{"id":56989,"date":"2025-10-25T09:36:34","date_gmt":"2025-10-25T05:36:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/?p=56989"},"modified":"2025-10-25T09:37:45","modified_gmt":"2025-10-25T05:37:45","slug":"az%c9%99r-turandan-duygulu-yazi-kur-kimi-dogma-elis%c9%99mid","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/?p=56989","title":{"rendered":"Az\u0259r Turandan duy\u011fulu yaz\u0131: \u201cK\u00fcr kimi do\u011fma \u018flis\u0259mid…\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"

Az\u0259r TURAN<\/span><\/h3>\n
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Sosial \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 bir \u018flis\u0259mid vaveylas\u0131 var. T\u0259xmin\u0259n, iyirmi be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259l \u018flis\u0259midin ba\u015f\u0131na bir q\u0259za g\u0259lmi\u015fdi v\u0259 indi ba\u015f ver\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 o q\u0259zan\u0131n \u0259sintisi, o sars\u0131nt\u0131n\u0131n yekunu kimi anlamaq olar. Onda \u015fair q\u0131naq obyekti idi… H\u0259min g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 “K\u00fcr kimi do\u011fma \u018flis\u0259mid, f\u0259l\u0259k zal\u0131m olma\u011fa h\u00f6km edir” adl\u0131 bir m\u0259qal\u0259 yaz\u0131b, “Yeni Az\u0259rbaycan” q\u0259zetin\u0259 – Alq\u0131\u015f H\u0259s\u0259no\u011fluna g\u00f6nd\u0259rdim. Sa\u011f olsun, yaz\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259zetin 23 noyabr 2000-ci il tarixli say\u0131nda d\u0259rc etdi. \u018flis\u0259midin \u00e7\u0259tin g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 iqtidar\u0131n ba\u015f q\u0259zeti ona h\u0259yan olmu\u015f, \u018flis\u0259mid d\u0259 q\u0259zetin bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259tind\u0259n v\u0259 yaz\u0131dan m\u0259mnun qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. V\u0259 h\u0259tta h\u0259bsxanada onu ziyar\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n o\u011flu Qorqud \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 “Yeni Az\u0259rbaycan” q\u0259zetinin h\u0259min say\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tiribmi\u015f, “Ata, s\u0259nd\u0259n yaz\u0131blar”, dey\u0259 q\u0259zeti ona uzad\u0131b. Ard\u0131yca da \u0259lav\u0259 edib: “Ata, yax\u015f\u0131 yaz\u0131blar”. Onda \u018flis\u0259mid haqq\u0131nda yax\u015f\u0131 yazanlar, ya he\u00e7 yox idi, ya da \u00e7ox nadir idi. Yaz\u0131mda bel\u0259 bir fikir vard\u0131: “\u018flis\u0259mid bar\u0259d\u0259 indi yox, \u00e7oxdan yazmal\u0131yd\u0131m. \u0130ndi yaz\u0131ram v\u0259 yazd\u0131qca da d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m, b\u0259s uzun ill\u0259rd\u0259n b\u0259ri \u018flis\u0259midl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 g\u0259zdirdiyim fikirl\u0259r hara qeyb oldu?” O\u011flu il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc h\u0259min g\u00fcn \u018flis\u0259mid g\u00fcnd\u0259liyin\u0259 t\u0259xmin\u0259n, bu m\u0259zmunda qeydl\u0259r etmi\u015fdi: “Sa\u011f ol, Az\u0259r, amma s\u0259n bu yaz\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra yazmal\u0131yd\u0131n”. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 el\u0259 o ill\u0259rd\u0259 “Avropa” q\u0259zetin\u0259 verdiyi m\u00fcsahib\u0259sind\u0259 oxumu\u015fdum…<\/p>\n

