu, m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u00fczd\u00fcr. Nar\u0131n el\u0259 bir ail\u0259d\u0259 t\u0259rbiy\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, orda \u0259r\u0259 getdiyin evd\u0259n geriy\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f ola bilm\u0259zdi. H\u0259m d\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 ild\u0259n sonra ax\u0131 n\u0259 deyib qay\u0131dacaq ki?<\/p>\n

Xeyli oturdu. Bird\u0259n yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, \u015eirin yoxdur. Daha do\u011frusu, \u00e7ox-\u00e7ox uzaqlardad\u0131r \u015eirin. Daha bel\u0259 vaxtlarda onun dad\u0131na yeti\u015f\u0259n, dey\u0259n-g\u00fcl\u0259n, onun k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131b g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u0259n, ya\u015f\u0131na uy\u011fun olmayan bir halda anas\u0131na “h\u0259yat d\u0259rsi” ver\u0259n \u015eirin d\u0259 yoxdur.<\/p>\n

Telefonun s\u0259sin\u0259 diksindi. S\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r kim olar?<\/p>\n

– Alo, – deyinc\u0259 \u015eirinin s\u0259si g\u0259ldi:<\/p>\n

– Can, mama, burda da rahatl\u0131q vermirsiz eee m\u0259n\u0259. Yuxuda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm s\u0259ni d\u0259, papan\u0131 da. Amma qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q yuxuydu. He\u00e7 \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 da yad\u0131mda qalmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc, k\u0259d\u0259rini gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Orda saat ne\u00e7\u0259dir ki, oyanm\u0131san?<\/p>\n

– \u0130ki saat f\u0259rqimiz\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bizd\u0259 saatlar 7-ni g\u00f6st\u0259rir. N\u0259 f\u0259rqi var e? \u018fsas de g\u00f6r\u00fcm nec\u0259siniz?<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131yam, q\u0131z\u0131m, atan da \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, – dedi.<\/p>\n

– Atam, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131 olar da, y\u0259qin s\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r…<\/p>\n

\u015eirinin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn davam\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259 imkan verm\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n orda da bizi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259, imtahanlar\u0131na haz\u0131rla\u015f.<\/p>\n

– Haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131ram, ay ana, haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131ram. Amma bax, bird\u0259n q\u0259rar\u0131n\u0131 vers\u0259n, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259l. Qoy bir az da s\u0259nsizliyin dad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u00fcn…<\/p>\n

– El\u0259 dem\u0259…<\/p>\n

– Bax, qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m evi, universitetimi, i\u015f yerimi g\u00f6rs\u0259n… H\u0259l\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini demir\u0259m – g\u00f6rs\u0259n he\u00e7 geri qay\u0131tmaq ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n…<\/p>\n

– Dan\u0131\u015far\u0131q, ax\u015fam atanla dan\u0131\u015faram…<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini, nec\u0259 ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, onu nec\u0259 raz\u0131 salaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u0130lk tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259, xo\u015f davran\u0131\u015f\u0131na vuruldu\u011fu insanla indi bir k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z dan\u0131\u015fmaq, n\u0259yis\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k, onu n\u0259y\u0259s\u0259 raz\u0131 salmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. Evlilikl\u0259rinin ilk ill\u0259rind\u0259 b\u0259h-b\u0259hl\u0259 yediyi yem\u0259kl\u0259r \u00e7oxdan, onun t\u0259birinc\u0259 des\u0259k,”z\u0259h\u0259r”\u0259 \u00e7evrilib.<\/p>\n

Ax\u0131 o, bel\u0259 deyildi…<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n qalan s\u00fcfr\u0259ni y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra-y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra qay\u0131nanas\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131…<\/p>\n

C\u0259mi birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 qay\u0131nanas\u0131na Niyazdan \u015fikay\u0259t etdi. Ka\u015f ki dem\u0259zdi. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 cavab q\u0259lbini incitdi. Daha bir d\u0259 kims\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259di.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259nim o\u011flum a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131-ba\u015fl\u0131 adamd\u0131r. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259ninl\u0259 pis davran\u0131rsa, dem\u0259k g\u00fcnah s\u0259nd\u0259dir. S\u0259n onu d\u0259yi\u015fmis\u0259n, d\u0259li etmis\u0259n. Yax\u015f\u0131 qad\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qam\u00e7\u0131…, yox eee \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00f6z dedirtm\u0259z!<\/p>\n

Sonra g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 oturub d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 do\u011frudan da, g\u00fcnah el\u0259 onun \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259dir. B\u0259lk\u0259 do\u011frudan da, Niyaz\u0131 q\u0131c\u0131qland\u0131ran n\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 edir? \u015eirinin d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259li\u015find\u0259n sonra bir-birin\u0259 daha da m\u00f6hk\u0259m ba\u011flanmal\u0131 olduqlar\u0131 halda h\u0259r \u015fey \u0259ksin\u0259 oldu…<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r h\u0259r bir ail\u0259d\u0259 ba\u015f verir. Bir \u00e7oxu, ola bil\u0259r ki, bu “inc\u0259likl\u0259r”i g\u00f6rm\u0259zd\u0259n g\u0259lib, qaynanas\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259birinc\u0259 des\u0259k,”udub” ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Amma ona \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin idi… \u00c7ox \u015feyi “uda-uda” dey\u0259s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 ziyan vurmu\u015fdu. Bo\u011faz\u0131nda sanki bir d\u00fcy\u00fcn yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, udquna bilmirdi. H\u0259kim el\u0259 ilk simptomlar\u0131n\u0131 bil\u0259n kimi “nevroz” – deyib t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf dolu bax\u0131\u015flarla onu s\u00fczm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc…<\/p>\n

– D\u0259rman yaz\u0131ram, amma yax\u015f\u0131 olar ki, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t m\u00fchitini d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259s\u0259n, s\u0259ni narahat ed\u0259n, q\u0131c\u0131qland\u0131ran n\u0259 varsa, ondan uzaq olasan.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259kim, m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil, yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n xasiyy\u0259ti el\u0259dir ki, harasa \u00e7\u0259tin ged\u0259 bilim.<\/p>\n

– Onda \u00e7al\u0131\u015f i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l, ba\u015f\u0131n qar\u0131\u015fs\u0131n, yeni insanlarla \u00fcnsiyy\u0259td\u0259 ol…<\/p>\n

Nar\u0131n\u0131n susdu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcb davam etmi\u015fdi:<\/p>\n

– B\u0259lk\u0259 t\u0259hsilin yoxdur, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 i\u015f tapmaqda \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259yini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n. Amma siz\u0259 bir \u015fey deyim, indi diplomsuz adama daha \u00e7ox ehtiyac var.<\/p>\n

H\u0259kim resept yaza-yaza nazik, inc\u0259 manik\u00fcrl\u00fc barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k:<\/p>\n

– Bax\u0131n, \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l i\u015f budur,vallah, \u0259n \u00e7ox t\u0259l\u0259bat indi bunad\u0131r. 10-15 g\u00fcn kursa gedib bir salonda i\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259rsiz…<\/p>\n

A\u00e7\u0131-ac\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259mi\u015fdi. Evd\u0259 yataq otag\u0131nda \u015fkaf\u0131n r\u0259find\u0259 yatan q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 diplomunu xat\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Universitetin \u015f\u0259rq\u015f\u00fcnasl\u0131q fak\u00fclt\u0259sinin \u0259n f\u0259al, \u0259n sevil\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n oldu\u011fu o ill\u0259r el\u0259 uzaqda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki…<\/p>\n

Toydan iki ay sonra – el\u0259 diplom m\u00fcdafi\u0259sinin ax\u015fam\u0131 aralar\u0131ndak\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259t arzular\u0131n\u0131n, ist\u0259kl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n x\u0259tt \u00e7\u0259ks\u0259 d\u0259, onun \u0259ksin\u0259 getm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Evliliyin o q\u0259d\u0259r \u015firin \u00e7a\u011f\u0131yd\u0131 ki…<\/p>\n

– \u0130\u015f deyirs\u0259n, s\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, amma evd\u0259 d\u0259 i\u015f az deyil, evimiz\u0259 kim baxs\u0131n?<\/p>\n

– Ax\u0131 m\u0259n gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz oxumu\u015fam ki…<\/p>\n

– El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k asand\u0131r? Bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r stress yarad\u0131r adamda… \u0130nan, s\u0259n\u0259 q\u0131ym\u0131ram, s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 deyir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n…<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n yox, biz var\u0131q, – deyib s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tamamlama\u011fa qoymam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Nar\u0131n\u0131 m\u00f6hk\u0259m-m\u00f6hk\u0259m qucaqlay\u0131b el\u0259 quca\u011f\u0131nda f\u0131rlada-f\u0131rlada da qula\u011f\u0131na p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldam\u0131\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259nin i\u015f\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131n yoxdur. M\u0259nim is\u0259 ancaq v\u0259 ancaq s\u0259n\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m var. S\u0259ni el\u0259 ya\u015fadacam ki, ham\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 qibt\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259k…<\/p>\n

Niyaz onu, do\u011frudan da, ilk ill\u0259r el\u0259 ya\u015fatd\u0131 ki, n\u0259 diplomu, n\u0259 d\u0259 karyera qurmaq arzular\u0131 yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc… Sonra n\u0259 oldu, bilm\u0259di. O, yava\u015f-yava\u015f d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Niy\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdi, n\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259yi\u015fdi? Sevgi-m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259 dolu, h\u0259r ist\u0259yini an\u0131ndaca yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259n o g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fczl\u00fc insan getdi, yerin\u0259 sanki bir ba\u015fqas\u0131 g\u0259ldi…<\/p>\n

G\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7ib xeyli \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131. G\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259ki ifad\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00fc\u015f\u0259ndi. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, d\u00fcnyada onun kimi bel\u0259c\u0259 g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 bax\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qorxan n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r insan var?<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259ldi. Bu, m\u0259n deyil\u0259m b\u0259lk\u0259? B\u0259lk\u0259 Niyaz\u0131n bel\u0259 olmas\u0131nda da g\u00fcnah onun \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259dir? B\u0259lk\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259…<\/p>\n

S\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. El\u0259 bil g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259ki insandan qorxmu\u015fdu. Dayanmadan gedirdi. Evl\u0259rind\u0259n bir az aralanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, kims\u0259 onu s\u0259sl\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– Nar\u0131n, n\u0259 olub, hara t\u0259l\u0259sirs\u0259n bel\u0259?<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirib onu s\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259n qon\u015fusunu g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Leylan\u0131n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi \u00fcz\u00fc-g\u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259, paltar\u0131 da sanki i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fynind\u0259 ar\u0131q, inc\u0259 v\u00fccudunu saran q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 paltar vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

– He\u00e7…<\/p>\n

– Nec\u0259 he\u00e7? \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bel\u0259\u00a0havada? \u018fynin-ba\u015f\u0131n da bel\u0259 nazik…<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, t\u0259l\u0259sik \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m, geyin\u0259 bilm\u0259dim, – deyib ondan uzaqla\u015fmaq ist\u0259di. Qon\u015fu qad\u0131nlar\u0131n \u00e7ox da sevm\u0259diyi, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 deyib-g\u00fcl\u0259n, \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l geyiml\u0259rini n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdirm\u0259kd\u0259n x\u00fcsusi z\u00f6vq alan Leyla il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdi…<\/p>\n

