{"id":56145,"date":"2025-10-18T08:52:47","date_gmt":"2025-10-18T04:52:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/?p=56145"},"modified":"2025-10-18T08:52:50","modified_gmt":"2025-10-18T04:52:50","slug":"ruhumda-yenid%c9%99n-diril%c9%99n-s%c9%99h%c9%99r-bah%c9%99ddin-h%c9%99zi-yazir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/?p=56145","title":{"rendered":"Ruhumda yenid\u0259n diril\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259r…- Bah\u0259ddin H\u0259zi yaz\u0131r"},"content":{"rendered":"
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“M\u0259n d\u00fcnyan\u0131n m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259 do\u011fulsayd\u0131m, xo\u015fb\u0259xt u\u015faql\u0131q d\u00f6vr\u00fc ke\u00e7irs\u0259ydim, y\u0259qin h\u0259r \u015fey ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr olard\u0131”…<\/p>\n

Bunu, dey\u0259s\u0259n, baharda yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, indi is\u0259 sonbahard\u0131r. Yox, h\u0259l\u0259 son bahar deyil, h\u0259l\u0259 son deyil; arxada alt\u0131 onillik buraxsam da, ya\u015fayacaq, ya\u015flanacaq zamanlar\u0131m\u0131z var \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259. “\u0130ndi m\u0259n odu s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f ata oca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fcl\u00fc il\u0259 oynayan ah\u0131l u\u015fa\u011fam” demi\u015f\u0259m. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, o oca\u011f\u0131n o k\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131nda t\u0259nb\u0259l-t\u0259nb\u0259l k\u00f6z\u0259r\u0259n bir h\u0259yat var. Ya da m\u0259nim canl\u0131 bildiyim xatir\u0259l\u0259rin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr…<\/p>\n

M\u0259n Eyfel q\u00fcll\u0259sind\u0259n sallanm\u0131\u015f, ya da London saat\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259fkirind\u0259n salla\u015fm\u0131\u015f lov\u011fa turistik t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn \u015f\u0259kil deyil\u0259m. Par\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rin \u0259rk\u00f6y\u00fcn u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olmam\u0131\u015fam, n\u0259riltili-gurultulu k\u0259nd havas\u0131ndan qopub g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259n qabaq onu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm: K\u00f6nd\u0259l\u0259n qa\u015f\u0131nda baxanda \u0259l i\u00e7i kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259ni. Da\u011flar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na qoyub, ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259nlik \u00e7ay\u0131na sallam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ad\u0131na ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259 “Qarabulaq” demi\u015fdik. Zamanla ad\u0131 da d\u0259yi\u015fdi, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259. Ba\u015f\u0131 M\u0259ng\u0259l\u0259natan\u0131n sin\u0259sin\u0259 do\u011fru qalx\u0131rd\u0131, aya\u011f\u0131 Arana t\u0259r\u0259f uzan\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7\u0259r\u0259k\u0259nin q\u0131raqlar\u0131ndak\u0131 a\u011faclara s\u00f6yk\u0259nmi\u015fdi, ya\u015flan\u0131b gedirdi.<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey d\u0259yi\u015fdi; yerl\u0259 g\u00f6y qovu\u015fdu. M\u00fcharib\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri bizd\u0259n ald\u0131. N\u0259 az, n\u0259 azac\u0131q, d\u00fcz iyirmi yeddi il bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t qald\u0131q. Bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 d\u00fcz iyirmi yeddi il \u0259vv\u0259l bir yay g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lmi\u015f o\u011flanlar bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n uzaqda did\u0259rgin b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcl\u0259r. \u0130yirmi yeddi ya\u015flar\u0131nda \u0259sg\u0259r paltar\u0131 geyinib g\u0259lib bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri al\u0131b biz\u0259 verdil\u0259r\u00a0 \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259dikl\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin iyini \u00e7oxdan alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. K\u00f6\u00e7k\u00fcn ata-analardan, sa\u011f qalm\u0131\u015f n\u0259n\u0259-babalardan.<\/p>\n