Ankaraya yola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u018flis\u0259midin qara x\u0259b\u0259rini e\u015fitdim v\u0259 evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda h\u0259min yaz\u0131n\u0131 da, \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u0130ndi bir Ankara gec\u0259sind\u0259 25 il \u0259vv\u0259l yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259min yaz\u0131yla ba\u015f-ba\u015fayam v\u0259 o yaz\u0131dan b\u0259zi par\u00e7alar\u0131 bura k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m:<\/p>\n

“\u018flis\u0259mid i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259ki b\u00f6y\u00fck \u015fairin do\u011fulu\u015fu \u0259r\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 klassik \u015feir yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu \u015feirl\u0259r onun taleyinin, bug\u00fcnk\u00fc aqib\u0259tinin v\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yinin x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131qlar\u0131yd\u0131:<\/p>\n

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Ne\u00e7\u0259 ki, f\u0259l\u0259k qar\u011f\u0131y\u0131r,<\/em><\/p>\n

H\u00f6km edir zal\u0131m olma\u011fa,<\/em><\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz \u0259liq\u0131l\u0131ncl\u0131 haz\u0131r<\/em><\/p>\n

Bir b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 boynu vurma\u011fa.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Ne\u00e7\u0259 ki, can\u0131ndan bezir<\/em><\/p>\n

H\u0259r a\u015fiq haqdan ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259,<\/em><\/p>\n

Min \u0259li\u00e7\u0131raql\u0131 g\u0259zir<\/em><\/p>\n

E\u015fq yolunda qurban getm\u0259y\u0259.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Ne\u00e7\u0259 ki, s\u00f6z meydan\u0131 dar,<\/em><\/p>\n

Umud qal\u0131r and i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259,<\/em><\/p>\n

Milyon \u0259liyal\u0131n qul var<\/em><\/p>\n

Min yol \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Y\u00fcz \u0259liq\u0131l\u0131ncl\u0131 haz\u0131r…<\/em><\/p>\n

Min \u0259li\u00e7\u0131raql\u0131 g\u0259zir…<\/em><\/p>\n

Milyon \u0259liyal\u0131n qul var,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ne\u00e7\u0259 ki, Tanr\u0131 da d\u00f6z\u00fcr.<\/em><\/p>\n

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\u00c7\u0259tini f\u0259l\u0259k qar\u011f\u0131y\u0131ncad\u0131r. Amma n\u0259 yaz\u0131q ki, s\u00f6z\u00fcn meydan\u0131 daralanda \u00fcmidi d\u0259 f\u0259l\u0259yin \u015faxtalar\u0131 vurur. S\u0259nin i\u00e7diyin \u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s anda bel\u0259 inanm\u0131rlar, inanmaq ist\u0259mirl\u0259r. Andlardan sonra is\u0259 nevrasteniya g\u0259lir. T\u0259k s\u0259n deyil, c\u0259miyy\u0259t ham\u0131s\u0131 bu g\u00fcnd\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

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“Bir d\u0259f\u0259 va\u011fzal\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 q\u0259fild\u0259n i\u015f\u0131qlar s\u00f6nd\u00fc. K\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 y\u00fck da\u015f\u0131yan adamlar m\u0259n\u0259 kentavrlar\u0131 xat\u0131rlatd\u0131… bir d\u0259 qulaqlar\u0131ma at ki\u015fn\u0259rtisi g\u0259ldi” – bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u018flis\u0259mid “Kentavr” \u015feirinin epiqraf\u0131nda yaz\u0131r v\u0259 sonra da \u015f\u00fcurax\u0131n\u0131 kimi kentavrlar peyda olur:<\/p>\n

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D\u0259rdin arxas\u0131nca d\u00f6rdnala \u00e7apan<\/em><\/p>\n

B\u0259d\u0259ni at, ba\u015f\u0131 adam,<\/em><\/p>\n

Bu yar\u0131at, yar\u0131adam,<\/em><\/p>\n

Qa\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131 hall\u0131 adam<\/em><\/p>\n

