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Yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259r bar\u0259d\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki roman v\u0259 hekay\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n bix\u0259b\u0259r\u0259m. Bir d\u0259 ki, h\u0259l\u0259 vaxt\u0131 yeti\u015fm\u0259yib. Kim d\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259s\u0259, obyektiv olmayacaq. Bunu yaln\u0131z XXII \u0259srd\u0259 ya\u015fayacaq oxucular\u0131 t\u0259hlil ed\u0259 bil\u0259r. Amma onu bilir\u0259m ki, \u0259sl yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131r. Bir az t\u0259mkinli, bir az \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131n, bir az da \u0259hlikeyf…<\/p>\n
\u2026U\u015faq vaxtlar\u0131mda, y\u0259ni sovet d\u00f6vr\u00fcnd\u0259 Sumqay\u0131tda M\u0259st\u0259li ad\u0131nda bir ki\u015fi vard\u0131. Onun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri, el\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r \u0259halisi aras\u0131nda l\u0259tif\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi. He\u00e7 d\u0259 Molla N\u0259sr\u0259ddinin l\u0259tif\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n geri qalm\u0131rd\u0131. Onlardan birini sizinl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Bir g\u00fcn M\u0259st\u0259li sovet taksisin\u0259 minib Sumqay\u0131t\u0131 f\u0131rlan\u0131r. D\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr ki, taksid\u0259ki \u00f6d\u0259ni\u015f say\u011fac\u0131 iki manat, s\u0259ks\u0259n q\u0259pik pul yaz\u0131b. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcd\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r borclu oldu\u011funu soru\u015fur. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc ona u\u00e7 manat verm\u0259sini s\u00f6yl\u0259yir. Niy\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 manat, dey\u0259 M\u0259st\u0259li sual verir. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc- \u0130ki manat s\u0259ks\u0259n q\u0259piyini d\u00f6vl\u0259t\u0259, iyirmi q\u0259piyini is\u0259 balalar\u0131na x\u0259rcl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini deyir. M\u0259st\u0259li n\u0259 des\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r: \u201cG\u00f6t\u00fcr bu iyirmi q\u0259piyi, apar balalar\u0131na x\u0259rcl\u0259, o ki qald\u0131- iki manat, s\u0259ks\u0259n q\u0259piy\u0259 d\u00f6vl\u0259tin m\u0259nim puluma ehtiyac\u0131 yoxdur!..\u201d<\/p>\n
N\u0259 is\u0259, bu g\u00fcn siz\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycanda birm\u0259nal\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lanmayan, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bir s\u0131ra adamlar\u0131n q\u0131nad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 K\u0259ram\u0259t B\u00f6y\u00fck\u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. O K\u0259ram\u0259td\u0259n ki, \u015f\u0259rqd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131b, q\u0259rblil\u0259r kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr…<\/p>\n
\u0130ki il \u00f6nc\u0259 verdiyi m\u00fcsahib\u0259l\u0259rinin birind\u0259 deyir ki:- \u201cKiray\u0259 ev tutmu\u015fam \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259. Atamdan, anamdan ayr\u0131 qal\u0131ram. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc m\u0259i\u015f\u0259t, x\u0131rda-x\u0131rda parazit probleml\u0259rd\u0259n xilas edib, kiray\u0259 tutdu\u011fum evd\u0259 m\u00fctali\u0259 il\u0259, ciddi \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131qla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olma\u011fa \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc haz\u0131rlay\u0131ram. \u00c7\u00fcnki fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m ki, bu ya\u015f\u0131mda enerji, g\u00fcc daha he\u00e7 vaxt olmayacaq. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 bu enerjini \u00e7ayxanalara, kafel\u0259r\u0259, m\u0259nas\u0131z, nadan adamlarla s\u0259rf etm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259z. M\u00fchitd\u0259, ictimai hadis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 oldu\u011fuma g\u00f6r\u0259 adamlar el\u0259 bilir ki, ya\u015f\u0131m \u00e7oxdur. H\u0259tta bir d\u0259f\u0259 biri m\u0259n\u0259 dedi ki, ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n var, dedim, 37. O da vur\u011fulad\u0131 ki, m\u0259n el\u0259 bilir\u0259m, 60 ya\u015f\u0131n var. Bel\u0259 baxanda 37 ya\u015f\u0131m var, n\u0259y\u0259 gecikmi\u015f\u0259m? Bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm cavana, qocaya baxm\u0131r. \u0130tirdiyim zamana \u00e7ox heyfim g\u0259lir…\u201d<\/p>\n
