Yuxudan k\u00fcr\u0259yimin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131na oyand\u0131m. Gec\u0259d\u0259n yata\u011f\u0131mda qalan telefonun d\u0259st\u0259yini belimin alt\u0131ndan s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcb bir k\u0259nara qoydum. Anam\u0131n sonuncu g\u00f6st\u0259ricil\u0259ri i\u00e7imd\u0259ki \u00fcmidsizliyi daha da art\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Hava yava\u015f-yava\u015f i\u015f\u0131qlan\u0131rd\u0131. Daha bir g\u00fcn\u00fcm anamla ba\u011fl\u0131 t\u0259lat\u00fcml\u00fc x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259rin fonunda ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259kdi. Onun reanimasiyada verdiyi \u00f6l\u00fcm-dirim sava\u015f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qarda\u015f\u0131m, bac\u0131m – b\u00fct\u00fcn qohumlar\u0131 dua edirdi. Birc\u0259 m\u0259n dua etm\u0259yi unutmu\u015fdum. Uzun ill\u0259r idi dua ed\u0259 bilmirdim. Buna he\u00e7 vaxt da tapm\u0131rd\u0131m. Amma yox, i\u00e7imd\u0259n dua etm\u0259k, inanmaq ke\u00e7s\u0259ydi, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ed\u0259rdim. Yaln\u0131z \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin vaxtlarda allah\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131m. Anam\u0131n x\u0259st\u0259liyi, \u0259c\u0259ll\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259si h\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 tam \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. On alt\u0131nc\u0131 g\u00fcn idi ki, onsuz da rahat olmayan h\u0259yat\u0131m pozulmu\u015f, g\u00fcnl\u0259r, h\u0259ft\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259kiml\u0259rl\u0259, tibb bac\u0131lar\u0131 il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaqla, saturasiya, n\u0259bz, t\u0259zyiq, intubasiya, oksigen d\u0259st\u0259yi kimi s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n
Telefonu v\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f d\u0259ft\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ni g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb o biri ota\u011fa ke\u00e7dim. Saat 7 idi. Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u0259ri \u0259zb\u0259rimd\u0259 qalan n\u00f6mr\u0259ni y\u0131\u011fd\u0131m. D\u0259st\u0259kd\u0259n tan\u0131\u015f operatorun s\u0259si, daha sonra g\u00fcnl\u0259rdir qula\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ya\u011f\u0131r ed\u0259n o mahn\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. Mahn\u0131n\u0131n hans\u0131 b\u0259st\u0259kara aid oldu\u011funu tapa bilmirdim. Bir d\u0259qiq\u0259y\u0259 musiqi k\u0259sildi. M\u0259lumat\u00e7\u0131 qad\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si e\u015fidildi<\/p>\n
– Alo.<\/p>\n
– Salam! X\u0259lilova R\u0259fiq\u0259nin g\u00f6st\u0259ricil\u0259rini dey\u0259rdiniz…<\/p>\n
– Siz x\u0259st\u0259nin n\u0259yisiniz?<\/p>\n
V\u0259ssalam. Yeddi saniy\u0259lik s\u00fckut v\u0259 veril\u0259n sual! He\u00e7 yax\u015f\u0131 deyil. He\u00e7. N\u0259s\u0259 ba\u015f verib. \u00d6l\u00fcb? Yooox! Ola bilm\u0259z! Ax\u0131 niy\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259lidi? Bilmir\u0259m…<\/p>\n
– Q\u0131z\u0131yam.<\/p>\n
Yen\u0259 s\u00fckut. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 daha q\u0131sa. Bir, iki, \u00fc\u00e7…<\/p>\n
– R\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 gedib. Ax\u0131r q\u0259miniz olsun.<\/p>\n
D\u0259st\u0259yi yerin\u0259 qoyub sakitc\u0259 otururam. Otaqdak\u0131 s\u00fckut qulaqlar\u0131m\u0131 de\u015fir. A\u011flam\u0131ram. Dinc\u0259m. Amma i\u00e7imd\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259tli sor\u011fu-sual ba\u015flan\u0131r.<\/p>\n
\u00d6mr\u00fcn boyu qorxa-qorxa bu x\u0259b\u0259ri g\u00f6zl\u0259din. Bunu da e\u015fitdin. Bu da ba\u015f verdi. Bundan o t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 n\u0259 olas\u0131yd\u0131 ki?! Gec-tez bu x\u0259b\u0259ri d\u0259 alacaqd\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Anamla davalar\u0131m yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr:<\/p>\n
– S\u0259n yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259n, g\u0259lib s\u0259n\u0259 baxmayacam.<\/p>\n
Doluxsuna-doluxsuna deyir:<\/p>\n
– Allah m\u0259ni s\u0259n\u0259 m\u00f6htac el\u0259m\u0259sin. Qu\u015f kimi bir gec\u0259nin i\u00e7ind\u0259 u\u00e7um gedim.<\/p>\n
Arzusuna \u00e7atd\u0131. Bir gec\u0259nin i\u00e7ind\u0259 getdi. Amma yox, bir gec\u0259 deyil, on alt\u0131 gec\u0259 idi getm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Sin\u0259sin\u0259, a\u011fz\u0131na, burnuna, tax\u0131lan aparatlar, \u0259ll\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 sanc\u0131lan ucu iti iyn\u0259l\u0259r buna imkan vermirdi.<\/p>\n