Hara gedir, Yaradan?<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn dal\u0131nda da\u011f kimi durub,<\/em><\/p>\n

H\u0259r g\u00fcn bir sevdayla d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259 gedir.<\/em><\/p>\n

Dal\u0131na atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015f\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 baxm\u0131r,<\/em><\/p>\n

X\u0259nd\u0259y\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131r, t\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 baxm\u0131r,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcyl\u0259 s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259-s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259 gedir.<\/em><\/p>\n

At kimi yeriyir q\u0259min \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c7ap\u0131r, d\u00f6rdnala \u00e7ap\u0131r,<\/em><\/p>\n

Hara gedir, q\u0259m g\u0259tirir.<\/em><\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k tap\u0131r,<\/em><\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 tapm\u0131r…<\/em><\/p>\n

“Mersedes” g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259r ke\u00e7ir yan\u0131ndan,<\/em><\/p>\n

Vaxt\u0131 yox onlara g\u00f6zucu baxa.<\/em><\/p>\n

Faytona qo\u015fulmu\u015f ata boylan\u0131r,<\/em><\/p>\n

Bu yar\u0131at, yar\u0131adama<\/em><\/p>\n

Ana boylan\u0131r,<\/em><\/p>\n

Ata boylan\u0131r.<\/em><\/p>\n

Kentavr \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015f a\u00e7a bilmir,<\/em><\/p>\n

D\u0259y\u0259n\u0259k qorxusu \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r can\u0131ndan.<\/em><\/p>\n

Bu k\u00f6\u00e7k\u00fcn kentavr,<\/em><\/p>\n

Qa\u00e7q\u0131n kentavr<\/em><\/p>\n

Polisin \u0259lind\u0259n qa\u00e7a da bilmir.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Bu qovur, o qovur,<\/em><\/p>\n

G\u00f6yd\u0259 Allah qovur, yerd\u0259 b\u0259nd\u0259si.<\/em><\/p>\n

K\u0259p\u0259n\u0259k yuxusu qa\u00e7\u0131b g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n,<\/em><\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 k\u00fct\u0259 gedir onun k\u00fcnd\u0259si.<\/em><\/p>\n

– Hara qa\u00e7\u0131rsan, Kentavr?<\/em><\/p>\n

– Kimd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131rsan, Kentavr?<\/em><\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131n b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n ayr\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

B\u0259d\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131ndan ayr\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcn-\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131rsan,<\/em><\/p>\n

Gedirs\u0259n q\u0259min \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259-s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ya\u015famaq\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00f6lm\u0259m\u0259k\u00e7\u00fcn<\/em><\/p>\n

Atlar \u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 gedir,<\/em><\/p>\n

Kentavrlar-d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259!<\/em><\/p>\n

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…Qarabasmaya b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n Kentavr ger\u00e7\u0259kliyini \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 birg\u0259 getdiyi yerl\u0259r\u0259 aparan \u018flis\u0259mid K\u00fcr Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n \u0259n yaral\u0131 \u015fairin\u0259 \u00e7evrildi. Onun al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131ndan da bu qarabaxt s\u00f6zl\u0259r oxunurdu. \u018flis\u0259midin \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131na \u00e7evrilmi\u015f misralar yoxdur. “Dil\u0259n\u00e7i \u015f\u0259h\u0259r” \u015feirini oxuyub bu q\u0259na\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259k olur ki, meydan\u0131 \u00e7axna\u015fd\u0131ran \u00e7a\u011fda\u015f Az\u0259rbaycan yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u018flis\u0259mid K\u00fcr m\u00fcxalifliyin\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck ehtiyac\u0131 vard\u0131r:<\/p>\n

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B\u00fct\u00fcn dil\u0259n\u00e7il\u0259ri tan\u0131y\u0131ram \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259…<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u0259n ki dil\u0259n\u00e7i deyils\u0259n, anam-bac\u0131m!<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u0259ni bu g\u00fcn\u0259 salan var!<\/em><\/p>\n