Uzaqla\u015fmaq ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, Leylan\u0131n ondan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k fikri yox idi.<\/p>\n

– Dayan, s\u0259n xo\u015fuma g\u0259lm\u0259din, n\u0259 olub s\u0259n\u0259, – dey\u0259n Leyla sual\u0131na cavab almay\u0131b t\u0259l\u0259sik \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ona yetirdi. \u018flini onun \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoyanda Nar\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259h\u0259r bo\u011fdu, h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fc il\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Leyla heyr\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259ydi. K\u0259nardan az qala ham\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259s\u0259d apard\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu ail\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259r ba\u015f verir?<\/p>\n

Nar\u0131n bo\u011fula-bo\u011fula ancaq bunu dey\u0259 bildi:<\/p>\n

– Leyla, m\u0259n daha d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, Niyazla aram\u0131zdak\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259t… Onunla he\u00e7 n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq olmur.<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 oldu siz\u0259?<\/p>\n

Susaraq:<\/p>\n

– El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n m\u0259n kefd\u0259y\u0259m? Ham\u0131da olur da…<\/p>\n

– Yox, biz \u00e7oxdan… o \u00e7oxdan bel\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

– Ki\u015fil\u0259rin \u00e7oxu bel\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

– O, he\u00e7 m\u0259ni dinl\u0259mir ki..<\/p>\n

– B\u0259z\u0259n ki\u015fiyl\u0259 qad\u0131n aras\u0131nda a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n \u015feyl\u0259r ba\u015f verir.<\/p>\n

Sonra d\u00fcnyada h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n hali olan biri kimi rahat bir \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 t\u00f6vsiy\u0259sini verdi:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n \u00e7al\u0131\u015f \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 zaman ay\u0131r. Q\u0131z\u0131n da yoxdur burda. Evd\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc oturub neynirs\u0259n ki?<\/p>\n

– Nec\u0259?<\/p>\n

– \u0130\u015f\u0259 ba\u015fla, k\u00f6hn\u0259 dostlar\u0131 axtar tap, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f onlarla, \u0259vv\u0259lki Nar\u0131n\u0131 geri qaytar.<\/p>\n

O anda d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s alaraq h\u0259kimin dedikl\u0259rini yada salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 – uzaqla\u015fmaq, yeni m\u00fchit, yeni insanlar…<\/p>\n

Leyla yen\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 deyirdi:<\/p>\n

– \u018fsas c\u0259sar\u0259tli ol, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc geri qaytarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir add\u0131m at!<\/p>\n

– D\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, m\u0259n o add\u0131m\u0131 atmal\u0131yam.<\/p>\n

Leylan\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b \u00f6pd\u00fc v\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b ev\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f getdi.<\/p>\n

Nar\u0131n art\u0131q q\u0259rar\u0131n\u0131 vermi\u015fdi – ged\u0259c\u0259kdir burdan. Qoy he\u00e7 Niyaz onun bird\u0259f\u0259lik getdiyini d\u0259 bilm\u0259sin. El\u0259 bilsin ki, qay\u0131dacaq.<\/p>\n

H\u0259y\u0259canla ax\u015fam\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

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H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi ax\u015fam Niyaz i\u015fd\u0259n qay\u0131td\u0131. Oturub i\u015ftahla yem\u0259yini yedi. G\u00f6zl\u0259diyind\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq:<\/p>\n

– G\u0259l otur, birlikd\u0259 yey\u0259k, – dedi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259rki adam deyildi el\u0259 bil. \u00c7ay i\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259lini uzatd\u0131, onun \u00e7oxdan s\u0131\u011fal g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rini s\u0131xd\u0131. Bu g\u00fcn \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259ydi Niyaz. T\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259, \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259-\u00e7\u0259kin\u0259:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259ninl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m, – dedi.<\/p>\n

Bir az susub:<\/p>\n

– \u015eirin h\u0259l\u0259 u\u015faqd\u0131r. Ondan \u00e7ox narahatam. Yeri-yurdu nec\u0259dir, qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015f\u0259rait nec\u0259dir? Bilir\u0259m, s\u0259n d\u0259 narahatsan. B\u0259lk\u0259 on g\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u0259 gedim u\u015fa\u011fa ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kim?<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dey\u0259n\u0259 kimi o q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259y\u0259can ke\u00e7irdi ki… G\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi ki, indi bomba kimi partlayacaq…<\/p>\n

Niyaz onu bayaqk\u0131 qay\u011f\u0131 il\u0259, mehribanl\u0131qla s\u00fczd\u00fc:<\/p>\n

– D\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, m\u0259n d\u0259 narahatam. O des\u0259 d\u0259, h\u0259r \u015feyi gedib g\u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259 g\u00f6rs\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

– Dem\u0259li, gedim?<\/p>\n

– \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, get.<\/p>\n

Qulaqlar\u0131na inanmad\u0131…<\/p>\n

\u0130st\u0259di qalx\u0131b onu qucaqlas\u0131n. Amma xat\u0131rlad\u0131 ki, Niyaz daha bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259ri sevmir…<\/p>\n

– Allah s\u0259nd\u0259n raz\u0131 olsun… El\u0259 narahatam ki, n\u0259 yeyir, n\u0259 i\u00e7ir, kimn\u0259n oturub durur?<\/p>\n

– Yox, s\u0259n\u0259 bu h\u0259ft\u0259y\u0259 bilet alaq, el\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259nb\u0259y\u0259… M\u0259n d\u0259 ged\u0259rdim, amma i\u015fi qoyub \u00e7\u0131xa bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Nar\u0131n bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 Allaha sonsuz t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr etdi ki, Niyaz i\u015fini qoyub onunla getm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259di…<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q s\u0259f\u0259r haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131na ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Niyaz da bu g\u00fcnl\u0259r tamam d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. Lap q\u0259rib\u0259 olmu\u015fdu. Yem\u0259kl\u0259rini b\u0259h-b\u0259hl\u0259 yeyirdi. H\u0259min mehriban, istiqanl\u0131 Niyaz sanki n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 duyuq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb geri qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6hb\u0259tin ard\u0131nca Nar\u0131n:<\/p>\n

– Paltar\u0131m \u00e7oxdur, – deyib t\u0259kid ets\u0259 d\u0259, g\u00fccl\u0259 ma\u011fazaya apar\u0131b ona geyiml\u0259r alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qay\u0131dark\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yol\u00fcst\u00fc qad\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259llik salonunun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda saxlay\u0131b:<\/p>\n

– Get \u00fcr\u0259yin ist\u0259y\u0259ni el\u0259, amma q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131na q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng get, – demi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Nar\u0131n bu ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259ri he\u00e7 c\u00fcr anlamasa da, o g\u00fcn sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259n sevdiyi r\u0259ngl\u0259 – a\u00e7\u0131q q\u0259hv\u0259yi r\u0259ngl\u0259 boyatd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Fikir ver\u0259rdi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 – Leyla da sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 bu r\u0259ngl\u0259 boyad\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Bir az tez ged\u0259k. Bird\u0259n yollarda t\u0131xac olar.<\/p>\n

Ax\u015famdan haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yem\u0259kl\u0259ri bir-bir soyuducuya y\u0131\u011fan Nar\u0131n:<\/p>\n

– Yem\u0259yin \u00e7oxdur. Haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fam, – dedi.<\/p>\n

Sakit bir s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

– Ac qalma, – dedi v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, Niyaz\u0131n yey\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n-i\u00e7\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n niy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r narahatd\u0131r. Q\u0259lb\u0259n k\u00fcsd\u00fcy\u00fc insana bu q\u0259d\u0259r diqq\u0259t, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t hardand\u0131r?<\/p>\n

Telefonu z\u0259ng \u00e7ald\u0131. \u015eirindi. O da orda narahatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Haz\u0131r\u0131q, el\u0259 be\u015f-on d\u0259qiq\u0259y\u0259 atan m\u0259ni aparacaq hava liman\u0131na. \u0130n\u015fallah, gecikm\u0259 olmaz…<\/p>\n

– G\u0259l, mama, g\u0259l…<\/p>\n

\u015eirinin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bird\u0259n yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q k\u0259sdi. Niyaz\u0131n uzaqda oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcb p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla dedi:<\/p>\n

– Tamam yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, diplomumu da g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

– Neynirs\u0259n ax\u0131, ay mama, burda o diplom n\u0259y\u0259 yar\u0131yar ki?..<\/p>\n

Nar\u0131n tutuldu. \u015eirin\u0259 hiss etdirm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, s\u0259si titr\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– Orda bo\u015f dura bilm\u0259r\u0259m, i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m y\u0259qin…<\/p>\n

– \u0130\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259n, i\u015f tapar\u0131q. S\u0259n t\u0259ki g\u0259l.<\/p>\n

Yox, ruhdan d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k olmaz. Ged\u0259c\u0259k, diplomunu da aparacaq. Vaxt g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k Niyaza da, el\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131na da s\u00fcbut ed\u0259c\u0259k ki, o bu diplomu bo\u015funa almay\u0131b.<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 oldun? \u00c7\u0131xm\u0131rsan? – Niyaz onu s\u0259sl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

S\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 diplomunu b\u00fck\u00fcb \u00e7antas\u0131na qoydu. Son d\u0259f\u0259 ev\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131. \u0130ll\u0259rini verdiyi bu evd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 ac\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259r bir-bir g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 canland\u0131. Niyazla ke\u00e7irdiyi anlar, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r, m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259r, k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259r…<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat\u0131nda yeni bir s\u0259hif\u0259 a\u00e7maq vaxt\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Yol boyunca Niyaz onun \u0259lind\u0259n tutdu. O da \u0259lini \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di\u2026<\/p>\n

U\u00e7u\u015fdan \u0259vv\u0259l Niyaz onu qucaqlad\u0131. Nar\u0131n o anlarda g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu. \u00c7\u00fcnki bu g\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259 sevgiyl\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 k\u0259d\u0259r, k\u00fcsk\u00fcnl\u00fck d\u0259 vard\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q h\u0259r \u015feyi gerid\u0259 buraxma\u011f\u0131n, \u00f6z yoluna davam etm\u0259yin zaman\u0131 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Can\u0131-ciy\u0259ri \u015eirin, yeni dostlar, yeni h\u0259yat onu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi\u2026 Yeni bir yola \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, n\u0259hay\u0259t, onu qaranl\u0131qdan azadl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131xaran, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tapma\u011fa aparan bir yola \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

U\u00e7u\u015fa d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r qal\u0131rd\u0131\u2026 Fikirl\u0259ri qovur, birc\u0259 t\u0259yyar\u0259nin tez havaya qalxmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 bundan sonra, buludlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n xilas ola bil\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

St\u00fcardessan\u0131n s\u0259si g\u0259ldi:<\/p>\n

– Telefonlar\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcn. K\u0259m\u0259rl\u0259ri ba\u011flay\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018flini \u00e7antas\u0131na atd\u0131. Diplomunun alt\u0131ndan telefonu g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259di\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir s\u0259s g\u0259ldi. Mesaj idi. Niyaz\u0131 bu yax\u0131nlarda m\u00fcayin\u0259 ed\u0259n h\u0259kimd\u0259ndi. A\u00e7maq ist\u0259m\u0259di. Amma s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259k d\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259di. T\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd v\u0259 narahatl\u0131qla a\u00e7d\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

