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(\u018fvv\u0259li \u00f6t\u0259n saylar\u0131m\u0131zda)<\/h4>\n<\/blockquote>\n
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Zahir\u0259n \u00e7ox yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 olan S\u0259limin h\u0259m d\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fc t\u0259sir q\u00fcvv\u0259si, cazib\u0259si, adama tez yovu\u015fmaq, tez dil tapmaq bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131 var idi. T\u0259bii ki, m\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259r bir insan \u00f6vlad\u0131 kimi, kimis\u0259 sevm\u0259li, ail\u0259 qurmal\u0131, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, kimins\u0259 evinin \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131rmal\u0131 idim. S\u0259lim m\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6z sevgisini bildir\u0259nd\u0259 ona he\u00e7 bir cavab verm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Amma S\u0259lim h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rimd\u0259n, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131mdan hiss etm\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi ki, m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onun t\u0259klifi xo\u015fdur v\u0259 q\u0259bul edil\u0259ndir. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, ona dey\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim sevgim\u0259 arxay\u0131n olub, ist\u0259yini bu yolla h\u0259yata ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdi S\u0259lim! H\u0259r bir halda o, ki\u015fiy\u0259 yara\u015fmayan \u015f\u0259r\u0259fsiz bir i\u015f tutmu\u015fdu. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 cavab\u0131n\u0131 almal\u0131 idi bir g\u00fcn. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, \u00fcr\u0259yimi yand\u0131ran qisas alovunu n\u0259 vaxtsa s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7irdi. Vaxt dayanmadan h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259td\u0259 idi. H\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bil S\u0259liml\u0259 m\u0259nim aramda he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verm\u0259mi\u015fdi sanki. Birc\u0259 ona sevinirdim ki, u\u015fa\u011fa qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Amma bu m\u0259nim i\u00e7imd\u0259ki nifr\u0259ti s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir damla su q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 yet\u0259rli deyildi. S\u0259lim bilirdi ki, m\u0259n abr\u0131ma b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fcb onun murdar \u0259m\u0259lini he\u00e7 kim\u0259 dem\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m, gizli saxlayacam. Ax\u0131, bu hadis\u0259 n\u0259 vaxtsa b\u00fct\u00fcn detallar\u0131 il\u0259 ham\u0131ya tam ayd\u0131n olsa bel\u0259, yen\u0259 \u0259sas z\u0259rb\u0259ni m\u0259n alacaqd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn? \u00c7\u00fcnki insanlar bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrl\u0259r. Ba\u015f ver\u0259n bu c\u00fcr olaylarda onlar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 z\u0259rif cinsi t\u0259msil ed\u0259nl\u0259ri g\u00fcnahkar say\u0131rlar. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar ac\u0131 olsa da, h\u0259qiq\u0259tdir.<\/p>\n

