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Romandan par\u00e7a<\/h4>\n<\/blockquote>\n
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N\u0259 olursa-olsun, i\u00e7ind\u0259ki u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 unutma…<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

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Q\u0259biristanl\u0131q min ill\u0259rin s\u00fckutu i\u00e7ind\u0259 uyuyurdu. D\u00fcnya bin\u0259 olandan bel\u0259 olmu\u015fdu – ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131lar\u0131 sanki s\u00fckuta ke\u015fik \u00e7\u0259kirdi. S\u00fckut o d\u00fcnya il\u0259 bu d\u00fcnya aras\u0131nda g\u00f6z\u0259g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z bir p\u0259rd\u0259 idi. Gorgaha b\u0259ni-insan aya\u011f\u0131 d\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259n-d\u0259y\u0259n\u0259 bu p\u0259rd\u0259 azca t\u0259rp\u0259nirdi, \u0259l-ayaq \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259nd\u0259n sonra yen\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki hal\u0131na qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. S\u00fckutu arada d\u0259li k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r pozurdu, ya\u011fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar qaralm\u0131\u015f \u00e7opur ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 s\u00fckut r\u0259ncid\u0259hal olurdu, can\u0131n\u0131 qoyma\u011fa yer tapm\u0131rd\u0131. Bir d\u0259 h\u00fcznl\u00fc add\u0131m s\u0259sl\u0259ri… torpa\u011f\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 oyad\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 torpa\u011f\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131 oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yum\u015faq, z\u0259rif qad\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n toxundu\u011fu gil torpaq el\u0259 bil s\u0131z\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131, a\u011fr\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kirdi; g\u0259rdi\u015fi-d\u00f6vran\u0131n v\u0259fas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, h\u0259yat\u0131n faniliyind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi. O zamanlar ki, xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik \u00fcf\u00fcqd\u0259 sayr\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, asud\u0259, b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r g\u00fcnl\u0259r \u00f6mr\u0259-g\u00fcn\u0259 min c\u00fcr r\u0259ng qat\u0131rd\u0131, s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259ti m\u00fcjd\u0259l\u0259yirdi, ax\u015famlar Ay u\u015faqlara sehrli na\u011f\u0131llar dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, onda u\u015faqlar da d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, bu d\u00fcnya n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l yer imi\u015f. Ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131lar d\u00fcnyan\u0131 sevm\u0259y\u0259. D\u00fcnya onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn isti, i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 bir ev\u0259 \u00e7evrilirdi. Onlar d\u00fcnyaya evl\u0259rinin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n bax\u0131rd\u0131lar v\u0259 d\u00fcnya onlar\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck idi ki, heyr\u0259t v\u0259 maraq i\u00e7ind\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini o p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259 bilmirdil\u0259r. Torpaq onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yamya\u015f\u0131l a\u011faclar\u0131 qol-budaq a\u00e7an, \u015fip\u015firin meyv\u0259l\u0259r bitir\u0259n m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259li bir yer idi. Onlar bilmirdil\u0259r ki, torpa\u011f\u0131n ba\u015fqa \u00fcz\u00fc d\u0259 var, torpa\u011f\u0131n ba\u015fqa \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz idil\u0259r. Bilmirdil\u0259r ki, torpaq u\u011frunda qanlar t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr, sava\u015flar apar\u0131l\u0131r, m\u0259rmil\u0259r torpa\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7evirir; torpaq torpaq olmaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, u\u00e7uruma, yar\u011fana \u00e7evrilir v\u0259 doymaq bilm\u0259y\u0259n qorxunc \u0259jdaha kimi insanlar\u0131 udur. Bilmirdil\u0259r v\u0259 bu bilm\u0259zlik il\u0259 d\u0259 hallar\u0131 xo\u015f idi.<\/p>\n

…O qad\u0131n ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259r idi ki, eyni c\u0131\u011f\u0131rla, q\u0259birl\u0259rin aras\u0131yla gedirdi v\u0259 ill\u0259r onun ip\u0259k sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 codla\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, tell\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259n salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin k\u0259nar\u0131nda q\u0259mli nax\u0131\u015flar toxumu\u015fdu. O qad\u0131n\u0131n a\u011f \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 x\u0131rda \u00e7ill\u0259r \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Amma g\u00f6zl\u0259ri h\u0259minki idi… Mavi, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n t\u0259mizliyind\u0259n, pakl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, sevincind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r ver\u0259n mehriban, ifad\u0259li bax\u0131\u015flar h\u0259minki idi… H\u0259minki idimi? Ax\u0131 dey\u0259s\u0259n, bir azca solmu\u015fdu bu bax\u0131\u015flar… Bu g\u00f6zl\u0259rin d\u0259rinliyin\u0259 nar\u0131n