Yen\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n qan\u0131n\u0131 qaraltd\u0131:<\/p>\n
– Bilmirs\u0259n, yumurta bel\u0259 bi\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n yemir\u0259m. Ax\u0131 n\u0259 olan \u015feydir ki, s\u0259n onu da bu iyirmi iki ild\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259din…<\/p>\n
El\u0259 ist\u0259yirdi and i\u00e7sin ki, yumurtan\u0131 qaynama\u011fa qoyanda saata bax\u0131b v\u0259 d\u00fcz d\u00f6rd d\u0259qiq\u0259nin tamam\u0131nda g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb.<\/p>\n
Qap\u0131 m\u00f6hk\u0259m \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131. El\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131 ki, Nar\u0131n bir anl\u0131q m\u0259tb\u0259xin aynalar\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131b t\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
H\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b darvazan\u0131 ba\u011flamaq ist\u0259di.\u00a0Amma bir-iki add\u0131m at\u0131b dayand\u0131. Nar a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Ad\u0259t\u0259n, bel\u0259 vaxtlarda – \u00fcr\u0259yi dolanda, a\u011flayanda \u015eirin g\u0259lib onu qucaqlayar v\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259zdi:<\/p>\n
– S\u0259n \u0259rini tan\u0131m\u0131rsan, ay mama, ax\u0131 niy\u0259 bel\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 sal\u0131rsan? M\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7andan o, h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n naraz\u0131d\u0131r da…<\/p>\n
Bir az susar, sonra g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259:<\/p>\n
– Xo\u015fu g\u0259lir d\u0259 s\u0259ni incitm\u0259kd\u0259n…<\/p>\n
Daha sonra anas\u0131na yol g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259rdi:<\/p>\n
– S\u0259n d\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 onunla bel\u0259 r\u0259ftar ed\u0259ydin…Onda ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdi y\u0259qin… \u018fn yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 s\u0259n onu h\u0259rd\u0259n qorxut daa… De ki, bel\u0259 el\u0259s\u0259n ax\u0131rda t\u0259k qalacaqsan… De ki, ba\u015f al\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259m… Atam evin\u0259 qay\u0131dacam.<\/p>\n
Ad\u0259t\u0259n, \u015eirin bunlar\u0131 dey\u0259nd\u0259 ikisini d\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259k tutard\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki \u015eirin d\u0259, o \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi ki, bu, m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u00fczd\u00fcr. Nar\u0131n el\u0259 bir ail\u0259d\u0259 t\u0259rbiy\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, orda \u0259r\u0259 getdiyin evd\u0259n geriy\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f ola bilm\u0259zdi. H\u0259m d\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 ild\u0259n sonra ax\u0131 n\u0259 deyib qay\u0131dacaq ki?<\/p>\n
Xeyli oturdu. Bird\u0259n yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, \u015eirin yoxdur. Daha do\u011frusu, \u00e7ox-\u00e7ox uzaqlardad\u0131r \u015eirin. Daha bel\u0259 vaxtlarda onun dad\u0131na yeti\u015f\u0259n, dey\u0259n-g\u00fcl\u0259n, onun k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131b g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u0259n, ya\u015f\u0131na uy\u011fun olmayan bir halda anas\u0131na “h\u0259yat d\u0259rsi” ver\u0259n \u015eirin d\u0259 yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Telefonun s\u0259sin\u0259 diksindi. S\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r kim olar?<\/p>\n
– Alo, – deyinc\u0259 \u015eirinin s\u0259si g\u0259ldi:<\/p>\n
– Can, mama, burda da rahatl\u0131q vermirsiz eee m\u0259n\u0259. Yuxuda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm s\u0259ni d\u0259, papan\u0131 da. Amma qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q yuxuydu. He\u00e7 \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 da yad\u0131mda qalmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n
\u00dcz\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc, k\u0259d\u0259rini gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n
– Orda saat ne\u00e7\u0259dir ki, oyanm\u0131san?<\/p>\n