Amma “\u00e7oxbilmi\u015f qu\u015f dimdiyind\u0259n tora d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r” deyibl\u0259r. S\u0259lim bir az a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 olsayd\u0131, m\u0259nim susma\u011f\u0131m\u0131n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli sonluqla bit\u0259c\u0259yini duyar, anlayard\u0131. Ax\u0131, d\u00fcnyan\u0131 az-\u00e7ox d\u0259rk el\u0259y\u0259n adam \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi qula\u011f\u0131na yemir. V\u0259 he\u00e7 bir \u0259m\u0259l he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f kimi, \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7mir. Hardasa, n\u0259 vaxtsa m\u00fctl\u0259q \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, partlay\u0131r. S\u0259lim, h\u0259tta m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s Qurandan don geyinib, ayaqlar\u0131ma y\u0131x\u0131lsa bel\u0259, onun m\u0259ni xo\u015fb\u0259xt ed\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 y\u00fcz faiz inansam bel\u0259, m\u0259n art\u0131q onu q\u0259bul el\u0259m\u0259zdim.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 ona olan kin-k\u00fcdur\u0259tim h\u0259r g\u00fcn, h\u0259r saat art\u0131rd\u0131. Nec\u0259 olur-olsun, onun cavab\u0131n\u0131 verm\u0259liydim v\u0259 bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259lveri\u015fli m\u0259qam g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. H\u0259min m\u0259qam m\u00fctl\u0259q yeti\u015fm\u0259liydi. S\u0259limin zahir\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l, amma y\u00fcng\u00fcl xasiyy\u0259tli, ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131 ki\u015fil\u0259rl\u0259 ad\u0131 hallanm\u0131\u015f, Rusiyada taxta-\u015falban biznesi il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olan atas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi pullar\u0131 sa\u011fa-sola s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259yib \u015fe\u015f\u0259l\u0259n\u0259n B\u0259yiml\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 sevgi roman\u0131 da, onlar\u0131n tezlikl\u0259 ail\u0259 qurmaq ist\u0259yi d\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi v\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259 ham\u0131 bundan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259nim maraq dair\u0259m is\u0259 \u00f6z d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rim\u0259, h\u0259d\u0259fl\u0259rim\u0259 y\u00f6n\u0259lmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259liml\u0259 B\u0259yimin toy g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259birsizlikl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. \u0130st\u0259yirdim ki, el\u0259 h\u0259min toy \u0259r\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 S\u0259limd\u0259n qisas\u0131m\u0131 al\u0131m. O, m\u0259ni \u00e7ox sad\u0259l\u00f6vh v\u0259 qorxaq hesab edir, ona ax\u0131rad\u0259k he\u00e7 bir ziyan vurmayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. El\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 tam arxay\u0131nl\u0131qla toyuna haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n is\u0259 \u00f6z i\u015fiml\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful idim. Yen\u0259 yuxar\u0131 sinifl\u0259rd\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan dili v\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131 f\u0259nnind\u0259n d\u0259rs deyir, \u015fagirdl\u0259r\u0259 \u00fclvi, saf m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti v\u0259sf ed\u0259n poeziya v\u0259 n\u0259sr n\u00fcmun\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, onlara s\u00f6z s\u0259n\u0259timizi sevdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, b\u0259dii z\u00f6vq a\u015f\u0131lay\u0131rd\u0131m. Y\u0259qin ki, t\u00f6r\u0259d\u0259c\u0259yim cinay\u0259td\u0259n sonra m\u0259ni sev\u0259n \u015fagirdl\u0259rimin yadda\u015f\u0131nda \u00e7ox t\u0259zadl\u0131, yalan\u00e7\u0131 v\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, qani\u00e7\u0259n adam obraz\u0131 kimi qalacaqd\u0131m. Amma bir s\u0131nanm\u0131\u015f h\u0259qiq\u0259t d\u0259 var: gec-tez h\u0259r \u015fey \u00f6z yerini al\u0131r. Zaman su kimi ax\u0131b gedir, pisl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0131xda\u015f edir, yax\u015f\u0131lar\u0131 duruldub t\u0259miz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn ham\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n q\u0259bul olunan bir hadis\u0259y\u0259, h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 insanlar\u0131n bax\u0131\u015f\u0131 be\u015f il sonra d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259r. Zaman yalanlar\u0131n epoxalara ke\u00e7m\u0259sin\u0259 imkan vermir. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, vaxt g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, m\u0259nim atd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu add\u0131m, y\u0259ni t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyim cinay\u0259t ham\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n birm\u0259nal\u0131 yozulmayacaq. Kim bilir, b\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259n bu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259timl\u0259 S\u0259limin sonralar t\u00f6r\u0259d\u0259c\u0259yi ne\u00e7\u0259 nad\u00fcr\u00fcst \u0259m\u0259linin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, m\u0259n onu qanunla da t\u0259nbeh ed\u0259 bil\u0259rdim, tutdura bil\u0259rdim. Amma bunu el\u0259m\u0259dim. Suda bo\u011fulan saman \u00e7\u00f6p\u00fcnd\u0259n yap\u0131\u015fan kimi, m\u0259n d\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fib, \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 ba\u015f qald\u0131ran hans\u0131sa bir \u00fcmidin istisin\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verirdim. Bir d\u0259 ad\u0131m\u0131n l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259si, i\u015fimi itirm\u0259k qorxusu, ail\u0259mizd\u0259 yaranacaq d\u0259rin sars\u0131nt\u0131lar, atam\u0131n ad\u0131na s\u00f6yl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k t\u0259n\u0259l\u0259r, \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 dolut\u0259k ya\u011facaq iradlar, iftiralar \u0259limi-qolumu ba\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259lim d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 sanki \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n bilirmi\u015f kimi, ciddiy\u0259 almadan, m\u0259suliyy\u0259t da\u015f\u0131madan, “he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131b” fikriyl\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

B\u0259li, S\u0259lim tezlikl\u0259 evl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 kiminl\u0259? B\u00fct\u00fcn hallarda m\u0259nd\u0259n qat-qat a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da dayanan B\u0259yiml\u0259. Niy\u0259? N\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259? B\u0259lk\u0259, atas\u0131n\u0131n Rusiyadan B\u0259yim\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi pullar idi bu g\u0259z\u0259y\u0259n ki\u015fini \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131ran, \u015firnikl\u0259ndir\u0259n?! B\u0259lk\u0259, B\u0259yiml\u0259 intim m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259ri olmu\u015fdu, o da y\u0259qin S\u0259limi polisl\u0259 qorxudurdu. El\u0259 bu \u00fczd\u0259n S\u0259lim onunla evl\u0259nm\u0259kd\u0259n vaz ke\u00e7m\u0259zdi. B\u0259li, suallar \u00e7ox idi v\u0259 bu suallar k\u0259ndd\u0259 ild\u0131r\u0131m s\u00fcr\u0259tiyl\u0259 dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259limin toyuna \u00fc\u00e7c\u0259 g\u00fcn qal\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259yimin atas\u0131 Fariz Samaradan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 dostu il\u0259, h\u0259m\u00e7inin nikahl\u0131 arvad\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015fay\u0131b evl\u0259ndiyi Mariya adl\u0131 sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n, ucaboylu rus qad\u0131nla g\u0259lmi\u015fdi k\u0259nd\u0259. Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 toya b\u00f6y\u00fck haz\u0131rl\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Fariz b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u00e7kil\u0259ri Samaradan al\u0131b g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. Toyun yax\u015f\u0131 ke\u00e7m\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Bak\u0131dak\u0131 \u0259n m\u0259\u015fhur m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nnil\u0259rl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b, onlara beh d\u0259 vermi\u015fdi. \u00c7ox t\u0259nt\u0259n\u0259li bir toy g\u00f6zl\u0259nilirdi.<\/p>\n