Bu, ba\u011f-ba\u011fatdak\u0131 akasiyalar\u0131n, yas\u0259m\u0259nl\u0259rin \u0259tri idi. Ax\u0131rdan ax\u0131ra bir az bar\u0131t qoxusu da hopmu\u015fdu havas\u0131na. Bunu da yeni n\u0259sil ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi, daha da ciy\u0259rli olmu\u015fdu. Yerl\u0259, g\u00f6yl\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259\u015firdi o cavan n\u0259sil. Ev\u0259-e\u015fiy\u0259 s\u0131\u011fm\u0131rd\u0131, \u00f6z k\u0259ndind\u0259, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259 \u00f6z torpa\u011f\u0131na qovu\u015fma\u011f\u0131n v\u0259d\u0259si g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 silahlan\u0131b getdil\u0259r. Ham\u0131s\u0131 getdi, \u00e7oxusu qay\u0131tmad\u0131; qalan qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ged\u0259n getmi\u015fdi. Ancaq biz\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri qaytard\u0131lar. Daha do\u011frusu, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n n\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131sa, onu. Amma, q\u0131namay\u0131n, yurdun xarabal\u0131qlar\u0131na da \u00fcz s\u00fcrt\u00fcr, \u015f\u00fckr edir adam!<\/p>\n

…\u0130ndi o k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, n\u0259l\u0259r! Bax, bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r bazar\u0131d\u0131r; anam bir vedr\u0259 armudla\u00a0 m\u0259ni bura g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259nd\u0259 on \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131m olard\u0131. Sar\u0131-q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, dolu, bol sulu pay\u0131z armudunu pula \u00e7evir\u0259c\u0259kdim, o pulu da d\u00fckanda q\u0259nd-\u00e7ayla d\u0259yi\u015fib at\u0131lacaqd\u0131m k\u0259nd\u0259 ged\u0259n ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 avtobusa.<\/p>\n

…Bax, burdan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259ni p\u00fcrr\u0259ngi \u00e7aya qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131lan g\u00fcl suyunun rahiy\u0259si vurur, o biri k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 yun yuyan q\u0131z-g\u0259lin deyib-g\u00fcl\u00fcr. Bax, burda – d\u00fcz bazar\u0131n gir\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259ki yem\u0259kxanada a\u015fpaz soban\u0131 qalay\u0131b; t\u0259z\u0259 pitinin \u0259tri adam\u0131 i\u015ftaha g\u0259tirir. \u00c7\u0259r\u0259k\u0259nin belind\u0259 – teatr\u0131n h\u0259nd\u0259v\u0259rind\u0259 vurnuxanlara bax! Bir azdan adamlar t\u0259z\u0259 paltar\u0131n\u0131 geyinib bura ax\u0131\u015facaq, yen\u0259 tama\u015fa var. M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t evinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 \u00e7ayxanada da\u011fdan a\u011f\u0131r ki\u015fil\u0259r oturub; ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259n, ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Hardasa, kims\u0259 ispan “tar\u0131”nda – gitarada mu\u011fam xallar\u0131 vurma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin yuxar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda ma\u011far qurulur; ax\u015fama toy var. Quru\u00e7ay\u0131n d\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259 mal bazar\u0131 sovulur yava\u015f-yava\u015f. Bu bazar da sahibini d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n mal-qara yax\u0131n k\u0259ndl\u0259rin torpaq yollar\u0131nda tozanaq qald\u0131r\u0131r. Bir d\u0259st\u0259 yeniyetm\u0259 \u018frg\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin sin\u0259sind\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fc a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yell\u0259nib g\u0259lir. Torbalar b\u00f6y\u00fcrtk\u0259nl\u0259, moruqla, yemi\u015fanla, \u0259zgill\u0259 doludur. Hans\u0131sa budaqda \u015fanapipik oxuyur. H\u0259ft\u0259 bazar\u0131ndan g\u0259l\u0259n k\u0259nd camaat\u0131 avtobusun qap\u0131lar\u0131ndan salla\u015f\u0131b; \u00fcz\u00fc Arazboyuna ged\u0259sidir. Park\u0131n gir\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259 bir a\u011fsaqqal oturacaqda yerini rahatlay\u0131b eyn\u0259yini tax\u0131r, “Araz” q\u0259zetinin t\u0259z\u0259 n\u00f6mr\u0259sini v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259yir. Po\u00e7tun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 dalanda balaca bir izdiham var: q\u0259riblikd\u0259ki, \u0259sg\u0259rlikd\u0259ki \u0259zizl\u0259rind\u0259n m\u0259ktub umanlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 cumub po\u00e7ta. Bir d\u0259 bu yanda a\u011facl\u0131\u011f\u0131n aras\u0131nda k\u0259nd klublar\u0131ndan g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rin n\u00f6vb\u0259si h\u0259rd\u0259n basabasa \u00e7evrilir; ax\u015fama bilet satm\u0131\u015f kinomexanikl\u0259r Hindistan filml\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 “mehriban” dava-dala\u015f sal\u0131b. S\u0259s\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n paqonlu m\u00fcv\u0259kkil aran\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirir, sonra da tapan\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n qab\u0131ndan me\u015f\u0259 armudunu \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b di\u015fl\u0259yir, qalx\u0131r \u00fcz\u00fcyuar\u0131, kombinata t\u0259r\u0259f. Fotoatelyed\u0259 onuncular m\u0259zunluq \u015f\u0259kli \u00e7\u0259kdirir. M\u0259rk\u0259zi meydanda dir\u0259kl\u0259r qurulur, yo\u011fun ipl\u0259r g\u0259rilir; k\u0259ndirbazlar\u0131n tama\u015fas\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 ba\u015flamay\u0131b, amma \u015f\u0259h\u0259r u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259s-k\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n a\u011f\u0131z dey\u0259ni qulaq e\u015fitmir. D\u0259li Bayram \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fa-dan\u0131\u015fa, \u0259l-qolunu \u00f6l\u00e7\u0259-\u00f6l\u00e7\u0259 Xanlar k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259ki hamam\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131ndan va\u011fzala t\u0259r\u0259f gedir…<\/p>\n

Bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r, bax, bel\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6z sakit, g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcnl\u0259rini ya\u015fay\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Yox, art\u0131q ya\u015fam\u0131r – o \u015f\u0259h\u0259r daha\u00a0 yoxdur. O \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 o h\u0259yat da yoxdur. Art\u0131q yenisi var.<\/p>\n

…D\u00fcz be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259l, bax, bu g\u00fcn oktyabr\u0131n 17-d\u0259 biz – \u00fc\u00e7 dost \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 yard\u0131m apar\u0131rd\u0131q. Bizi Da\u015fburunda saxlad\u0131lar. Xeyli g\u00f6zl\u0259dik. V\u0259 bird\u0259n bir avtomobil g\u0259ldi, i\u00e7ind\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 n\u0259f\u0259r d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, ham\u0131ya g\u00f6zayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 verdil\u0259r: “F\u00fczuli \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri azad olundu” dedil\u0259r. Bir-birini tan\u0131yan, tan\u0131mayan ham\u0131 sevinc i\u00e7ind\u0259 t\u0259brikl\u0259\u015firdi. Bizi d\u0259 buraxd\u0131lar, getdik \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck.<\/p>\n

O g\u00fcn o balaca do\u011fma \u0259yal\u0259t \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri m\u0259nim ruhumda yenid\u0259n dirildi. \u0130ndi be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131 var. T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n yeriyib-y\u00fcy\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r, t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n dil a\u00e7\u0131b dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yir bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r…<\/p>\n

M\u00fc\u0259llif: Bah\u0259ddin H\u0259zi<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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“M\u0259n d\u00fcnyan\u0131n m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259 do\u011fulsayd\u0131m, xo\u015fb\u0259xt u\u015faql\u0131q d\u00f6vr\u00fc ke\u00e7irs\u0259ydim, y\u0259qin h\u0259r \u015fey ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr olard\u0131”… Bunu, dey\u0259s\u0259n, baharda yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, indi is\u0259 sonbahard\u0131r. Yox, h\u0259l\u0259 son bahar deyil, h\u0259l\u0259 son deyil; arxada… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":56146,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[54,1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-56145","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kos","category-manset"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/56145","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=56145"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/56145\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":56149,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/56145\/revisions\/56149"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/56146"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=56145"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=56145"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=56145"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}