H\u0259kimini q\u0131nay\u0131ram. G\u00fcnl\u0259rdir \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim anam\u0131n son \u015f\u0259klini ondan ist\u0259mi\u015fdim. G\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Qorxdu, amma israrla dedi ki, anan\u0131za n\u0259s\u0259 olsa, sizd\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrat qalacaq.<\/p>\n
\u0130ndi bir-bir ham\u0131ya x\u0259b\u0259r verm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Qarda\u015f\u0131ma, bac\u0131ma, xalama, day\u0131lar\u0131ma… \u00c7ox z\u0259hm\u0259t \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim. S\u0259h\u0259r z\u0259ngi onsuz da xeyr\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 deyil. Qula\u011f\u0131 s\u0259sd\u0259 olan qohumlardan hans\u0131na z\u0259ng vursam, h\u0259r \u015feyi bil\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Dey\u0259s\u0259n, bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz qald\u0131m. Amma sonralar o\u011flum dedi ki, d\u00f6rd-be\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsiz bir n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131b dayanm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n
Aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b o biri ota\u011fa ke\u00e7dim. Mobil telefonla ona z\u0259ng vurdum, \u201cEv\u0259 g\u0259l\u201d – dedim. O da bir k\u0259lm\u0259 il\u0259 \u201cyax\u015f\u0131\u201d cavab\u0131n\u0131 verdi. El\u0259 bil z\u0259ngimi – sin\u0259md\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan bo\u011fuq s\u0259sl\u0259 \u201cev\u0259 g\u0259l\u201d dem\u0259yimi g\u00f6zl\u0259yirmi\u015f.<\/p>\n
Eyvana \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, o\u011flum lap \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n k\u00f6lg\u0259 kimi yan\u0131m\u0131 k\u0259sdiribmi\u015f. X\u0259b\u0259ri ilk ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m andan. B\u0259lk\u0259, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 a\u011flaya bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m? Eyvana \u00e7\u0131xanda, o da m\u0259niml\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259yir. \u00c7iyniml\u0259 sin\u0259sind\u0259n basdalay\u0131b, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131ram:<\/p>\n
– G\u0259lm\u0259! \u0130mkan verin, t\u0259k qal\u0131m. Sizin \u0259linizd\u0259n a\u011flamaq da olmur. C\u0259bray\u0131l al\u0131nanda da qoymad\u0131n\u0131z!<\/p>\n
\u0130lahi, bu q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259ngam\u0259nin i\u00e7ind\u0259 C\u0259bray\u0131l\u0131n al\u0131nmas\u0131 hardan a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259ldi?<\/p>\n
Eyvana \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram. D\u0259nizin k\u0259nar\u0131nda t\u0259k-t\u00fck adamlar g\u0259zi\u015fir. \u0130ki bal\u0131q\u00e7\u0131 tilovu suya at\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259yir. Yava\u015f-yava\u015f k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sir, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f buludlar\u0131n arxas\u0131nda daldalan\u0131r. H\u0259y\u0259ti s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u0259n qad\u0131n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi a\u011f\u0131z-burnunu b\u0259rk sar\u0131y\u0131b h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 giri\u015fib. Bir h\u0259ft\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l ipd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n k\u00f6yn\u0259yim d\u0259 \u0259ynind\u0259dir. Halbuki, iki g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l k\u00f6yn\u0259yi ondan x\u0259b\u0259r alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m.<\/p>\n
– Su\u011fra xala, b\u0259lk\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259nim k\u00f6yn\u0259yimi g\u00f6r\u0259siniz?<\/p>\n
– Yox, yox, n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan? He\u00e7 bir k\u00f6yn\u0259k g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n
\u0130nsaf\u0259n s\u00fcp\u00fcrg\u0259\u00e7i ar\u0131q oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn k\u00f6yn\u0259k ona m\u0259nd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 yara\u015f\u0131r. Ota\u011fa qay\u0131d\u0131ram. Art\u0131q q\u0131z\u0131m da yuxudan oyan\u0131b. Matd\u0131m-matd\u0131m \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 bax\u0131rlar. Paltar\u0131m\u0131 geyinib yata\u011fa uzan\u0131ram. Uzan\u0131ql\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l g\u0259linimiz\u0259 z\u0259ng vururam. G\u0259linin \u201cvayyy!!\u201d nidas\u0131 yad\u0131mdad\u0131r. Sonra bac\u0131m\u0131n \u0259rin\u0259 z\u0259ng edir\u0259m. S\u0259sind\u0259ki qorxu v\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259ti i\u00e7ini \u00e7\u0259kir:<\/p>\n
