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Romandan par\u00e7a<\/h4>\n<\/blockquote>\n
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Oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Amma g\u00f6zl\u0259rim yumuluydu. Yenid\u0259n yuxuya getm\u0259k, yatmaq ist\u0259yirdim. Al\u0131nm\u0131rd\u0131. Dizl\u0259rimi y\u0131\u011f\u0131b sol b\u00f6yr\u00fcm \u00fcst\u0259 divara t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evrildim v\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 d\u0259mir \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rimi t\u0259rp\u0259d\u0259n x\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259si yuxumu bir az da qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. V\u0259 m\u0259n tam \u0259min oldum ki, art\u0131q s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yata bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi a\u00e7anda qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131b p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n ay\u0131n parlaq i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na sevindim. Otaq xeyli i\u015f\u0131qlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018ftrafa g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdim. C\u0131r\u0131l\u0131b sallanm\u0131\u015f, avaz\u0131m\u0131\u015f, r\u0259ngi qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015f divar ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131 xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc yarad\u0131rd\u0131. Yenid\u0259n \u0259ks t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 – sa\u011fa \u00e7evril\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n \u0259tt\u00f6k\u0259n s\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00f6zm\u0259yib aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m. K\u00f6hn\u0259 dolab\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu\u011fum qol saat\u0131m\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b baxd\u0131m. Saat 3:37-ni g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rinin h\u0259r an q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131b t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0259k t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259si olan p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. D\u0259st\u0259yini h\u0259r iki \u0259liml\u0259 ehtiyatla tutub s\u0131xd\u0131m v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7\u0259kdim. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259fi tam a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b ulduzlarla dolu g\u00f6y\u0259 baxd\u0131m. H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f s\u00fcd kimi a\u011fappaq idi. Ayl\u0131-ulduzlu g\u00f6yl\u0259r gec\u0259y\u0259 meydan oxuyurdu.<\/p>\n

Acm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Evd\u0259 yem\u0259y\u0259 \u0259rzaq-filan yoxuydu. M\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7ib, d\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259n masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 quruyub qalm\u0131\u015f \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00e7eyn\u0259y\u0259-\u00e7eyn\u0259y\u0259 yataq ota\u011f\u0131na qay\u0131td\u0131m. \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259yin art\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dolab\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub \u015falvar\u0131m\u0131, k\u00f6yn\u0259yimi geyindim, hamam ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7ib \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc yudum. Quru \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7eyn\u0259yirdim, amma uda bilmirdim. Yenid\u0259n m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131m. Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u0259ri y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015f zibil paketini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7arla ba\u011flay\u0131b, kiray\u0259d\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu be\u015fm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evin be\u015finci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259n iti s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 endim. Bir anl\u0131q dayand\u0131m, bayaqdan \u00e7eyn\u0259diyim quru \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi ax\u0131r ki uda bildim. El\u0259 bu anda yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, sabah, g\u00fcnorta saat ikinin yar\u0131s\u0131nda m\u0259nzilin sahibi il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259li, bir h\u0259ft\u0259dir gecikdirdiyim kiray\u0259 pulunu ona verm\u0259liy\u0259m. Amma pulum yoxuydu.<\/p>\n

Pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri en\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yimin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131qca e\u015fidirdim. \u018flimd\u0259ki paketi m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259nin bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 qoyulmu\u015f, a\u015f\u0131b-da\u015fan iri zibil qab\u0131na atd\u0131m v\u0259 yoluma davam el\u0259dim. Add\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131n s\u0259si, bir d\u0259 h\u0259rd\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti gec\u0259nin s\u00fckutunu, rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 pozurdu. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259 d\u0259nizk\u0259nar\u0131 park\u0131 bir-birind\u0259n ay\u0131ran prospekti ke\u00e7ib uzun pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fc eni\u015f\u0259, d\u0259niz\u0259 do\u011fru y\u00f6n\u0259ldim.<\/p>\n

