{"id":52686,"date":"2025-09-17T08:04:49","date_gmt":"2025-09-17T04:04:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/?p=52686"},"modified":"2025-09-17T08:04:49","modified_gmt":"2025-09-17T04:04:49","slug":"arabadaki-adam-zemfira-meherremli-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/?p=52686","title":{"rendered":"Arabadak\u0131 adam – Zemfira M\u018fH\u018fRR\u018fML\u0130"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Bir d\u0259f\u0259 biz Maralg\u00f6l\u0259 ekskursiyaya gedirdik. G\u00fclg\u0259z avtobusda m\u0259nim yan\u0131mda oturmu\u015fdu. Biz \u015fairl\u0259r, nasirl\u0259r, Nobel\u00e7i \u0259d\u0259biyyat adamlar\u0131 haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q. S\u00f6hb\u0259timiz o d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 maraql\u0131 idi ki, qon\u015fu oturacaqdak\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259nib biz\u0259 qo\u015fulmu\u015fdular. Biz Maralg\u00f6ld\u0259 d\u0259 G\u00fclg\u0259zl\u0259 bir g\u0259zir, bu yerl\u0259rin havas\u0131ndan, suyundan, \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259ri sakitl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n ecazkar g\u00f6z\u0259lliyind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q. Amma aram\u0131zda bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun sevgid\u0259n s\u00f6z d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdi. H\u0259tta \u015fairl\u0259rin sevgi \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259n yox, onlar\u0131n ictimai-sosial m\u00f6vzulu v\u0259 t\u0259bi\u0259t haqq\u0131nda yazd\u0131qlar\u0131 \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259r bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q. M\u0259n iyn\u0259nin ucu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 olsun, G\u00fclg\u0259zin m\u0259n\u0259 sevgisini hiss el\u0259mirdim.<\/p>\n

Halbuki G\u00fclg\u0259z bir d\u0259f\u0259 r\u0259fiq\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 “m\u0259n ham\u0131ya Seymuru sevdiyimi s\u00f6yl\u0259yir\u0259m, amma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bildirm\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259tim \u00e7atm\u0131r, o is\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 demir”, s\u00f6yl\u0259mi\u015fdi. M\u0259n bunun d\u0259qiq oldu\u011funu bil\u0259nd\u0259n sonra q\u0259rara g\u0259ldim ki, m\u00fctl\u0259q onunla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259yim. Amma fikrimd\u0259n vaz ke\u00e7dim. Fikirl\u0259\u015fdim ki, bu bar\u0259d\u0259 soru\u015fmaq ki\u015fiy\u0259 yara\u015fan h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t deyil. El\u0259 d\u00fcz fikirl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdim. Ax\u0131, burda pis n\u0259 var? H\u0259r bir adam kimi is\u0259 sev\u0259 bil\u0259r. Bir d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 G\u00fclg\u0259z bel\u0259 dem\u0259kl\u0259, onu narahat el\u0259y\u0259n \u00e7oxsayl\u0131 na\u00e7ar “a\u015fiql\u0259r ordusu”nu \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259nim ad\u0131mdan yararlanmaq ist\u0259yir?!<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015fey m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259lum oldu. Biz onunla universitetin kitabxanas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xanda t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n rastla\u015fd\u0131q v\u0259 yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 parka getdik. G\u0259zi\u015fdik, s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259dik. \u018fhval\u0131n\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131 olmas\u0131ndan \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259nib G\u00fclg\u0259z\u0259 dedim:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 q\u0131zsan. H\u0259m zahir\u0259n, h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259viyyatca \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n. T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 dostlar\u0131m\u0131z aras\u0131nda s\u0259ninl\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259k, ail\u0259 qurmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259rin say\u0131 da \u00e7oxdu. Amma e\u015fitdiyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, ham\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259klifini r\u0259dd el\u0259yirs\u0259n. N\u0259 \u0259c\u0259b? He\u00e7 kim s\u0259nin xo\u015funa g\u0259lmir?<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bil \u00fcst\u00fcmd\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r bir y\u00fck g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc. \u018fslind\u0259 bel\u0259 bir sual\u0131 m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt verm\u0259zdim h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir qad\u0131na, q\u0131za. Amma ad\u0131m bu m\u00f6vzuda hallan\u0131rsa, bunun da s\u0259b\u0259bkar\u0131 el\u0259 G\u00fclg\u0259zin \u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fcrs\u0259, m\u0259nim verdiyim sualda da bir m\u0259ntiq vard\u0131. G\u00fclg\u0259z ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yer\u0259 dikmi\u015fdi, he\u00e7 n\u0259 demirdi. Sif\u0259tin\u0259 azac\u0131q q\u0131zart\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. M\u0259n d\u0259 susub dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, dan\u0131\u015fsam, dilim topuq vuracaq. S\u00f6hb\u0259tin y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc bu c\u00fcr d\u0259yi\u015fdiyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 i\u00e7imd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131nay\u0131r, danlay\u0131rd\u0131m. Amma gec idi, ox yay\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n soru\u015fmu\u015fdum v\u0259 t\u0259bii, cavab almaq ist\u0259yirdim.<\/p>\n

– Nec\u0259 ola bil\u0259r ki, s\u0259nin \u00fcr\u0259yini bir n\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 olsun ram ed\u0259 bilmir? – dey\u0259 m\u0259n t\u0259krar soru\u015fdum v\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim.<\/p>\n