Utana-utana \u0259l a\u00e7m\u0131san,<\/em><\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rin ya\u015far\u0131b s\u0259nin.<\/em><\/p>\n

U\u015faq kimi dil a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fan,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u018fll\u0259rin q\u0131sal\u0131b s\u0259nin,<\/em><\/p>\n

B\u0259xtin\u0259 yol\u00e7uluq d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n anam-bac\u0131m.<\/em><\/p>\n

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\u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc gizl\u0259tm\u0259 el\u0259.<\/em><\/p>\n

Cibimd\u0259 sonuncu q\u0259piyim qal\u0131b,<\/em><\/p>\n

A\u011flaya-a\u011flaya verir\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259, –<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u0259n Allah, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011flatma bel\u0259.<\/em><\/p>\n

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D\u0259rdd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsizl\u0259r kefd\u0259-damaqda…<\/em><\/p>\n

Yan\u0131ndan ma\u015f\u0131nla \u015f\u00fct\u00fcy\u00fcb ke\u00e7ir,<\/em><\/p>\n

Yay\u0131n b\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259, c\u0131rhac\u0131r\u0131nda<\/em><\/p>\n

Hal\u0131na yananlar \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcb ke\u00e7ir.<\/em><\/p>\n

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\u018fl a\u00e7ma\u011fa qal\u0131b s\u0259nin \u0259lac\u0131n,<\/em><\/p>\n

Boynunu b\u00fckm\u00fcs\u0259n yolumun \u00fcst\u0259.<\/em><\/p>\n

M\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n kas\u0131bam, ay anam-bac\u0131m,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcm can verir\u0259m qolumun \u00fcst\u0259.<\/em><\/p>\n

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B\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd dil\u0259n\u00e7i,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259h\u0259r dil\u0259n\u00e7i…<\/em><\/p>\n

N\u0259zir qutusudu nazir qap\u0131s\u0131.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00dczl\u0259rd\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259 n\u0259 h\u0259ya, ab\u0131r,<\/em><\/p>\n

N\u0259 Allah qorxusu,<\/em><\/p>\n

b\u0259nd\u0259 qorxusu.<\/em><\/p>\n

Dil\u0259nir k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r ba\u015fdan-aya\u011fa,<\/em><\/p>\n

Azan s\u0259siyl\u0259 d\u0259 dil\u0259nir \u015f\u0259h\u0259r.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 g\u00f6yd\u0259n pul ya\u011fa,<\/em><\/p>\n

Y\u0131\u011f\u0131la k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259n bu dil\u0259n\u00e7il\u0259r.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Buradan haraya ba\u015f al\u0131b qa\u00e7\u0131m?<\/em><\/p>\n

Dil\u0259n\u00e7i \u0259kilib h\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f\u0131na.<\/em><\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 \u0259limi a\u00e7\u0131b<\/em><\/p>\n

Tanr\u0131m, \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011fam<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131na.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Bu, \u018flis\u0259midin \u015fair taleyidir. V\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 q\u0259zet s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259, kitablar\u0131nda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yox, evin\u0259 apard\u0131\u011f\u0131, m\u0259i\u015f\u0259tin\u0259, h\u0259yat\u0131na daxil el\u0259diyi taleyi. M\u0259hz bu m\u0259nada, \u018flis\u0259mid b\u0259nz\u0259rsizdir. \u018fd\u0259bi t\u0259x\u0259ll\u00fcs\u00fc can\u0131nda q\u0131m\u0131ldanan \u018flis\u0259mid K\u00fcrd\u00fcr! Onun zahir\u0259n m\u0259\u011flubedilm\u0259z g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n cismi \u0259sl hadis\u0259nin – faci\u0259 s\u0259viyy\u0259sin\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259lmi\u015f \u015fairliyinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda duru\u015f g\u0259tir\u0259 bilmir. Az\u0259rbaycan poeziyas\u0131 \u018flis\u0259mid K\u00fcr d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015famal\u0131d\u0131r. Taleyin s\u0131naqlar\u0131 da kim bilir, b\u0259lk\u0259 el\u0259 bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