– \u0130ki saat f\u0259rqimiz\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bizd\u0259 saatlar 7-ni g\u00f6st\u0259rir. N\u0259 f\u0259rqi var e? \u018fsas de g\u00f6r\u00fcm nec\u0259siniz?<\/p>\n
– Yax\u015f\u0131yam, q\u0131z\u0131m, atan da \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, – dedi.<\/p>\n
– Atam, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131 olar da, y\u0259qin s\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r…<\/p>\n
\u015eirinin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn davam\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259 imkan verm\u0259di:<\/p>\n
– S\u0259n orda da bizi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259, imtahanlar\u0131na haz\u0131rla\u015f.<\/p>\n
– Haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131ram, ay ana, haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131ram. Amma bax, bird\u0259n q\u0259rar\u0131n\u0131 vers\u0259n, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259l. Qoy bir az da s\u0259nsizliyin dad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u00fcn…<\/p>\n
– El\u0259 dem\u0259…<\/p>\n
– Bax, qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m evi, universitetimi, i\u015f yerimi g\u00f6rs\u0259n… H\u0259l\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini demir\u0259m – g\u00f6rs\u0259n he\u00e7 geri qay\u0131tmaq ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n…<\/p>\n
– Dan\u0131\u015far\u0131q, ax\u015fam atanla dan\u0131\u015faram…<\/p>\n
B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini, nec\u0259 ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, onu nec\u0259 raz\u0131 salaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
\u0130lk tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259, xo\u015f davran\u0131\u015f\u0131na vuruldu\u011fu insanla indi bir k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z dan\u0131\u015fmaq, n\u0259yis\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k, onu n\u0259y\u0259s\u0259 raz\u0131 salmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. Evlilikl\u0259rinin ilk ill\u0259rind\u0259 b\u0259h-b\u0259hl\u0259 yediyi yem\u0259kl\u0259r \u00e7oxdan, onun t\u0259birinc\u0259 des\u0259k,”z\u0259h\u0259r”\u0259 \u00e7evrilib.<\/p>\n
Ax\u0131 o, bel\u0259 deyildi…<\/p>\n
S\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n qalan s\u00fcfr\u0259ni y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra-y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra qay\u0131nanas\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131…<\/p>\n
C\u0259mi birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 qay\u0131nanas\u0131na Niyazdan \u015fikay\u0259t etdi. Ka\u015f ki dem\u0259zdi. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 cavab q\u0259lbini incitdi. Daha bir d\u0259 kims\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259di.<\/p>\n
– M\u0259nim o\u011flum a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131-ba\u015fl\u0131 adamd\u0131r. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259ninl\u0259 pis davran\u0131rsa, dem\u0259k g\u00fcnah s\u0259nd\u0259dir. S\u0259n onu d\u0259yi\u015fmis\u0259n, d\u0259li etmis\u0259n. Yax\u015f\u0131 qad\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qam\u00e7\u0131…, yox eee \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00f6z dedirtm\u0259z!<\/p>\n
Sonra g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 oturub d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 do\u011frudan da, g\u00fcnah el\u0259 onun \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259dir. B\u0259lk\u0259 do\u011frudan da, Niyaz\u0131 q\u0131c\u0131qland\u0131ran n\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 edir? \u015eirinin d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259li\u015find\u0259n sonra bir-birin\u0259 daha da m\u00f6hk\u0259m ba\u011flanmal\u0131 olduqlar\u0131 halda h\u0259r \u015fey \u0259ksin\u0259 oldu…<\/p>\n
B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r h\u0259r bir ail\u0259d\u0259 ba\u015f verir. Bir \u00e7oxu, ola bil\u0259r ki, bu “inc\u0259likl\u0259r”i g\u00f6rm\u0259zd\u0259n g\u0259lib, qaynanas\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259birinc\u0259 des\u0259k,”udub” ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Amma ona \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin idi… \u00c7ox \u015feyi “uda-uda” dey\u0259s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 ziyan vurmu\u015fdu. Bo\u011faz\u0131nda sanki bir d\u00fcy\u00fcn yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, udquna bilmirdi. H\u0259kim el\u0259 ilk simptomlar\u0131n\u0131 bil\u0259n kimi “nevroz” – deyib t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf dolu bax\u0131\u015flarla onu s\u00fczm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc…<\/p>\n