…K\u0259nd\u0259 qaranl\u0131q \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fc. M\u0259n evd\u0259 t\u0259k idim. Atam t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 \u0259sg\u0259rlikd\u0259n qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015f qarda\u015f\u0131 o\u011flunu g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn anam\u0131 da, Seymuru da g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb qon\u015fu k\u0259nd\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Bilirdim ki, gec g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. \u00c7\u00fcnki atam mobil telefonla z\u0259ng vurub m\u0259n\u0259 demi\u015fdi ki, “qap\u0131lar\u0131 ba\u011fla, \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 evd\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma. Biz burda gec\u0259l\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik, qay\u0131dark\u0259n m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259c\u0259m”.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259c\u0259, ar\u0131n-arxay\u0131n idim. H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki iri ot tayas\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 d\u0259rin bir \u00e7ala qazd\u0131m. Vaxt itirm\u0259d\u0259n, qan-t\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdim. Sonra \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259 S\u0259lim\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 z\u0259ng el\u0259dim, amma ondan cavab g\u0259lm\u0259di. Ona mesaj g\u00f6nd\u0259rdim: “Evd\u0259 t\u0259k\u0259m, he\u00e7 kim yoxdur. G\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259k. Narahat olma, art\u0131q m\u0259n taleyiml\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. Qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q olacaq. Yata\u011f\u0131mda uzan\u0131b s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m”.<\/p>\n

Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n sonra S\u0259limd\u0259n mesaj g\u0259ldi:<\/p>\n

“Bilir\u0259m, m\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevirs\u0259n. M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m. G\u0259lir\u0259m, g\u00f6zl\u0259”.<\/p>\n

Tez gedib darvazan\u0131n ki\u00e7ik qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131m. Bilirdim, S\u0259lim g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, m\u00fctl\u0259q g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. \u00c7\u00fcnki onun m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259cav\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc indiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131b-a\u011fartmadan, he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n, bir sirr olaraq m\u00fcbh\u0259m saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Bu \u00fczd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 inan\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 \u00e7ox arxay\u0131n idi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131m\u0131z a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. \u018fyilib p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin lap q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndan p\u0259rd\u0259ni aralay\u0131b qap\u0131ya baxd\u0131m. S\u0259lim idi. O, h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 girib ehtiyatla sa\u011fa-sola boyland\u0131, ev\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f ir\u0259lil\u0259di. M\u0259n tez qa\u00e7\u0131b ota\u011f\u0131ma girdim. \u00c7arpay\u0131ma yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yin ucunu qald\u0131rd\u0131m. \u0130ti \u0259t b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 yerind\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

\u0130p\u0259k xalat\u0131m\u0131 soyunub yer\u0259 atd\u0131m. Gec\u0259 k\u00f6yn\u0259yind\u0259 \u00e7arpay\u0131ya uzand\u0131m. Ota\u011f\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yan\u0131l\u0131 oldu\u011fundan S\u0259lim birba\u015fa \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lan yer\u0259 asanl\u0131qla g\u0259lib gir\u0259 bildi. O, he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n, t\u0259l\u0259m-t\u0259l\u0259sik paltar\u0131n\u0131 soyunub ota\u011f\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Yan\u0131mda uzan\u0131b, m\u0259ni b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk \u00f6pm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. \u018fhval\u0131 g\u00f6yl\u0259 gedirdi. H\u0259min d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 d\u00fcnya S\u0259limin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 q\u00f6vsi-q\u00fczeh r\u0259ngind\u0259ydi. \u0130\u00e7mi\u015fdi, s\u0259rxo\u015f idi, a\u011fz\u0131ndan araq iyi g\u0259lirdi. El\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259nib, onu q\u0259tl\u0259 yetir\u0259c\u0259yim\u0259 tam \u0259min oldum. Ehtiyatla sa\u011f \u0259limi d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yin alt\u0131na sald\u0131m, b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 ordan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b var q\u00fcvv\u0259ml\u0259 S\u0259limin sol qab\u0131r\u011fas\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndak\u0131 bo\u015flu\u011fa sancd\u0131m. O, q\u0259fil b\u0131\u00e7aq z\u0259rb\u0259sind\u0259n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259lini z\u0259rbl\u0259 sif\u0259tim\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131. S\u0259limin b\u0259d\u0259nimi m\u0259ng\u0259n\u0259t\u0259k s\u0131xan qollar\u0131ndan birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b evin arxas\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7d\u0131m. O, g\u00fcc-b\u0259la il\u0259, x\u0131r\u0131ldaya-x\u0131r\u0131ldaya arxamca g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259 qazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7alan\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. O, \u00e7alaya \u00e7atanda is\u0259 m\u0259n art\u0131q orada yox idim. Lap yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 su \u00e7\u0259ninin arxas\u0131nda gizl\u0259nib onun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rini izl\u0259yirdim. Hiss edirdim ki, o, \u00e7ox qan itirdiyind\u0259n getdikc\u0259 z\u0259ifl\u0259yir. \u018flini qarn\u0131na tutub, ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 g\u00fccl\u0259 dayanaraq, qaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f quyuya bax\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bil m\u0259ni orada axtar\u0131rd\u0131. Onun \u0259lind\u0259n qurtulanda ba\u015fmaqlar\u0131m\u0131 unudub, h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 ayaqyal\u0131n qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Yava\u015f-yava\u015f, s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz S\u0259lim\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b onun arxas\u0131nda dayand\u0131m. O, gec\u0259nin s\u0259ssizliyind\u0259 h\u0259nirtimi, n\u0259f\u0259simi duyub, m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evrildi. Bir an \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259, g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u0259 qald\u0131q. Onun r\u0259ngi a\u011farm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 g\u00fccl\u0259 dayan\u0131rd\u0131. Z\u0259if s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