bir k\u0259d\u0259r hopmu\u015fdu. O x\u0131rda \u00e7ill\u0259r d\u0259, a\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar sezil\u0259n q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar da, a\u011farm\u0131\u015f tell\u0259r d\u0259 h\u0259min o m\u00fcx\u0259nn\u0259t k\u0259d\u0259rin i\u015fl\u0259kl\u0259ri idi; k\u0259d\u0259rin g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259fi, maddil\u0259\u015fmi\u015f formas\u0131 idi. G\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259ri qocaldan d\u00fcnya bu q\u0259nirsiz g\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 tamah salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, zaman s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz \u00f6z i\u015fini g\u00f6rm\u0259yind\u0259 idi. O, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 bu qad\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131, onunla i\u015fi yox idi, sad\u0259c\u0259, bu d\u00fcnyada Vaxt deyil\u0259n bir \u015fey vard\u0131. K\u00fclli-b\u0259\u015f\u0259r ona tabe idi, Vaxt ir\u0259lil\u0259dikc\u0259 insan da \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmadan d\u0259yi\u015firdi, u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131, g\u0259ncliyi \u0259lind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131, ya\u015fa dolurdu, qocal\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259-ovcunda qalan ke\u00e7mi\u015f olurdu. V\u0259 bu ke\u00e7mi\u015f onun yegan\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacaq yeri olurdu. Bu ke\u00e7mi\u015fi onun \u0259lind\u0259n alsan, o, daha ya\u015faya bilm\u0259zdi. Ke\u00e7mi\u015f onun m\u00fccr\u00fcs\u00fc idi ki, i\u00e7ind\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u0259n qalan xatir\u0259l\u0259r toplan\u0131r. O m\u00fccr\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7ind\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 var, sevinc d\u0259…<\/p>\n

M\u0259n \u00f6z q\u0259brimi tapa bilmirdim. Q\u0259biristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 az\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. K\u00fcl\u0259k q\u0259bri u\u00e7urmu\u015fdu, n\u0259di?.. Q\u0259bir yoxa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259nd\u0259n on be\u015f-iyirmi add\u0131m ir\u0259lid\u0259 add\u0131mlayan o qad\u0131n torpa\u011f\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 oyatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi, m\u0259ni d\u0259 bir anl\u0131\u011fa ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 qaytard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Aradan uzun ill\u0259r ke\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259, m\u0259n o qad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi tan\u0131d\u0131m. Sazaq, k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259trafa \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f h\u00fcznl\u00fc ovqat\u0131, sonu g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n q\u00fcss\u0259ni bir az da qat\u0131la\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7iyinl\u0259rini q\u0131s\u0131b \u00fcrk\u0259k add\u0131mlarla ir\u0259lil\u0259y\u0259n qad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yimin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc artd\u0131, neyl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi bilm\u0259d\u0259n yerimd\u0259c\u0259 donub qald\u0131m. O ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131-\u00e7iskinli pay\u0131z ax\u015fam\u0131 qad\u0131n\u0131n yum\u015faq add\u0131mlar\u0131 q\u0259biristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r havas\u0131na el\u0259 bil bir az y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u00fck g\u0259tirdi, h\u0259yat \u0259lam\u0259ti g\u0259tirdi. Yoxsa bu \u00f6l\u00fcl\u0259r s\u0259lt\u0259n\u0259tind\u0259 havas\u0131zl\u0131qdan az qala, bo\u011fulacaqd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Nar\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f q\u0259bir da\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 da yuyub t\u0259mizl\u0259yirdi, bu da\u015flar yuyulduqca el\u0259 bil yava\u015f-yava\u015f n\u0259f\u0259s alma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. Torpaq ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 can\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdiyi kimi bu q\u0259bir da\u015flar\u0131 da doyunca suyu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib canlan\u0131rd\u0131. Qad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 \u00e7oxdan qurumu\u015fdu, mavi g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259, can\u0131nda su qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00d6z ya\u011f\u0131nda qovrulub qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, el\u0259c\u0259 ruh kimi g\u0259zib dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Qad\u0131n bird\u0259n ayaq saxlad\u0131, qara m\u0259rm\u0259r ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 diz \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. Bu q\u0259bir bir az da m\u0259nim q\u0259brim\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. \u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259nim ad\u0131m yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 – Kamran.<\/p>\n