K\u0259ram\u0259t B\u00f6y\u00fck\u00e7\u00f6l 1987-ci ilin oktayabr ay\u0131n\u0131n 17-d\u0259 \u0130mi\u015fli rayonunun \u018fliqulular k\u0259ndind\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lib. Orta t\u0259hsilini S\u0259bail rayonu 51 sayl\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 ba\u015fa vurub. 2007-2011-ci ill\u0259rd\u0259 Bak\u0131 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Universitetinin Filologiya fak\u00fclt\u0259sind\u0259 ali t\u0259hsil\u0259 yiy\u0259l\u0259nib. \u201c\u00c7\u00f6l\u201d, \u201cBak\u0131\u201d, \u201cS\u0259kkizinci g\u00fcn\u201d, \u201cM\u0259ni kim tapa bil\u0259r?\u201d, \u201c\u018flq\u0259m\u0259\u201d, \u201cEl\u00e7ib\u0259yin sirri\u201d, \u201cS\u0259s\u201d, \u201cF\u0259rarinin h\u0259yat sevgisi\u201d, \u201cPoz\u011fun\u201d adl\u0131 kitablar\u0131n m\u00fc\u0259llifidir. Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259tdir ki, s\u0259yyar kitab sat\u0131\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur…<\/p>\n
H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 q\u0259rar verm\u0259kd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259kir. Amma \u00e7ox sosial insand\u0131r v\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nm\u0259yi xo\u015flay\u0131r. \u00dcr\u0259yigeni\u015f, qay\u011f\u0131ke\u015fdir, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, son tik\u0259sini b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rd\u0131r. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 bir senzura yoxdur, ist\u0259diyini ist\u0259diyi yerd\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259 bilir v\u0259 dedikl\u0259rind\u0259 m\u0259ntiq olur. El\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 oldu\u011fu m\u00fchitd\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t qazanma\u011f\u0131 bacar\u0131r. H\u0259m cazib\u0259dar, h\u0259m d\u0259 emosionald\u0131r. Yax\u015f\u0131 h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259tdir. Xeyirxah insand\u0131r, \u0259dal\u0259t hissi il\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r yana\u015f\u0131r. N\u0259zak\u0259tlidir, diplomatikdir, yumoru \u0259la ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr…<\/p>\n
\u201cH\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m ki, sakit ail\u0259m olsun. M\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n bir qad\u0131n arzulam\u0131\u015fam. Biz bir yerd\u0259 ya\u015fayaq v\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt olaq. Al\u0131nmay\u0131bsa bu o dem\u0259k deyil ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc m\u0259hv etm\u0259liy\u0259m, ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 qurmamal\u0131yam. Deyirl\u0259r, bu iki qad\u0131ndan bo\u015fan\u0131bsa \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 atar. Bu kimi fikirl\u0259r vecim\u0259 deyil. Yen\u0259 ail\u0259 qura bil\u0259r\u0259m, h\u0259tta ondan da ayr\u0131la bil\u0259r\u0259m, d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc il\u0259 d\u0259 evl\u0259n\u0259r\u0259m, ondan da ayr\u0131la bil\u0259r\u0259m. Bilirsiz, onsuzda evl\u0259ndin ya da evl\u0259nm\u0259din, ham\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131nda y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 qad\u0131n olur. V\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f nikah\u0131 edirl\u0259r, si\u011f\u0259 edirl\u0259r, yorulanda da ayr\u0131l\u0131rlar. He\u00e7 kimin d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259ri olmur. M\u0259nim m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259rimi qabardan u\u015faqd\u0131r. U\u015faq olubsa, dem\u0259li, m\u0259n ciddi olmu\u015fam da. M\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti bir h\u0259yat d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Arzular\u0131m, planlar\u0131m olub. \u018fg\u0259r \u00f6t\u0259ri bir m\u00fcnasib\u0259t olsayd\u0131, u\u015faq n\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k olard\u0131? Do\u011furdan da Az\u0259rbaycan c\u0259miyy\u0259tind\u0259 u\u015faq n\u0259y\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131? \u00d6z\u00fcn n\u0259 etdin, neyl\u0259din ki, utanmaz-utanmaz u\u015faq da d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tirirs\u0259n?\u201d- s\u00f6yl\u0259yir.<\/p>\n
…D\u0259yi\u015fk\u0259n \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259li adamd\u0131r. Harada, kiml\u0259rl\u0259 olmas\u0131ndan as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq h\u0259r an keyfi d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259r. Bununla yana\u015f\u0131, m\u00fck\u0259mm\u0259l sevgilidir. O, daim sevgi axtar\u0131\u015fdad\u0131r. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sevgi maddiyyatdan daha \u00e7ox motivasiyad\u0131r. \u0130\u015f h\u0259yat\u0131na g\u0259ldikd\u0259 is\u0259 \u00e7ox istedadl\u0131d\u0131r. Narahat v\u0259 stresli m\u00fchitl\u0259rd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259yi sevmir. Y\u00fcr\u00fctd\u00fcy\u00fc fikirl\u0259r h\u0259qiq\u0259td\u0259n g\u00fcc al\u0131r…<\/p>\n