– Dayan, dayan, e\u015fitdi – deyib, telefonu k\u0259nara at\u0131r. Bac\u0131m\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 telefonu ba\u011flay\u0131ram.<\/p>\n
Xalama n\u0259 is\u0259 uydururam:<\/p>\n
– V\u0259ziyy\u0259ti a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r, ev\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259ki h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qla birg\u0259 udqunur. D\u0259st\u0259yi qoyur.<\/p>\n
Ondan sonra kiml\u0259rl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yad\u0131mda deyil. Otaqda sanki m\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa da bir adam var. Dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram, susuram, tavan\u0131n, divarlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 bir yer tap\u0131b zill\u0259nir\u0259m. O is\u0259 qulaq as\u0131r, m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 edir, v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa can at\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Anam\u0131n h\u0259kimin\u0259, h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u0259laq\u0259d\u0259 oldu\u011fum tibb bac\u0131s\u0131na z\u0259ng vururam. He\u00e7 biri telefonu g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcr. \u201cBilirl\u0259r\u201d – dey\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. Ax\u0131 onlar ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr m\u0259n\u0259 az qala anam\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm x\u0259b\u0259rini verirdil\u0259r:<\/p>\n
\u201cHeyf, ka\u015f intubasiya olunmazdan \u0259vv\u0259l bil\u0259rdik.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOra gir\u0259nd\u0259n sonra \u00e7\u0131xmaq \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tindir.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnan\u0131z\u0131n bir faiz \u00fcmidi qal\u0131b.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131ma x\u0259b\u0259r verir\u0259m. S\u0259h\u0259r saat 8-d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 yay\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n
S\u0131n\u0131q-salxaq taksi, el\u0259 bil, yol getmir, add\u0131mlay\u0131r. Niy\u0259 m\u0259n m\u0259nzil ba\u015f\u0131na, o xaraba qalm\u0131\u015f modula \u00e7atm\u0131ram ax\u0131. Onunla dala\u015f\u0131ram.<\/p>\n
– Yax\u015f\u0131 taksi \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmaq laz\u0131m idi. Bununla biz be\u015f saata gedib \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131q. Atan \u00f6ls\u0259ydi, bel\u0259 gecikm\u0259zdin!<\/p>\n
T\u0259mkinl\u0259 cavab verir:<\/p>\n
– S\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir, 120 il\u0259 gedirik.<\/p>\n
H\u0259min yoldur. D\u0259yi\u015f\u0259n, he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdur. On bir il \u0259vv\u0259l atam d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 (h\u0259, d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, bu s\u00f6z daha yax\u015f\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259nir) bu yolu getmi\u015fdim. Onda da arxa oturacaqda ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 oturmu\u015fdum. Onda da a\u011flam\u0131rd\u0131m. Bu, n\u0259 ars\u0131zl\u0131qd\u0131 ax\u0131? Anan on alt\u0131 g\u00fcn x\u0259st\u0259xanada yats\u0131n, on g\u00fcn komada qals\u0131n, z\u00fclm-zill\u0259tl\u0259 can versin, s\u0259n d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 durub a\u011flamayasan!<\/p>\n
Z\u0131\u011fa, modul tipli x\u0259st\u0259xanaya \u00e7at\u0131b ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00fcl\u0259k yerd\u0259ki sapsar\u0131 qumu ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za sovurur. Qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Q\u0259z\u0259blidir. A\u011flamamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tur\u015fudub, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc hirsli g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. M\u0259n qohumlar\u0131m\u0131zla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram. M\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259r verir\u0259m:<\/p>\n
– Siz gedin, q\u0259bir m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini h\u0259ll edin. Biz meyiti g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259k.<\/p>\n