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Qula\u011f\u0131 birkal\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 itl\u0259ri \u015fonquyub m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u0130tl\u0259rin yan\u0131ndan ehmalca ke\u00e7ib getdim. D\u0259nizin s\u0259sini art\u0131q e\u015fidirdim. Sahil\u0259 \u00e7atma\u011fa lap az qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Burada dola\u015fan itl\u0259rin h\u0259nirtisi g\u0259lirdi. Add\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131 dayand\u0131rmadan d\u00f6n\u00fcb geriy\u0259 baxd\u0131m. \u018flil arabas\u0131nda bir n\u0259f\u0259rin ard\u0131mca g\u0259ldiyini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Aya\u011f\u0131 sa\u011f dizind\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 k\u0259silmi\u015f bu adam \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 araban\u0131 idar\u0259 edir, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259td\u0259n qalma\u011fa qoymurdu. \u0130tl\u0259r quyruqlar\u0131n\u0131 bulaya-bulaya onu m\u00fc\u015fayi\u0259t edirdi. Bir az sonra itl\u0259r yorulub yar\u0131 yolda qald\u0131. Arabadak\u0131 adam h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 sahil\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Nec\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l bir s\u0259h\u0259rdir, – dedi arabadak\u0131 adam v\u0259 “mindiyi at”\u0131n s\u00fcr\u0259tini bir az da art\u0131rd\u0131. T\u0259l\u0259sirdi, el\u0259 bil d\u0259niz qa\u00e7\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259kdi yerind\u0259n. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 t\u0259miz vurulmu\u015f, sin\u0259si qabar\u0131q, t\u0259xmin\u0259n, 25-28 ya\u015flar\u0131nda olan bu \u015f\u0259xs qara r\u0259ngli q\u0131saqol yay k\u00f6yn\u0259yind\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

– Adam ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yir… L\u0259p\u0259l\u0259rin s\u0259si el\u0259 bil gec\u0259y\u0259 h\u0259zin n\u0259\u011fm\u0259 oxuyur. G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc ayl\u0131-ulduzlu, d\u0259nizin havas\u0131 da can d\u0259rman\u0131. Bir az ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k, dan yeri q\u0131zaracaq. Bapbalaca n\u00f6qt\u0259 boyda G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f d\u0259nizd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xacaq, sonra yava\u015f-yava\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259c\u0259k. M\u0259n yay aylar\u0131nda h\u0259r g\u00fcn g\u0259lib bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni seyr el\u0259yir\u0259m… H\u0259… H\u0259… H\u0259r g\u00fcn\u2026 Amma doymuram. Yaz\u0131q bu vaxt evd\u0259 yatanlar\u0131n hal\u0131na, g\u0259lib bu ilahi g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi g\u00f6rm\u00fcrl\u0259r. T\u0259miz havan\u0131 ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib, z\u00f6vq-s\u0259fas\u0131n\u0131 duymurlar.<\/p>\n

\u018flil arabas\u0131nda \u015f\u0259stl\u0259 oturub f\u00fcsunkar t\u0259bi\u0259tin seyrin\u0259 dalan, mavi dal\u011falara bu q\u0259d\u0259r heyranl\u0131qla tama\u015fa ed\u0259n bu adam\u0131n tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir k\u0259sl\u0259, y\u0259ni m\u0259niml\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259ti, do\u011frudan da, \u00e7ox maraql\u0131 v\u0259 t\u0259sirli idi.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259nin ad\u0131n n\u0259dir? – dey\u0259 o, m\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– Seymur, – m\u0259n cavab verdim.<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131 ad\u0131n var. Amma bura adam\u0131na he\u00e7 ox\u015fam\u0131rsan, – deyib m\u0259ni ba\u015fdan-aya\u011fa s\u00fczd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– Rayondan g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. Burdan uzaqlarda Ya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131 deyil\u0259n bir k\u0259nd var, ordan. \u015eahda\u011fa yax\u0131n, g\u00f6z\u0259l m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259si olan bir k\u0259nddir.<\/p>\n

– Y\u0259qin i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmis\u0259n?<\/p>\n

– H\u0259\u0259, i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. Bir marketd\u0259 iki ay f\u0259hl\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259dim. \u00c7ox yorulurdum. Ax\u0131rda dedil\u0259r, bilirs\u0259n, bu i\u015f s\u0259nlik deyil, get \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ayr\u0131 i\u015f tap. D\u00fcz deyirdil\u0259r. Do\u011frudan da, o i\u015f m\u0259nlik deyildi.<\/p>\n