– D\u0259rman yaz\u0131ram, amma yax\u015f\u0131 olar ki, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t m\u00fchitini d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259s\u0259n, s\u0259ni narahat ed\u0259n, q\u0131c\u0131qland\u0131ran n\u0259 varsa, ondan uzaq olasan.<\/p>\n
– H\u0259kim, m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil, yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n xasiyy\u0259ti el\u0259dir ki, harasa \u00e7\u0259tin ged\u0259 bilim.<\/p>\n
– Onda \u00e7al\u0131\u015f i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l, ba\u015f\u0131n qar\u0131\u015fs\u0131n, yeni insanlarla \u00fcnsiyy\u0259td\u0259 ol…<\/p>\n
Nar\u0131n\u0131n susdu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcb davam etmi\u015fdi:<\/p>\n
– B\u0259lk\u0259 t\u0259hsilin yoxdur, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 i\u015f tapmaqda \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259yini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n. Amma siz\u0259 bir \u015fey deyim, indi diplomsuz adama daha \u00e7ox ehtiyac var.<\/p>\n
H\u0259kim resept yaza-yaza nazik, inc\u0259 manik\u00fcrl\u00fc barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k:<\/p>\n
– Bax\u0131n, \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l i\u015f budur,vallah, \u0259n \u00e7ox t\u0259l\u0259bat indi bunad\u0131r. 10-15 g\u00fcn kursa gedib bir salonda i\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259rsiz…<\/p>\n
A\u00e7\u0131-ac\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259mi\u015fdi. Evd\u0259 yataq otag\u0131nda \u015fkaf\u0131n r\u0259find\u0259 yatan q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 diplomunu xat\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Universitetin \u015f\u0259rq\u015f\u00fcnasl\u0131q fak\u00fclt\u0259sinin \u0259n f\u0259al, \u0259n sevil\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n oldu\u011fu o ill\u0259r el\u0259 uzaqda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki…<\/p>\n
Toydan iki ay sonra – el\u0259 diplom m\u00fcdafi\u0259sinin ax\u015fam\u0131 aralar\u0131ndak\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259t arzular\u0131n\u0131n, ist\u0259kl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n x\u0259tt \u00e7\u0259ks\u0259 d\u0259, onun \u0259ksin\u0259 getm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Evliliyin o q\u0259d\u0259r \u015firin \u00e7a\u011f\u0131yd\u0131 ki…<\/p>\n
– \u0130\u015f deyirs\u0259n, s\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, amma evd\u0259 d\u0259 i\u015f az deyil, evimiz\u0259 kim baxs\u0131n?<\/p>\n
– Ax\u0131 m\u0259n gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz oxumu\u015fam ki…<\/p>\n
– El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k asand\u0131r? Bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r stress yarad\u0131r adamda… \u0130nan, s\u0259n\u0259 q\u0131ym\u0131ram, s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 deyir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
– M\u0259n…<\/p>\n
– M\u0259n yox, biz var\u0131q, – deyib s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tamamlama\u011fa qoymam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Nar\u0131n\u0131 m\u00f6hk\u0259m-m\u00f6hk\u0259m qucaqlay\u0131b el\u0259 quca\u011f\u0131nda f\u0131rlada-f\u0131rlada da qula\u011f\u0131na p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldam\u0131\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n
– S\u0259nin i\u015f\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131n yoxdur. M\u0259nim is\u0259 ancaq v\u0259 ancaq s\u0259n\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m var. S\u0259ni el\u0259 ya\u015fadacam ki, ham\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 qibt\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259k…<\/p>\n