Meyit? \u00d6z s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259, s\u0259sim\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm diksinir\u0259m. \u018fynimd\u0259ki boz palto, ba\u015f\u0131mdak\u0131 t\u00fcnd b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259yi yayl\u0131q v\u0259 da\u011f\u0131n\u0131q sa\u00e7la \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 anam\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131ram. Yad\u0131ma g\u0259lir, day\u0131lar\u0131m, xalalar\u0131m \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 anam da bel\u0259 ed\u0259rdi. A\u011flay\u0131b \u00fcr\u0259yini bo\u015faldandan sonra belini b\u0259rkidib i\u015f\u0259 ba\u015flayar, m\u0259clisl\u0259rinin yax\u015f\u0131 ke\u00e7m\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259lind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni ed\u0259rdi. Ba\u015f\u0131nda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yayl\u0131q olard\u0131. \u00c7iynin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n kimi \u00e7\u0259kib yen\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n
\u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 k\u0259nardan bax\u0131ram. Q\u0259fild\u0259n yadda\u015f\u0131m i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Anam uzaqdan – Razin \u201ctalku\u00e7ka\u201ds\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndan \u0259lind\u0259 iki a\u011f\u0131r \u00e7anta il\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fru g\u0259lir. \u0130ld\u0131r\u0131m vurur m\u0259ni! Ax\u0131 \u00e7oxdan olmu\u015fdu bu, lap \u00e7oxdan. Onda u\u015faq idim. On alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131m yenic\u0259 tamam olmu\u015fdu. O qad\u0131n, anam a\u011f\u0131r \u00e7antalarla m\u0259nd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259, m\u0259n bak\u0131l\u0131 qrup yolda\u015flar\u0131mla dey\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 ev\u0259 gedirdim. Anam\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259ki \u00e7antalar, onun bazara mal aparmas\u0131 m\u0259nim \u015f\u0259stim\u0259 toxunacaqd\u0131. Alver\u00e7i q\u0131z\u0131 oldu\u011fumu bilm\u0259m\u0259liydil\u0259r. Onu g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi d\u0259rhal q\u0131zlarla sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b az qala qa\u00e7araq uzaqla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Mar\u015fruta minib bir dayancaq ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra g\u00f6zl\u0259rim dolmu\u015fdu. M\u0259n bilirdim, anam o \u00e7antalar\u0131 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r, qa\u00e7q\u0131nl\u0131qdan sonra hans\u0131 m\u0259hrumiyy\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcr? Mar\u015frutun n\u00f6vb\u0259ti dayanaca\u011fa \u00e7atmas\u0131na d\u00f6zm\u0259yib yar\u0131 yolda d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Anam\u0131 qoyub qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131m yer\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdim. H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi, b\u00fct\u00fcn yol ayr\u0131c\u0131n\u0131 \u0259l\u0259k-v\u0259l\u0259k el\u0259mi\u015fdim. H\u0259tta, mal verdiyi alver\u00e7il\u0259rin yan\u0131na getmi\u015fdim. Ancaq o, he\u00e7 yerd\u0259 yox idi. Yoxa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259, onu soban\u0131n yan\u0131nda \u00e7ay d\u0259ml\u0259y\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. M\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ev\u0259. \u018flind\u0259ki \u00e7antalar qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda idi. Amma vallah, bu \u00e7oxdan olmu\u015fdu, lap \u00e7oxdan. \u0130ndi hardan g\u0259lib d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc yad\u0131mda. H\u0259tta g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Modulun d\u0259mir qap\u0131s\u0131nda bizi iki h\u0259rb\u00e7i qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131r:<\/p>\n
– Meyitl\u0259r burdan bir az aral\u0131dan – ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 qap\u0131dan verilir.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fg\u00fczar add\u0131mlarla ma\u015f\u0131na \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib onlar dey\u0259n yer\u0259 gedirik. Geni\u015f \u0259razidir. Pal\u00e7\u0131q qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131ran ma\u015f\u0131n gurultulu s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r. \u018ftrafda \u00e7oxlu ka\u011f\u0131z sement kis\u0259l\u0259ri var.<\/p>\n
M\u00fchafiz\u0259\u00e7i biz\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r:<\/p>\n
– Bu gec\u0259 be\u015f x\u0259st\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcb. Bir azdan ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b Sabun\u00e7uya morqa aparacaqlar. Qara ma\u015f\u0131nlard\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259yin, sizinki hans\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131nda olsa, ona yax\u0131nla\u015fars\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n