G\u00fclg\u0259z ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r qald\u0131r\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 baxd\u0131. O susub durmu\u015fdu. M\u0259n birinci d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, onun g\u00f6z\u0259lliyinin, \u015firinliyinin, bu q\u0259d\u0259r yap\u0131\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 olmas\u0131n\u0131n f\u0259rqin\u0259 var\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00dcr\u0259yimin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131qca e\u015fidirdim. El\u0259 bil G\u00fclg\u0259z m\u0259nd\u0259n n\u0259 is\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. \u0130st\u0259yirdi ki, m\u0259n n\u0259 is\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m, n\u0259 is\u0259 ona deyim. Amma m\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 demirdim ona, daha do\u011frusu, dey\u0259 bilmirdim. Onun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 alt\u0131nda \u0259riyirdim. O, el\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131 ki, bu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 \u00f6ls\u0259m, q\u0259bird\u0259 d\u0259 yaddan \u00e7\u0131xara bilm\u0259zdim. G\u00f6z\u0259lliyi il\u0259 \u00e7oxlar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259li-divan\u0259 el\u0259y\u0259n bu sirli m\u0259l\u0259yin m\u0259nim d\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259rimd\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259sini onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131qca sezirdim. Bilirdim ki, G\u00fclg\u0259z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin olsa da, dan\u0131\u015facaq, m\u00fctl\u0259q dan\u0131\u015facaq. Bir k\u0259lm\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, n\u0259 is\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259k. O, m\u0259nim susdu\u011fumu g\u00f6r\u00fcb, g\u00fccl\u0259 e\u015fidil\u0259c\u0259k bir s\u0259sl\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n

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– H\u0259r \u015feyin \u00f6z vaxt\u0131 var. H\u0259r \u015fey vaxt\u0131nda olanda g\u00f6z\u0259ldir.<\/p>\n

G\u00fclg\u0259z bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri deyib qoluma girdi. \u018flind\u0259ki mobil telefonla \u015f\u0259klimizi \u00e7\u0259kdi. Sonra telefondak\u0131 selfiy\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 aln\u0131n\u0131 tur\u015futdu:<\/p>\n

– Yox, yax\u015f\u0131 al\u0131nmay\u0131b, – dedi.<\/p>\n

G\u00fclg\u0259z ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7iynim\u0259 qoyub telefonu t\u0259krar \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 tutdu. Ekranda ikimizi d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm, ikimizin d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259min d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 i\u00e7imd\u0259 ba\u015f qald\u0131ran duy\u011fular\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f kimi, \u00f6rt-basd\u0131r el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m, amma bu n\u0259 d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 al\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131, ya al\u0131nm\u0131rd\u0131, bilmirdim. Yaln\u0131z onu bilirdim ki, udqunmaqdan bo\u011faz\u0131m quruyub. B\u0259li, m\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131mda ilk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi il\u0259 v\u00fccudumu alt-\u00fcst ed\u0259n, t\u0259p\u0259d\u0259n-d\u0131rna\u011fa can\u0131mda t\u0259lat\u00fcm yaradan q\u0259rib\u0259 hissl\u0259r ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131m. G\u00fclg\u0259z \u015f\u0259klimiz\u0259 bax\u0131b, telefonu \u00e7antas\u0131na qoydu. Yenid\u0259n qoluma girib:<\/p>\n

– Bir az g\u0259z\u0259k, – dedi.<\/p>\n

Biz parka r\u00f6vn\u0259q ver\u0259n r\u0259ngb\u0259r\u0259ng \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin aras\u0131nda xeyli g\u0259zib yorulduq.<\/p>\n

G\u00fclg\u0259z:<\/p>\n

– G\u0259l \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259k, – dedi.<\/p>\n

\u018flimd\u0259n tutub m\u0259ni k\u00f6kl\u00fc-k\u00f6m\u0259cli, yamya\u015f\u0131l a\u011fac\u0131n k\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259ki skamyaya t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7\u0259kdi. Biz \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdik. O, g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259ki g\u00fcn eyn\u0259yini \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b m\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 taxd\u0131. M\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fcld\u00fc. Sonra eyn\u0259yi g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b dedi:<\/p>\n

– “G\u0259l, \u0259l-\u0259l\u0259 tutub ged\u0259k…” – Bu \u015feiri oxumusan?<\/p>\n

– H\u0259\u0259, \u0259zb\u0259r bilir\u0259m, – dedim. M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Uzaqlara, el\u0259 o \u015feird\u0259 deyildiyi kimi, biz olmayan yerl\u0259r\u0259. Amma neyl\u0259yim, ged\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. Bir g\u00fcn bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ayr\u0131 qalanda dar\u0131x\u0131ram. Burnumun ucu g\u00f6yn\u0259y\u00fcr bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. El\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259rdim, sahibin\u0259 sadiq itl\u0259r kimi.<\/p>\n

G\u00fclg\u0259z g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k:<\/p>\n

– Lap \u015fairl\u0259r kimi dedin.<\/p>\n

Bu z\u0259rif varl\u0131q dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, m\u0259n susurdum. H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 udquna-udquna qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Getdikc\u0259 anlay\u0131rd\u0131m ki, bu parkdan tez \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k, burdan uzaqla\u015fmaq, t\u0259k qalmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. G\u00fclg\u0259zl\u0259 q\u0259fil sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b getm\u0259k d\u0259 d\u00fcz olmazd\u0131. M\u0259nim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7atmayan, he\u00e7 v\u0259chl\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259diyim bir narahatl\u0131q ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131m i\u00e7imd\u0259.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n niy\u0259 bel\u0259 narahatsan? Dey\u0259s\u0259n, q\u0131zd\u0131rman var, ax\u0131, – dedi G\u00fclg\u0259z.<\/p>\n