Fiziki imkanlar\u0131 m\u0259hdud olan, amma h\u0259yat e\u015fqini itirm\u0259y\u0259n bu g\u0259nc m\u0259ni h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0131nay\u0131c\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t dan\u0131\u015fmad\u0131. M\u0259n d\u0259 fikr\u0259 getmi\u015fdim. Sabah g\u00fcnorta m\u0259nzilin sahibi il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn xofu he\u00e7 v\u0259chl\u0259 can\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131. V\u0259ziyy\u0259ti d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir yol tapa bilmirdim.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259\u0259, qarda\u015f.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n s\u0259s\u0259 diksindim. Susub durmu\u015fdum, onun n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim.<\/p>\n

– B\u00f6y\u00fck \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259 h\u0259r adam g\u00fcn-g\u00fcz\u0259randan ba\u015f \u00e7\u0131xara bilmir. K\u0259ndd\u0259 ev-e\u015fiyin var?<\/p>\n

– H\u0259\u0259, var\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Kim qal\u0131r indi orda?<\/p>\n

– Anam.<\/p>\n

– Atan yoxdur?<\/p>\n

– Yox! R\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 gedib. Onda m\u0259nim on d\u00f6rd ya\u015f\u0131m vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

– \u0130ndi ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n var?<\/p>\n

– \u0130yirmi d\u00f6rd. M\u0259n ist\u0259yirdim i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259m, pul qazanam. Anam\u0131 da g\u0259tir\u0259m yan\u0131ma. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 ya\u015fayaq, amma al\u0131nmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n evd\u0259 el\u0259 t\u0259k u\u015faq olmusan? – dey\u0259 o, maraqla soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

Tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir adamla s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 giri\u015fm\u0259yim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n

– Yox, bir bac\u0131m da var – L\u0259man, – dey\u0259 m\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r cavab verdim.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s, o hardad\u0131r?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n arabadak\u0131 adam\u0131n sonuncu sual\u0131n\u0131 cavabland\u0131rmad\u0131m v\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc d\u0259niz\u0259 tutub q\u0131zaran dan yerin\u0259 uzun-uzad\u0131 baxd\u0131m, sonra:<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131, sa\u011f olun, – deyib ondan araland\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 oldu, hara gedirs\u0259n? – dey\u0259 o, s\u0259sl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

– Ev\u0259 gedir\u0259m, i\u015fim var.<\/p>\n

– Saat be\u015fdir. Bu vaxt n\u0259 i\u015f? \u018fziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kib bu q\u0259d\u0259r yol g\u0259lmis\u0259n, doyunca hava al, ged\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

– Yox, m\u0259n gedim. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259rik ha\u00e7ansa, – dedim.<\/p>\n

– De g\u00f6r\u00fcm, pulun var? – dey\u0259 o soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n fikirl\u0259\u015fdim ki, bu adam, y\u0259qin dil\u0259n\u00e7idir. Baxd\u0131m ona, yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259ldi. Pulum n\u0259 g\u0259zirdi, yoxsa ver\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n

– Yox, pulum yoxdur.<\/p>\n

– Lap az da olsa, yoxdur?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n donub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. He\u00e7 n\u0259 dey\u0259 bilmirdim.<\/p>\n

– Cibl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0131xart \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcm, – deyib m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n \u015falvar\u0131m\u0131n cibl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b \u00e7evirdim. Kiray\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u0259nzilin a\u00e7ar\u0131 qumun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ondan g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n \u0259yilib a\u00e7ar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm. O, bel\u0259c\u0259 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t q\u0259rib\u0259 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla g\u00f6zl\u0259rini m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di. Sonra k\u00f6yn\u0259yinin cibind\u0259n bir \u0259llilik \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259 uzatd\u0131. Lakin onun \u0259li uzan\u0131l\u0131 qald\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Al, g\u00f6t\u00fcr. Vaxt olar, s\u0259n d\u0259 kimins\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259n tutarsan. Bu s\u0259nin h\u0259yat\u0131nda olacaq, m\u00fctl\u0259q olacaq… H\u0259r bir adam\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131nda bel\u0259 bir g\u00fcn olur. Bir g\u00fcn kimins\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259n tutur, kim\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259k olarsan.<\/p>\n

– Yox… yox, siz el\u0259 bilin ki, m\u0259nim \u0259limd\u0259n tutdunuz, – deyib geri \u00e7\u0259kildim.<\/p>\n

