M\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r el\u0259 bilirdim h\u0259yas\u0131z v\u0259 s\u0131rt\u0131q k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259, dingi\u015f m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nlil\u0259rin\u0259 az-\u00e7ox b\u0259l\u0259d oldu\u011fum Bak\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt sev\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. He\u00e7 t\u0259\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcm\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259zdi ki, bir g\u00fcn q\u0259dimliyinin arxas\u0131nda gizl\u0259n\u0259n bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin t\u0259n ortas\u0131nda – Zahid X\u0259lilov k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sinin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki o m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s inam tam ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fma ola bil\u0259r. M\u0259n d\u00fcz 4 il bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si olmu\u015fam. Bu 4 ild\u0259 dem\u0259k olar ki, h\u0259r g\u00fcn Zahid X\u0259lilov k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fm\u0131\u015fam, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 salam vermi\u015f\u0259m v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131ram. Olub ki, da\u015f\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131ma ili\u015fib, polisi qolumdan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b, xazeykas\u0131 evind\u0259n qovub, ancaq bir d\u0259f\u0259 olsun bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 qay\u0131tmam\u0131\u015fam, dan\u0131\u015fanda s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun yan\u0131ndan salams\u0131z \u00f6tm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, \u0259lini havada qoymam\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n
M\u0259nim Zahid X\u0259lilov k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259si il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m 2007-ci ild\u0259n ba\u015flay\u0131b v\u0259 bu tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131q o zaman ba\u015f verdi ki, o ili Bak\u0131 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Universitetinin t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si oldum. Biz qrupda 30 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259ydik. Filologiya fak\u00fclt\u0259si oldu\u011fumuzdan q\u0131zlar sayca \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck t\u0259\u015fkil edirdi. H\u0259mcins m\u00fcbt\u0259dal\u0131 c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259r kimi yan-yana d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n q\u0131zlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 verg\u00fcl\u0259 ox\u015fayan t\u0259k-t\u00fck o\u011flanlar is\u0259 ad\u0259t\u0259n, h\u00fcquqa bal\u0131 \u00e7atmayan kas\u0131b balalar\u0131 olurdu. Bak\u0131 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Universitetinin 1 sayl\u0131 korpusunda – filologiyadan \u00fc\u00e7 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259 yuxar\u0131 H\u00fcquq fak\u00fclt\u0259si yerl\u0259\u015firdi v\u0259 bizd\u0259 q\u0131zlar \u00e7ox oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 h\u00fcququn o\u011flanlar\u0131 dem\u0259k olar ki, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 yolunu bu t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n sal\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bir-iki d\u0259f\u0259 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fclvari t\u0259dbir g\u00f6rs\u0259k d\u0259, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, xeyri olmad\u0131. H\u00fcquqi c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n \u0259sasland\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131 ki, biz g\u00fcnahkar\u0131q. Sonra ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 sal\u0131b a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00f6z i\u015fimizl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olduq. M\u0259n onda h\u0259l\u0259 b\u0131\u011f yeri t\u0259z\u0259-t\u0259z\u0259 t\u0259rl\u0259y\u0259n v\u0259 ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131 yerl\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n u\u015faqlar\u0131n eyni \u00fcnvanda birl\u0259\u015fm\u0259sini \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck maraqla qar\u015f\u0131layan yeniyetm\u0259 bir o\u011fland\u0131m. H\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 \u015feir kimi bax\u0131rd\u0131m v\u0259 el\u0259 bilirdim bu d\u00fcnyada n\u0259 varsa, ham\u0131s\u0131 m\u0259nim g\u00f6zl\u0259rim boydad\u0131.<\/p>\n
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M\u0259niml\u0259 eyni k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 bir q\u0131z da oxuyurdu. Balaca, k\u00f6vr\u0259k bir q\u0131z\u0131 idi. Adama el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, \u0259l vursan o saat a\u011flayar. Ad\u0131na da S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 deyirdim. T\u0259bi\u0259tin bu balaca balas\u0131 qrupumuzun son be\u015fiyidi, n\u0259 vaxt bax\u0131rd\u0131n u\u015faq kimi \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 oynay\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nin qarda\u015f\u0131 yoxuydu, \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qarda\u015f say\u0131rd\u0131. Onun tullana-tullana yerim\u0259yi h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 yad\u0131mdad\u0131r v\u0259 x\u00fcsus\u0259n bel\u0259 