Niyaz onu, do\u011frudan da, ilk ill\u0259r el\u0259 ya\u015fatd\u0131 ki, n\u0259 diplomu, n\u0259 d\u0259 karyera qurmaq arzular\u0131 yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc… Sonra n\u0259 oldu, bilm\u0259di. O, yava\u015f-yava\u015f d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Niy\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdi, n\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259yi\u015fdi? Sevgi-m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259 dolu, h\u0259r ist\u0259yini an\u0131ndaca yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259n o g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fczl\u00fc insan getdi, yerin\u0259 sanki bir ba\u015fqas\u0131 g\u0259ldi…<\/p>\n
G\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7ib xeyli \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131. G\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259ki ifad\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00fc\u015f\u0259ndi. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, d\u00fcnyada onun kimi bel\u0259c\u0259 g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 bax\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qorxan n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r insan var?<\/p>\n
\u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259ldi. Bu, m\u0259n deyil\u0259m b\u0259lk\u0259? B\u0259lk\u0259 Niyaz\u0131n bel\u0259 olmas\u0131nda da g\u00fcnah onun \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259dir? B\u0259lk\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259…<\/p>\n
S\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. El\u0259 bil g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259ki insandan qorxmu\u015fdu. Dayanmadan gedirdi. Evl\u0259rind\u0259n bir az aralanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, kims\u0259 onu s\u0259sl\u0259di:<\/p>\n
– Nar\u0131n, n\u0259 olub, hara t\u0259l\u0259sirs\u0259n bel\u0259?<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirib onu s\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259n qon\u015fusunu g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Leylan\u0131n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi \u00fcz\u00fc-g\u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259, paltar\u0131 da sanki i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fynind\u0259 ar\u0131q, inc\u0259 v\u00fccudunu saran q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 paltar vard\u0131.<\/p>\n
– He\u00e7…<\/p>\n
– Nec\u0259 he\u00e7? \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bel\u0259\u00a0havada? \u018fynin-ba\u015f\u0131n da bel\u0259 nazik…<\/p>\n
– H\u0259, t\u0259l\u0259sik \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m, geyin\u0259 bilm\u0259dim, – deyib ondan uzaqla\u015fmaq ist\u0259di. Qon\u015fu qad\u0131nlar\u0131n \u00e7ox da sevm\u0259diyi, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 deyib-g\u00fcl\u0259n, \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l geyiml\u0259rini n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdirm\u0259kd\u0259n x\u00fcsusi z\u00f6vq alan Leyla il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdi…<\/p>\n
Uzaqla\u015fmaq ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, Leylan\u0131n ondan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k fikri yox idi.<\/p>\n
– Dayan, s\u0259n xo\u015fuma g\u0259lm\u0259din, n\u0259 olub s\u0259n\u0259, – dey\u0259n Leyla sual\u0131na cavab almay\u0131b t\u0259l\u0259sik \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ona yetirdi. \u018flini onun \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoyanda Nar\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259h\u0259r bo\u011fdu, h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fc il\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Leyla heyr\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259ydi. K\u0259nardan az qala ham\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259s\u0259d apard\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu ail\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259r ba\u015f verir?<\/p>\n
Nar\u0131n bo\u011fula-bo\u011fula ancaq bunu dey\u0259 bildi:<\/p>\n
– Leyla, m\u0259n daha d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, Niyazla aram\u0131zdak\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259t… Onunla he\u00e7 n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq olmur.<\/p>\n