O, \u0259liyl\u0259 araban\u0131n t\u0259k\u0259rini c\u0259ld i\u015f\u0259 sal\u0131b s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Al, g\u00f6t\u00fcr, yoxsa bu pulu s\u0259nin g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda c\u0131r\u0131b d\u0259niz\u0259 ataram, – dedi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131lmaz v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u018fslind\u0259 pula ehtiyac\u0131m vard\u0131. Amma ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm adamdan – \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 dizind\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131 olmayan bir \u0259lild\u0259n pul g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lirdi m\u0259n\u0259. O, el\u0259 bil m\u0259nim fikrimi oxudu v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r:<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r bura g\u0259lir\u0259m. \u0130mkan\u0131n olanda g\u0259tirib qaytararsan. T\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259, yen\u0259 deyir\u0259m, n\u0259 vaxt imkan\u0131n olarsa… Olmasa, he\u00e7 qaytarma. Can\u0131n sa\u011f olsun. O pulu s\u0259n\u0259 borc vermir\u0259m. Amma \u00fcr\u0259yin rahat olsun dey\u0259, pulun \u00e7ox olanda qaytararsan.<\/p>\n

– Ax\u0131, siz m\u0259ni tan\u0131m\u0131rs\u0131z, – dedim. S\u0259sim kalla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, nitqim qurumu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– Biz art\u0131q tan\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Ad\u0131m\u0131 bilm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259ns\u0259, deyim? K\u0259nand\u0131r m\u0259nim ad\u0131m, K\u0259nan. Dem\u0259li, dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131q, bel\u0259 edirs\u0259n, gedirs\u0259n k\u0259nd\u0259, toyuqdan-c\u00fcc\u0259d\u0259n saxlay\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qat\u0131rsan. \u0130\u015f d\u0259 olacaq, dar\u0131xma. Anan\u0131 da he\u00e7 vaxt t\u0259k qoyma, ya\u015fl\u0131 adamd\u0131, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yan\u0131nda ol. Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rimi is\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f n\u0259sih\u0259ti hesab ed\u0259rs\u0259n y\u0259qin.<\/p>\n

K\u0259nan bunlar\u0131 deyib arabas\u0131n\u0131 i\u015f\u0259 sald\u0131. S\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n aralanmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Y\u0259qin fikirl\u0259\u015firdi ki, bird\u0259n m\u0259n pulu qaytara bil\u0259r\u0259m. Sar\u0131 \u0259llilik barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131n ucunda titr\u0259yirdi. D\u0259nizd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259n meh az qal\u0131rd\u0131 pulu \u0259limd\u0259n qopar\u0131b apars\u0131n. K\u0259nan m\u0259nd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131qca h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131m bir az da art\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259hay\u0259t, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlaya bilm\u0259yib q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131m:<\/p>\n

– K\u0259nd\u0259 ged\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m, – dedim.<\/p>\n

K\u0259nan araban\u0131 saxlad\u0131. Yolun ortas\u0131nda h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsiz donub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7\u00f6nm\u0259di d\u0259. S\u0259si d\u0259 g\u0259lmirdi. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, o, k\u0259nd\u0259 ged\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259yimin s\u0259b\u0259bini m\u0259nd\u0259n e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259yir. M\u0259n ona yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b \u0259limi \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoydum. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dik\u0259ldib g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 baxd\u0131, anlad\u0131m ki, s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ard\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir. M\u0259n is\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fa bilmirdim, dilim tutulmu\u015fdu. K\u0259nan m\u0259nim hal\u0131m\u0131, ovqat\u0131m\u0131, t\u0259bii ki, g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc, hiss el\u0259yirdi. El\u0259 y\u0259qin ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, m\u0259ni h\u0259y\u0259candan qurtarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fc dill\u0259ndi:<\/p>\n

– Niy\u0259? N\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ged\u0259 bilmirs\u0259n k\u0259nd\u0259?<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rini m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kmirdi K\u0259nan.<\/p>\n

Hiss edirdim ki, bu durum onu \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdirir. Onu da hiss edirdim ki, K\u0259nan \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rini g\u00fccl\u0259 ram el\u0259yir, m\u0259nim cavab\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir. Art\u0131q q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 x\u0259tti ke\u00e7diyimi bilirdim v\u0259 m\u00fctl\u0259q dan\u0131\u015fmal\u0131yd\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc toparlay\u0131b q\u0131r\u0131q s\u0259sl\u0259 dedim:<\/p>\n