\u018flini yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b aln\u0131mda saxlad\u0131. Biz bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t bel\u0259 qald\u0131q. N\u0259hay\u0259t, m\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b x\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

– Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni, getm\u0259liy\u0259m. Vacib i\u015fim var, – dedim v\u0259 iti add\u0131mlarla ondan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131m. Bir xeyli gedib dayand\u0131m, d\u00f6n\u00fcb arxaya baxd\u0131m. G\u00fclg\u0259z dirs\u0259kl\u0259rini dizin\u0259 dayay\u0131b \u0259ll\u0259ri \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b yer\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131 onun g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sin\u0259 yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 hans\u0131sa d\u0259li bir r\u0259ssam\u0131n \u00e7\u0259kdiyi q\u0259mli portreti xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0259nirsiz g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi olan bu mehriban, n\u0259cib q\u0131z mehr-\u00fclf\u0259ti, k\u00fcbar davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox s\u00f6z deyirdi. Bac\u0131m L\u0259man\u0131n ac\u0131 taleyi m\u0259nd\u0259 el\u0259 bir kompleks, \u00fcmidsizlik, m\u0259yusluq yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, i\u00e7imd\u0259ki qada\u011falardan qurtula bilmirdim. Kimins\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131na varmaq da m\u0259nlik deyildi.<\/p>\n

…Aradan ill\u0259r ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. \u0130ndi m\u0259n G\u00fclg\u0259zin h\u0259yat\u0131ndan \u00e7ox-\u00e7ox uzaqda idim. Harda, kiminl\u0259, nec\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da bilmirdim. O, bir ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131q ola bil\u0259rdi m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131mda. O i\u015f\u0131q s\u00f6nd\u00fc m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Daha do\u011frusu, m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fcm o ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131…<\/p>\n

H\u0259rd\u0259n G\u00fclg\u0259zi xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131m. Bir zamanlar fikrim d\u0259, yolum da \u00e7arpa\u015f\u0131q, dola\u015f\u0131q d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bu dolanbac yollarda az\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. K\u00f6ks\u00fcm\u0259 darl\u0131q ed\u0259n duy\u011fular\u0131mdan bezib usanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Dolub-da\u015fmaq ist\u0259y\u0259n buludlar kimi qubar el\u0259mi\u015fdim. K\u00fcsk\u00fcn buludlar\u0131n kirpiyi art\u0131q s\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015eim\u015f\u0259kt\u0259k \u00e7axmaq, leysant\u0259k ya\u011fmaq, i\u00e7imd\u0259ki ne\u00e7\u0259 ilin d\u0259rdini, nisgilini bo\u015faltmaq, bu a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fckd\u0259n qurtulmaq ist\u0259yirdim. Heyhat…<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 qay\u0131da bil\u0259rdim, G\u00fclg\u0259z! Ay-aydan, il-ild\u0259n \u00f6ts\u0259 d\u0259, s\u0259nin gileyini, m\u0259nim soyuqlu\u011fumdan dolay\u0131 incikliyini gec d\u0259 olsa, duyub geri d\u00f6n\u0259 bilm\u0259dim t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki… Bu, gecikmi\u015f pe\u015fmanl\u0131q duy\u011fusuydu yoxsa? G\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259n yuxulara yenid\u0259n qay\u0131tmaqd\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259… Aylar\u0131n, ill\u0259rin uzaql\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan bu g\u00fcn\u0259 boylanmaq el\u0259 d\u0259 asan deyilmi\u015f. \u00d6l\u0259n m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t\u0259 layla \u00e7almaq da el\u0259 onun kimi. M\u0259n onun yuxular\u0131nda, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 vard\u0131m. Amma o q\u0131z art\u0131q yox idi yuxular\u0131mda.<\/p>\n

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Arifin gec\u0259 saat \u00fc\u00e7\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259nim ixtiyar\u0131ma verdiyi bu g\u00f6z\u0259l ota\u011f\u0131n yum\u015faq divan\u0131nda uzan\u0131b, k\u00f6vr\u0259k xatir\u0259l\u0259r ax\u0131n\u0131nda G\u00fclg\u0259zl\u0259 sonuncu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc xat\u0131rlay\u0131b yuxuya getdim. Beynimd\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r fikir var\u0131yd\u0131 ki, yuxumu tamam qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131m. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, he\u00e7 di\u015f-d\u0131rnaqla bel\u0259, a\u00e7\u0131lmaz k\u0259l\u0259f\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rim m\u0259n\u0259 rahatl\u0131q vermirdi. Yuxuda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc z\u0259bt el\u0259mi\u015f, b\u0259dirl\u0259nmi\u015f ay\u0131 seyr edir\u0259m. Ay\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc qara buludlar \u00f6rt\u00fcr, bu k\u0259hk\u0259\u015fan g\u00f6z\u0259linin parlaq i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 son i\u015fart\u0131larla yoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, na\u011f\u0131llardak\u0131 \u0259fsan\u0259vi Q\u0259m\u0259r buludlar il\u0259 oynay\u0131r. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda durdu\u011fum p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n as\u0131lan qaranl\u0131q gec\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u0259riyir.<\/p>\n