“Nar\u0131n, \u00f6z\u00fc bilm\u0259sin dey\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 yaz\u0131ram, v\u0259ziyy\u0259t he\u00e7 d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 deyil. Dilim\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m – ondand\u0131r, h\u0259m d\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n, “b\u0259d”ind\u0259n\u2026 M\u00fctl\u0259q sabah g\u0259l, dan\u0131\u015faq\u2026<\/p>\n

St\u00fcardessan\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 altda telefonu s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131na bir s\u0259s ata bildi:<\/p>\n

– \u015eirin, m\u0259n\u0259 sabaha qay\u0131tma\u011fa bilet al.\u00a0G\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 dey\u0259r\u0259m \u0259trafl\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

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S\u0259ma Mu\u011fanna<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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\"Miray<\/p>\n

M\u0259n be\u015fikd\u0259mi, yaxud m\u0259zardam\u0131 do\u011fulmu\u015fam, xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram. Siz bilirsiniz m\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131m ne\u00e7\u0259 vaxtd\u0131r yuyulmur? T\u0259bii ki, insanlar yuyulmur dey\u0259c\u0259k, ancaq k\u0259nardan g\u00f6r\u00fcn nec\u0259 kobud s\u0259sl\u0259nir?<\/p>\n

B\u0259s yax\u015f\u0131, m\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131mda uyumuramsa, kimdir m\u0259ni o kor-koran\u0259 olan qaranl\u0131q k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Zaman insanlar kimi q\u0259ddar deyil, amma d\u0259yi\u015fk\u0259ndir. Ona toxunmay\u0131n ki, o da sizin ke\u00e7mi\u015finiz\u0259 toxunmas\u0131n. \u0130nsan\u0131n qaysaq ba\u011flayan yaralar\u0131n\u0131 opard\u0131qca ah-nal\u0259si t\u00fck\u0259nmir, amma zaman\u0131 bu maraqland\u0131rm\u0131r. Zaman h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131zda ba\u015f ver\u0259n hadis\u0259l\u0259rin par\u00e7alar\u0131 kimidir, sanki karton ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259yir. B\u00fck\u00fcb atma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q, amma o yen\u0259 biz\u0259 geri d\u00f6n\u00fcr. Zaman da el\u0259dir. Zamana toxundu\u011funuz vaxt onun da sizin d\u00fcnyan\u0131z\u0131 alt-\u00fcst ed\u0259c\u0259yini bilin, \u00e7\u00fcnki g\u0259nc q\u0131z\u0131n d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259hv etdi.<\/p>\n

2018-ci ild\u0259yik, amma zaman bizi 2016-c\u0131 ilin qal\u0131n paltosunu \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 al\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n yalq\u0131z pay\u0131za apar\u0131r:<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn hava \u00e7ox soyuq idi. S\u0259man\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259ri soyuqdan tir-tir \u0259sirdi. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, harasa gecikmi\u015fdi v\u0259 \u00e7atmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259l\u0259sirdi. S\u0259man\u0131 \u201cAy kimi i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 q\u0131z\u201d adland\u0131r\u0131rlar. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, he\u00e7 k\u0259s bilmirdi ki, S\u0259ma gec\u0259l\u0259ri Ay il\u0259 niy\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fir? Sanki \u00f6z balas\u0131, ki\u00e7ik bac\u0131s\u0131 kimi onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rimizi, h\u0259tta g\u00f6z b\u0259b\u0259kl\u0259rimizi kor ed\u0259n simas\u0131na s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kir.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ma g\u00f6z\u0259l r\u0259ssamd\u0131r. Onun r\u0259sml\u0259rind\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 Ay t\u0259svir olunurdu. Biz dey\u0259nd\u0259 ki, \u201cAy S\u0259ma, b\u0259sdi d\u0259. Ax\u0131 o Ay par\u00e7as\u0131nda n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n?\u201d \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar, m\u00f6hk\u0259m \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015f\u0259r, h\u0259tta bizd\u0259n k\u00fcs\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ma kitab kimidir. Onu \u00e7\u00f6zm\u0259k, anlamaq \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tindir. Ta ki, o g\u00fcn\u0259 kimi..<\/p>\n

B\u0259rk ya\u011f\u0131\u015f \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Bu g\u00fcn ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n k\u00fcs\u00fcb h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fc \u00e7\u0259km\u0259si d\u0259 el\u0259 tam yerin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ax\u0131 niy\u0259? Bu vaxt S\u0259man\u0131n telefonuna z\u0259ng g\u0259ldi. S\u0259ma he\u00e7 vaxt telefonu s\u0259ssiz\u0259 qoymazd\u0131, ancaq bu g\u00fcn n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 s\u0259ssizd\u0259 idi. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn idi ki, S\u0259ma q\u0259rib\u0259 davran\u0131rd\u0131. Sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn duy\u011fular\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f, ya da ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n duy\u011fular\u0131yla qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130nsan\u0131n duy\u011fular\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt itmir. \u018fg\u0259r bir insan ki, sevgid\u0259n uzaqd\u0131r, bax\u0131n, o \u00e7aynikd\u0259 qalan \u00e7ay\u0131n d\u0259mi kimi k\u00f6hn\u0259dir. Solun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 deyil, qaynar \u00e7ay\u0131n q\u0259fild\u0259n \u0259limiz\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0259si kimi alovludur, hirslidir. \u018fslind\u0259, bu sadalad\u0131qlar\u0131m v\u0259 insan xarakterini t\u0259svir edir\u2026<\/p>\n

Telefonunu a\u00e7mayan S\u0259ma yen\u0259 ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 r\u0259sm i\u015fl\u0259yir, lakin bu d\u0259f\u0259ki r\u0259smi \u00e7ox qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q v\u0259 gizli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Hiss olunurdu ki, o, \u00e7ox h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 v\u0259 g\u0259rgindir. Masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fc boya olsa da, diqq\u0259tini r\u0259smd\u0259n ay\u0131ra bilm\u0259y\u0259n S\u0259ma he\u00e7 qap\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 qap\u0131 t\u0131qq\u0131ldatd\u0131lar v\u0259 q\u0259fild\u0259n b\u0259rk yumruq kimi vuruldu, S\u0259ma o an r\u0259smind\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131b qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Kimdir?<\/p>\n

– \u015e\u00fck\u00fcrl\u0259r olsun, S\u0259ma, sonunda g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131n. M\u0259n\u0259m Ay\u015f\u0259n.<\/p>\n

– Ay,Ay\u015f\u0259n, \u00fcz\u00fcrl\u00fc hesab et. G\u00f6zl\u0259, a\u00e7\u0131ram qap\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ma qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131nda da fikirli idi. Onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n oxunurdu ki,daxili d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda n\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 ba\u015f verib. Ancaq S\u0259mada bel\u0259 bir x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259t var ki, onu analiz ed\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259min insanlardan yaln\u0131z uzaqla\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 deyir ki, \u201cm\u0259n bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n adam\u0131 deyil\u0259m\u201d<\/p>\n

Ay\u015f\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7diyi an S\u0259man\u0131n daxili d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda ba\u015f ver\u0259n t\u0259lat\u00fcm\u00fc hiss etmi\u015fdi el\u0259 bil. Divana ke\u00e7ib \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 S\u0259maya i\u015far\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k yan\u0131nda oturmas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ma ke\u00e7ib oturdu\u011funda da, sanki tikan \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 idi. Fikri masan\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki r\u0259smd\u0259 idi\u0131. Bax\u0131r, ancaq g\u00f6zl\u0259ri Ay\u015f\u0259ni izl\u0259yirdi<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259r yalan deyil, insan\u0131 yalanlarla dolduran, yalan\u00e7\u0131 ed\u0259n onun g\u00f6z b\u0259b\u0259kl\u0259ridir. G\u00f6z b\u0259b\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259ki i\u015f\u0131q yalan\u0131, x\u0259yan\u0259ti ifad\u0259 edir, \u00e7\u00fcnki g\u00f6z b\u0259b\u0259kl\u0259ri h\u0259r \u015feyi g\u00f6r\u00fcb. S\u0259ma r\u0259sm\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evrils\u0259 d\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri Ay\u015f\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc inand\u0131r\u0131r ki, o, Ay\u015f\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u018fslind\u0259, bu bel\u0259 deyildi. \u0130nsanlar par\u00e7alara b\u0259nz\u0259m\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, r\u0259q\u0259ml\u0259r kimi t\u0259krarlana, ancaq gizli bir a\u00e7ar kimi d\u0259 qorxulu ola bil\u0259rl\u0259r. A\u00e7ar dedim, \u00e7\u00fcnki onun a\u00e7ar\u0131 r\u0259q\u0259ml\u0259ridir. R\u0259q\u0259ml\u0259r d\u0259 kodlar\u0131d\u0131r. Bu kodlar\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131 yaln\u0131z S\u0259ma bilirdi. T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 bundan x\u0259b\u0259ri yox idi.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259ma, yax\u015f\u0131san?<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, Ay\u015f\u0259n, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131yam.<\/p>\n

– He\u00e7 n\u0259s\u0259 onu g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Niy\u0259?<\/p>\n

– G\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 qalx bir \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bax.<\/p>\n

\u201cG\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc S\u0259man\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yini d\u0259lib-de\u015fdi, \u00e7\u00fcnki o, he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 baxmazd\u0131. Sanki baxarsa, b\u00fct\u00fcn sehrli q\u00fcvv\u0259l\u0259r onun c\u0259llad\u0131na \u00e7evrilib \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259yini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rdi. T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 t\u0259rzini yaln\u0131z \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n yax\u0131nlar\u0131ndan bel\u0259 gizl\u0259dirdi, amma bu g\u00fcn ger\u00e7\u0259k duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131 maskalanm\u0131\u015f simas\u0131ndan gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Divandan q\u0259fil qalx\u0131b t\u0259\u015fvi\u015fl\u0259 Ay\u015f\u0259n\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n

– \u018fg\u0259r g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 baxarsam, c\u0259llad\u0131m g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

– N\u0259? S\u0259ma, n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n f\u0259rqind\u0259s\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Ay\u015f\u0259n S\u0259man\u0131n dediyin\u0259 xeyli g\u00fcld\u00fc v\u0259 zarafat etdiyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb dedi:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 gec\u0259l\u0259ri r\u0259sm \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaqla yorma. B\u0259sdi, ay q\u0131z, a\u011fl\u0131ndan niy\u0259 el\u0259 fikirl\u0259r ke\u00e7irirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

– Ay\u015f\u0259n, yox! Yox! Anlam\u0131rsan m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

– \u018fzizim, m\u0259n s\u0259ni anlay\u0131ram. S\u0259n \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 h\u0259kim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn, bel\u0259 olmaz ax\u0131. G\u0259l, S\u0259ma, el\u0259 bu h\u0259ft\u0259 ged\u0259k. M\u0259nim tan\u0131\u015f h\u0259kimim var. Yax\u015f\u0131,
\ntan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f psixoloqdur.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n d\u0259li deyil\u0259m! -dedi v\u0259 s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131\u015fla yerind\u0259n qalx\u0131b qaynar \u00e7ay\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 t\u00f6kd\u00fc. Bu zaman s\u0259sini bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarmadan aya\u011f\u0131ndan z\u0259rif
\nbarmaqlar\u0131yla yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 hiss etm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn di\u015fl\u0259rini bir-birin\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131<\/p>\n