“Toyum qald\u0131. Evl\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Axx, s\u0259ni \u015feytan! Axx, s\u0259ni iblis! S\u0259nin var-yoxunu…” – deyib m\u0259ni \u0259d\u0259li-d\u0259d\u0259li s\u00f6yd\u00fc v\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini qarn\u0131ndan aralay\u0131b bo\u011faz\u0131mdan yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n \u0259limd\u0259ki qanl\u0131 b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 t\u0259krar onun qarn\u0131na sancd\u0131m. S\u0259limin \u0259ll\u0259ri bo\u015fald\u0131, m\u0259n onu z\u0259rbl\u0259 sin\u0259sind\u0259n it\u0259l\u0259yib quyuya sald\u0131m. S\u0259lim vurnuxur, d\u0259rin \u00e7aladan \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Amma c\u0259hdi \u0259b\u0259s idi, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t el\u0259dikc\u0259 qan\u0131 bir az da s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 ax\u0131rd\u0131. O, x\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259, q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q dedi:<\/p>\n

– M\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259… Yalvar\u0131ram, \u00e7\u0131xart burdan.<\/p>\n

– Art\u0131q gecdir, – dedim.<\/p>\n

T\u00f6r\u0259tdiyim q\u0259tlin yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 stress b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudumu sarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Daha qans\u0131z, amans\u0131z olmu\u015fdum. Su \u00e7\u0259nin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259diyim beli g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb S\u0259limin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 torpaq atma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. O, \u00e7abalay\u0131r, aya\u011fa qalxma\u011fa c\u0259hd edirdi. Amma al\u0131nm\u0131rd\u0131, \u00e7oxlu qan itirmi\u015fdi. M\u0259n qalaqlanm\u0131\u015f torpa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7alaya atd\u0131qca o, bir az da g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z olurdu. Amma h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259nirdi v\u0259 m\u0259n bird\u0259n nec\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli bir cinay\u0259t t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyimin f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131m. Dizl\u0259rimi yer\u0259 qoyub, \u0259liml\u0259 torpa\u011f\u0131 onun sif\u0259tind\u0259n k\u0259nara atma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Eyb\u0259c\u0259r hala d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Amma, do\u011frudan da, gec idi. O, art\u0131q \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

S\u0259limi torpa\u011fa basd\u0131rd\u0131m. \u0130zi itirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ot tayas\u0131n\u0131 da \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 y\u0131\u011fd\u0131m. H\u0259y\u0259can, t\u0259\u015fvi\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259 olsam da, ota\u011fa v\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f qan l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259rini \u00e7ox diqq\u0259tl\u0259 t\u0259mizl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. S\u0259limi vurdu\u011fum b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n qan\u0131n\u0131 yuyub m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 yerin\u0259 qoydum. Atam\u0131n iri \u00e7\u00f6l f\u0259n\u0259rini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb yand\u0131rd\u0131m. H\u0259y\u0259t-bacan\u0131 t\u0259krar-t\u0259krar yoxlad\u0131m. Yoxlad\u0131m ki, bu cinay\u0259td\u0259n iyn\u0259nin ucu q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259lam\u0259t qalmas\u0131n. H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n tam arxay\u0131n olandan sonra f\u0259n\u0259ri nec\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcms\u0259, apar\u0131b yerin\u0259 – atam\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131na qoydum.<\/p>\n

P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayan\u0131b darvazam\u0131za baxd\u0131m. Yeriy\u0259nd\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fqan\u0131 bel\u0259 tapday\u0131b ke\u00e7m\u0259yi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 r\u0259va bilm\u0259y\u0259n, daim haqq\u0131n t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 dayanan, d\u0259rs ver\u0259n, t\u0259rbiy\u0259l\u0259ndir\u0259n m\u00fc\u0259llim indi adam \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Q\u0259tl\u0259 yetiril\u0259n, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, pay\u0131n\u0131 alan adam is\u0259 bir saat \u00f6nc\u0259 qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q darvazadan i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7ib m\u0259niml\u0259 sevgi anlar\u0131 ya\u015famaq, sonra da he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f kimi, arxay\u0131nca \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k, oz\u00fcn\u0259 toy \u00e7ald\u0131rmaq, ba\u015fqas\u0131yla evl\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015fdi. Amma “s\u0259n sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 say, g\u00f6r f\u0259l\u0259k n\u0259 say\u0131r”.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n iki-\u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra bu k\u0259ndd\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259r ba\u015f ver\u0259c\u0259yini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. N\u0259l\u0259r olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tirib d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lirdim. H\u0259tta bu i\u015fin \u00fcst\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lsa, m\u0259ni tutsalar bel\u0259, bilirdim ki, pe\u015fman olmayacam. \u018fslind\u0259, pe\u015fman olmaqdan ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi art\u0131q. M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00f6z g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 r\u0259hmsiz, qani\u00e7\u0259n adam kimiydim. Amma bir t\u0259s\u0259llim vard\u0131: adaml\u0131qda haqq\u0131 olmayan birisinin ba\u015f\u0131 \u0259zilmi\u015fdi. O h\u0259m d\u0259 z\u0259h\u0259rli ilan idi. \u018fks t\u0259qdird\u0259, o ilan h\u0259l\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fcnahs\u0131z adam\u0131 z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259limin yoxa \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131 t\u0259kc\u0259 Ya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131da deyil, b\u00fct\u00fcn rayonda \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259s-k\u00fcy yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. K\u00fcncd\u0259-bucaqda, yolda-rizd\u0259, \u00e7ayxanada s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rin g\u00fcnd\u0259lik m\u00f6vzusu S\u0259lim idi. Bu hadis\u0259y\u0259 yana\u015fmalar da birm\u0259nal\u0131 deyildi. Vaxt ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 h\u0259min hadis\u0259 il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 durum daha da m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259bl\u0259\u015firdi.<\/p>\n