K\u00fcl\u0259k yen\u0259 toz-torpa\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6y\u0259 sovurur. \u018ftrafdak\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ngahda qurumu\u015f kollar k\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259n kirpi kimi yumulub a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. A\u011fz\u0131mdak\u0131 maskan\u0131n tini burnumun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc didir. Ba\u015f\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim g\u00f6yn\u0259yir. Telefona bax\u0131ram. Votsapdan n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r mesajlar g\u0259lib. Adamlar hardan bildil\u0259r? \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. Sayta girib bax\u0131ram. Ba\u015fsa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 veribl\u0259r. Ordan oxuyub ham\u0131.<\/p>\n
Yar\u0131m saat ke\u00e7ir. Uzaqdan iki qara ma\u015f\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Tez ir\u0259li at\u0131l\u0131r\u0131q. O, s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b x\u0259b\u0259r al\u0131r. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc il\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Sonra m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n
– Morqa apar\u0131rlar. Sakit oturacaqsansa, ke\u00e7 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f o ma\u015f\u0131nda, m\u0259n d\u0259 o birisind\u0259, ged\u0259k. \u00d6l\u00fc yiy\u0259l\u0259rinin bu ma\u015f\u0131nlara minm\u0259sin\u0259 icaz\u0259 yoxdur, amma o\u011flan raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ke\u00e7ib sakitc\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn yan\u0131nda otururam. Arxaya baxma\u011fa qorxuram. \u00dcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saqqal basm\u0131\u015f, 28-30 ya\u015flar\u0131nda o\u011flan m\u0259yusluqla biz\u0259 bax\u0131r.<\/p>\n
– Xan\u0131m, sakit olacaqs\u0131n\u0131zsa, ged\u0259k. S\u0259s-k\u00fcy salsan\u0131z bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ciddi problem yarana bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n
– Narahat olmay\u0131n.<\/p>\n
S\u0259simd\u0259ki soyuqluq \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc d\u0259 qorxudur.<\/p>\n
\u0130ndi sakitlikdir. O\u011flan\u0131n da min c\u00fcr d\u0259rdi var. G\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 can\u0131m\u0131n yor\u011funlu\u011fu il\u0259 birg\u0259 yana\u011f\u0131m boyu axma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r. Maskam islan\u0131r. Yolu yar\u0131 ed\u0259nd\u0259, geriy\u0259 \u00e7evrilib s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn arxas\u0131nda zamoklu sellofan\u0131n alt\u0131nda y\u0131r\u011falanan meyit\u0259 bax\u0131ram. Anam bu q\u0259d\u0259r k\u00f6k deyildi ax\u0131.<\/p>\n
– Qaraba\u011fl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z? – S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc soru\u015fur.<\/p>\n
– H\u0259 – Sakit cavab verir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
– M\u0259n d\u0259 a\u011fdaml\u0131yam<\/p>\n
– Hardan bildiniz, qaraba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011fumu?<\/p>\n
– \u00d6l\u0259nin ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131nda yaz\u0131l\u0131r…<\/p>\n
\u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na qoydu\u011fu ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 uzad\u0131r. Biri anam\u0131n epikrizidir. O biri anamdan \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck olan ba\u015fqa bir qad\u0131n\u0131n.<\/p>\n
– Ma\u015f\u0131nda iki meyit var? S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcd\u0259n soru\u015furam.<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 t\u0259sdiq edir. Arxaya bir d\u0259 \u00e7evrilir\u0259m. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 yerimd\u0259n bir az da qanr\u0131l\u0131ram. \u00d6z oturaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131n arxas\u0131nda daha bir zamoklu sellofan var.<\/p>\n
Anamd\u0131r!<\/p>\n
Onun b\u0259d\u0259n qurulu\u015fudur. \u018fti d\u0259 b\u0259rkdir, qarn\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fc y\u0131r\u011falanm\u0131r. \u00c7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f, yorulmu\u015f bu b\u0259d\u0259n anam\u0131nd\u0131r. On alt\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u0259 can\u0131n\u0131 qoyma\u011fa yer tapmayan anam\u0131n…<\/p>\n