– Neyl\u0259din s\u0259n! D\u0259li olmusan?<\/p>\n

– He\u00e7 n\u0259. Ay\u015f\u0259n, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m bo\u015f ver.<\/p>\n

– Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni bo\u015f ver? S\u0259nin b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rin korlan\u0131b. Yox ee yox, S\u0259ma, getm\u0259liyik, ancaq \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 aya\u011f\u0131na baxaq. M\u0259n sabah h\u0259kiml\u0259
\ndan\u0131\u015facam.<\/p>\n

– Dedim ax\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259, ist\u0259mir\u0259m! \u0130s-t\u0259-mi-r\u0259m! Niy\u0259 anlamaq ist\u0259mirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n d\u0259li deyil\u0259m! \u018fs\u0259bl\u0259rim d\u0259 yerind\u0259dir. Deyir\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259 ki, c\u0259llad g\u0259lib m\u0259ni aparacaq. O g\u00fcn yen\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259ma, m\u0259n s\u0259nin yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Dem\u0259! V\u0259 indi evimi t\u0259rk et!<\/p>\n

A\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 q\u00fcvv\u0259tli olsa da, Ay\u015f\u0259n\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r hirsli idi ki, a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 hiss etmirdi. Aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b Ay\u015f\u0259ni \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131 v\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 da birba\u015fa \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 ba\u011flad\u0131. H\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fc g\u0259ldiyini hiss etdiyind\u0259 divar\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131b b\u0259rk a\u011flad\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda dedi:<\/p>\n

– G\u00f6y\u00fcn \u015fahzad\u0259si Ay, hardasan ax\u0131? \u0130nsanlar m\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr. M\u0259n insanlardan qa\u00e7maq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Nolar ax\u0131, al m\u0259ni yan\u0131na\u2026<\/p>\n

Dediyi an etibaril\u0259 g\u00f6y guruldad\u0131 v\u0259 \u015fim\u015f\u0259k \u00e7axd\u0131. S\u0259man\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 getdikc\u0259 \u00e7oxald\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan bu a\u011fr\u0131lara tab g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259yib yata\u011f\u0131na uzanma\u011f\u0131 q\u0259rara ald\u0131. G\u00fcc-b\u0259la il\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, yata\u011f\u0131na uzand\u0131 v\u0259 an\u0131nda yuxuya dald\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259ki a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131, yaxud \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259ki s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131n\u0131 hiss etdikd\u0259 t\u00fck\u0259nmir. \u0130nsan milyonlarca insan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 t\u0259nha oldu\u011funu hiss etikd\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131r v\u0259 bu a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131 sad\u0259c\u0259 t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131n lal dilinin s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7evrilir.<\/p>\n

T\u0259nhal\u0131q n\u0259dir? Bu sual\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131 bilirsiniz? Nec\u0259 ola bil\u0259r ki, onun dili olmas\u0131n? \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, var. Sad\u0259c\u0259 siz g\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz. Onun dili var, ancaq dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131r. Dan\u0131\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 S\u0259ma bu a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259 hiss etdikc\u0259 daha da taq\u0259td\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n

S\u0259ma d\u0259rin yuxudan oyand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda telefonu a\u00e7\u0131b d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ona z\u0259ng olundu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Dostlar\u0131, i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131. Q\u0259rib\u0259dir ki, S\u0259ma bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saatl\u0131q yuxuya dalsa da, onun kainat\u0131nda bu bel\u0259 deyildi. M\u0259hz o g\u00fcn \u00e7arpay\u0131s\u0131ndan qalx\u0131b p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda gec\u0259 oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u0259n S\u0259ma yen\u0259 ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 Ay\u2019\u0131n simas\u0131na s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 r\u0259qs etdirdi. Zaman el\u0259 bil n\u0259 gerid\u0259, n\u0259 d\u0259 ir\u0259lid\u0259 idi. M\u0259hz bu g\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131!
\nS\u0259ma masan\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qoydu\u011fu r\u0259sm\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxd\u0131qdan sonra onu \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 izl\u0259di. R\u0259smd\u0259 bir g\u0259nc q\u0131z v\u0259 g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki Ay t\u0259svir olunmu\u015fdu. Ancaq \u201cAy\u201d z\u00fclm\u0259ti i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131. Onun i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fd\u0259 idi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 t\u0259rzin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 S\u0259man\u0131 \u201cd\u0259li\u201d adland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar!<\/p>\n

Diqq\u0259tl\u0259 Ay\u2019a baxan S\u0259man\u0131 d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259lik qap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngi ay\u0131rd\u0131. Qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b: -\u201cH\u0259l\u0259 z\u00fclm\u0259tdir, padi\u015fah, s\u00fcbh\u00fcn krali\u00e7as\u0131 G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f do\u011fulmay\u0131b. Ay il\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m. M\u0259n\u0259 mane olmay\u0131n!\u201d -dey\u0259n S\u0259ma yen\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b divar\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 ki\u00e7ik k\u00f6rp\u0259 kimi q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131b g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc izl\u0259di..<\/p>\n

Bu zaman g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n Ay\u2019\u0131n simas\u0131nda iki g\u00f6z peyda oldu. Heyr\u0259tl\u0259n\u0259n S\u0259ma qorxudan divar\u0131n lap k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131lsa da, amma bu m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259nin nec\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini anlamaq ist\u0259yirdi. Masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qalan r\u0259smin\u0259 xeyli baxd\u0131. \u018ftrafda h\u0259r yer s\u0259h\u0259r olsa da, onun g\u00f6zl\u0259ri h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi yaln\u0131z z\u00fclm\u0259tin \u015fahzad\u0259si Ay\u2019da g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. R\u0259smini yava\u015fca \u0259lin\u0259 al\u0131b Ay il\u0259 sanki s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Q\u0259rib\u0259dir ki, S\u0259ma dan\u0131\u015fmasa da, \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 izah edirdi. Dem\u0259k, t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131n dili olmasa da, a\u011fr\u0131yla, s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131yla dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi, S\u0259ma da g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n damla-damla axan damc\u0131lar\u0131 bel\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259n Ay ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 el\u0259 \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131rd\u0131 ki, h\u0259tta S\u0259ma heyr\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi. \u018flind\u0259ki r\u0259sm bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 toz oldu. S\u0259ma h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bu duy\u011fulardan \u00e7\u0131xa bilm\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qorxmad\u0131, amma t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi. Ovuclar\u0131nda ki\u00e7ik bir ka\u011f\u0131z par\u00e7as\u0131 peyda oldu v\u0259 Ay g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sib ona i\u015far\u0259 etdi. Q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz m\u0259ktubu a\u00e7\u0131b oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u018fzizim S\u0259ma, s\u0259n m\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131nda, yaxud be\u015fikd\u0259 do\u011fuldu\u011funun cavab\u0131n\u0131 axtar\u0131rsan. Onun cavab\u0131 s\u0259nin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259dir. Bu m\u0259ktubu yazan Ay\u0131n el\u00e7isidir. Bayaqdan Ay il\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m v\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 deyir ki, bu q\u0131z \u00e7ox istedadl\u0131d\u0131r v\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yinin f\u0131r\u00e7as\u0131 o q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00e7\u0259kir ki, m\u0259ni bel\u0259 valeh edir. S\u0259n n\u0259 be\u015fikd\u0259, n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131nda d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lmis\u0259n. B\u0259li, S\u0259ma, s\u0259nin d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli, h\u0259tta ac\u0131mas\u0131z bir c\u0259llad\u0131n vard\u0131. Onu dem\u0259kd\u0259 do\u011fru etmis\u0259n, amma s\u0259n ondan qurtuldun! S\u0259nin c\u0259llad\u0131n yuxu idi. \u0130ndi s\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f qaranl\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259 bil\u0259r, amma qaranl\u0131q deyil.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni t\u0259brik edir\u0259m, \u0259ziz S\u0259ma, Ay\u2019a yaz\u0131lan v\u0259 ill\u0259r boyunca cavab\u0131 tap\u0131lmayan kodun cavab\u0131n\u0131 tapd\u0131n! \u201cAy\u201d par\u0131ldasa da, daima yaln\u0131zl\u0131q onu t\u00fck\u0259dirdi. Kodlar\u0131 birlikd\u0259 toplad\u0131qda bu cavab\u0131 ald\u0131q: \u201cAy T\u0259nha deyil, onu ayd\u0131nladan S\u0259mas\u0131 var!\u201d g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn S\u0259mas\u0131 da s\u0259ns\u0259n, \u0259ziz S\u0259ma! S\u0259n c\u0259llad\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259yi bacard\u0131n v\u0259 bununla birg\u0259 insanlar\u0131n basq\u0131s\u0131 alt\u0131nda olmaqdan da qurtuldun! \u0130nsan a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131 hiss etdiyind\u0259 t\u0259krarlanan ke\u00e7mi\u015fin\u0259 baxmal\u0131d\u0131r. S\u0259ma ke\u00e7mi\u015fini unutmad\u0131, amma yalan \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 yarad\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n par\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 tapd\u0131. Onlar\u0131 tap\u0131b birl\u0259\u015fdirdikd\u0259 d\u0259 cavab\u0131 ald\u0131: \u201cAy t\u0259nha deyil, \u00e7\u00fcnki G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn S\u0259mas\u0131 var\u201d<\/p>\n

O, ke\u00e7mi\u015fl\u0259 indinin aras\u0131nda qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 z\u0259nn ets\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259slind\u0259, zaman da h\u0259yat kimi ona ki\u00e7ik oyun oynad\u0131. Bu oyunun qalibi olmad\u0131. Bu oyunun d\u00fcr\u00fcstl\u00fcy\u00fc b\u0259lli oldu!<\/p>\n

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Arzularda qalan \u015f\u0259h\u0259r “Ya\u015f\u0131l vadi”… – Samir\u0259 \u018f\u015fr\u0259f yaz\u0131r<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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“\u00c7\u0259hray\u0131 atlar tez-tez yuxuma girm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 tez-tez ki, bunun yuxu, yoxsa ger\u00e7\u0259k oldu\u011funu ay\u0131rd ed\u0259 bilmirdim…”<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 \u015e\u0259rif A\u011fayar\u0131n sayca \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc roman\u0131 “Arzulardan sonrak\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r” bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r. H\u0259l\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131q d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fayan, yeniyetm\u0259liy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259m qoymaqda \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n H\u0259s\u0259nin yuxular\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 r\u0259ngli atlar i\u015f\u011fal edib. H\u0259s\u0259n bu i\u015f\u011faldan narahatd\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnki onun yuxusuna gir\u0259n atlar a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131 d\u0259mir m\u0259ftill\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011fundan ot yey\u0259, su i\u00e7\u0259 bilmirl\u0259r, \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kirl\u0259r. M\u0259ftilin \u00e7\u0259n\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaralardan qan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr v\u0259 H\u0259s\u0259n u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z ill\u0259rind\u0259 dilsiz-a\u011f\u0131zs\u0131z heyvanlara qar\u015f\u0131 insanlar t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n edil\u0259n zal\u0131ml\u0131\u011f\u0131 he\u00e7 bir zaman unuda bilmir. El\u0259 h\u0259min z\u00fclm\u00fcn \u0259r\u015f\u0259 qalxmas\u0131, \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 atlar\u0131n s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz f\u0259ryad\u0131 H\u0259s\u0259ni m\u0259cbur edir ki, x\u0259yal\u0259n d\u0259 olsa, \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaman, r\u0259himsiz insanlar\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131, pislikl\u0259rd\u0259n ar\u0131nan bir \u015f\u0259h\u0259r yarats\u0131n. El\u0259 bir \u015f\u0259h\u0259r ki, orada \u00f6l\u00fcm-itim olmur. \u0130nsanlar qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z, mehriban ya\u015fay\u0131rlar. H\u0259tta a\u011faclardak\u0131 yarpaqlar da t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fcr. H\u0259min \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin sakinl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn birc\u0259 qayda var. Xeyirxahl\u0131q!<\/p>\n