\u018fn b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u0259rginlik polisin i\u015f\u0259 m\u00fcdaxil\u0259sind\u0259n sonra yarand\u0131. Sor\u011fu-suallar ba\u015flad\u0131. Rayon polis \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n m\u00fcst\u0259ntiq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn k\u0259nd b\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259sinin binas\u0131nda x\u00fcsusi otaq ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ki\u015fili-qad\u0131nl\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn sakinl\u0259r orada dindirilirdi. \u0130stintaq ba\u015fa \u00e7atana q\u0259d\u0259r camaat\u0131n k\u0259ndd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131na qada\u011fa qoyulmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

B\u0259y itdiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 toy t\u0259xir\u0259 sal\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu i\u015fd\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox sars\u0131nt\u0131 ke\u00e7ir\u0259n, \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015f\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn dediyi kimi, “on ild\u0259n sonra bu k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259yin\u0259 it kimi pe\u015fman olan” Fariz idi. \u00c7\u00fcnki onunla bir yerd\u0259 Samaradan toya g\u0259l\u0259n curlar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc x\u0259cal\u0259tli say\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0259rib\u0259 idi ki, m\u00fcst\u0259ntiqin \u0259n \u00e7ox sor\u011fu-sual etdiyi \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259r d\u0259 b\u0259lli idi: Fariz v\u0259 onunla k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n dostlar\u0131. Ba\u015f ver\u0259n hadis\u0259 \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259s-k\u00fcy, s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan x\u00fcsusi n\u0259zar\u0259t\u0259 al\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. K\u0259nd adamlar\u0131 t\u0259\u015fvi\u015fd\u0259 idi: bu i\u015fin nec\u0259 qurtaraca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, kimin ba\u015f\u0131nda \u00e7atlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259canla g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

S\u0259lim tap\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131 ki, tap\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131. O itmi\u015fdi, \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, yoxsa o\u011furlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, bunu bil\u0259n yox idi. Birc\u0259 m\u0259n, yaln\u0131z m\u0259n bilirdim \u0259sl h\u0259qiq\u0259ti! Onu m\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm v\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259lik m\u0259nd\u0259n he\u00e7 kim \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nmirdi. He\u00e7 m\u0259ni istintaqa da \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmad\u0131lar. Adamlar \u0259n \u00e7ox S\u0259limin o\u011furlanmas\u0131 fikrind\u0259 dayan\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki Farizin \u00e7oxlu pulu var idi v\u0259 bu yolla ondan pul qoparmaq versiyas\u0131, do\u011frudan da, a\u011flabatan idi. Bu sayaq o\u011furluqlar ba\u015fqa \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 daha \u00e7ox ba\u015f verdiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, m\u0259hz \u0259n \u00e7ox dindiril\u0259n d\u0259 Farizin Samaradan g\u0259l\u0259n dostlar\u0131 idi. S\u0259limin gec d\u0259 olsa, qeyr\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lib, y\u00fcng\u00fcl \u0259xlaql\u0131 bir qad\u0131ndan qa\u00e7\u0131b uzaqla\u015fmas\u0131 fikri d\u0259 adamlar aras\u0131nda hallan\u0131rd\u0131. M\u00fcst\u0259ntiqin i\u015fi g\u00fcnd\u0259n-g\u00fcn\u0259 daha da \u00e7\u0259tinl\u0259\u015firdi. Bir aydan \u00e7ox m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 axtar\u0131\u015fda olan S\u0259lim sanki “ya\u011fl\u0131 \u0259pp\u0259k olub, g\u00f6y\u0259 buxarlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131”.<\/p>\n

Bizim evd\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn bu m\u00f6vzuda s\u00f6hb\u0259t gedirdi. Anam k\u0259ndin q\u0131z-g\u0259linl\u0259rind\u0259n, atam is\u0259 ki\u015fil\u0259rin s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259tind\u0259n e\u015fitdikl\u0259rini g\u0259lib evd\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bir x\u0259b\u0259r d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131zdan-a\u011f\u0131za dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131: S\u0259lim \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259nd\u0259n iki ay sonra B\u0259yim Samaraya yollanaraq, atas\u0131n\u0131n Robert adl\u0131 k\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7isin\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 gedib.<\/p>\n

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Bir ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00fcnorta vaxt\u0131 atam\u0131n g\u0259tirdiyi x\u0259b\u0259r i\u00e7imd\u0259 rahats\u0131zl\u0131q yaratd\u0131. O, ev\u0259 nahar el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, \u00e7ox fikirli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Atam \u0259ll\u0259rini yuyub, s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 anam onun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na yem\u0259k qoyub soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 olub, ay S\u0259m\u0259d, niy\u0259 bel\u0259 dilxorsan?<\/p>\n

Atam bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t cavab verm\u0259di. \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259yi tik\u0259l\u0259yib \u015forba dolu bo\u015fqaba t\u00f6kd\u00fc. \u015eorbadan iki qa\u015f\u0131q yedi v\u0259 salfet g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 sildi. Sonra d\u0259rind\u0259n k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb dedi:<\/p>\n