vaxtlarda S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 alt\u0131ndan x\u0259tt \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259r kimi he\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259nim g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n yay\u0131nmazd\u0131. Ancaq S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nin yeri\u015fi n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u015f\u0131lqtaq olsa da, bu add\u0131mlar m\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 kims\u0259siz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcb v\u0259 el\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m ki, onun bu qorxaq ayaqlar\u0131 Zahid X\u0259lilov k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259 kiray\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Filologiya fak\u00fclt\u0259sind\u0259 m\u00fchazir\u0259 d\u0259rsl\u0259ri ad\u0259t\u0259n birinci saatlara sal\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131. Gec\u0259l\u0259r gec yat\u0131b s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r yuxudan tez durmaq v\u0259 x\u00fcsus\u0259n soyuq q\u0131\u015f aylar\u0131nda d\u0259rs\u0259 vaxt\u0131nda \u00e7atmaq \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin olurdu. T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rin sa\u00e7lar\u0131nda bir ovuc qarla siyid\u0259-siyid\u0259 ota\u011fa girm\u0259si bel\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rin qay\u0131b yazmaq hissin\u0259 mane ola bilmirdi. G\u00fcn\u00fc bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi yad\u0131mdad\u0131r, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 Zahid X\u0259lilov k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sin\u0259 \u015f\u0131d\u0131r\u011f\u0131 bir ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fd\u0131, o g\u00fcn\u00fc bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 el\u0259 bil he\u00e7 k\u0259s ya\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131, h\u0259r yan \u015faxtal\u0131 q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi kims\u0259siz idi. M\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 t\u0259nhal\u0131q g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim. El\u0259 bil Allah Zahid X\u0259lilov k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sinin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm h\u00f6km\u00fc oxuyurdu. H\u0259min g\u00fcn S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259rs\u0259 gecikmi\u015fdi v\u0259 bu zaman ona qay\u0131b d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin dey\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259rs jurnal\u0131n\u0131 da qoltu\u011fuma vurub yolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dayand\u0131m. Sumqay\u0131tdan Zahid X\u0259lilov k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sin\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n a\u011f r\u0259ngli avtobusu son ana q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259dim. Bird\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n arxas\u0131nda S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nin n\u0259rm\u0259nazik a\u011f \u0259ll\u0259rini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm v\u0259 el\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin ortas\u0131ndaca d\u0259li bir h\u0259sr\u0259tl\u0259 onun boynunu qucaqlad\u0131m, titr\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 darad\u0131m, qay\u011f\u0131l\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 doyunca baxd\u0131m. S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 quca\u011f\u0131mda dip\u00e7\u0259k g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ki-\u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 dayand\u0131q. S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nin vulkan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri a\u015fm\u0131\u015f qay\u0131\u011fa ox\u015fayan qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda par-par par\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 sanki ya\u011f\u0131\u015f onun k\u0259d\u0259rli g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259yib s\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 qollar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131na s\u0131\u011facaq q\u0259d\u0259r balacayd\u0131. El\u0259 bil Allah onu qucaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u00fcz\u00fc, h\u0259min an ya\u011f\u0131\u015f da biz\u0259 xeyli arad\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259nlik el\u0259di v\u0259 bel\u0259likl\u0259 aram\u0131za \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259n d\u0259rin bir s\u0259ssizlik ilk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f sinfoniyas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259dalar\u0131 alt\u0131nda hissl\u0259rimizi bu q\u0259d\u0259r ayd\u0131n ifad\u0259 ed\u0259 bilirdi.<\/p>\n