…N\u0259 is\u0259 olacaqd\u0131. “Kentavr”dan sonra n\u0259 is\u0259 olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Va\u011fzal\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259dim d\u00fcnyan\u0131n mifoloji obrazlar\u0131 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b \u015fairi \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 r\u00f6yaya dald\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yaz\u0131 masas\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131nda is\u0259 \u018flis\u0259mid K\u00fcr va\u011fzal\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc yuxunu q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Fessaliya Bak\u0131 il\u0259 qaynay\u0131b-qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 onun \u015fair t\u0259x\u0259yy\u00fcl\u00fcnd\u0259. Dionisin \u015f\u0259raba h\u0259ris dostlar\u0131 va\u011fzalda y\u00fck da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131lar. Q\u0259ml\u0259 s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259-s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bir Az\u0259rbaycan \u015fairinin \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131 bu yar\u0131at, yar\u0131adam m\u0259xluqlar. \u015eaird\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k ist\u0259yirdil\u0259r… V\u0259 bir azdan s\u00fckut pozuldu… \u018flis\u0259midin s\u00fckutu pozuldu…”<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi iyirmi be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259l yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu esseni Ankarada “New Park Hotel”in 3-c\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259ki ota\u011f\u0131mda t\u0259krar oxuyuram… Do\u011frudan da, bu yaz\u0131n\u0131 \u018flis\u0259midin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra yazmal\u0131ym\u0131\u015fam…<\/p>\n

Yeri g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n, Ankaraya Anarla ba\u011fl\u0131 silsil\u0259 t\u0259dbirl\u0259rd\u0259 i\u015ftirak etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. Bayaq Anar m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259 \u018flis\u0259mid bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q:\u00a0 “S\u0259hiyy\u0259 Nazirliyi il\u0259 d\u0259, \u018fhliman \u018fmiraslanovla da \u018flis\u0259midin s\u0259hh\u0259ti il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etmi\u015fdim. Amma x\u0259st\u0259lik \u00f6z i\u015fini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u018flis\u0259midi xilas etm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131…” dedi.<\/p>\n

\u018flis\u0259mid ya\u015fca m\u0259nd\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. Amma eyni institutda oxuyur, n\u0259\u015friyyat\u0131n yax\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 yataqxanada eyni otaqda qal\u0131rd\u0131q… O, be\u015finci kursda oxuyurdu, m\u0259n birinci kursdayd\u0131m. Xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. 1981-ci ilin oktyabr ay\u0131d\u0131r. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ara vermir. O zaman oktyabr ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar\u0131 indiki kimi, M\u0259tbuat prospektin\u0259 deyil, Avakyan k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sin\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Arazdan, T\u0259brizd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b yorulmu\u015fduq. \u018flis\u0259mid yatm\u0131\u015f, m\u0259n is\u0259 oturub d\u0259rsl\u0259rimi oxuyurdum. Q\u0259fil ba\u015f\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kdiyi \u0259dyal\u0131 k\u0259nara it\u0259l\u0259yib yerind\u0259n s\u0131\u00e7rad\u0131. Onu yatm\u0131\u015f z\u0259nn etdiyim anlarda \u0259dyal\u0131n alt\u0131nda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feiri oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

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H\u0259sr\u0259t \u00fcmidinl\u0259 qol-boyun g\u0259z\u0259r,<\/em><\/p>\n

S\u00f6zl\u00fc arzular\u0131n yola \u00e7\u0131x\u0131bsa.<\/em><\/p>\n

Dem\u0259 nigaran\u0131q o taydan, Az\u0259r,<\/em><\/p>\n

Q\u0259lbin\u0259 axacaq g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131n s\u0259nin –<\/em><\/p>\n