– H\u0259y\u0259tl\u0259ri axtaracaqlar. Polis deyir ki, S\u0259lim it\u0259n g\u00fcn k\u0259ndd\u0259n k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131b. Ona n\u0259 olubsa, bu k\u0259ndd\u0259 olub. Odur ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn evl\u0259rd\u0259, h\u0259y\u0259t-bacalarda yoxlama aparacaqlar.<\/p>\n

Anam bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri e\u015fitc\u0259k:<\/p>\n

– Yoxlas\u0131nlar da. Biz niy\u0259 narahat olmal\u0131y\u0131q? Ma\u015fallah, aydan ar\u0131y\u0131q, sudan duru.<\/p>\n

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– M\u0259nim k\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7il\u0259rim var ee… iki qarda\u015f – Valehl\u0259 V\u0259li, onlar\u0131 da apar\u0131blar polis\u0259, – deyib aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan?! Onlar\u0131 niy\u0259? – Anam t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 atama bax\u0131b ondan cavab g\u00f6zl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

– Son ill\u0259r S\u0259limin kiml\u0259rl\u0259 s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259ti, davas\u0131 olub, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 apar\u0131rlar dindirm\u0259y\u0259… Birc\u0259 bu i\u015f a\u00e7\u0131lsayd\u0131, camaat\u0131n can\u0131 dinc\u0259l\u0259rdi, – deyib ota\u011f\u0131na getdi.<\/p>\n

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M\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259ni h\u0259y\u0259canla ke\u00e7irdim. S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 d\u0259 olsun g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yuma bilm\u0259dim. “Y\u0259qin bizim h\u0259y\u0259ti d\u0259 yoxlayacaqlar. Onda nec\u0259 olacaq? M\u0259nim h\u0259r \u015feyi etiraf etm\u0259kd\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir \u0259lac\u0131m qalmayacaq. Bu da \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck biab\u0131r\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011fa g\u0259tirib \u00e7\u0131xaracaq”, – dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Amma \u00fcr\u0259yimin lap d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 bir rahatl\u0131q, bir t\u0259s\u0259lli d\u0259 var idi. M\u0259n n\u0259y\u0259s\u0259 arxay\u0131n idim el\u0259 bil.<\/p>\n

Ert\u0259si g\u00fcn bir qrup polis i\u015f\u00e7isi x\u00fcsusi \u00f6yr\u0259dilmi\u015f itl\u0259rl\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259ki evl\u0259ri, h\u0259y\u0259tl\u0259ri yoxlama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Onlar qon\u015fuda yoxlama apar\u0131b, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 boyunca ir\u0259lil\u0259yir, bizim ev\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. M\u0259n evimizin eyvan\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, i\u00e7im\u0259 bir qorxu dolmu\u015fdu. Evd\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kim yox idi. Atam k\u0259ndimizin “yuxar\u0131 m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259” deyil\u0259n hiss\u0259sind\u0259 ev tikirdi. H\u0259min g\u00fcn anam evimizd\u0259n bir q\u0259d\u0259r aral\u0131dak\u0131 torpaq sah\u0259mizd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. Qarda\u015f\u0131m Seymur is\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259n s\u0259s g\u0259ldi:<\/p>\n

– Bu kimin evidir?<\/p>\n

Tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu s\u0259sd\u0259n sanki \u00fcr\u0259yim \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– Usta S\u0259m\u0259din evidir, r\u0259is.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u0259si tan\u0131d\u0131m. K\u0259nd b\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259sinin s\u0259dri Kamilin s\u0259si idi.<\/p>\n

Kamil atam\u0131 t\u0259rifl\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– \u00c7ox n\u0259cib, xeyirxah adamd\u0131. K\u0259ndd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fc-ki\u00e7ikli ham\u0131 ona h\u00f6rm\u0259t el\u0259yir. Tikdiyi ev\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00f6z ola bilm\u0259z, top vursan, da\u011f\u0131lmaz.<\/p>\n

– Ail\u0259d\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259rdil\u0259r? – mayor soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

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– H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 G\u00fcls\u00fcm xala, q\u0131z\u0131 L\u0259man, o\u011flu Seymur, bir d\u0259 S\u0259m\u0259d day\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc – d\u00f6rd n\u0259f\u0259r!<\/p>\n

Mayor yenid\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r ald\u0131:<\/p>\n

– O\u011flunun ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131 var?<\/p>\n

– On d\u00f6rd. M\u0259kt\u0259bimizd\u0259 oxuyur, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u0259la\u00e7\u0131d\u0131r. L\u0259man is\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259dir, ham\u0131 onun x\u0259trini \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir, – dey\u0259 Kamil cavab verdi.<\/p>\n

Mayor uca s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, buran\u0131 yoxlamasaq da olar. Vaxt\u0131m\u0131z da azd\u0131. Bir d\u0259 biz\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131blar ki, \u0259sas\u0259n \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259ndiyiniz adamlar\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tin\u0259 bax\u0131\u015f ke\u00e7irin.<\/p>\n

Kamil onunla raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 deyir\u0259m, siz nec\u0259 ist\u0259s\u0259niz, el\u0259 d\u0259 olsun.<\/p>\n

Onlar yollar\u0131na davam edib, qon\u015fu h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 ke\u00e7dil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n bel\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, Kamilin “mayor” dey\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t el\u0259diyi adam S\u0259limin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 yarad\u0131lm\u0131\u015f axtar\u0131\u015f qrupunun r\u0259hb\u0259ridir. \u018fm\u0259liyyat d\u0259st\u0259si bizim evd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131qca, \u00fcr\u0259yim yava\u015f-yava\u015f yerin\u0259 g\u0259lirdi. Amma narahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131m tam ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259 yenid\u0259n qay\u0131d\u0131b biz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259rdil\u0259r. Amma n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki g\u0259lm\u0259dil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