– Bac\u0131m. Bac\u0131m t\u00fcrm\u0259d\u0259di. Adamlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxa bilmir\u0259m. H\u0259r bax\u0131\u015fda bir kinay\u0259, etinas\u0131zl\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Az qal\u0131ram \u00f6l\u00fcb yer\u0259 girim, k\u0259ndd\u0259 olanda.<\/p>\n

– Bac\u0131n n\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 tutulub? – dey\u0259 K\u0259nan t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

O, susdu\u011fumu g\u00f6r\u00fcb, \u0259s\u0259bi halda, bir az da ucadan x\u0259b\u0259r ald\u0131:<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 soru\u015furam tutulub bac\u0131n?<\/p>\n

– K\u0259ndimizd\u0259 bir o\u011flan aldad\u0131b onu. S\u00f6z verib ki, evl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. Amma s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131b, yalan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b. Bac\u0131m da onu \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcb.<\/p>\n

K\u0259nan g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub, qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fa-sola t\u0259rp\u0259tdi. Dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n d\u0259 sakit durmu\u015fdum. Aram\u0131zda g\u0259rgin pauza yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00dcr\u0259yim od tutub yan\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131nay\u0131rd\u0131m. Ax\u0131, niy\u0259, niy\u0259 m\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 azca \u0259vv\u0259l tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir adama dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Lap tutaq ki, do\u011frudan da, o, yax\u015f\u0131 adamd\u0131r. Pulum olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilib, m\u0259n\u0259 pul da verdi. A\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259ri d\u0259 \u00f6z yer\u0131nd\u0259. Amma b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259sas vermir ki, ail\u0259miz\u0259 ba\u015fa\u011fr\u0131s\u0131, \u0259skiklik g\u0259tir\u0259n bir hadis\u0259ni dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m ona. Ax\u0131, o \u00f6zg\u0259dir, yad adamd\u0131r. \u0130ndi onun m\u0259n\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti d\u0259 y\u0259qin d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

K\u0259nan yerind\u0259 qurcalan\u0131b dik\u0259ldi. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi, astadan p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Bel\u0259 hadis\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259yatda \u00e7ox olub, amma buna g\u00f6r\u0259 adam \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k… Bilmir\u0259m… M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131r bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r. B\u0259lk\u0259 \u00e7ox geri qalm\u0131\u015fam?! O da ola bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

– Yox, – dey\u0259 m\u0259n s\u00f6vq-t\u0259bii dill\u0259ndim. – M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 siz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 sad\u0259 deyil…<\/p>\n

M\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fa bilmir, \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259kirdim. Bilmirdim fikrimi ona nec\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131m ki, m\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn. \u0130nsan \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin anlar\u0131nda bel\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qoruma\u011f\u0131, m\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcl\u00fc asan el\u0259m\u0259yi bacarmal\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259nim bac\u0131msa bunu bacarmad\u0131, \u00f6z qisas\u0131n\u0131 onun h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 alt-\u00fcst el\u0259y\u0259n, b\u0259db\u0259xt g\u00fcn\u0259 qoyan bir adam\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 sevdiyi adam\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259kd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fc, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 b\u0259db\u0259xt el\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Fikirl\u0259\u015firdim ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 K\u0259nana dan\u0131\u015fsam, o, bird\u0259n m\u0259ni d\u00fczg\u00fcn anlamaz. L\u0259p\u0259l\u0259rin \u015faqraq s\u0259si m\u0259ni bir an d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rimd\u0259n ay\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n s\u00fcbh tezd\u0259n \u00fcf\u00fcq\u00fcn yava\u015f-yava\u015f q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 r\u0259ng\u0259 boyand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. T\u0259bi\u0259tin bu q\u0259rib\u0259 hal\u0259tin\u0259, bu b\u0259nz\u0259rsiz anlar\u0131na “dan yeri s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr” deyirl\u0259r. Do\u011frudan da, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda ecazkar bir m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 “do\u011fulurdu”.<\/p>\n