H\u0259s\u0259n \u00fcmid edir ki, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 daxil olmaqla Arzulardan sonrak\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin dig\u0259r sakinl\u0259ri bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 yaln\u0131z yerin\u0259 yet\u0259n arzularla ya\u015fay\u0131b, xo\u015fb\u0259xt olacaqlar. Arzulardan sonrak\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin ad\u0131 H\u0259s\u0259nin arzular\u0131na v\u0259 sevdiyi insanlar\u0131n \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fir. O, h\u0259min \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 “n\u0259n\u0259min \u0259ll\u0259ri”, “Kiyev”, “M\u0259rm\u0259r”, “Mehribanl\u0131q” kimi m\u00fcxt\u0259lif adlar se\u00e7ir. Sevdiyi q\u0131z G\u00fcls\u00fcm\u00fc is\u0259 h\u0259min \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin \u015fahzad\u0259si edir. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sliyin\u0259 v\u0259 t\u0259mizliyin\u0259 x\u0259l\u0259l g\u0259tir\u0259n adamlar v\u0259 adlar d\u0259rhal onun x\u0259yal\u0131ndan silinir.<\/p>\n

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H\u0259s\u0259nin x\u0259yal d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda ba\u015f ver\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rin nizam\u0131n\u0131 pozan bir n\u0259n\u0259 “Miss-154” d\u0259 var. N\u0259n\u0259 kifir, davakar, h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259siz, hikk\u0259li, yeri g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z xeyrini g\u00fcd\u0259ndir. Ancaq o, h\u0259m d\u0259 mehriban, can\u0131yanan, \u00fcr\u0259yi yum\u015faq, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc f\u0259da etm\u0259yi bacaran qad\u0131nd\u0131r. H\u0259s\u0259n bu d\u00fcnyada yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131q ad\u0131na h\u0259r \u015feyi n\u0259n\u0259sinin \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcr. \u018fn \u00e7\u0259tin, k\u0259d\u0259rli anlar\u0131nda n\u0259n\u0259sinin isti, \u015f\u0259fq\u0259t dolu \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131r.<\/p>\n

“Birc\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259ri g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. El\u0259 yum\u015faq, el\u0259 isti, el\u0259 m\u0259hr\u0259mdir ki! Onun \u0259ll\u0259ri olmasa, bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 yola getm\u0259rik. \u018fn hirsli vaxt\u0131mda “m\u0259nim balam!” – deyib sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kdimi, o saat ma\u011f\u0131llay\u0131ram. N\u0259s\u0259 bir hikm\u0259t var n\u0259n\u0259min \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259. Sirrini a\u00e7a bilm\u0259diyim d\u0259rin bir hikm\u0259t. M\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259min \u0259yri ayaqlar\u0131, donqar beli, sallaq d\u00f6\u015fl\u0259ri, yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan \u00e7\u00f6r-\u00e7\u00f6p y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kimi sa\u011fa-sola \u00e7\u0131xan, dara\u011fa, s\u0131\u011fala yatmayan cod sa\u00e7lar\u0131, qumbara partlayan a\u011fz\u0131, qoz l\u0259p\u0259sin\u0259 ox\u015fayan \u00fcz\u00fcyl\u0259 deyil, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 cavanl\u0131q t\u0259rav\u0259tini itirm\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 qohumam. N\u0259n\u0259mi b\u00fct\u00f6v bir qlobus kimi t\u0259ss\u0259vv\u00fcr ets\u0259k, m\u0259nim v\u0259t\u0259nim onun \u0259ll\u0259ridir. \u015eimall\u0131-c\u0259nublu iki v\u0259t\u0259n!”<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n b\u0259d\u0259ninin \u0259n m\u0259hr\u0259m hiss\u0259si onun b\u0259tnidir. H\u0259r bir qad\u0131n h\u0259l\u0259 yeniyetm\u0259lik d\u00f6vr\u00fcnd\u0259n anlay\u0131r ki, b\u0259tni onun g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi v\u0259 davam\u0131d\u0131r. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 daima \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc istid\u0259n, soyuqdan, z\u0259rb\u0259d\u0259n qoruyur. \u018fyl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, uzananda, h\u0259tta yol ged\u0259nd\u0259 bel\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00f6z b\u0259tni \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7arpazlay\u0131r. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 h\u0259r qad\u0131n\u0131n b\u0259tnind\u0259ki istilik onun \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 hopur. H\u0259min istilik \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 tumarda, hirsl\u0259n\u0259rk\u0259n yan\u0131ndan g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc \u00e7imdikd\u0259, haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 x\u00f6r\u0259yin h\u0259rar\u0259tind\u0259 bel\u0259 duyulur v\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik yer edir.<\/p>\n

M\u0259hz bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259ndir ki, anas\u0131n\u0131 erk\u0259n itir\u0259n H\u0259s\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259sin\u0259 v\u0259 onun \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 tap\u0131n\u0131r. Onun i\u00e7ind\u0259ki qad\u0131n, ana sevgisi n\u0259n\u0259sinin \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259 t\u0259zah\u00fcr edir.<\/p>\n

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“Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259min dizinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydum, g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 sevimli \u0259ll\u0259ri sa\u00e7\u0131mda, doda\u011f\u0131m\u0131n yaras\u0131nda g\u0259zdikc\u0259 i\u00e7imi q\u0259rib\u0259 bir k\u00f6vr\u0259klik b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

“N\u0259n\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259 anamdan dan\u0131\u015f…”, – deyib g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumdum, bir gil\u0259 ya\u015f d\u0131\u011f\u0131rlan\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. N\u0259n\u0259min dizinin astaca titr\u0259m\u0259sind\u0259n onun da s\u0259ssiz a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etdim”.<\/p>\n

M\u00fc\u0259llif n\u0259n\u0259 obraz\u0131n\u0131 bu c\u00fcr inc\u0259 detallarla vur\u011fulamaqla h\u0259m d\u0259 k\u0259nardan hikk\u0259li, yaman, davakar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n, \u0259trafa o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 xo\u015f t\u0259sir ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamayan insanlar haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259nin yaln\u0131\u015f oldu\u011funa i\u015far\u0259 edir.<\/p>\n

N\u0259v\u0259sini qorumaq, kims\u0259sizlikl\u0259rini he\u00e7 kim\u0259 hiss etdirm\u0259m\u0259k, \u00f6z i\u00e7ind\u0259ki d\u0259rdl\u0259ri b\u00fcruz\u0259 verib, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 verm\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc n\u0259n\u0259nin yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131, ifrit\u0259l\u0259ri xat\u0131rladan eyb\u0259c\u0259r obraz yana\u011f\u0131ndan d\u0131\u011f\u0131rlan\u0131b H\u0259s\u0259nin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n bir damla g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259hv olur. Oxucu burada q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259nc ik\u0259n itirmi\u015f, bu itkinin b\u0259db\u0259xtliyind\u0259 pay\u0131 olan do\u011fmaca qarda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n olub d\u0259fnin\u0259 ged\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n, d\u0259fni k\u0259nardan a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya izl\u0259y\u0259n pil\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kli qad\u0131nla tan\u0131\u015f olur.<\/p>\n

V\u0259 bu tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131q oxucunun n\u0259n\u0259 haqq\u0131nda yaranan t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrat\u0131nda d\u0259rin bir pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q yarad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

H\u0259s\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259sinin \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259n se\u00e7diyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcns\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259slind\u0259 o, n\u0259n\u0259sin\u0259, onun varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na ana kimi, v\u0259t\u0259n kimi s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131r, ona \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fir. N\u0259n\u0259 H\u0259s\u0259nin ke\u00e7mi\u015finin, \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l xatir\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n qalan yegan\u0259 yadigar\u0131d\u0131r. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 o, n\u0259n\u0259si il\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dala\u015f\u0131b at\u0131\u015fsa da, s\u00f6z g\u00fcl\u0259\u015fdirs\u0259 d\u0259, yen\u0259 d\u0259 onu sevir, onsuz ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131z olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rind\u0259n hiss edir.<\/p>\n

Ana, v\u0259t\u0259n v\u0259 m\u0259kan yoxlu\u011fu n\u0259n\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 assosiasiya olunsa da, \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 atlarla deformasiyaya u\u011fray\u0131r. Anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra H\u0259s\u0259nin yuxusuna \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 atlar girm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r. H\u0259s\u0259n yuxuda atlar\u0131n qoxusunu da hiss etdiyini v\u0259 h\u0259min qoxunun anas\u0131n\u0131n qoxusuna b\u0259nz\u0259diyini deyir.<\/p>\n

H\u0259s\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259sini anas\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox sevs\u0259 d\u0259, qoxusu il\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r yad\u0131nda qalan anas\u0131n\u0131 unuda bilmir. Anas\u0131n\u0131n atlara min\u0259c\u0259yi g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r H\u0259s\u0259ni b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259si onun u\u015faq q\u0259lbind\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 nisgil\u0259 \u00e7evrilib. Dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n is\u0259 H\u0259s\u0259nin b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb at \u00e7apaca\u011f\u0131 d\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r, d\u00fcz\u0259ngahl\u0131qlar, da\u011flar\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yi d\u0259 art\u0131q yoxdur. Oralar d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n i\u015f\u011fal olunub, da\u011f\u0131d\u0131l\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 atlar h\u0259m d\u0259 H\u0259s\u0259nin i\u015f\u011fal olunmu\u015f torpa\u011f\u0131n\u0131, m\u0259kans\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 simvoliz\u0259 edir. H\u0259s\u0259n yuxusuna g\u0259l\u0259n atlardan ayr\u0131lmaq ist\u0259m\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, oyanandan sonra onlar\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131qda \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kir. \u0130nsanlar\u0131n atlara qar\u015f\u0131 olan r\u0259hmsizliyi onun u\u015faq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259sini, psixologiyas\u0131n\u0131 z\u0259d\u0259l\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

H\u0259m v\u0259t\u0259nin, h\u0259m d\u0259 ata-anan\u0131n yoxlu\u011fu \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 atlar\u0131n yuxular al\u0259mind\u0259 g\u00f6rs\u0259nm\u0259si il\u0259 H\u0259s\u0259nin daxili al\u0259mini \u00e7alxalay\u0131r. O, bu q\u0259d\u0259r yoxluqla, itkil\u0259rl\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fa bilmir. \u0130tki, ayr\u0131l\u0131q, nisgil olan yerd\u0259 is\u0259 yuxular da narahat olur…<\/p>\n