G\u0259rginlikd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rim tar\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. Bir az \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259lim dey\u0259, yata\u011f\u0131ma uzand\u0131m. Yerim\u0259 gir\u0259n kimi yuxu m\u0259ni apard\u0131.<\/p>\n

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G\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7irdi v\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn bir az da q\u0259lizl\u0259\u015firdi k\u0259ndd\u0259ki ab-hava. Sakinl\u0259rin dincliyi b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn pozulmu\u015fdu. Adamlar bir-birind\u0259n m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259beh g\u0259zir, h\u0259r k\u0259s kimd\u0259ns\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nirdi. K\u0259ndd\u0259 polis\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lmayan adam qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Farizd\u0259n v\u0259 onunla birg\u0259 Samaradan g\u0259l\u0259n dostlar\u0131ndan xarici v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f olduqlar\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 izahat al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, mobil telefonlar\u0131n\u0131n n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259ri qeyd olunmu\u015fdu. Yaln\u0131z bundan sonra onlar\u0131n Rusiyaya qay\u0131tmalar\u0131na icaz\u0259 verilmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Amma k\u0259ndd\u0259 Valeh v\u0259 V\u0259li qarda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131, el\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259, S\u0259liml\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 pis m\u00fcnasib\u0259td\u0259 olan dig\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7 n\u0259f\u0259ri polis g\u00f6z alt\u0131na alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t g\u0259zirdi ki, bu hadis\u0259 bir n\u0259f\u0259rin yox, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259rin qrup hal\u0131nda t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyi a\u011f\u0131r cinay\u0259t\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131r. Haqs\u0131z tutulan, saxlan\u0131lan adamlara g\u00f6r\u0259 k\u0259nd camaat\u0131 il\u0259 polis aras\u0131nda naraz\u0131l\u0131q yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, h\u0259r iki t\u0259r\u0259fi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k olard\u0131. Y\u0259ni, polis cinay\u0259tin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn variantlardan yararlan\u0131r, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259li g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n adamlar\u0131 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox cans\u0131x\u0131c\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259zabla dolu g\u00fcnl\u0259r ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131m. \u018ftraf\u0131mda m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 yaranm\u0131\u015f anla\u015f\u0131lmazl\u0131q, sars\u0131nt\u0131lar, stressl\u0259r, \u0259s\u0259b, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 v\u0259 ya\u011fd\u0131r\u0131lan qar\u011f\u0131\u015flar b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd sakinl\u0259rinin rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 pozmu\u015fdu. Hiss edirdim ki, psixoloji b\u00f6hran ke\u00e7irir\u0259m. N\u0259 evd\u0259, n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al\u0131b, g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc normal ba\u015fa vura bilmirdim. Yuxum \u0259r\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi, bu da m\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fc ba\u015f a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130\u015ftah\u0131m k\u0259silmi\u015fdi, ar\u0131qlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Tez-tez g\u00f6zl\u0259rim qaral\u0131rd\u0131. Evd\u0259 ham\u0131, \u0259n \u00e7ox da anam s\u0259b\u0259bini bilm\u0259d\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. “Yaz\u0131q balam g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda \u015fam kimi \u0259riyir”, – deyirdi. Atam bir g\u00fcn ax\u015fam i\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259lib m\u0259niml\u0259 hal-\u0259hval tutandan sonra anama sakitc\u0259: “Bu q\u0131z h\u0259r g\u00fcn geri gedir. Sabah onu rayona, h\u0259kim\u0259 aparacam”, – dedi. M\u0259n anam\u0131n doluxsundu\u011funu, sonra yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 silib, d\u0259rin bir ah \u00e7\u0259kdiyini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm v\u0259 \u00e7ox pis oldum.<\/p>\n

Rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zi x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131nda bir saatl\u0131q m\u00fcayin\u0259d\u0259n sonra h\u0259kiml\u0259r q\u0259rara g\u0259ldil\u0259r ki, m\u0259n m\u00fctl\u0259q stasionarda qalmal\u0131, \u0259n az\u0131 on g\u00fcn m\u00fcalic\u0259 almal\u0131yam. Atam \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 raz\u0131 olmad\u0131. Amma tibb i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259ri v\u0259ziyy\u0259tin \u00e7ox ciddi oldu\u011funu ba\u015fa salandan sonra o, x\u0259st\u0259xanada qalma\u011f\u0131ma raz\u0131l\u0131q verdi.<\/p>\n