Maskam daha \u00e7ox islan\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Onu morqa t\u0259hvil veririk. Anamgil\u0259 gedir\u0259m. Taksiy\u0259 \u00f6z evimin \u00fcnvan\u0131n\u0131 verir\u0259m. Sahil metrosunun yan\u0131na \u00e7atanda o, z\u0259ng vurur.<\/p>\n
– Hardasan?<\/p>\n
– \u201cSahil\u201d metrosuna \u00e7at\u0131ram.<\/p>\n
– Orda n\u0259 i\u015fin var?<\/p>\n
– Ev\u0259 gedir\u0259m, xal\u00e7a, ip\u0259k g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n
– Telefonu ver, s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcy\u0259<\/p>\n
N\u0259 is\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc istiqam\u0259ti d\u0259yi\u015fir. Anamgilin h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 t\u0259cili yard\u0131m ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 var. Ev\u0259 \u00e7atmam\u0131\u015f pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259 bac\u0131m\u0131n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidir\u0259m. Tibb bac\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 h\u0259kim ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulaya-bulaya yan\u0131mdan \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7ir. Ev\u0259 gir\u0259n kimi bac\u0131m qolundak\u0131 pamb\u0131\u011f\u0131 yer\u0259 at\u0131b \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 \u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131y\u0131r.<\/p>\n
– S\u0259ni d\u0259 allah \u00f6ld\u00fcrs\u00fcn, Nicat\u0131 da! B\u0259s deyirdiniz, he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmayacaq! B\u0259s deyirdin, \u00e7\u0131xacaq v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n! Ham\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 allah \u00f6ld\u00fcrs\u00fcn! Apar\u0131b arvad\u0131 basd\u0131n\u0131z o xarabaya.<\/p>\n
Qohumlar qolundan tutub onu divana uzatmaq ist\u0259yirl\u0259r. \u018fll\u0259rind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Anam\u0131n on alt\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr bo\u015f qalan yata\u011f\u0131na s\u0259rilir.<\/p>\n
– Bo\u015fdu e… bu kravat! On alt\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr bo\u015fdu!<\/p>\n
Ona yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131ram. B\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259ki hikk\u0259li enerji m\u0259ni it\u0259l\u0259yir. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 c\u0259hd edir\u0259m. Saraltmaqdan yan\u0131b codla\u015fm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131ram. \u018flim \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 toxunur. Lazerd\u0259n sonra t\u0259z\u0259-t\u0259z\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xan t\u00fckl\u0259r \u0259lim\u0259 bat\u0131r. Ham\u0131 \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc lazer etdirdi, m\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m:<\/p>\n
– Qulaq as! Sakitl\u0259\u015f! S\u0259ni aparacam morqa. Son d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Sakitl\u0259\u015fm\u0259s\u0259n, getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n
– Gedir\u0259m, gedir\u0259m deyib aya\u011fa qalx\u0131r. Uzun g\u00f6d\u0259kc\u0259sini axtar\u0131r. Evd\u0259kil\u0259r him-cim edirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Xalam deyir:<\/p>\n
– Hara apar\u0131rsan, gedib orda konsert ver\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n
Do\u011frudan morqa getm\u0259k hardan a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259ldi? Onun sakitl\u0259\u015fm\u0259si m\u0259ni \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ndirir:<\/p>\n
– Bax, orda sakit olacaqsan. Olmasan c\u0259naz\u0259ni biz\u0259 verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. Sabaha qalacaq. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 birisi g\u00fcn\u0259…<\/p>\n
Cavab vermir. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri c\u00fct-c\u00fct d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.<\/p>\n
\u0130ki saatdan sonra h\u0259r \u015fey bitir. Qara ma\u015f\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259timiz\u0259 girir. Molla Quran oxuyur. Adamlar gend\u0259n dayan\u0131b a\u011fla\u015f\u0131r. Onu g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb apar\u0131rlar. Bu da son. Bitdi. Getdi. Bir d\u0259 qay\u0131tmayacaq. Bu h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki oturacaqlarda oturmayacaq. Qad\u0131nlarla tum \u00e7\u0131rtlaya-\u00e7\u0131rtlaya s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. N\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rini h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcb bizi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 uzaqlara dikib taleyinin b\u0259d g\u0259lm\u0259sin\u0259, \u00e7\u0259kdiyi \u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n