Aylar biri-birinin daban\u0131n\u0131 basa-basa \u00f6t\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, g\u00fcnl\u0259r \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n toz kimi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Oxudu\u011fum b\u00fct\u00fcn kitablar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. \u015e\u0259kill\u0259rini d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yimin alt\u0131nda saxlay\u0131rd\u0131m. H\u0259r gec\u0259 \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rin\u0259 yalvar\u0131rd\u0131m. D\u0259rsl\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 otururduq. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yan\u0131mda olurdu. El\u0259 bil qol saat\u0131m idi. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 professor d\u00fcnya \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131ndan ona 3 yazd\u0131. S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nin k\u0259d\u0259rli g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxanda o q\u0259d\u0259r dar\u0131xd\u0131m ki, barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131 cilovlaya bilm\u0259yib onun 3-n\u00fc jurnalda 9 el\u0259dim. Bil\u0259-bil\u0259 ki, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259ni universitetd\u0259n qova bil\u0259rl\u0259r. Maraql\u0131 anlar idi, \u00e7ox maraql\u0131… Daha o g\u00fcnl\u0259ri bir d\u0259 ya\u015fya bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. Bel\u0259 u\u015faq kimi sevm\u0259k getdi i\u015fin\u0259 daha.<\/p>\n
\u00d6ld\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 bir d\u0259v\u0259 kimi, D\u00f6rd\u00fcncu kursun may\u0131 idi. Biz t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259r b\u0259z\u0259nib-d\u00fcz\u0259nib, geyinib-kecinib ayr\u0131l\u0131q g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q. S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 is\u0259 tamam ayr\u0131 bir ifad\u0259 vard\u0131, fikirl\u0259ri d\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131 kimi dola\u015f\u0131q v\u0259 qarmaqar\u0131\u015f\u0131q idi. M\u0259n ona yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. O is\u0259 el\u0259 birc\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n – Olmaz!<\/p>\n M\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi ayd\u0131nca, \u00fcr\u0259k a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131yla d\u0259rk el\u0259dim. Bir az t\u0259ngn\u0259f\u0259s oldum. Ancaq he\u00e7 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259dim. \u018fslind\u0259, bu novellavari bir sonluq da deyildi. M\u0259n lap \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n, el\u0259 ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm g\u00fcnd\u0259n \u0259mindim ki, S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 m\u0259nim bu \u00fcst\u00fc-ba\u015f\u0131 nimda\u015f, k\u00f6yn\u0259yi \u00fct\u00fcs\u00fcz sevgim\u0259 layiq deyil, ikincisi, onu da deyim ki, ad\u0131na S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 dediyim h\u0259min o q\u0131z\u0131n bir g\u00fcn qollar\u0131na qu\u015f l\u0259l\u0259yi tax\u0131b el\u0259 bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259nc\u0259 nazik di\u015fli dara\u011fa ox\u015fayan \u0259ll\u0259rini saat \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259ri kimi \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 yell\u0259yib u\u00e7ub ged\u0259c\u0259yini d\u0259 bilirdim. Sevgimiz d\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259liyimiz kimi 4 il \u00e7\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 m\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 Zahid X\u0259lilov k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sinin ilk \u015f\u0259kli idi, neyl\u0259yim ki, o da qollar\u0131na qu\u015f l\u0259l\u0259yi tax\u0131b u\u00e7ub getdi buralardan v\u0259 oras\u0131n\u0131 da nec\u0259 dem\u0259yim ki, ondan sonra m\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u00fcm bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 daha \u00f6zg\u0259 bir qanadl\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259di.<\/p>\n B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar dem\u0259k olar ki, 4 il \u0259rzind\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. \u0130ndi is\u0259 m\u0259n Zahid X\u0259lilov k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259 – Bak\u0131 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Universitetinin h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 oturmu\u015fam. Q\u0259rib\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam, h\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 el\u0259 olub ki, bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259ni \u00f6z evim hesab el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m v\u0259 yaln\u0131z el\u0259 indi, bu yaz\u0131n\u0131 yaza-yaza fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m ki, daha m\u0259n dostu d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n, iqtidar\u0131 iqtidar, m\u00fcxalif\u0259ti d\u0259 iqtidar olan bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin n\u0259 ikili-\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 p\u0131rtda\u015f\u0131q t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si, n\u0259 d\u0259 kas\u0131b, t\u00f6r-t\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u00fc sakiniy\u0259m. El\u0259 bil \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc ba\u015fa vurmu\u015fam v\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, daha bu d\u00fcnya qurtar\u0131b.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Az\u0259rbaycan.media\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" M\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r el\u0259 bilirdim h\u0259yas\u0131z v\u0259 s\u0131rt\u0131q k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259, dingi\u015f m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nlil\u0259rin\u0259 az-\u00e7ox b\u0259l\u0259d oldu\u011fum Bak\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt sev\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. 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