H\u00f6vlnak oyand\u0131m. Bu cazib yuxunun duman\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259m-h\u0259l\u0259m \u00e7\u0259kilmirdi. Yenid\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yuxuya verdim. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 anam\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm yuxuda. O, ba\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, c\u0259rg\u0259 il\u0259 \u0259kilmi\u015f a\u011faclar\u0131n aras\u0131nda, ya\u015f\u0131l otlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 tutdu\u011fu vedr\u0259y\u0259 meyv\u0259 d\u0259rib y\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Amma a\u011faclar\u0131n bar\u0131 azalmaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259, daha da \u00e7oxal\u0131rd\u0131. Meyv\u0259l\u0259rin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan budaqlar az qala q\u0131r\u0131lacaqd\u0131. Anam yorulmu\u015f, taq\u0259td\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Meyv\u0259l\u0259ri y\u0131\u011fd\u0131qca y\u0131\u011f\u0131b qurtara bilmirdi. Yer-g\u00f6y meyv\u0259yl\u0259 doluydu. Bird\u0259n anam\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259ri barl\u0131-b\u0259h\u0259rli a\u011fac\u0131n buda\u011f\u0131ndan yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. O, \u00fcz\u00fcqoylu ya\u015f\u0131l otlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. M\u0259n onun \u0259ks-s\u0259da ver\u0259n x\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259sini e\u015fitdim:<\/p>\n

– B\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin\u0259 qurban olum, b\u0259sdi daha, ay Allah. M\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcm ax\u0131, – dedi.<\/p>\n

G\u00fccl\u00fc k\u00fcl\u0259k ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yer\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r meyv\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, anam az qala g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z olmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131b:<\/p>\n

– Ana, – deyib q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131m v\u0259 yerimd\u0259n qalxd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bu vaxt qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan i\u00e7\u0259ri girib:<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 olub? – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– He\u00e7 n\u0259.<\/p>\n

– Ax\u0131, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131n.<\/p>\n

– Ola bil\u0259r. Uzanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, yuxu g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

– Yem\u0259k yey\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?<\/p>\n

– \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, yey\u0259c\u0259m, amma…<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 amma?<\/p>\n

– Burda, yax\u0131nda telefon sat\u0131lan yer var?<\/p>\n

– H\u0259\u0259, var. Qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131n, sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 d\u00fcz gedirs\u0259n, i\u015f\u0131qfora \u00e7at\u0131b yolu ke\u00e7\u0259n kimi telefon ma\u011fazas\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n

– Onda s\u0259n yem\u0259yi haz\u0131rla. M\u0259n ora d\u0259yib g\u0259lir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Telefon alacaqsan?<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, anama z\u0259ng el\u0259m\u0259liy\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– \u0130tirmis\u0259n telefonu?<\/p>\n

– Yox, satm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n

– Niy\u0259?<\/p>\n

– Pulum qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, – dedim.<\/p>\n

Xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan g\u00f6zl\u0259rini d\u00f6y\u0259-d\u00f6y\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu\u011fum onikiv\u0259r\u0259q d\u0259ft\u0259ri g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm, qatlay\u0131b \u015falvar\u0131m\u0131n arxa cibin\u0259 qoydum. Otaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b qap\u0131ya do\u011fru getdim.<\/p>\n

– \u0130\u00e7ki i\u00e7\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n? – dey\u0259 xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– Olsun, amma alkoqolsuz.<\/p>\n

D\u0259hliz boyu gedib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015fa yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. Xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan arxamca g\u0259lirdi. Sanki m\u0259ni t\u0259qib el\u0259yirdi. Dayan\u0131b onun t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131m:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n narahat olma, bu saat qay\u0131d\u0131ram, – dedim.<\/p>\n

– Yolu ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 ehtiyatl\u0131 ol. Ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259 yans\u0131n, sonra ke\u00e7.<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131, – dedim.<\/p>\n

Kafed\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan kimi deyil\u0259n istiqam\u0259t\u0259 gedib i\u015f\u0131qfora \u00e7atd\u0131m. Ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n yanmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259dim, yolu ke\u00e7ib xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan\u0131n dediyi ma\u011fazadan mobil telefon al\u0131b anama z\u0259ng etdim. Onunla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b, xo\u015f bir ovqatla geriy\u0259 – kafey\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131m. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki, k\u00f6hn\u0259 telefonum \u0259limd\u0259ydi, h\u0259r g\u00fcn anamla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Pulsuzluq \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n m\u0259cbur olub bir h\u0259ft\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l \u00e7ox ucuz qiym\u0259t\u0259 satm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m; be\u015f il m\u0259niml\u0259 gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz yolda\u015fl\u0131q el\u0259y\u0259n, “qara o\u011flan” adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m qara telefonumu. O \u00fczd\u0259n bir h\u0259ft\u0259 idi ki, anamla dan\u0131\u015fa bilmirdim. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm qorxulu yuxudan sonra onun s\u0259sini t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m telefonda e\u015fitdim, \u00fcr\u0259yim yerin\u0259 g\u0259ldi. \u018fn ba\u015fl\u0131cas\u0131, tam arxay\u0131n oldum ki, anam\u0131n g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi pulun L\u0259mana he\u00e7 bir d\u0259xli yoxdu. Anam dedi ki:<\/p>\n