…Boynunu bir azca sa\u011fa b\u00fck\u00fcb atam\u0131n \u015f\u0259klinin yan\u0131ndan biz\u0259 bax\u0131r. Q\u0131rx g\u00fcn ke\u00e7ib, hava h\u0259minki g\u00fcn kimi soyuqdur. Ham\u0131 ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131na sar\u0131l\u0131b a\u011fla\u015f\u0131r. Bir m\u0259n, m\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131batm\u0131\u015f m\u0259zar\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fam. Yen\u0259 boz palto \u0259ynimd\u0259, t\u00fcnd g\u00f6y, m\u0259xm\u0259ri yayl\u0131q ba\u015f\u0131mda. Yen\u0259 anama ox\u015fay\u0131ram. \u0130ndi daha \u00e7ox ox\u015fay\u0131ram. G\u00f6z\u00fcm xalam\u0131n \u0259rinin burnundak\u0131 ziyil\u0259 sata\u015f\u0131r. Xalam\u0131n saatsaz \u0259ri ill\u0259rdir bu ziyill\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259 apar\u0131r. \u0130ki d\u0259f\u0259 h\u0259kim\u0259 k\u0259sdirib, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc sapla s\u0131x\u0131b at\u0131b. Amma bax, yen\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b. Burula-burula, g\u00fcl k\u0259l\u0259mi kimi yenid\u0259n bitib.<\/p>\n
– Q\u0131rx g\u00fcnd\u00fcr balalar\u0131ndan ayr\u0131 burda n\u0259t\u0259r yat\u0131rsan, aaazz?!<\/p>\n
Xalam\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 diksinir\u0259m. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc onun \u0259rinin ziyilli burnundan \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m. \u201cYasin\u201d bit\u0259n kimi m\u0259zardan uzaqla\u015f\u0131r\u0131q. Q\u0259birl\u0259rin aras\u0131ndan birinci \u00e7\u0131xan m\u0259n oluram. \u00dc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr\u0259m, ma\u015f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7\u0131ram. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7atanda geri boylan\u0131ram. Q\u0259birl\u0259rin aras\u0131ndan boynunu sa\u011f \u00e7iynin\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u0259yib m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Gedir\u0259m. Getm\u0259liy\u0259m. Bura q\u0259d\u0259r idi. Burdan o t\u0259r\u0259fi bo\u015fluqdur. \u00d6z\u00fcn d\u0259 bilirs\u0259n. Da\u015fdan, m\u0259rm\u0259rd\u0259n nec\u0259 yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b s\u0131z\u0131lday\u0131m, da\u015fdan, torpaqdan s\u0259ni n\u0259 deyib soru\u015fum? S\u0259n orda deyils\u0259n ax\u0131. Boynunu b\u00fckm\u0259, el\u0259 baxma. Bu uzaql\u0131qda, bu q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0259brin i\u00e7ind\u0259 m\u0259ni nec\u0259 tapd\u0131n ax\u0131?<\/p>\n
Dinl\u0259mir. El\u0259c\u0259 boynunu b\u00fck\u00fcb bax\u0131r. Ma\u015f\u0131na \u0259yl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Qarda\u015f\u0131m ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 i\u015f\u0259 sal\u0131r. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 x\u0131rda-x\u0131rda ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damc\u0131lar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Boynub\u00fck\u00fck \u015f\u0259klin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f g\u00fccl\u0259ndikc\u0259 m\u0259rm\u0259rd\u0259ki \u015f\u0259kil d\u0259 sol\u011funla\u015f\u0131b yoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Yuxudan k\u00fcr\u0259yimin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131na oyand\u0131m. Gec\u0259d\u0259n yata\u011f\u0131mda qalan telefonun d\u0259st\u0259yini belimin alt\u0131ndan s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcb bir k\u0259nara qoydum. Anam\u0131n sonuncu g\u00f6st\u0259ricil\u0259ri i\u00e7imd\u0259ki \u00fcmidsizliyi daha da art\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Hava yava\u015f-yava\u015f i\u015f\u0131qlan\u0131rd\u0131. Daha bir g\u00fcn\u00fcm anamla… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":62322,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[63],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-62321","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dbiyyat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62321","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=62321"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62321\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":62324,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62321\/revisions\/62324"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/62322"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=62321"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=62321"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=62321"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}