“Arzulardan sonrak\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r” roman\u0131nda paralel d\u00fcnyalar v\u0259 h\u0259min d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131 var. Biri x\u0259yallar\u0131, arzular\u0131, \u00fcmidl\u0259ri il\u0259 var olan H\u0259s\u0259n, dig\u0259ri is\u0259 vaxtil\u0259 \u00f6z q\u0259bil\u0259sinin igid c\u0259ngav\u0259ri olub, sonradan Misir fironunun minl\u0259rl\u0259 k\u00f6l\u0259sind\u0259n birin\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259n Amanisdir.<\/p>\n

Amanis \u00f6z q\u0259bil\u0259sind\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcr\u00fcr. Onun q\u0259bil\u0259si dig\u0259r q\u0259bil\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n g\u00fccl\u00fcd\u00fcr. H\u0259tta o q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fccl\u00fcd\u00fcr ki, bu g\u00fcc ba\u015fqa q\u0259bil\u0259l\u0259rin m\u0259kanlar\u0131n\u0131 i\u015f\u011fal edib, insanlar\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6l\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 qadirdi. Amanisin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda zal\u0131mcas\u0131na yar\u011fandan at\u0131l\u0131b q\u0259tl\u0259 yetiril\u0259n k\u00f6l\u0259 u\u015faq onun yadda\u015f\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer edir. O, he\u00e7 bir vaxt Xaxas x\u0259nd\u0259yind\u0259n yar\u011fana at\u0131lan balaca o\u011flan\u0131 unutmur. H\u0259min u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n x\u0259yal\u0131 daima onu izl\u0259yir. Amanis \u00f6z\u00fc k\u00f6l\u0259lik h\u0259yat\u0131na m\u0259hkum olanda b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259min olur ki, h\u0259min o\u011flan\u0131n s\u0259ssiz nal\u0259si, onun anas\u0131n\u0131n ah\u0131, f\u0259ryad\u0131 l\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7evrilib onlar\u0131n q\u0259bil\u0259sini m\u0259hv edib.<\/p>\n

Amanisin Misir fironunun k\u00f6l\u0259liyind\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259ri m\u0259\u015f\u0259qq\u0259tli v\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z olur. O, tez-tez \u0259sir al\u0131b \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc mizraq\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 b\u0259db\u0259xt qad\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131r. Qad\u0131n\u0131n onunla h\u0259m instiktiv h\u0259zl\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259zabla sevi\u015fm\u0259si \u0259sirlikd\u0259 olark\u0259n Amanis\u0259 \u0259zab verir. O, qeyri-ixtiyari q\u0259bil\u0259si il\u0259 birg\u0259 \u0259sir al\u0131n\u0131b apar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f arvad\u0131 Miladesi xat\u0131rlay\u0131r, qad\u0131n\u0131n sonrak\u0131 aqib\u0259tini mizraq\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n arvad\u0131n\u0131n aqib\u0259ti il\u0259 m\u00fcqayis\u0259 edib sars\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Amanisin Misird\u0259ki k\u00f6l\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 sizif \u0259m\u0259yini xat\u0131rlad\u0131r. Bu taled\u0259n n\u0259 qa\u00e7maq, n\u0259 d\u0259 xilas olmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr. K\u00f6l\u0259l\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259tta \u00f6l\u00fcm se\u00e7imi bel\u0259 verilmir.<\/p>\n

B\u0259z\u0259n Amanisin firon t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n z\u00fclm\u0259 tabe edilm\u0259si yad\u0131m\u0131za h\u0259m d\u0259 \u0130sa M\u0259sihin \u0259zablar\u0131n\u0131 sal\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Amanis bilir ki, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 divara \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259hd ets\u0259 v\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259 bilm\u0259s\u0259, onu \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r c\u0259za g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 o, \u00fcmidl\u0259r\u0259 sar\u0131laraq g\u00fcn\u00fcn birind\u0259 k\u00f6l\u0259lik boyunduru\u011fundan qa\u00e7maq v\u0259 xilas olma\u011fa c\u0259hd edir. Lakin bu c\u0259hd onun sonu olur.<\/p>\n

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\u015e\u0259rif A\u011fayar\u0131n dig\u0259r n\u0259sr \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi “Arzulardan sonrak\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r” roman\u0131 da insandan b\u0259hs edir. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 bu roman\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259n ali varl\u0131q olan insandan tutmu\u015f, x\u0131rda bir h\u0259\u015f\u0259rata q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r bir canl\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015famaq haqq\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcdafi\u0259sin\u0259 qalx\u0131r. A\u011fz\u0131 ba\u011flan\u0131b \u0259zaba d\u00fc\u00e7ar olan atlar\u0131n g\u00fcnah\u0131 onlara z\u00fclm ver\u0259n insanlar\u0131n sonrak\u0131 n\u0259sill\u0259rini haqlay\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Tarix t\u0259krar olunur. Amanis kimi H\u0259s\u0259nin d\u0259 eli qa\u00e7q\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, obas\u0131 yand\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r. \u018fs\u0259rd\u0259 Tanr\u0131 rolunu icra ed\u0259n \u015e\u0259rif A\u011fayar ba\u015fqa q\u0259bil\u0259ni talay\u0131b qad\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fc ya\u015fl\u0131 qoyan “Ya\u015f\u0131l vadi” insanlar\u0131n\u0131 c\u0259zaland\u0131rsa da, onlar\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 Amanisi ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamasa da, H\u0259s\u0259n\u0259 toxunmur. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 q\u0259l\u0259minin \u00f6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl z\u0259rb\u0259si H\u0259s\u0259nd\u0259n yan ke\u00e7ir. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 arzulardan sonrak\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r quracaq q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259miz, l\u0259k\u0259siz olan H\u0259s\u0259n yetimlik \u00e7\u0259ks\u0259 d\u0259, torpaqs\u0131z qalsa da, yalan dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131r, insanlar\u0131 sevir, onlar\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rind\u0259n duyub, onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259nir. Bu kimi s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rd\u0259n yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 yeniyetm\u0259liy\u0259 ayaq qoyan q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n\u0131 diri saxlama\u011fa, qoruma\u011fa c\u0259hd edir, onu \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 qoymur. X\u0259yallar\u0131nda qurmu\u015f oldu\u011fu arzular \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin\u0259 “Ya\u015f\u0131l vadi” ad\u0131n\u0131 ver\u0259n H\u0259s\u0259n h\u0259m d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259ril\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rin da\u015f\u0131y\u0131c\u0131s\u0131na, simvoluna \u00e7evrilir. Onun ham\u0131dan qoruyub-gizl\u0259diyi \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri is\u0259 x\u0259yallarda v\u0259 arzularda qal\u0131r.<\/p>\n

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\u201cM\u0259n\u0259m, Yusif\u201d hekay\u0259si il\u0259 imzas\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131tm\u0131\u015f Aysel \u015e\u0131xl\u0131nn ilk roman\u0131 – \u201cQanads\u0131z M\u0259l\u0259k\u201d g\u0259ncl\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck maraqla qar\u015f\u0131land\u0131. \u018fvv\u0259la ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, m\u00fcasir Az\u0259rbaycan g\u0259ncl\u0259ri bu \u0259s\u0259rd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rd\u00fc. S\u0259hvl\u0259ri v\u0259 d\u00fczl\u0259ri il\u0259, nec\u0259 varsa el\u0259. H\u0259m\u00e7inin kitab\u0131n n\u0259fis t\u0259rtibat\u0131, m\u00fc\u0259llifin \u00f6z\u00fc t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259nmi\u015f \u00fcz qab\u0131\u011f\u0131, ax\u0131c\u0131 dili v\u0259 orijinal \u00fcslubu \u00a0diqq\u0259ti c\u0259lb edirdi. Bu s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rd\u0259n q\u0131sa m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 kitab\u0131n tiraj\u0131 bitdi v\u0259 t\u0259krar n\u0259\u015fr olundu.<\/p>\n

23.09.23 tarixind\u0259 “Libraff” kitab evind\u0259 roman\u0131n ikinci n\u0259\u015frinin t\u0259qdimat\u0131 v\u0259 m\u00fczakir\u0259si oldu.\u00a0\u201cYazma\u011fa davam edir\u0259m. F\u0259rqli janrlarda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc s\u0131nay\u0131ram. Daha u\u011furlu i\u015fl\u0259rim var v\u0259 olacaq\u201d<\/em>, –\u00a0Aysel \u015e\u0131xl\u0131<\/strong>\u00a0dedi.<\/p>\n

\u201cM\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 u\u011furlar arzulay\u0131ram, Aysel. Arzu edir\u0259m ki, \u201c\u015e\u0131xl\u0131\u201d imzas\u0131n\u0131 u\u011furla davam etdir\u0259s\u0259n. \u0130ri h\u0259cmli \u0259s\u0259r yazmaq h\u0259m bacar\u0131q, h\u0259m d\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259t t\u0259l\u0259b edir. S\u0259n \u00e7ox c\u0259sar\u0259tli q\u0131zsan!\u201d<\/em>\u00a0El\u00e7in \u015e\u0131xl\u0131.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u201c\u018fs\u0259ri oxuyuruq v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck. Sanki g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 bax\u0131r\u0131q. Oxuyanda m\u0259n\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r do\u011fma g\u0259ldin ki… U\u011furlar\u0131n daimi, yolun a\u00e7\u0131q v\u0259 ayd\u0131n olsun!\u201d<\/em>\u00a0V\u00fcsal\u0259 Babayeva.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u201cS\u0259n bizim f\u0259xrimizs\u0259n, Aysel. \u201cM\u0259n\u0259m, Yusif\u201d hekay\u0259sini oxuyanda bildim ki, s\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131san\u201d<\/em>\u00a0S\u0259bin\u0259 Yusif.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Qeyd edim ki, g\u0259nc yazar\u0131n ikinci kitab\u0131: \u201cArzular\u0131n s\u0259yah\u0259ti\u201d art\u0131q n\u0259\u015fr olunub v\u0259 tezlikl\u0259 t\u0259qdim olunacaq. \u201cKitab\u0131n ill\u00fcstrasiyalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259 fikirl\u0259rimi oxucuya daha yax\u015f\u0131 \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m\u201d, – dey\u0259n Aysel\u00a0bu kitab\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn ill\u00fcstrasiyalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc i\u015fl\u0259yib. M\u00fcasir r\u0259ssamlar\u0131n i\u015fl\u0259rini, kitab ill\u00fcstrasiyalar\u0131n\u0131n inki\u015faf trendini izl\u0259y\u0259n\u00a0m\u00fc\u0259llifin \u00e7\u0259kdiyi ill\u00fcstrasiyalar da f\u0259rqlidir.<\/p>\n