– N\u0259 oldu siz\u0259?<\/p>\n
Susaraq:<\/p>\n
– El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n m\u0259n kefd\u0259y\u0259m? Ham\u0131da olur da…<\/p>\n
– Yox, biz \u00e7oxdan… o \u00e7oxdan bel\u0259dir.<\/p>\n
– Ki\u015fil\u0259rin \u00e7oxu bel\u0259dir.<\/p>\n
– O, he\u00e7 m\u0259ni dinl\u0259mir ki..<\/p>\n
– B\u0259z\u0259n ki\u015fiyl\u0259 qad\u0131n aras\u0131nda a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n \u015feyl\u0259r ba\u015f verir.<\/p>\n
Sonra d\u00fcnyada h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n hali olan biri kimi rahat bir \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 t\u00f6vsiy\u0259sini verdi:<\/p>\n
– S\u0259n \u00e7al\u0131\u015f \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 zaman ay\u0131r. Q\u0131z\u0131n da yoxdur burda. Evd\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc oturub neynirs\u0259n ki?<\/p>\n
– Nec\u0259?<\/p>\n
– \u0130\u015f\u0259 ba\u015fla, k\u00f6hn\u0259 dostlar\u0131 axtar tap, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f onlarla, \u0259vv\u0259lki Nar\u0131n\u0131 geri qaytar.<\/p>\n
O anda d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s alaraq h\u0259kimin dedikl\u0259rini yada salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 – uzaqla\u015fmaq, yeni m\u00fchit, yeni insanlar…<\/p>\n
Leyla yen\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 deyirdi:<\/p>\n
– \u018fsas c\u0259sar\u0259tli ol, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc geri qaytarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir add\u0131m at!<\/p>\n
– D\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, m\u0259n o add\u0131m\u0131 atmal\u0131yam.<\/p>\n
Leylan\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b \u00f6pd\u00fc v\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b ev\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f getdi.<\/p>\n
Nar\u0131n art\u0131q q\u0259rar\u0131n\u0131 vermi\u015fdi – ged\u0259c\u0259kdir burdan. Qoy he\u00e7 Niyaz onun bird\u0259f\u0259lik getdiyini d\u0259 bilm\u0259sin. El\u0259 bilsin ki, qay\u0131dacaq.<\/p>\n
H\u0259y\u0259canla ax\u015fam\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259di.<\/p>\n
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H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi ax\u015fam Niyaz i\u015fd\u0259n qay\u0131td\u0131. Oturub i\u015ftahla yem\u0259yini yedi. G\u00f6zl\u0259diyind\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq:<\/p>\n
– G\u0259l otur, birlikd\u0259 yey\u0259k, – dedi.<\/p>\n
S\u0259h\u0259rki adam deyildi el\u0259 bil. \u00c7ay i\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259lini uzatd\u0131, onun \u00e7oxdan s\u0131\u011fal g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rini s\u0131xd\u0131. Bu g\u00fcn \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259ydi Niyaz. T\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259, \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259-\u00e7\u0259kin\u0259:<\/p>\n
– S\u0259ninl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m, – dedi.<\/p>\n
Bir az susub:<\/p>\n
– \u015eirin h\u0259l\u0259 u\u015faqd\u0131r. Ondan \u00e7ox narahatam. Yeri-yurdu nec\u0259dir, qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015f\u0259rait nec\u0259dir? Bilir\u0259m, s\u0259n d\u0259 narahatsan. B\u0259lk\u0259 on g\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u0259 gedim u\u015fa\u011fa ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kim?<\/p>\n
Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dey\u0259n\u0259 kimi o q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259y\u0259can ke\u00e7irdi ki… G\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi ki, indi bomba kimi partlayacaq…<\/p>\n
Niyaz onu bayaqk\u0131 qay\u011f\u0131 il\u0259, mehribanl\u0131qla s\u00fczd\u00fc:<\/p>\n
– D\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, m\u0259n d\u0259 narahatam. O des\u0259 d\u0259, h\u0259r \u015feyi gedib g\u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259 g\u00f6rs\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
– Dem\u0259li, gedim?<\/p>\n
– \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, get.<\/p>\n
Qulaqlar\u0131na inanmad\u0131…<\/p>\n
\u0130st\u0259di qalx\u0131b onu qucaqlas\u0131n. Amma xat\u0131rlad\u0131 ki, Niyaz daha bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259ri sevmir…<\/p>\n
