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Cibimd\u0259 \u0259lim dar\u0131x\u0131r,
\nA\u011fz\u0131mda dilim dar\u0131x\u0131r…<\/p>\n
Ramiz R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259nin \u015feirl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131ram b\u0259z\u0259n. O zaman bu \u015feirl\u0259ri ucadan deyir\u0259m, bel\u0259c\u0259, dar\u0131xmaqdan xilas oluram.<\/p>\n
Bir vaxtlar Ramiz R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259nin bu misralar\u0131 dilimd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zdi:
\nYen\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259ldik,
\nNeyl\u0259y\u0259k, ayr\u0131ca \u015f\u0259h\u0259rimiz yox…<\/p>\n
O ill\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u015feirin h\u0259l\u0259 yaralar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 sar\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 vaxtlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131ram.
\nKe\u00e7mi\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xmaq m\u0259nim z\u0259if c\u0259h\u0259timdir. B\u0259z\u0259n ill\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259 qonaq getdiyim bir evin m\u0259tb\u0259xi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131ram. Yem\u0259kl\u0259ri demir\u0259m- n\u0259s\u0259 bir ev,<\/p>\n
ocaq istiliyi var m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu, do\u011fmal\u0131q hissi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xmaqd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u0130t kimi dar\u0131xmaq\u201d, -deyir b\u0259zi g\u0259nc \u015fairl\u0259r. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, it nec\u0259 dar\u0131x\u0131r?
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xmaq var bir d\u0259. Ruhunla ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qala bilm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 bu hal\u0131 ke\u00e7irirs\u0259n. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n tezlikl\u0259 s\u0259ssiz bir gu\u015f\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib ruhunu dinl\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n. Amma bu hissin \u00e7\u0131x\u0131lmaz t\u0259r\u0259fi d\u0259 var- \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259dd\u0259n art\u0131q alud\u0259 olmaq.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, dahil\u0259r nec\u0259 dar\u0131x\u0131r?
\nM\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, Brodski onu t\u0259rk ed\u0259n sevgilisi Marianna \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xanda bel\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n\u015eadam ki, yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259
\nBizim aram\u0131zdak\u0131 m\u0259saf\u0259d\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck ayr\u0131l\u0131q yoxdur…<\/p>\n
Bu, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ovutmaq idi. Amma \u015feirin h\u0259r<\/p>\n
k\u0259lm\u0259si \u201cdar\u0131x\u0131ram\u201d deyib haray sal\u0131rd\u0131. O misralarda t\u0259nha bir h\u00fczn var. \u015eair dar\u0131x\u0131r, oxucu is\u0259 o q\u0259rib t\u0259nhal\u0131qda ovunur. H\u0259m h\u00fczn, h\u0259m d\u0259 h\u00fczur doludur bu \u015feird\u0259.<\/p>\n
Tolstoy dar\u0131xanda ham\u0131dan, h\u0259tta \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qa\u00e7d\u0131. Bu da dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131n ba\u015fqa bir t\u0259zah\u00fcr\u00fc idi.
\nHe\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6rm\u0259diyin adamlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xmaq var, bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n yerl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. B\u0259z\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n: \u201cG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, orda olsam, orda da dar\u0131xard\u0131m?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130sa \u0130smay\u0131lzad\u0259nin \u201cT\u0259nhal\u0131q\u201d \u015feiri var, q\u0259rib ax\u015famlar\u0131n, dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131n \u015feiri:
\nBu ax\u015fam o ax\u015fama ox\u015fayacaq yen\u0259 d\u0259,
\nG\u0259lib m\u0259n\u0259 qovu\u015facaq, g\u0259lib s\u0259n\u0259 ox\u015fayacaq…<\/p>\n
Sonra \u015fair sevdiyi q\u0131zda xo\u015flad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 sadalay\u0131r:
\n“S\u0259nin sa\u00e7\u0131n uzun idi, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n d\u0259rin idi…”
\nBunlar da onun dar\u0131xd\u0131qlar\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Anna Axmatova bir \u015feirind\u0259 \u201ciki n\u0259f\u0259rlik t\u0259nhal\u0131q\u201d \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bad\u0259 qald\u0131r\u0131r.
\nGeorq B\u00fcxner is\u0259 yaz\u0131r: \u201cDar\u0131xmaq insanlar\u0131 n\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 m\u0259cbur el\u0259mir ki… Dar\u0131xd\u0131qlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn elm oxuyurlar, dua edirl\u0259r, sevirl\u0259r, el\u00e7i gedirl\u0259r, u\u015faq d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tirirl\u0259r. Ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 dar\u0131xd\u0131qlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn edirl\u0259r.\u201d Maraql\u0131 fikirdir, s\u0259n dem\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar dar\u0131xmaqdan qurtulmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr!<\/p>\n
Bu motiv Stendal\u0131n essesind\u0259 daha a\u00e7\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr: dar\u0131xmaq el\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fc bir hissdir ki, h\u0259tta insan\u0131n intihar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn laz\u0131m olan c\u0259sar\u0259tini d\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131r.