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Bir \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015fdim o g\u00fcn. Yaln\u0131z bir \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k. B\u0259z\u0259n co\u015fan, b\u0259z\u0259n k\u00f6vr\u0259k olan k\u00f6nl\u00fcm, bir \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015fdi… M\u0259ni ovunduracaq, bir anl\u0131q da olsa, bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck d\u0259 olsa d\u0259rdl\u0259rimi k\u00f6nl\u00fcmd\u0259 susduracaq bir \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015fd\u0131m, bir \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015fdim… B\u0259lk\u0259 o \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k, h\u0259min o m\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259diyim \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k d\u0259 m\u0259nim \u0259ll\u0259rimin h\u0259rar\u0259tini ist\u0259mi\u015fdi, o da g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015fdi onu g\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259y\u0259n bir titr\u0259k \u0259ll\u0259rd\u0259 n\u0259 zaman qonaq olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, o \u0259ll\u0259ri sevindir\u0259c\u0259yini. Onu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n o titr\u0259k \u0259ll\u0259ri isitm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, ovundurmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u0259lk\u0259 onun da g\u00f6zl\u0259ri yolda qalm\u0131\u015f, o da h\u0259sr\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f, b\u0259lk\u0259 o, \u00f6z\u00fcd\u0259 t\u0259nhal\u0131qda qalaraq onu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n z\u0259rif \u0259ll\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131… B\u0259lk\u0259 o da bu titr\u0259k \u0259ll\u0259rin h\u0259sr\u0259tind\u0259n ac\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fd\u0131, q\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. L\u0259\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri solmu\u015f, yarpaqlar\u0131 saralm\u0131\u015fd\u0131…\u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn pay\u0131z\u0131 vaxts\u0131z g\u0259lmi\u015fdi…
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1983-c\u00fc ilin yay\u0131 idi. M\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n yenic\u0259 t\u0259til\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q ki, atam K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259r\u0259, \u00a0\u201c\u0130stisu\u201d sanatoriyas\u0131na istirah\u0259t\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259yimizi s\u00f6yl\u0259di. \u201cSanatoriya\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fitc\u0259k el\u0259 bil qurba\u011fa g\u00f6l\u00fcn\u0259 da\u015f at\u0131ld\u0131. Qarda\u015flar\u0131mla bir-birimiz\u0259 \u00a0bax\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. M\u0259nd\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n qa\u015flar\u0131 d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259ndi. Otaqda var-g\u0259l etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 ovcuna s\u0131x\u0131b rinq\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xan boks\u00e7ular kimi \u00a0bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 dig\u0259r \u0259lin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131. Getm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259diyini s\u00f6zl\u0259 deyil, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri il\u0259 bildirdi. M\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259di, y\u0259ni bu n\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259di? Planlar\u0131m\u0131z alt-\u00fcst \u00a0olmu\u015fdu. T\u0259cili bir \u015fey etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r ki, bizi \u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 aparmas\u0131nlar. \u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 plan c\u0131zanda atam bildirdi ki, qarda\u015flar\u0131m \u00a0n\u0259n\u0259ml\u0259 \u00a0v\u0259 xalamla Bak\u0131da qalacaqlar, birc\u0259 m\u0259n ged\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Sanatoriyaya \u00a0getm\u0259k, r\u0259fiq\u0259l\u0259rimd\u0259n ayr\u0131lmaq ist\u0259mirdim. Sanatoriyan\u0131n duzsuz, dads\u0131z yem\u0259kl\u0259rini yem\u0259k, lax yumurta iyi ver\u0259n suyunu i\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim. Rejiml\u0259 yatmaq, rejiml\u0259 durmaqdan z\u0259hl\u0259m gedirdi. Pijamada g\u0259z\u0259n qoca ki\u015fil\u0259r, ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131nlar aras\u0131nda n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259kdim? Ke\u00e7\u0259n yay t\u0259tilind\u0259 sanatoriya s\u0259rg\u00fcz\u0259\u015ftl\u0259rini dadm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Oynama\u011fa u\u015faq bel\u0259 \u00a0yoxdu. \u00a0D\u0259rman, xlor \u00a0iyi ver\u0259n otaqlar, d\u0259hlizl\u0259r \u00fcr\u0259yimi buland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. X\u0259st\u0259xanadan f\u0259rqi yoxdu. H\u0259l\u0259 a\u011f xalatl\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fc daim g\u00fcl\u0259\u015f h\u0259kiml\u0259rin, tibb bac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n bezmi\u015fdim. M\u0259n\u0259 vitaminl\u0259ri el\u0259 m\u0259har\u0259tl\u0259 i\u00e7irdirdil\u0259r ki, g\u0259l g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n. \u018fll\u0259rind\u0259n lap t\u0259ng\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdim. Qa\u00e7\u0131b gizl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 yer axtar\u0131rd\u0131m. M\u0259n sanatoriyan\u0131 he\u00e7 sevm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Yox, bu d\u0259f\u0259 bil\u0259-bil\u0259 sanatoriyaya getm\u0259k d\u0259lilikdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259han\u0259l\u0259ri i\u015f\u0259 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Ba\u015f\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r, qarn\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r, hals\u0131zam dey\u0259r\u0259k b\u0259han\u0259l\u0259r g\u0259tirir, z\u0131r-z\u0131r z\u0131r\u0131lday\u0131r, evd\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259sin i\u015ftah\u0131n\u0131 \u00a0qa\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. N\u0259 olur olsun, rayona, sanatoriyaya getm\u0259kd\u0259n yay\u0131nmaq ist\u0259yirdim.<\/p>\n

Atam xasiyy\u0259tim\u0259 v\u0259 nadincliyim\u0259 \u00a0b\u0259l\u0259d oldu\u011fundan m\u0259ni evd\u0259 qohumlar\u0131m\u0131za tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131b getm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. Bilirdi, n\u0259zar\u0259tsiz qalsam, bir xata t\u00f6r\u0259d\u0259c\u0259m. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00a0bu \u201cd\u0259li q\u0131z\u0131\u201d \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 aparma\u011fa m\u0259cburdu.<\/p>\n

Avqust g\u0259ldi. Anam yola haz\u0131rl\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Atam ax\u015fam i\u015fd\u0259n qay\u0131danda qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7an anam g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 inanmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Atam\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u00a0n\u0259h\u0259ng \u00a0qarp\u0131z\u0131 \u00a0g\u00f6r\u00fcb \u00a0mat qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00a0T\u0259ngn\u0259f\u0259s olan atam bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fa bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Qarp\u0131z\u0131 be\u015finci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 \u00a0s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fc il\u0259 birg\u0259 \u00a0qald\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00a0Anam: \u201cBak\u0131da bundan yek\u0259 qarp\u0131z \u00a0tapa bilm\u0259din?\u201d- deyib g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u201cAdil h\u0259kim z\u0259ng vurmu\u015fdu, dedi g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir qarp\u0131z g\u0259tir. G\u00fccl\u0259 tapm\u0131\u015fam. \u0130yirmi kilodu. Y\u0259qin \u00a0qonaql\u0131q \u00a0ed\u0259c\u0259k\u201d.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259r s\u0259f\u0259ri ciddil\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi, atam\u0131n dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, g\u0259l\u0259n h\u0259ft\u0259 yola \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131q. Qar\u015f\u0131da bir h\u0259ft\u0259 vard\u0131. Bilirdim ki, n\u0259 ets\u0259m xeyri yoxdu, atam m\u0259ni aparacaqd\u0131. M\u0259n d\u0259 niyy\u0259timd\u0259 q\u0259rarl\u0131 idim, getm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yeni b\u0259han\u0259l\u0259r fikirl\u0259\u015firdim. Bird\u0259n a\u011fl\u0131ma q\u0259rib\u0259 \u00a0fikir g\u0259ldi. Qarp\u0131z! U\u015faqcas\u0131na fikirl\u0259\u015fdim ki, qarp\u0131z\u0131 korlasam, atam hirsl\u0259nib m\u0259n\u0259 ac\u0131qlanacaq, m\u0259n d\u0259 k\u00fcs\u00fcb rayona getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Qarda\u015flar\u0131m ax\u015fam ev\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fanda onlara futbol oynama\u011f\u0131 t\u0259klif etdim.<\/p>\n

– Nec\u0259? – dey\u0259 ki\u00e7ik qarda\u015f\u0131m soru\u015fdu, – ax\u0131 topumuz yoxdu. Mama gizl\u0259dib ki, \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 s\u0131nd\u0131rmayaq.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n:<\/p>\n

– Narahat olmay\u0131n, \u00a0topumuz var, – deyib qarp\u0131z\u0131 d\u0131\u011f\u0131rlad\u0131b ortal\u0131\u011fa g\u0259tirdim.<\/p>\n

U\u015faqlar t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 qarp\u0131za baxd\u0131lar:<\/p>\n

– Qarp\u0131zla futbol oynayaca\u011f\u0131q? Buna t\u0259pik vursaq, aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131z q\u0131r\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

– Biz ayaqla deyil, \u0259ll\u0259 \u00a0oynayaca\u011f\u0131q. M\u0259n siz\u0259 d\u0131\u011f\u0131rladaca\u011fam, sizs\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259. H\u0259tta oturdu da oynaya bil\u0259rik. Kim tez otursa, o qalib olcaq, – deyib onlar\u0131 \u00a0h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259ndirdim.<\/p>\n

U\u015faq ki, u\u015faq. Nec\u0259 sad\u0259l\u00f6vh imi\u015fik… Bel\u0259likl\u0259, atam i\u015f\u0259, anam d\u00fckan-bazara ged\u0259n kimi oynumuza ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131q. Qarp\u0131z d\u0131\u011f\u0131rland\u0131qca balaca qarda\u015f\u0131m, g\u00fcl\u00fcr, sevinirdi. H\u0259rd\u0259n qarp\u0131z \u00a0\u015fkaf\u0131n k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 d\u0259yirid, onda narahat olurdum, n\u0259 olur-olsun, qarp\u0131z partlamamal\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnl\u0259r \u00f6td\u00fckc\u0259 yeni oyunlar fikirl\u0259\u015fir, qarp\u0131za qar\u015f\u0131 sui-q\u0259sd plan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yerin\u0259 yetirirdik. Yaz\u0131q qarp\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na olmaz\u0131n oyunlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tirirdik. Bostan\u0131n dinc p\u0259l\u0259ngi art\u0131q dil\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, d\u0131\u011f\u0131rland\u0131rd\u0131qca i\u00e7ind\u0259n s\u0259s g\u0259liridi. Art\u0131q qorxma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u015eux ya\u015f\u0131l r\u0259ngli qarp\u0131z t\u00fcndl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. Art\u0131q qarp\u0131z\u0131n atas\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q, atam onu qald\u0131randa i\u00e7inin t\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc anlayacaq, m\u0259ni c\u0259zaland\u0131racaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 say, g\u00f6r f\u0259l\u0259k n\u0259 say\u0131r? Yola \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcn atam\u0131n vacib i\u015fi \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Bizi s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc il\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259yini, \u00a0yolda biz\u0259 yeti\u015f\u0259c\u0259yini bildirdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn planlar\u0131m alt-\u00fcst olmu\u015fdu. M\u0259n n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi bilmirdim. Hirsimd\u0259n barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131 di\u015fiml\u0259 g\u0259mirirdim. \u00a0Art\u0131q olaca\u011fa \u00e7ar\u0259 yoxdu.<\/p>\n