– Allah s\u0259nd\u0259n raz\u0131 olsun… El\u0259 narahatam ki, n\u0259 yeyir, n\u0259 i\u00e7ir, kimn\u0259n oturub durur?<\/p>\n
– Yox, s\u0259n\u0259 bu h\u0259ft\u0259y\u0259 bilet alaq, el\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259nb\u0259y\u0259… M\u0259n d\u0259 ged\u0259rdim, amma i\u015fi qoyub \u00e7\u0131xa bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Nar\u0131n bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 Allaha sonsuz t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr etdi ki, Niyaz i\u015fini qoyub onunla getm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259di…<\/p>\n
Art\u0131q s\u0259f\u0259r haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131na ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Niyaz da bu g\u00fcnl\u0259r tamam d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. Lap q\u0259rib\u0259 olmu\u015fdu. Yem\u0259kl\u0259rini b\u0259h-b\u0259hl\u0259 yeyirdi. H\u0259min mehriban, istiqanl\u0131 Niyaz sanki n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 duyuq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb geri qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bu s\u00f6hb\u0259tin ard\u0131nca Nar\u0131n:<\/p>\n
– Paltar\u0131m \u00e7oxdur, – deyib t\u0259kid ets\u0259 d\u0259, g\u00fccl\u0259 ma\u011fazaya apar\u0131b ona geyiml\u0259r alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qay\u0131dark\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yol\u00fcst\u00fc qad\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259llik salonunun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda saxlay\u0131b:<\/p>\n
– Get \u00fcr\u0259yin ist\u0259y\u0259ni el\u0259, amma q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131na q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng get, – demi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n
Nar\u0131n bu ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259ri he\u00e7 c\u00fcr anlamasa da, o g\u00fcn sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259n sevdiyi r\u0259ngl\u0259 – a\u00e7\u0131q q\u0259hv\u0259yi r\u0259ngl\u0259 boyatd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Fikir ver\u0259rdi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 – Leyla da sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 bu r\u0259ngl\u0259 boyad\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
– Bir az tez ged\u0259k. Bird\u0259n yollarda t\u0131xac olar.<\/p>\n
Ax\u015famdan haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yem\u0259kl\u0259ri bir-bir soyuducuya y\u0131\u011fan Nar\u0131n:<\/p>\n
– Yem\u0259yin \u00e7oxdur. Haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fam, – dedi.<\/p>\n
Sakit bir s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n
– Ac qalma, – dedi v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, Niyaz\u0131n yey\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n-i\u00e7\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n niy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r narahatd\u0131r. Q\u0259lb\u0259n k\u00fcsd\u00fcy\u00fc insana bu q\u0259d\u0259r diqq\u0259t, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t hardand\u0131r?<\/p>\n
Telefonu z\u0259ng \u00e7ald\u0131. \u015eirindi. O da orda narahatd\u0131.<\/p>\n
– Haz\u0131r\u0131q, el\u0259 be\u015f-on d\u0259qiq\u0259y\u0259 atan m\u0259ni aparacaq hava liman\u0131na. \u0130n\u015fallah, gecikm\u0259 olmaz…<\/p>\n
– G\u0259l, mama, g\u0259l…<\/p>\n
\u015eirinin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bird\u0259n yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q k\u0259sdi. Niyaz\u0131n uzaqda oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcb p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla dedi:<\/p>\n
– Tamam yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, diplomumu da g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
– Neynirs\u0259n ax\u0131, ay mama, burda o diplom n\u0259y\u0259 yar\u0131yar ki?..<\/p>\n
Nar\u0131n tutuldu. \u015eirin\u0259 hiss etdirm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, s\u0259si titr\u0259di:<\/p>\n
– Orda bo\u015f dura bilm\u0259r\u0259m, i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m y\u0259qin…<\/p>\n