\nBertran Rassel is\u0259 hesab edirdi ki, insan davran\u0131\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 bezginliyin m\u0259nas\u0131 d\u00fczg\u00fcn qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirilm\u0259yib, ona layiq oldu\u011fu q\u0259d\u0259r diqq\u0259t yetirilm\u0259yib. Halbuki dar\u0131xmaq b\u00fct\u00fcn zamanlar\u0131n \u0259n g\u00fccl\u00fc h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tverici q\u00fcvv\u0259sidir.<\/p>\n
Rasselin dediyini atalar\u0131m\u0131z sad\u0259 dill\u0259 bel\u0259 izah edibl\u0259r: \u201cS\u0259nd\u0259n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t, m\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t\u201d, \u201c\u0130\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n di\u015fl\u0259m\u0259z\u201d.<\/p>\n
Dar\u0131xmaq h\u0259m d\u0259 insan\u0131n daxili enerji s\u0259viyy\u0259si il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r. Enerjisi t\u00fck\u0259nir v\u0259 dar\u0131xma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Maksim Qorki bir hekay\u0259sind\u0259 yaz\u0131rd\u0131 ki, insanlar bilmirl\u0259r n\u0259yi v\u0259 niy\u0259 axtar\u0131rlar, onlar\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259si-k\u00fcy\u00fc h\u0259yat\u0131n s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131ndan xilas olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Qorkinin \u0259s\u0259rind\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 insanlar yox, b\u00fct\u00f6v bir c\u0259miyy\u0259t dar\u0131x\u0131r. Dar\u0131xmaq rus h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n sa\u011falmaz x\u0259st\u0259liyidir.<\/p>\n
Onun q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 Platon ancaq \u201cmaraqs\u0131z\u201d insanlarla \u0259hat\u0259 olunub. Ham\u0131 dar\u0131x\u0131r: saatsaz Ananiy dar\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan dostuyla m\u00fcbahis\u0259 edir, ev sahib\u0259si vaxt\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rd\u0259kl\u0259rl\u0259 ke\u00e7irir, dig\u0259ri is\u0259 yaln\u0131z pul y\u0131\u011fmaqla m\u0259\u015f\u011fuldur. He\u00e7 n\u0259 yar\u0131yuxulu Platonu dar\u0131xmaqdan xilas etmir.
\n\u201cT\u00fcst\u00fc kimi s\u0131zan s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131 g\u00fcn-g\u00fcnd\u0259n daha da \u0259zabl\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc b\u00fcruz\u0259 verir.\u201d<\/p>\n
Onun q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 Platon ancaq \u201cmaraqs\u0131z\u201d insanlarla \u0259hat\u0259 olunub. Ham\u0131 dar\u0131x\u0131r: saatsaz Ananiy dar\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan dostuyla m\u00fcbahis\u0259 edir, ev sahib\u0259si vaxt\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rd\u0259kl\u0259rl\u0259 ke\u00e7irir, dig\u0259ri is\u0259 yaln\u0131z pul y\u0131\u011fmaqla m\u0259\u015f\u011fuldur. He\u00e7 n\u0259 yar\u0131yuxulu Platonu dar\u0131xmaqdan xilas etmir.
\n\u201cT\u00fcst\u00fc kimi s\u0131zan s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131 g\u00fcn-g\u00fcnd\u0259n daha da \u0259zabl\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc b\u00fcruz\u0259 verir.\u201d<\/p>\n
H\u0259yat\u0131n maraql\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rini o, ingilis Lesli Mortonla tan\u0131\u015f olanda g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Morton q\u0259rib\u0259 adam idi: \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u00fcxt\u0259lif cildl\u0259r\u0259 sal\u0131r, t\u0259lx\u0259klik edir, qu\u015f s\u0259si \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131. Platon onu t\u0259qlid etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, amma bu c\u0259hd ona h\u0259yat\u0131 bahas\u0131na ba\u015fa g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n
Qorkinin avtobioqrafik \u0259s\u0259rinin ikinci hiss\u0259sind\u0259 is\u0259 dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131n unikall\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. \u0130lk bax\u0131\u015fda dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdur, amma tacirl\u0259rd\u0259n biri dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r ki, onun xidm\u0259t\u00e7isi o q\u0259d\u0259r acg\u00f6zd\u00fcr ki, on funtluq donuz budunu iki saata yey\u0259 bil\u0259r. Tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar onu alq\u0131\u015flay\u0131r, o\u011flan is\u0259 yedikc\u0259 donuz buduna ox\u015fay\u0131r. Q\u0259hr\u0259man bu s\u0259hn\u0259ni ikrahla seyr edir. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilmir: bu ciddi adamlarda insanlar\u0131 al\u00e7altmaq hissi hardand\u0131r?<\/p>\n
\u201cDar\u0131xmaq hissi soyuq v\u0259 z\u0259hl\u0259t\u00f6k\u0259ndir, h\u0259r yerd\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259si g\u0259lir; dar\u0131xmaq hissi qarla \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc torpaqdan, boz damlardan, k\u0259rpic binalardan, t\u00fcst\u00fc kimi qalx\u0131b s\u0259maya yay\u0131l\u0131r. Atlar da, insanlar da bu hiss\u0259 yoluxurlar.\u201d<\/p>\n
Dar\u0131xan insan vaxt\u0131n\u0131 hara s\u0259rf ed\u0259c\u0259yini bilmir, \u00e7\u00fcnki dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc s\u0259rf olunacaq imkanlara \u0259ng\u0259l olur. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, dar\u0131xmaq el\u0259 bir hissdir ki, onunla \u00e7ox \u015feyi t\u0259miz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr.
\nDostoyevskinin q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 demi\u015fk\u0259n:
\n\u201cHam\u0131s\u0131 dar\u0131xmaqdand\u0131r, c\u0259nablar, ham\u0131s\u0131 dar\u0131xmaqdand\u0131r…\u201d<\/p>\n
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