– Bala, d\u00fcnyadan vaxts\u0131z ged\u0259n d\u0259d\u0259nin goru haqq\u0131, s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyim o pullar \u00f6z \u0259linl\u0259 \u0259kib-bec\u0259rdiyin a\u011faclar\u0131n meyv\u0259sinin puludur.<\/p>\n

Anama inan\u0131rd\u0131m. Bilirdim ki, o he\u00e7 vaxt yalan dan\u0131\u015fmaz. Vaxts\u0131z itirdiyi ist\u0259kli \u0259rinin ruhuna yalandan and i\u00e7ib m\u0259ni inand\u0131rmazd\u0131 anam. Bizim ail\u0259miz k\u0259ndimizd\u0259 say\u0131l\u0131b-se\u00e7il\u0259n bir ail\u0259 idi. Bac\u0131mla ba\u011fl\u0131 haqq\u0131m\u0131zda yay\u0131lan s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 atam tab g\u0259tir\u0259 bilmirdi, adam aras\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131, qap\u0131l\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 evimizd\u0259. L\u0259man tutulandan on ay sonra atam d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. M\u0259ni atas\u0131z qoyub bu fani d\u00fcnyaya “\u0259lvida” dedi; \u00f6z iri, kobud \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 \u00e7oxlar\u0131na ev tikib, xeyirxah \u00fcr\u0259yi il\u0259 i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131ran usta S\u0259m\u0259d.<\/p>\n

Arifin gec\u0259 saat \u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259k ixtiyar\u0131ma verdiyi ota\u011f\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim, duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131m xo\u015f bir \u0259hvalla a\u00e7\u0131b i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki yem\u0259kl\u0259rin, i\u00e7kil\u0259rin, meyv\u0259l\u0259rin \u00e7oxlu\u011fu m\u0259ni t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirm\u0259di. Zat\u0259n, “gec\u0259 saat \u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259k burda olacam”, – dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259skinlik verdim.<\/p>\n

Vanna ota\u011f\u0131nda da \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc yuyub, qurulay\u0131b masaya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. L\u0259zz\u0259tli yem\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n i\u015ftahla yedim. “Paytaxt” salat\u0131ndan ba\u015flay\u0131b, kabablarla tamamlad\u0131m. Masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki d\u00fcym\u0259ni basma\u011f\u0131mla xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan\u0131n qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131 bir oldu.<\/p>\n

– E\u015fidir\u0259m, n\u0259 is\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131? – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n \u0259limi cibim\u0259 sal\u0131b pul \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131m, ona uzatd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– Al, bu pulu. S\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259-bel\u0259, bir dost kimi verir\u0259m. Yax\u015f\u0131 xidm\u0259tin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, – dedim v\u0259 pulu onun \u00f6nl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn yan cibin\u0259 sald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol, cibin dolu olsun.<\/p>\n

– Masada n\u0259 var, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n pulunu \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. Qoy qals\u0131n, he\u00e7 n\u0259yi y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rma. S\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 bir \u00e7aynik p\u00fcrr\u0259ngi \u00e7ay g\u0259tir. H\u0259… bir d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 hesab\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259n, de m\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n onikiv\u0259r\u0259q d\u0259ft\u0259ri cibimd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, Arifin yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 divan\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdim. R\u0259ngi bozarm\u0131\u015f d\u0259ft\u0259r cibimd\u0259 \u0259zilmi\u015fdi. \u00dcz qab\u0131\u011f\u0131nda s\u0259liq\u0259li x\u0259tl\u0259 “N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bel\u0259 etdim?” s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259nd\u0259 bel\u0259 bir fikir yarand\u0131 ki, dey\u0259s\u0259n, b\u0259dii \u0259s\u0259r oxuyacam. Q\u0259fil telefon z\u0259ngin\u0259 cavab verm\u0259li oldum. Bir an d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, ax\u0131 m\u0259nim t\u0259z\u0259 n\u00f6mr\u0259mi anamdan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 k\u0259s bilmir. Kim ola bil\u0259rdi? Tez telefonu a\u00e7d\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– Salam, tan\u0131d\u0131n\u0131z m\u0259ni? Oxudunuz L\u0259man\u0131n d\u0259ft\u0259rini?<\/p>\n

Birinci sual\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n sonrak\u0131 sual\u0131n\u0131 verirdi telefondak\u0131 xan\u0131m. M\u0259n onu ikinci sual\u0131ndan tan\u0131d\u0131m, Ay\u015f\u0259n idi.<\/p>\n

– Salam. Salam, Ay\u015f\u0259n xan\u0131m. Yox, h\u0259l\u0259 oxumam\u0131\u015fam. El\u0259 indi ba\u015flamaq ist\u0259yirdim, sizd\u0259n z\u0259ng g\u0259ldi. Y\u0259qin n\u00f6mr\u0259mi anam verib siz\u0259. Bu n\u00f6mr\u0259 il\u0259 m\u0259n yaln\u0131z ona z\u0259ng vurmu\u015fam, – dedim.<\/p>\n

– El\u0259dir ki var, m\u0259n G\u00fcls\u00fcm xalaya z\u0259ng edib, siz\u0259 pulu \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 dedim. Bilirdim o narahatd\u0131r buna g\u00f6r\u0259. Sizin bu n\u00f6mr\u0259nizi d\u0259 o verdi m\u0259n\u0259. H\u0259\u0259… bir d\u0259 G\u00fcls\u00fcm xala dedi ki, n\u0259 vaxt g\u0259ls\u0259n, Seymuru da k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259tir. Art\u0131q \u00fcnvan\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 bilir\u0259m. K\u0259nd\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259lib apararam sizi.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n indi orda ya\u015fam\u0131ram. \u00c7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam kiray\u0259d\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m evd\u0259n, – dedim.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259… B\u0259s indi?<\/p>\n