Atam \u00a0K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259rin eni\u015fli-yoxu\u015flu, \u00a0burma-burma \u00a0da\u011f \u00a0yollar\u0131nda \u00a0qalmayaq dey\u0259, arxam\u0131zca \u201cNiva\u201d ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdi. Dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, da\u011fa yaln\u0131z o \u00e7\u0131xa bil\u0259rdi. \u00a0S\u00fcrr\u00fcc\u00fc \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 d\u0259 olsa qarp\u0131z\u0131 \u00a0quca\u011f\u0131na \u00a0g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00a0baqaj\u0131na qoydu. Anam laz\u0131m olan \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131 \u00e7antaya yerl\u0259\u015fdirib qap\u0131da qarda\u015flar\u0131mla, n\u0259n\u0259m v\u0259 xalamla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– Ana, u\u015faqlar s\u0259n\u0259 \u00a0\u0259man\u0259t, onlardan mu\u011fayat ol. Sa\u011fl\u0131qla qal\u0131n, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259rik in\u015fallah, – dedi.<\/p>\n

– Get, u\u015faqlardan arxay\u0131n ol, q\u0131z\u0131m, \u00a0o\u011flanlar sakitdir, saxlama\u011fa n\u0259 var ki? S\u0259n \u00a0o yan\u0131ndak\u0131 ke\u00e7id\u0259n ehtiyatl\u0131 ol, da\u011f yeridi, y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b el\u0259m\u0259sin, – m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fcld\u00fc, sonra \u00a0k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc almaq \u00a0\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qucaqlay\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259min s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n incim\u0259dim, \u0259ksin\u0259 ham\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. Anamla ma\u015f\u0131na mindik. Hava a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f ert\u0259d\u0259n yola \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131q. Yol \u00a0boyu n\u0259 anam dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n. Uzanan yollara bax\u0131b x\u0259yala dald\u0131m. H\u0259rd\u0259n \u00a0m\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259yirdim. Ma\u015f\u0131n da\u011flar\u0131n qoynuna qalxanda g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin al-\u0259lvan \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131 \u00a0\u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131d\u0131qlay\u0131b m\u0259ni yuxudan oyad\u0131rd\u0131. Yuxulu g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi a\u00e7\u0131b g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 bax\u0131r, yenid\u0259n hu\u015fa gedirdim. Bir d\u0259 ay\u0131landa qabaq oturacaqda atam\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndim. Atam\u0131n yolda bizi haxlama\u011f\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259r tutmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. O, s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc il\u0259 \u015firin s\u00f6hb\u0259t edir, anam da \u00a0qulaq as\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n az qala buludlaracan qalxan da\u011flara, s\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m qayalara bax\u0131b vahim\u0259l\u0259nrdim. Mac\u0259ra filminin i\u00e7in\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm sanki. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc qorxulu filml\u0259rd\u0259ki kmi hiss edirdim. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, dolanbac yollara bax\u0131b, tez d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumurdum. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n d\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 a\u015faca\u011f\u0131ndan qorxurdum. Y\u00fcks\u0259kliy\u0259 qalxd\u0131qca \u00a0\u00fcr\u0259yim bulan\u0131rd\u0131. Yolda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 \u00a0d\u0259f\u0259 qaytard\u0131m da. Ma\u015f\u0131n da\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na qalxd\u0131qca hal\u0131m pisl\u0259\u015firdi. Anam t\u0259zyiqimin y\u00fcks\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n qorxurdu. \u00a0\u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc d\u0259rmandan m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 i\u00e7irdi. Atam tez-tez ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 saxlatd\u0131r\u0131r, \u201cbir az da d\u00f6z, \u00e7at\u0131r\u0131q\u201d, – deyib m\u0259ni sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi a\u00e7anda anam\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Qula\u011f\u0131ma yad adam\u0131n s\u0259si g\u0259liirdi. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, sanatoriyan\u0131n ba\u015f h\u0259kim idi, m\u0259n\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Atam \u00a0onun haqq\u0131nda \u00e7ox dam\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 dey\u0259, a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259ldi ki, g\u0259l\u0259n o olacaq. Yan\u0131lmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. H\u0259kim \u00a0yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b aln\u0131mdan \u00f6pd\u00fc. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00a0atama \u00a0tutub:<\/p>\n

– M\u00fc\u0259llim, ma\u015fallah, Allah saxlas\u0131n, g\u00fcl balad\u0131. \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr, yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Bizim da\u011flara qalxmaq h\u0259l\u0259m-h\u0259l\u0259m adam\u0131n i\u015fi deyil, – dedi, – dur aya\u011fa, m\u0259nim balam, bu c\u0259nn\u0259t m\u0259kanda x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259k olmaz, insanlar buraya \u015f\u0259fa tapma\u011fa g\u0259lirl\u0259r. Havaya \u00e7\u0131x, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, – \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc atama tutub davam etdi, – sabah ax\u015fam qona\u011f\u0131ms\u0131n\u0131z. Qarp\u0131z yaddan \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131n\u0131 ha… – deyib b\u0259rkd\u0259n g\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yim qopdu, qar\u015f\u0131da m\u0259ni n\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259diyini t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u201cBa\u015f\u0131b\u0259lal\u0131\u201dqarp\u0131z\u0131 atamdan ist\u0259y\u0259n \u00a0bu adamm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n atam bu mehriban insan\u0131n yan\u0131nda x\u0259cal\u0259tli qalacaqd\u0131. \u00c7ox pe\u015fmand\u0131m, amma \u00a0daldan at\u0131lan da\u015f topu\u011fa d\u0259y\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Qonaq atamla \u00a0bir az \u00a0s\u00f6hb\u0259t edib getdi. Az sonra valideynl\u0259riml\u0259 sanatoriyan\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131q. Xeyli g\u0259zdik, yerin alt\u0131ndan qaynay\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xan \u201c\u0130stisu\u201d bula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n dupduru suyundan i\u00e7dik. T\u0259bi\u0259tin \u00e7\u0259kdiyi f\u00fcsunkar m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimizi qama\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259kimin \u00a0dediyi kimi, bura \u015f\u0259fa qayna\u011f\u0131 idi. \u00a0G\u00f6mg\u00f6y s\u0259mada s\u00fcz\u0259n n\u0259h\u0259ng qartallar bu \u0259srar\u0259ngiz diyarda insana bir \u0259fsan\u0259, na\u011f\u0131l ovqat\u0131 b\u0259x\u015f edirdi. G\u00f6z qama\u015fd\u0131ran, g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259c\u0259n ucalan da\u011flar, \u00a0sivri \u00a0qayalar, \u00a0gen d\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc da\u011f \u00a0ba\u015f\u0131ndan atan v\u0259 \u0259trafa inci s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259y\u0259n \u015f\u0259lal\u0259 qeyri-adi m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 yarad\u0131rd\u0131. \u018flimi aln\u0131ma qoyub sanatoriyan\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259n y\u00fcks\u0259kd\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ed\u0259n avtobuslara baxmaqdan yorulmurdum. H\u0259rd\u0259n el\u0259 bilirdim ki, ba\u015fqa zamana, mistik bir \u00f6lk\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, sehrli xalat\u0131n k\u00f6m\u0259yil\u0259. Bir d\u0259 \u201cTaxtabazar\u201d adlanan al\u0131\u015f-veri\u015f yeri m\u00fcasir \u00e7a\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6st\u0259ricisi idi. Yerli v\u0259 xarici \u00a0qonaqlar h\u00f6km\u0259n o bazara \u00a0ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kir, yadigar olaraq \u00a0suvenirl\u0259r al\u0131rd\u0131lar. Y\u00fcks\u0259kliy\u0259 qalxark\u0259n t\u0259zyiqimin \u00a0y\u00fcks\u0259lm\u0259yind\u0259n qorxan valideynl\u0259rim \u201cTaxta bazar\u201d arzusunu \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259 saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Amma yax\u015f\u0131 ki, getm\u0259kd\u0259n vaz ke\u00e7mi\u015fdil\u0259r. Yollar \u00e7ox dar, t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259li idi. Avtovuslar h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t \u00a0etdikc\u0259 \u00a0yol k\u0259nar\u0131ndan \u00a0x\u0131rda \u00a0qayalar\u0131n qopub d\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 \u00a0d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fck.<\/p>\n

Buran\u0131n \u00a0havas\u0131 da q\u0259rib\u0259 idi. G\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fc d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. Q\u0259fil \u00a0g\u00f6y\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc qara buludlar al\u0131r, g\u00f6y gurulday\u0131r, \u00a0ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Daldalanmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r\u0259 \u00a0bir t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilirdi. Sakit ya\u011fma\u011fa ba\u015flayan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n ard\u0131nca g\u00f6y \u015faqq\u0131ldayaraq gurultu qopar\u0131r, yer-g\u00f6y l\u0259rz\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lirdi, da\u011f-da\u015f z\u0259ngi \u00e7al\u0131rd\u0131. Gurultu k\u0259silinc\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f \u015f\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 simli orkestr kimi s\u0259sl\u0259nirdi. Sonralar \u015eopenin \u201cya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u201d vals\u0131n\u0131 dinl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 o g\u00fcnl\u0259rin \u0259ks-s\u0259das\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidirmi\u015f kimi olurdum. G\u00f6y son akkordlar\u0131n\u0131 n\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259yib yeddi r\u0259ngl\u0259 b\u0259rq vururdu. G\u00f6yqur\u015fa\u011f\u0131 deyil\u0259n m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259ni ilk d\u0259f\u0259 K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan sonra g\u00fcll\u0259rin, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin rayih\u0259si al\u0259mi b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sanki havaya yas\u0259m\u0259n v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcl \u0259tri \u00e7il\u0259nirdi. Hiss \u00a0olunurdu ki, hava ist\u0259r-ist\u0259m\u0259z \u00a0insan\u0131n ruhunu a\u011fu\u015funa \u00a0al\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Ax\u015fam filml\u0259r n\u00fcmayi\u015f olunurdu. Az\u0131 \u00a0\u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd d\u0259f\u0259 tama\u015fa etdiyim \u201cBobbi\u201d adl\u0131 hind \u00a0filmi \u00a0ucqar da\u011flar\u0131n \u00a0ba\u015f\u0131na \u00a0q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259rd\u0259 \u00a0g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm h\u0259r \u015fey m\u0259n\u0259 maraql\u0131 g\u0259lirdi. Turistl\u0259rin say\u0131-hesab\u0131 yox idi. \u0130nsanlar ar\u0131 kimi qayna\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. S\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r bula\u011fa enir, l\u00fcl\u0259kli st\u0259kanlarla istisu i\u00e7irdik. G\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 valideynl\u0259rim \u201cistisu \u201c m\u00fcalic\u0259vi vannalar\u0131, naftalan vannalar\u0131 q\u0259bul edir, masaj, fizioterapiya \u00a0prosedurlar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Dem\u0259k olar ki, K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259ri qar\u0131\u015f-qar\u0131\u015f g\u0259zdik. Da\u011f d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n yamaclar, \u00a0\u0259t\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259 bit\u0259n \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r bizi heyran etmi\u015fdi. Bir xeylax g\u0259zib g\u00fcll\u0259ri, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri \u00a0iyl\u0259dik. Anam bildiyi, tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 otlardan, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n y\u0131\u011fd\u0131. Atam da ar\u0131\u00e7\u0131lardan bal alma\u011f\u0131 \u00a0unutmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

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