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H\u0259kiml\u0259r m\u0259ni ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259, t\u0259kadaml\u0131q palatada yerl\u0259\u015fdirdil\u0259r. Atam sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b ayr\u0131landa g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu. Birinci d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, atam\u0131 bu q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0259mli g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. O, iri, qabarl\u0131 \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 m\u0259ni qucaqlay\u0131b: “\u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n mu\u011fayat ol”, – dedi. Sonra g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxd\u0131. El\u0259 bil \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 damm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, biz bir daha g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik. O, m\u0259ni \u00f6p\u00fcb palatadan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri en\u0259nd\u0259 onun add\u0131m s\u0259sl\u0259rini e\u015fidirdim. Atam ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc uzaq, \u00e7ox uzaq, m\u0259n\u0259 yad olan adamlar\u0131n aras\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f bir q\u0259rib kimi hiss el\u0259dim. A\u011flamaq, h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flamaq ist\u0259yirdim. Ax\u0131, niy\u0259? N\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259nim ba\u015f\u0131ma bu m\u00fcsib\u0259t g\u0259lm\u0259li idi? D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, lap m\u0259n olmay\u0131m, yerimd\u0259 bir ba\u015fqas\u0131 olsun, ata-anan\u0131n min bir \u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcb t\u0259rbiy\u0259 el\u0259diyi, \u0259rs\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259tirdiyi, ham\u0131ya n\u00fcmun\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259ril\u0259n bir q\u0131z niy\u0259 hans\u0131sa bir murdar\u0131n, manyak\u0131n qurban\u0131 olmal\u0131d\u0131r? Niy\u0259 insanlar bu q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259rginlik, h\u0259y\u0259can ya\u015famal\u0131d\u0131r?<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n anam g\u0259ldi. O, m\u0259n\u0259 meyv\u0259, x\u00f6r\u0259k v\u0259 \u00f6z \u0259liml\u0259 ba\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m heyva kompotu g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. M\u0259n i\u015ftahla x\u00f6r\u0259yi yeyib, kompotu a\u00e7\u0131b i\u00e7dim. Xo\u015f bir ovqat yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, k\u0259ndd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131m, s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131dan, h\u0259r c\u00fcr \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcd\u0259n bir q\u0259d\u0259r k\u0259nar olma\u011f\u0131m s\u0259hh\u0259tim\u0259 m\u00fcsb\u0259t t\u0259sirini g\u00f6st\u0259rmi\u015fdi. Palatada xeyli yan\u0131mda qalan anam aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– K\u0259nd da\u011f\u0131l\u0131r, d\u00fcn\u0259n iki n\u0259f\u0259ri d\u0259 apard\u0131lar. Yax\u015f\u0131, q\u0131z\u0131m, m\u0259n gedim. Ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 avtobusun \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131na az qal\u0131b, – dedi v\u0259 m\u0259nl\u0259 sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b getdi.<\/p>\n

T\u0259miz, saf adamlar he\u00e7 vaxt \u00e7amurda qala bilm\u0259zl\u0259r, ya bu durumdan qurtulur, ya da bat\u0131b yox olurlar. M\u0259n d\u0259 bel\u0259 bir v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 idim, \u00e7irkabdan xilas olmal\u0131yd\u0131m, \u00e7\u0131xmal\u0131yd\u0131m. M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin olsa bel\u0259, m\u00fctl\u0259q \u00e7\u0131xmal\u0131yd\u0131m. B\u00fct\u00fcn sars\u0131nt\u0131lara, \u00e7\u0259kdiyim iztirablara tezlikl\u0259 n\u00f6qt\u0259 qoymal\u0131yd\u0131m. \u018fks halda, m\u0259n d\u0259lixanaya d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r halda, haqq-nahaq, m\u0259n bu cinay\u0259ti t\u00f6r\u0259tmi\u015fdim v\u0259 qanunla c\u0259zam\u0131 almal\u0131yd\u0131m. G\u00fcnahs\u0131z adamlar\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 \u0259zab-\u0259ziyy\u0259ti he\u00e7 vaxt \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bilm\u0259zdim.<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259ni birt\u0259h\u0259r ke\u00e7irdim, s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n durub yem\u0259yimi yedim. Market\u0259 getm\u0259k b\u0259han\u0259si il\u0259 paltar\u0131m\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib x\u0259st\u0259xanadan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Qar\u015f\u0131 s\u0259kid\u0259 ilk g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n taksiy\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m, arxa qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdim. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc m\u0259ni g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259n s\u00fcz\u0259r\u0259k soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

– Hara ged\u0259c\u0259ksiz?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r:<\/p>\n

– Polis \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sin\u0259, – dedim.<\/p>\n

Ma\u015f\u0131n yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259ndi. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131b d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm: bu da ax\u0131r\u0131, bu da son. Oxudu\u011fum \u00e7oxsayl\u0131 kitablardan bir h\u0259qiq\u0259ti d\u0259 \u00e7ox ayd\u0131n d\u0259rk el\u0259mi\u015fdim. H\u0259yat yollar\u0131nda b\u00fcdr\u0259yib y\u0131x\u0131lmaq o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 faci\u0259li deyil. \u018fn \u00f6n\u0259mlisi y\u0131x\u0131landa aya\u011fa qalxmaq v\u0259 yoluna davam etm\u0259k bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, layiq olana \u00fcr\u0259yimi ver\u0259r\u0259m, layiq olmayana yoxlu\u011fumu. Anlayanla dost oldum h\u0259r zaman. “Kims\u0259ni q\u0131rmay\u0131m, incitm\u0259yim” dey\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 mesaj ver\u0259rdim. Kims\u0259y\u0259 boyun \u0259ym\u0259dim, he\u00e7 kim\u0259 haqs\u0131zl\u0131q etm\u0259dim. Sad\u0259c\u0259 insanlara h\u0259dd\u0259n art\u0131q g\u00fcv\u0259ndim v\u0259 bu \u00fczd\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015fey itirdim. Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm param-par\u00e7ayam.<\/p>\n

Anam m\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259rdi ki, insanlar s\u0259ni tan\u0131mad\u0131sa, bundan narahat olma. S\u0259n insanlar\u0131 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn narahat ol. Do\u011fru deyirmi\u015f anam.<\/p>\n

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