Araza bax\u0131bsa, K\u00fcr\u0259 bax\u0131bsa.<\/em><\/p>\n

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V\u0259 indi, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n \u0259n az\u0131 q\u0131rx \u00fc\u00e7 il ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bu t\u0259fsilat\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn \u0259n m\u0259hr\u0259m m\u0259qamlar\u0131ndan biri kimi xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

H\u0259min ill\u0259rd\u0259 x\u0259trim\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n kim olsayd\u0131, kimliyind\u0131n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq, \u018flis\u0259mid bir g\u00f6z q\u0131rp\u0131m\u0131nda h\u0259min adam\u0131 tapar, d\u00f6y\u00fcb g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn odunu alar, qorxudard\u0131. \u018flis\u0259midin yan\u0131nda adam k\u00fcr olard\u0131, \u018flis\u0259mid kimi…<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik ill\u0259rind\u0259 m\u0259tbuatda \u015feirl\u0259ri, tama\u015falar bar\u0259d\u0259 resenziyalar\u0131 d\u0259rc olunard\u0131. Sonra n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcns\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycandan k\u0259narda h\u0259bs olundu. Ukraynada h\u0259bsxanada yatd\u0131. Onda m\u0259n \u0130rkutskda \u0259sg\u0259rlikd\u0259ydim v\u0259 \u018flis\u0259midin ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rsiz deyildim. O \u0259r\u0259f\u0259d\u0259 X\u0259lil Rzadan 9 iyul 1985 tarixli bir m\u0259ktub ald\u0131m: “M\u0259n d\u00fcn\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 kim\u0259 rast g\u0259ls\u0259m, yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r? \u018flis\u0259mid C\u0259f\u0259ro\u011fluya! Nec\u0259 qucaqla\u015fd\u0131q, aman, Tanr\u0131! 120 g\u00fcn h\u0259bs \u00e7\u0259kib Xarkovdan qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015f bu \u015fairin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259nclik, m\u00fcbariz\u0259, s\u0259mimiyy\u0259t i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 var! Evimizd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feirl\u0259rini dinl\u0259dik. G\u00fcl\u00fcr \u018flis\u0259mid… onu dustaq ed\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 v\u0259 bu g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f dustaq evind\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 “Poema-G\u00fcnd\u0259lik” \u0259s\u0259rinin h\u0259r misras\u0131nda ild\u0131r\u0131m kimi \u015f\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir.<\/p>\n

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Biz \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259liyik<\/em><\/p>\n

Ays\u0131z, ulduzsuz gec\u0259l\u0259rin<\/em><\/p>\n

qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ya\u015fama\u011fa da.<\/em><\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259niz ya\u015fay\u0131r i\u00e7\u0259rimizd\u0259…<\/em><\/p>\n

Biz \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259liyik onun<\/em><\/p>\n

k\u00f6ks\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc d\u00f6y\u0259n dal\u011falar\u0131na.<\/em><\/p>\n

P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259min p\u0259rd\u0259si<\/em><\/p>\n

z\u00fclm\u0259t r\u0259ngli bir \u0259sgi…<\/em><\/p>\n

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T\u00fcrkiy\u0259 radiosu Az\u0259rbaycan \u015fairinin dustaq edilm\u0259si haqq\u0131nda verili\u015f vermi\u015f v\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 \u015feirini oxumu\u015fdur. B\u00f6y\u00fck R\u0259sul Rzaya h\u0259sr etdiyi bir \u015feirind\u0259 deyir ki, “\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn utana-utana g\u0259lmi\u015fdi \/ F\u0259xri xiyabana. \/ \u00c7\u0259kin\u0259-\u00e7\u0259kin\u0259, \/ q\u0131zara-q\u0131zara \/ girmi\u015fdi m\u0259zara”.<\/p>\n