…\u0130bi\u015f qollu-budaql\u0131 tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u0259yirmi da\u015f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6m\u0259ltm\u0259 oturub \u00e7ox-\u00e7ox ill\u0259r bundan \u00f6nc\u0259 M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d ki\u015finin bu a\u011fac\u0131 \u0259km\u0259yind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bu a\u011fac\u0131n n\u0259 vaxt \u0259kildiyini he\u00e7 k\u0259s g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi. M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d ki\u015fi bu tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131 \u0130bi\u015fin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259kmi\u015fdi…<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n qara m\u0259rm\u0259r da\u015fla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Amma s\u0259si \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131, dodaqlar\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259nmirdi. M\u0259n onun s\u0259sini a\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar e\u015fidirdim. Sanki \u00f6z ke\u00e7mi\u015fim\u0259 lap yax\u0131ndan bax\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f \u0130bi\u015fin sar\u0131 s\u0131r\u0131ql\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n r\u0259ngin\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fc v\u0259 m\u0259n bu il\u011f\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00f6z u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm; \u0130bi\u015fl\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz oturub onun bir Allah bilir ki, ne\u00e7\u0259nci d\u0259f\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259hvalat\u0131 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 e\u015fidirmi\u015f kimi maraqla dinl\u0259yirdim. Tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n na\u011f\u0131l\u0131n\u0131 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 \u0130bi\u015f…<\/p>\n

M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d ki\u015fi a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 adam idi, amma n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259 ona Gic M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d deyirdil\u0259r. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 anamdan soru\u015furdum ki, M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d \u0259miy\u0259 niy\u0259 o ad\u0131 qo\u015fublar? Anam da g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib deyirdi ki, n\u0259 bilim, ay bala, el\u0259 deyirl\u0259r d\u0259. M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d ki\u015fi h\u0259min o d\u0259yirmi da\u015f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturub h\u0259sir z\u0259nbil toxuyurdu. O vaxtlar ki, h\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259mizd\u0259 tut a\u011fac\u0131 yox idi, M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d ki\u015fi h\u0259l\u0259 o a\u011fac\u0131 yer\u0259 biti\u015fmi\u015f d\u0259yirmi da\u015f\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131nda \u0259km\u0259mi\u015fdi. Onda M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d ki\u015fi A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131l\u0131n qoyunlar\u0131n\u0131 otar\u0131rd\u0131. A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131l\u0131n T\u0259m\u0259nnis deyil\u0259n yerd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck t\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfat\u0131 vard\u0131, kas\u0131b-kusuba, kims\u0259sizl\u0259r\u0259 \u0259l tutma\u011f\u0131yla ad \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. K\u0259nd camaat\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onun h\u00f6rm\u0259tini saxlay\u0131rd\u0131. O\u011fulun \u00e7ayxanas\u0131na gir\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259lyan\u0131n\u0131n t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qabaq i\u00e7\u0259ri yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259nb\u0259ki \u0130randan g\u0259lirdi v\u0259 bu t\u0259nb\u0259kinin bihu\u015fedici qoxusu A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131l\u0131n b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn can\u0131na hopmu\u015fdu. S\u00fcd r\u0259ngli “Qaz-21” “Volqa”s\u0131n\u0131n kabin\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259 hopmu\u015fdu bu qoxu. Atam h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 dey\u0259rdi ki, ki\u015fid\u0259n papiros iyi g\u0259l\u0259r. A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131ldan da t\u0259nb\u0259ki iyi g\u0259lirdi. Maha\u00e7qalada, T\u0259brizd\u0259 tacir dostlar\u0131 vard\u0131 v\u0259 A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131l tez-tez al\u0131\u015f-veri\u015f m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259 uzaq s\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Deyirdil\u0259r ki, A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131l o uzaq yerl\u0259r\u0259 h\u0259m d\u0259 qumar oynamaqdan \u00f6tr\u00fc gedir. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n q\u0259rib\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n biri d\u0259 bu idi ki, bu x\u0259b\u0259ri m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 H\u0259c\u0259r xala dilin\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. O vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r he\u00e7 k\u0259s bilmirdi ki, A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131l\u0131n qumarbazl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da var. H\u0259c\u0259r xala bu x\u0259b\u0259ri hardan, kimd\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi, sirri-xuda idi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n dem\u0259, \u0130bi\u015f d\u0259 A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131l\u0131n harasa uzaq bir yer\u0259 qumar oynama\u011fa getm\u0259yind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rdar imi\u015f. Amma \u0130bi\u015f bu x\u0259b\u0259ri he\u00e7 vaxt dilin\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259mi\u015fdi. A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131l\u0131n qumarda \u0259li g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 \u0130bi\u015fin \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131l bel\u0259 s\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda \u0130bi\u015fd\u0259n “xeyir-dua” al\u0131rd\u0131. “\u0130bi\u015f, bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259lim g\u0259tirs\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bir kostyum alaca\u011fam”, “\u00fcr\u0259yin n\u0259 ist\u0259yir, ay \u0130bi\u015f, de, g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 al\u0131b g\u0259tirim s\u0259nin\u00e7\u00fcn”… \u0130bi\u015f d\u0259 el\u0259c\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc, bir s\u00f6z demirdi. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131la demi\u015fdi ki, “udacaqsan, g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n, bunu s\u0259n\u0259 \u0130bi\u015f deyir”. Onda A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131l k\u00fclli miqdarda pul udmu\u015fdu v\u0259 \u015fax iyirmibe\u015fliyi \u0130bi\u015fin s\u0131r\u0131ql\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n cibin\u0259 basanda g\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. “\u0130bi\u015f, a\u011fz\u0131n fal imi\u015f. Get, bu pula \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 n\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, al”. \u0130bi\u015f, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r pul g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi, cibind\u0259n b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259yi r\u0259ngd\u0259 pulu \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259ri par\u0131ldaya-par\u0131ldaya bir xeyli baxandan sonra cibin\u0259 d\u00fcrt\u00fcb u\u015faq sevinci il\u0259 g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. M\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt \u0130bi\u015fin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 bel\u0259 i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim v\u0259 o t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t torpa\u011f\u0131n d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 qal\u0131b havas\u0131zl\u0131qdan bo\u011fulmu\u015f, bozarm\u0131\u015f qiym\u0259tli da\u015f-qa\u015f kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bu t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm onun cod sif\u0259tind\u0259 nec\u0259 i\u015f\u0131m-i\u015f\u0131m i\u015f\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131, \u0130lahi?! A\u011f\u0131r C\u0259bray\u0131l \u0130bi\u015fin k\u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fclc\u0259 vurub “get, kef el\u0259” dedi v\u0259 “Volqa”s\u0131na minib s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131. \u0130bi\u015f h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm donub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u0259rin\u0259 bigan\u0259lik, laqeydlik tozu hopmu\u015f unudulmu\u015f q\u0259birl\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 o t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcmd\u0259n pay d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O k\u0259d\u0259rli t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u0259 m\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 bu k\u00f6hn\u0259 q\u0259biristanl\u0131qda ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki fotolarda da rast g\u0259lmi\u015fdim. O t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm d\u0259li bir ist\u0259kl\u0259 da\u015fdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b h\u0259yata qay\u0131tmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Sanki yalvar\u0131rd\u0131 ki, m\u0259ni bu da\u015f s\u00fckutundan oyad\u0131n, yenid\u0259n o g\u00f6z\u0259l h\u0259yata qay\u0131d\u0131b \u00f6z \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc ya\u015fay\u0131m… Heyhat!.. Torpaq ald\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 bir daha geri vermir, bu da\u015f p\u0259rd\u0259nin arxas\u0131ndak\u0131lar\u0131n yolu bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt bu d\u00fcnyaya d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Onlar ancaq \u00f6l\u00fcm n\u00f6vb\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n bu fani adamlar\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131nda bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t ya\u015fayacaq, onlar da d\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra o bi\u00e7ar\u0259l\u0259ri bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt xat\u0131rlayan olmayacaq. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n i\u015fl\u0259ri bel\u0259dir… U\u015faq vaxtlar\u0131mda m\u0259ni q\u0259biristanl\u0131\u011fa buraxmazd\u0131lar, amma m\u0259n h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 f\u00fcrs\u0259t tap\u0131b t\u0259k-t\u0259kc\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259biristanl\u0131\u011fa g\u0259lirdim v\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 q\u0259birl\u0259rin aras\u0131nda dola\u015fa-dola\u015fa d\u00fcnyan\u0131n faniliyi haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u0130nsanlar niy\u0259 do\u011fulurlar? Niy\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcrl\u0259r? Bu suallar he\u00e7 c\u00fcr m\u0259n\u0259 rahatl\u0131q vermirdi, i\u00e7imi didib-t\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu suallar m\u0259nim u\u015faql\u0131q sevincimi \u0259limd\u0259n al\u0131rd\u0131, m\u0259n\u0259 rahatl\u0131q vermirdi. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 evd\u0259 anamdan soru\u015fdum ki, ana, biz d\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259yik? Anam t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 bax\u0131b bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t susdu, sonra n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcs\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di, “biz uzun \u00f6m\u00fcr ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131q, m\u0259nim balam, laaap \u00e7ox ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131q, s\u0259n bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r haqda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259”, – dedi v\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 fikr\u0259 getdi.<\/p>\n

Otuz ild\u0259n sonra ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm o qad\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rhal tan\u0131d\u0131m. Z\u00fcleyxa m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131 Kamil\u0259 idi – g\u00f6z\u0259l Kamil\u0259. On il bir parta arxas\u0131nda oturdu\u011fumuz g\u00fcnl\u0259r yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O \u015f\u0131ltaq, \u0259rk\u00f6y\u00fcn q\u0131z g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 h\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259rini yell\u0259y\u0259-yell\u0259y\u0259 \u015feytancas\u0131na g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdi. Q\u0259fild\u0259n onu sinifd\u0259 qucaqlay\u0131b \u00f6pd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc indinin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canla xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. Ax\u0131 niy\u0259 m\u0259hz onu \u00f6pm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, o q\u0131zda m\u0259ni c\u0259lb ed\u0259n n\u0259 idi? Bu suallara cavab\u0131m yox idi. M\u0259nim bu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tim sinif r\u0259hb\u0259rimizi d\u0259, u\u015faqlar\u0131 da heyr\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, u\u015faqlar “heyr\u0259t” s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 bilmirdil\u0259r, amma u\u015faq \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259rind\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 bir \u015fey g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r. Kamil\u0259 m\u0259nim bu q\u0259fil, g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259timd\u0259n b\u0259rk qorxdu v\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Q\u0131zlar Kamil\u0259nin a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb onu m\u00fcdafi\u0259 etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259nim \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 \u00e7\u0131mx\u0131rd\u0131lar, m\u0259n\u0259 ac\u0131qland\u0131lar. T\u0259kl\u0259nmi\u015f v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc itirdim v\u0259 n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi bilm\u0259dim. Yeddi ya\u015fl\u0131 bir u\u015faq \u00fczr ist\u0259m\u0259k n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bil\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. El\u0259c\u0259 tutulmu\u015f halda “bilm\u0259dim” dey\u0259 bildim. Ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131zlar sinif r\u0259hb\u0259rimiz Qas\u0131m m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n \u015fikay\u0259t etmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Qas\u0131m m\u00fc\u0259llim m\u00f6hk\u0259mc\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131m\u0131 dartd\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259n bu q\u0259d\u0259r u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda p\u0259rt oldu\u011fumu sinir\u0259 bilm\u0259yib sinifd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m v\u0259 ev\u0259 do\u011fru g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fcm. Anam n\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini anlaya bilmirdi, m\u0259ni \u00e7ox sor\u011fu-suala tutsa da, do\u011fru-d\u00fcr\u00fcst bir cavab ala bilm\u0259di. \u00d6rp\u0259yini ba\u015f\u0131na at\u0131b \u0259limd\u0259n tutdu v\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 apard\u0131. Anam\u0131n yan\u0131nda bir az \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259nmi\u015fdim, m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, he\u00e7 bir q\u0259bah\u0259tim yoxdur. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n hali olandan sonra anam\u0131n da m\u0259ni m\u00fcdafi\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Ax\u0131 burda pis n\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdi?! M\u0259n xo\u015fuma g\u0259l\u0259n q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng bir q\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6pm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, v\u0259ssalam. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 adam\u0131 niy\u0259 t\u0259nbeh el\u0259sinl\u0259r, ona niy\u0259 c\u0259za versinl\u0259r? He\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 \u015fey ola bilm\u0259zdi…<\/p>\n

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