– \u0130ndi bir kafed\u0259y\u0259m. Dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam, gec\u0259ni birt\u0259h\u0259r ke\u00e7ir\u0259c\u0259m burda. Narahat olmay\u0131n.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259lk\u0259, m\u0259n g\u0259lim, sizi g\u0259tirim biz\u0259.<\/p>\n

– Yox. Sa\u011f olun. M\u0259n s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131n burda bir n\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259liy\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131n?<\/p>\n

– H\u0259… K\u0259nan ad\u0131nda bir n\u0259f\u0259r var, arabadak\u0131 adam, g\u00f6rm\u0259liy\u0259m onu. Ona borcum var, qaytarmal\u0131yam.<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131, n\u0259 deyir\u0259m, qoy siz dey\u0259n olsun. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259rik.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259l\u0259lik.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n telefonu ba\u011flayanda xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. \u018flind\u0259ki m\u0259cm\u0259yini divan\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 jurnal masas\u0131na qoydu, st\u0259kana \u00e7ay s\u00fcz\u00fcb dedi:<\/p>\n

– Sizin hesab \u00e7at\u0131b.<\/p>\n

– Nec\u0259? – m\u0259n t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 soru\u015fdum.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259\u0259, m\u00fcdir z\u0259ng el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Sizi soru\u015fdu. Dedim, h\u0259r \u015fey qaydas\u0131ndad\u0131r, yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Sonra Arif m\u00fc\u0259llim dedi ki, sizd\u0259n pul almay\u0131m.<\/p>\n

O, diqq\u0259tl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 bax\u0131b:<\/p>\n

– G\u00f6zl\u0259riniz n\u0259 yaman q\u0131zar\u0131b. \u00c7ay i\u00e7in, dinc\u0259lin bir az. Saat \u00fc\u00e7d\u0259 sizi yola salacaqlar.<\/p>\n

Xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra m\u0259n masaya d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f yem\u0259kl\u0259rin qiym\u0259tini hesablay\u0131b, t\u0259xmini bir r\u0259q\u0259m \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 dayand\u0131m. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m son on \u00fc\u00e7-on d\u00f6rd saat m\u00fcdd\u0259tind\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131mda ba\u015f ver\u0259n ard\u0131c\u0131l d\u0259yi\u015fiklikl\u0259rin m\u0259nim ovqat\u0131ma v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00f6v \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 yana\u015fsaq, xarakterim\u0259, d\u00fcnyag\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259sirini \u00e7ox ayd\u0131n \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 hiss edirdim. Gec\u0259 saat d\u00f6rd\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131ndan acqar\u0131na evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b \u00fcr\u0259yimin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fid\u0259-e\u015fid\u0259 pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri enm\u0259yim, sakit bir gec\u0259d\u0259 iti add\u0131mlarla geni\u015f prospekti ke\u00e7ib, d\u0259niz\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259yim, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 itl\u0259rinin m\u0259n\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259li bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131, K\u0259nanla ilk d\u0259f\u0259 maraql\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rim, marketd\u0259 gec\u0259 n\u00f6vb\u0259sind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n yuxusuz g\u00f6zl\u0259ri, anam\u0131n g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi pullar, Muxtarla, Arifl\u0259 v\u0259 el\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flanla s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rim, t\u0259bii ki, m\u0259nim a\u011fl\u0131mdan, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259md\u0259n, hissl\u0259rimd\u0259n, d\u00fcnyag\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmd\u0259n t\u0259sirsiz \u00f6t\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n d\u0259yi\u015firdim v\u0259 bu d\u0259yi\u015fikliyi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u018ftraf\u0131mda c\u0259r\u0259yan ed\u0259n h\u0259r bir olaya, h\u0259tta h\u0259r bir \u0259\u015fyaya bax\u0131\u015f\u0131m art\u0131q f\u0259rqliydi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 qapan\u0131b \u0259trafda, c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259, d\u00fcnyada ged\u0259n d\u0259yi\u015fiklikl\u0259rd\u0259n k\u0259narda qalmaq, “s\u0259h\u0259r nax\u0131ra, ax\u015fam axura” d\u00fcz\u0259ni il\u0259 ya\u015famaq v\u0259 onu normal h\u0259yat t\u0259rzi kimi q\u0259bul etm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim. \u0130nsan sevm\u0259li, sevilm\u0259li, d\u00fcnyaya \u00f6vladlar g\u0259tirm\u0259li, onlar\u0131n sevinci, qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015famal\u0131d\u0131r. Onlar\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259li, t\u0259rbiy\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259li, \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131 insanlar aras\u0131na, c\u0259miyy\u0259t\u0259 milli-m\u0259n\u0259vi d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarmal\u0131, h\u0259yatdan z\u00f6vq almal\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Amma he\u00e7 k\u0259s onu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n q\u0259fil z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n, neqativl\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0131\u011fortalanmay\u0131b. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, Az\u0259rbaycan dili v\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131 m\u00fc\u0259llimi olan, \u0259xlaq\u0131, davran\u0131\u015f\u0131, d\u00fcnyag\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fc il\u0259 onu tan\u0131yanlar\u0131n, h\u0259mkarlar\u0131n\u0131n, \u015fagirdl\u0259rinin, k\u0259nd sakinl\u0259rinin b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u00f6rm\u0259tini qazanm\u0131\u015f bac\u0131m L\u0259man\u0131n sevdiyi adam t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n aldad\u0131lmas\u0131na v\u0259 bu biab\u0131r\u00e7\u0131 aldan\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259min \u015f\u0259xsi \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259kl\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 qisasa he\u00e7 bir bucaqdan birm\u0259nal\u0131 yana\u015fmaq olmur.<\/p>\n