Tez ayr\u0131ld\u0131q. Salyana, atas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na qanadlan\u0131rd\u0131 \u018flis\u0259mid. Cibin\u0259 25-lik basmaq ist\u0259dim, g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259di. M\u0259\u011frurdu \u018flis\u0259mid. Qad\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 Ayla Ulduz kimi nur sa\u00e7\u0131r”.<\/p>\n

\u018flis\u0259mid bir az da Ulut\u00fcrk\u00fcn \u0259sg\u0259riydi. H\u0259tta Ulut\u00fcrk\u00fcn evind\u0259 tabutun qapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b \u015f\u0259hid T\u0259brizin yaral\u0131 v\u00fccudunu X\u0259lil Rzaya o g\u00f6st\u0259rmi\u015fdi…<\/p>\n

Bunu is\u0259 X\u0259lil Rza Ulut\u00fcrk ona h\u0259sr etdiyi “\u018flis\u0259midim” poemas\u0131nda yaz\u0131b:<\/p>\n

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Qayalardan, \u00fcmmanlardan<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 g\u00fcc alan\u0131m – \u018flis\u0259midim!<\/em><\/p>\n

\u015eeir \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 ucalan\u0131m – \u018flis\u0259midim!<\/em><\/p>\n

…Y\u0131x\u0131lsan da, dura bildin,<\/em><\/p>\n

Q\u0131ra bildin kirli toru…<\/em><\/p>\n

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…Sonrak\u0131 ill\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259 ayr\u0131lmad\u0131q. Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259st\u0259si il\u0259 Neft\u00e7aladak\u0131 evimiz\u0259 qonaq g\u0259ldi. Atam da onu \u00e7ox ist\u0259y\u0259rdi dey\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259rkl\u0259rini sev\u0259r\u0259k, sevin\u0259r\u0259k q\u0259bul ed\u0259rdi. Yad\u0131mdad\u0131r, 1987-ci ild\u0259 rejissor Zaur M\u0259h\u0259rr\u0259movla g\u0259lib K\u00fcrl\u0259 X\u0259z\u0259rin qovu\u015fdu\u011fu yerd\u0259 “S\u00fcbh adas\u0131nda q\u00fcrub” s\u0259n\u0259dli filmini \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdil\u0259r… \u00c7\u0259kili\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 adaya ged\u0259r, ax\u015fama q\u0259d\u0259r orda qalar, ev\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259r qay\u0131d\u0131b s\u0259n\u0259t s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri ed\u0259rdik…<\/p>\n

D\u00fcn\u0259n gec\u0259 Ankarada ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu yaz\u0131n\u0131 bu g\u00fcn gec\u0259 \u018fski\u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 – Anadolu Universitetinin qonaq ota\u011f\u0131nda davam etdirir\u0259m. Yuxar\u0131da xat\u0131rlatd\u0131\u011f\u0131m rejissor Zaur M\u0259h\u0259rr\u0259mov da Anadolu Universitetinin m\u00fc\u0259llimi idi v\u0259 iki ay bundan \u0259vv\u0259l el\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi… \u018flis\u0259mid h\u0259m d\u0259 budur. He\u00e7 yerd\u0259 bo\u015fluq buraxm\u0131r; n\u0259 xatir\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259, n\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259yatda…<\/p>\n

“Yol” q\u0259zetinin ba\u015f redaktoru oldu\u011fu 1991-1994-c\u00fc ill\u0259rd\u0259 essel\u0259rimi \u00e7ap edir, q\u0259zetd\u0259 m\u0259nim t\u0259qdimat\u0131mla t\u00fcrk poeziyas\u0131ndan n\u00fcmun\u0259l\u0259r verirdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130nanmazd\u0131m ki, \u018flis\u0259mid bir g\u00fcn xatir\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259k. Yoxlu\u011fu bu \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 yand\u0131r\u0131b-yaxacaq. \u018fsl salyanl\u0131yd\u0131; mac\u0259ralar\u0131 bitib-t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z…<\/p>\n