– \u0130\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259n, i\u015f tapar\u0131q. S\u0259n t\u0259ki g\u0259l.<\/p>\n
Yox, ruhdan d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k olmaz. Ged\u0259c\u0259k, diplomunu da aparacaq. Vaxt g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k Niyaza da, el\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131na da s\u00fcbut ed\u0259c\u0259k ki, o bu diplomu bo\u015funa almay\u0131b.<\/p>\n
– N\u0259 oldun? \u00c7\u0131xm\u0131rsan? – Niyaz onu s\u0259sl\u0259di.<\/p>\n
S\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 diplomunu b\u00fck\u00fcb \u00e7antas\u0131na qoydu. Son d\u0259f\u0259 ev\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131. \u0130ll\u0259rini verdiyi bu evd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 ac\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259r bir-bir g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 canland\u0131. Niyazla ke\u00e7irdiyi anlar, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r, m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259r, k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259r…<\/p>\n
H\u0259yat\u0131nda yeni bir s\u0259hif\u0259 a\u00e7maq vaxt\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Yol boyunca Niyaz onun \u0259lind\u0259n tutdu. O da \u0259lini \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di\u2026<\/p>\n
U\u00e7u\u015fdan \u0259vv\u0259l Niyaz onu qucaqlad\u0131. Nar\u0131n o anlarda g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu. \u00c7\u00fcnki bu g\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259 sevgiyl\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 k\u0259d\u0259r, k\u00fcsk\u00fcnl\u00fck d\u0259 vard\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Art\u0131q h\u0259r \u015feyi gerid\u0259 buraxma\u011f\u0131n, \u00f6z yoluna davam etm\u0259yin zaman\u0131 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n
Can\u0131-ciy\u0259ri \u015eirin, yeni dostlar, yeni h\u0259yat onu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi\u2026 Yeni bir yola \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, n\u0259hay\u0259t, onu qaranl\u0131qdan azadl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131xaran, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tapma\u011fa aparan bir yola \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
U\u00e7u\u015fa d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r qal\u0131rd\u0131\u2026 Fikirl\u0259ri qovur, birc\u0259 t\u0259yyar\u0259nin tez havaya qalxmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 bundan sonra, buludlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n xilas ola bil\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n
St\u00fcardessan\u0131n s\u0259si g\u0259ldi:<\/p>\n
– Telefonlar\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcn. K\u0259m\u0259rl\u0259ri ba\u011flay\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n
\u018flini \u00e7antas\u0131na atd\u0131. Diplomunun alt\u0131ndan telefonu g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259di\u2026<\/p>\n
Bir s\u0259s g\u0259ldi. Mesaj idi. Niyaz\u0131 bu yax\u0131nlarda m\u00fcayin\u0259 ed\u0259n h\u0259kimd\u0259ndi. A\u00e7maq ist\u0259m\u0259di. Amma s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259k d\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259di. T\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd v\u0259 narahatl\u0131qla a\u00e7d\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
“Nar\u0131n, \u00f6z\u00fc bilm\u0259sin dey\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 yaz\u0131ram, v\u0259ziyy\u0259t he\u00e7 d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 deyil. Dilim\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m – ondand\u0131r, h\u0259m d\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n, “b\u0259d”ind\u0259n\u2026 M\u00fctl\u0259q sabah g\u0259l, dan\u0131\u015faq\u2026<\/p>\n
St\u00fcardessan\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 altda telefonu s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131na bir s\u0259s ata bildi:<\/p>\n
– \u015eirin, m\u0259n\u0259 sabaha qay\u0131tma\u011fa bilet al.\u00a0G\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 dey\u0259r\u0259m \u0259trafl\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
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