D\u00fczd\u00fcr, L\u0259man adam \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 bu, \u015f\u0259ksiz-\u015f\u00fcbh\u0259siz, b\u00f6y\u00fck cinay\u0259tdir. B\u0259s adam\u0131n \u015f\u0259r\u0259fini, l\u0259yaq\u0259tini al\u00e7aldaraq, onu bir \u0259ski par\u00e7as\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u0259rib ayaqlar alt\u0131na atmaq, he\u00e7 el\u0259m\u0259k nec\u0259? Bu, cinay\u0259t deyil? H\u0259r bir insan t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyi \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 gec-tez cavab\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131r, m\u00fctl\u0259q al\u0131r. Bu v\u0259 ya dig\u0259r \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 kims\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcr, kims\u0259 h\u0259bsxanaya d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. S\u0259liml\u0259 L\u0259man kimi.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar m\u0259ni L\u0259man\u0131n g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi onikiv\u0259r\u0259q d\u0259ft\u0259ri oxuma\u011fa s\u00f6vq edirdi. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin olsa da, o d\u0259ft\u0259ri oxumal\u0131 idim. \u0130ndi buna vaxt\u0131m da, h\u0259v\u0259sim d\u0259 var idi. Adam \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcb, uzun ill\u0259r m\u0259hb\u0259s h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015fayan bac\u0131m\u0131n bu d\u0259ft\u0259rd\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259r yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u0259n ba\u015fl\u0131cas\u0131, onun t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyi cinay\u0259t\u0259 indiki m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti m\u0259ni \u00e7ox maraqland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Burda – Arifin kabinetind\u0259ki rahat divanda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib bozumtul “q\u0259m d\u0259ft\u0259ri”ni indi oxumasam, b\u0259lk\u0259 bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt oxuya bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259ki yan\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 d\u0259li mara\u011f\u0131m ill\u0259rd\u0259n b\u0259ri \u00fcr\u0259yimi didib-da\u011f\u0131dan t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259rim\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. \u015e\u0259had\u0259t barma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 dil-doda\u011f\u0131ma s\u00fcrt\u00fcb d\u0259ft\u0259rin \u00fcz qab\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdim. L\u0259man\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus g\u00f6z\u0259l bir x\u0259tl\u0259 yazd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

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L\u0259man yaz\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

“M\u0259n S\u0259limi \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259yim\u0259 pe\u015fman deyil\u0259m. O, m\u0259ni aldatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n onun yalan\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 v\u0259chl\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bilm\u0259zdim. S\u0259lim m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131, x\u0259yallar\u0131m\u0131, arzular\u0131m\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yimi m\u0259hv el\u0259yib ba\u015fqa birisi il\u0259 rahat ya\u015faya bilm\u0259zdi. Bunu n\u0259 yer g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259rdi, n\u0259 g\u00f6y, n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

D\u00f6rd q\u0131zdan sonra do\u011fulan, ail\u0259d\u0259, qohum-\u0259qr\u0259bada ham\u0131n\u0131n sevimlisi olan S\u0259lim \u0130qtisad Universitetini bitir\u0259nd\u0259n sonra asfalt zavodunda m\u00fchasib i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. Rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259 be\u015fm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li binada birotaql\u0131 m\u0259nzil alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259ft\u0259nin be\u015f i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc bu m\u0259nzild\u0259, iki istirah\u0259t g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259ndd\u0259ki evl\u0259rind\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259lim m\u0259n\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yini a\u00e7\u0131b, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, sevgisini bildirmi\u015fdi. D\u00fcz\u00fc, m\u0259n ona he\u00e7 bir cavab verm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Amma b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla ona ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hiss edirdim, duyurdum. M\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131, g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini onda g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Toyumuzu, d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k u\u015faqlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 x\u0259yal\u0131ma g\u0259tirir, onunla xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaq ist\u0259yirdim. Di g\u0259l, ill\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259 ba\u015fqa q\u0131zlar, qad\u0131nlarla onun haqq\u0131nda g\u0259z\u0259n sevgi mac\u0259ralar\u0131 m\u0259ni q\u0259ti bir q\u0259rara g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 qoymurdu. Bu s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r onun t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik ill\u0259rind\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcb\u0259ri s\u0259ngimirdi, son vaxtlar is\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259 adamlar\u0131n g\u00fcnd\u0259lik m\u00f6vzusuna \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn m\u0259n rayon t\u0259hsil \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sind\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rin m\u00fc\u015favir\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, k\u0259nd\u0259, evimiz\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn avtobus g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. S\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ya\u011fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ara vermirdi. S\u0259kil\u0259rin k\u0259nar\u0131nda, asfalt yolun \u00e7ala-\u00e7uxurunda x\u0131rda g\u00f6lm\u0259\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yaz ya\u011fmurundan \u00fcst-ba\u015f\u0131 islanm\u0131\u015f adamlar ora-bura qa\u00e7\u0131\u015f\u0131r, daldalanma\u011fa yer axtar\u0131rd\u0131lar. Avtova\u011fzalda q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik idi. Bird\u0259n S\u0259limin s\u0259sini e\u015fitdim. Onu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259, el\u0259 bil g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q g\u0259ldi. S\u0259lim hal-\u0259hval tutub, sonra bir az aral\u0131da, yolun k\u0259nar\u0131nda saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 qara r\u0259ngli ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rib dedi:<\/p>\n