“\u018fd\u0259biyyat q\u0259zeti”n\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259rini sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 2023-c\u00fc ild\u0259 t\u0259qdim etdi. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 onu 2019-cu ild\u0259 \u00e7ap etmi\u015fdik… Dem\u0259k olar ki, h\u0259r h\u0259ft\u0259 redaksiyaya g\u0259lir, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 yeni \u015feirl\u0259rini g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 s\u00f6z verir, amma g\u00f6nd\u0259rmirdi. El\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n az yaz\u0131rd\u0131. He\u00e7 ba\u015fqa yerd\u0259 d\u0259 yeni \u015feirl\u0259rin\u0259 t\u0259sad\u00fcf etmirdim. “Adamlar d\u0259yi\u015fir havalar kimi” ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla verdiyimiz son \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259n biri M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d Hadinin qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131n – “M\u0259n bir diriy\u0259m, etdi m\u0259ni d\u0259fn t\u0259sad\u00fcf” misras\u0131n\u0131n yeni versiyas\u0131 kimi s\u0259sl\u0259nirdi:<\/p>\n

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M\u0259n b\u00fcllur k\u00fclqab\u0131yam,<\/em><\/p>\n

H\u0259rracda sat\u0131lacam<\/em><\/p>\n

bir azdan.<\/em><\/p>\n

Taleyi \u00e7at atm\u0131\u015f<\/em><\/p>\n

b\u00fcllur bir \u015fairin<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00e7at atm\u0131\u015f b\u00fcllur k\u00fclqab\u0131s\u0131<\/em><\/p>\n

sat\u0131lacaq h\u0259rracda.<\/em><\/p>\n

O nakam \u015fairin<\/em><\/p>\n

n\u0259yi var – b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcb,<\/em><\/p>\n

n\u0259yi var – sat\u0131l\u0131b<\/em><\/p>\n

bir az a\u015fa\u011f\u0131,<\/em><\/p>\n

bir az yuxar\u0131.<\/em><\/p>\n

…M\u0259n b\u00fcllur k\u00fclqab\u0131yam –<\/em><\/p>\n

M\u0259ni satan qazanacaq,<\/em><\/p>\n

m\u0259ni alan sevin\u0259c\u0259k…<\/em><\/p>\n

M\u0259n – \u015fahid\u0259m.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u018fld\u0259n salsalar m\u0259ni<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00e7ilik-\u00e7ilik olacam.<\/em><\/p>\n

M\u0259n – \u015f\u0259hid\u0259m!<\/em><\/p>\n

K\u00fcl ac\u0131yam.<\/em><\/p>\n

Yanm\u0131\u015f \u0259lyazmalar\u0131n<\/em><\/p>\n

k\u00fcl qoxusu var can\u0131mda.<\/em><\/p>\n

M\u0259n b\u00fcllur k\u00fclqab\u0131yam,<\/em><\/p>\n

M\u0259ni ortaya qoyub<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 satacaqlar h\u0259rracda.<\/em><\/p>\n

Bir m\u0259n sat\u0131lacam,<\/em><\/p>\n

bir d\u0259 sat\u0131lacaq<\/em><\/p>\n

q\u0259m \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f \u015fairin<\/em><\/p>\n

toz basm\u0131\u015f,<\/em><\/p>\n

n\u0259m \u00e7\u0259km\u0131\u015f \u0259lyazmalar\u0131.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Sanki \u018flis\u0259midin b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 h\u0259min \u015feird\u0259 presl\u0259nmi\u015fdi v\u0259 bu d\u00fcnyadan da el\u0259 h\u0259min a\u011fr\u0131larla getdi…<\/p>\n

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14-15 oktyabr 2025<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Ankara-\u018fski\u015f\u0259h\u0259r<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Az\u0259rbaycan.media\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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