Deyir ki:- \u201cM\u0259n\u0259 deyirl\u0259r, k\u00f6\u015f\u0259 yaz, qonorar ver\u0259c\u0259yik, tutaq ki, m\u00f6vzu mu\u011famd\u0131r. T\u0259rifl\u0259yim mu\u011fam\u0131? \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259 mu\u011fam haqda he\u00e7 bir m\u00fcsb\u0259t bir \u015fey yoxdur. Mu\u011fam adam\u0131 yat\u0131zd\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr. C\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q fikirl\u0259rim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn aqressiya qazanm\u0131\u015fam. Adamlar m\u0259ni vurmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yerl\u0259r axtar\u0131r. Saza qulaq asanla roka qulaq asanlar\u0131 m\u00fcqayis\u0259 ets\u0259k yerl\u0259-g\u00f6y q\u0259d\u0259r f\u0259rq olar aralar\u0131nda. Yaxud da meyxana dey\u0259nl\u0259rl\u0259 reperl\u0259ri. Allah he\u00e7 k\u0259si la\u011f el\u0259diyi mahn\u0131lar\u0131n umuduna qoymas\u0131n. El\u0259 olur ki, \u00e7ox baya\u011f\u0131 musiqil\u0259r dinl\u0259yir\u0259m. Bunu da bir sirr kimi saxlay\u0131ram ki, feysbukda bilinm\u0259sin. Demir\u0259m, ancaq baya\u011f\u0131 mahn\u0131lar dinl\u0259yir\u0259m. Ovqatdan as\u0131ld\u0131. H\u0259tta deyim, meyxanaya qulaq asmaq da olar. M\u0259nim problemim deyil. Meyxana d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259m\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259viyyat\u0131ma, h\u0259yat\u0131ma t\u0259sir ed\u0259 bilm\u0259z…\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130ntuitiv olaraq h\u0259yat t\u0259l\u0259l\u0259rini hiss ed\u0259 bilir, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir t\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n m\u0259har\u0259tl\u0259 yan ke\u00e7ir. Onun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri nadir hallarda kobud v\u0259 ya aqressiv olur. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 z\u0259rif v\u0259 n\u0259cib g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Kobud v\u0259 h\u0259yas\u0131z adamlar\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00fccs\u00fczd\u00fcr. Onun fitri z\u0259kas\u0131 v\u0259 inc\u0259liyi kobud h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 yol verm\u0259y\u0259 imkan vermir. \u00c7\u00fcnki \u00e7axna\u015fma v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259 olanda \u00e7oxlu s\u0259hvl\u0259r\u0259 yol verir…<\/p>\n
\u201cAdam n\u0259 vaxt yalan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r? C\u0259miyy\u0259t s\u0259ni m\u0259cbur ed\u0259nd\u0259 yalan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259 ya\u015famaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. D\u00fcnya h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259 idar\u0259 oluna bilm\u0259z, \u00f6lk\u0259 h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259 idar\u0259 oluna bilm\u0259z, insanlar h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259 idar\u0259 oluna bilm\u0259z. Yalana daha \u00e7ox ehtiyac var. Bizim c\u0259miyy\u0259t yalan dan\u0131\u015fan\u0131 yox, h\u0259qiq\u0259ti dey\u0259ni c\u0259zaland\u0131r\u0131r. He\u00e7 kim yalan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r dey\u0259 pe\u015fman olmur, amma h\u0259qiq\u0259ti dediyimiz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn pe\u015fman oluruq. M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc insanlara yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 kimi t\u0259qdim el\u0259m\u0259liy\u0259m. Adamlar\u0131 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 oldu\u011fuma inand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam, amma g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m ki, bu yalan\u0131m\u0131n arxas\u0131nda dayanma\u011fa potensial m\u0259nd\u0259 yoxdur.\u201d- s\u00f6yl\u0259yir.<\/p>\n
…B\u0259li, onun \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rinin \u0259sl d\u0259y\u0259rini \u0259lah\u0259zr\u0259t zaman ver\u0259c\u0259k. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycanda yegan\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131d\u0131r ki, he\u00e7 bir kompleksi yoxdur. Oldu\u011fu kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259yi, g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc kimi olma\u011f\u0131 bacar\u0131r. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259mimiyy\u0259t \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259tdir. B\u0259zil\u0259rin\u0259 c\u0131l\u0131z g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259slind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck adamlardand\u0131r. G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 onun q\u0259drini daha \u00e7ox bil\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 indiki xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131 bitib t\u00fck\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259n- daha do\u011frusu, \u018fzray\u0131l babaya qo\u015fulub \u201coppalara\u201d ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin d\u0259hlizind\u0259ki xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri s\u0131ras\u0131nda, onun da \u015f\u0259kili as\u0131lacaq…<\/p>\n
\u2026Lap unutmu\u015fdum, o vaxt M\u0259st\u0259li bir d\u0259 deyirdi ki: \u201cQ\u0259zetl\u0259rd\u0259 ay\u0131n tarixind\u0259n ba\u015fqa h\u0259r \u015fey yaland\u0131r\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
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