– Otur, ged\u0259k biz\u0259. Anam da iki g\u00fcnd\u00fcr g\u0259lib, bu g\u00fcn qay\u0131tmaq ist\u0259yir k\u0259nd\u0259. H\u0259\u0259… bilmir\u0259m o Ya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131da n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcb. \u018fl \u00e7\u0259kmir. T\u0259kid edir ki, apar m\u0259ni k\u0259nd\u0259. Ged\u0259k biz\u0259. Bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259k, sonra \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz bir yerd\u0259 ged\u0259rik k\u0259nd\u0259.<\/p>\n

Qeyri-ixtiyari raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m. Getdik S\u0259limin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259nzil\u0259. Amma S\u0259limin anas\u0131 G\u00fcl\u015f\u0259n xalan\u0131 orda g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n

– G\u00fcl\u015f\u0259n xan\u0131m han\u0131? B\u0259s deyirdin evd\u0259dir? – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdum.<\/p>\n

– Y\u0259qin m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259bri \u00e7atmay\u0131b, avtobusla gedib, – dedi S\u0259lim.<\/p>\n

C\u0259ld otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259dim. O, qar\u015f\u0131m\u0131 k\u0259sib m\u0259ni saxlad\u0131. M\u0259ni d\u0259lic\u0259sin\u0259 sevdiyini, tezlikl\u0259 ail\u0259 quraca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 dedi.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yim\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 damm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onunla bir otaqda t\u0259k qalmaq ist\u0259mirdim.<\/p>\n

– Bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259k, m\u0259nim ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131mla ged\u0259rik k\u0259nd\u0259. Gecdi, bu vaxtlar avtobus olmur, – dedi S\u0259lim.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n \u00e7ar\u0259siz qal\u0131b raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m. Sonra biz divanda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdik. O, birinci d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f kimi, m\u0259ni diqq\u0259tl\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. Narahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131m getdikc\u0259 art\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259lim iki st\u0259kan \u00e7ay g\u0259tirdi. M\u0259n \u00e7aydan bir qurtum al\u0131b aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m v\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. \u0130slanm\u0131\u015f a\u011faclar\u0131n budaqlar\u0131n\u0131 yel vurub t\u0259rp\u0259dir, yarpaqlardan su s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb torpa\u011fa t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. S\u0259lim divandan qalx\u0131b arxamca g\u0259ldi. \u018fll\u0259rini \u00e7iynim\u0259 qoydu. Onun il\u0131q n\u0259f\u0259si boynumda, bo\u011faz\u0131mda g\u0259zirdi. Hiss edirdim ki, o, m\u0259ni tam t\u0259siri alt\u0131na salmaq ist\u0259yir. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc toparlay\u0131b onun \u0259lind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Divan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu\u011fum \u00e7antan\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131m. O yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b qar\u015f\u0131mda diz \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc, ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131. M\u0259n sakitc\u0259, he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f kimi, onun \u0259ll\u0259rini ayaqlar\u0131mdan aralay\u0131b, qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f getdim. Onun niyy\u0259tini anlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Nec\u0259 olur-olsun, burdan tez \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k, can\u0131m\u0131 ondan qurtarmaq ist\u0259yirdim. Qap\u0131n\u0131n r\u0259z\u0259sini \u00e7\u0259kib \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f dartd\u0131m, a\u00e7\u0131lmad\u0131. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, o, a\u00e7arla ba\u011flay\u0131b qap\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

– G\u0259l, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7. A\u00e7, deyir\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259. Yoxsa q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131b al\u0259mi t\u00f6k\u0259c\u0259m bura. \u0130ndi polis\u0259 z\u0259ng el\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m, dayan, – deyib, onu qorxutmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7antam\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131m. Mobil telefonumu \u00e7antada g\u00f6rm\u0259yib q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131m. O, bir g\u00f6z q\u0131rp\u0131m\u0131nda sa\u00e7\u0131mdan tutub, \u0259lind\u0259ki qal\u0131n salfeti a\u011fz\u0131ma s\u0131xd\u0131. M\u0259n tam g\u00fcc\u00fcml\u0259 m\u00fcqavim\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rib, onun \u0259lind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa c\u0259hd el\u0259yirdim. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, \u00e7\u0131xa bil\u0259rdim. Amma \u0259lind\u0259ki salfetd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n m\u0259stedici qoxudan bay\u0131l\u0131b yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131m. Sonra n\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram…<\/p>\n

M\u0259n ay\u0131landa art\u0131q gec idi. Nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, qatar art\u0131q getmi\u015fdi. O, m\u0259ni m\u0259hv el\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259ki bir s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma hakim k\u0259silmi\u015fdi. O, m\u0259n\u0259 dil t\u00f6k\u00fcr, yalvar\u0131r, h\u0259r \u015feyin yax\u015f\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, m\u0259niml\u0259 evl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259yini, u\u015faqlar\u0131m\u0131z olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyirdi.<\/p>\n

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