Dodaqlar\u0131 bir-birind\u0259n azca aralanm\u0131\u015f, qar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdak\u0131 cazib\u0259dar t\u0259bi\u0259t l\u00f6vh\u0259sin\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 baxan K\u0259nan\u0131n \u0259srar\u0259ngiz g\u00f6z\u0259lliy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r heyranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259ti bir fikir yaratd\u0131: o, pis adam ola bilm\u0259z. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, ideal adam yoxdur bu gidi d\u00fcnyada. H\u0259r\u0259nin n\u0259 is\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmayan c\u0259h\u0259ti var. O c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259n, y\u0259qin ki, K\u0259nan\u0131n da.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n K\u0259nana g\u00f6zalt\u0131 bax\u0131rd\u0131m. El\u0259 bilirdim yeni bir insan k\u0259\u015ff edir\u0259m. Sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131m unudulmu\u015f, m\u0259n\u0259 rahatl\u0131q verm\u0259y\u0259n fikirl\u0259rim buxarlan\u0131b yoxa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Can\u0131mda \u00e7oxdan, lap \u00e7oxdan duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u00fcr\u0259k, q\u0259lb rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. M\u0259n indi, bax, burda, romantik gec\u0259yl\u0259 s\u00fcbh \u00e7a\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qov\u015fa\u011f\u0131nda K\u0259nan\u0131 bu d\u0259nizl\u0259, yeni bir s\u0259h\u0259rin a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fclvi g\u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259 t\u0259k qoyub getm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim. Amma ged\u0259 bilmirdim. Hans\u0131sa bir q\u00fcvv\u0259 m\u0259ni tutub saxlay\u0131r, getm\u0259y\u0259, uzaqla\u015fma\u011fa qoymurdu. Bel\u0259c\u0259, dan yerinin s\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0259sin\u0259 v\u0259 K\u0259nan\u0131n bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni nec\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259 izl\u0259m\u0259sin\u0259 maraqla bax\u0131r, rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir az da art\u0131rd\u0131. Art\u0131q g\u00fcnorta saatlar\u0131nda m\u0259nzil sahibi il\u0259 ba\u015f tutacaq g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f d\u0259 m\u0259ni narahat etmirdi.<\/p>\n

– \u018f\u015fi, c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m olsun, n\u0259 olacaq, olacaq. Bir penc\u0259yim var, at\u0131b \u00e7iynim\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259m. “M\u0259n adam kimi ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m, kiml\u0259r n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259k” prinsipi il\u0259 yox.<\/p>\n

…Acl\u0131q da bir yandan m\u0259ni \u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 g\u00fccl\u0259 dayan\u0131rd\u0131m. Ev\u0259 getm\u0259k, cibim\u0259 qoydu\u011fum \u0259lli manatla evimizin yan\u0131ndak\u0131 iyirmi d\u00f6rd saat i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n marketd\u0259n n\u0259s\u0259 al\u0131b yem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim. \u00dcr\u0259yim \u00e7\u0259kilirdi.<\/p>\n

K\u0259nana bac\u0131m\u0131n adam \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259yinin s\u0259b\u0259bini dem\u0259mi\u015fdim. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 yerimd\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259 bilmirdim. O da soru\u015fmurdu, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr bu onun i\u00e7ind\u0259ki y\u00fcks\u0259k m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259tind\u0259n, b\u00f6y\u00fck insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ir\u0259li g\u0259lirdi. O, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini d\u0259nizd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n dedi:<\/p>\n

– Dey\u0259s\u0259n, getm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, d\u0259nizin havas\u0131 adam\u0131 nec\u0259 acd\u0131r\u0131r. Get, ma\u011fazadan yem\u0259y\u0259 bir \u015fey al, at a\u011fz\u0131na. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc ac qoyma. M\u0259nim telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259mi yaz…<\/p>\n

O, n\u00f6mr\u0259ni dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi, m\u0259n onu qabaqlad\u0131m:<\/p>\n

– Mobil telefonum yoxdu. Satm\u0131\u015fam, – dedim.<\/p>\n

K\u0259nan g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin d\u00fcz i\u00e7in\u0259 baxd\u0131. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t dan\u0131\u015fmad\u0131. Sonra yenid\u0259n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259niz\u0259 dikib dedi:<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131, get. Sabah bu vaxtlar burda olacam. \u0130st\u0259s\u0259n, g\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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K\u0259nanla sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b, ayr\u0131ld\u0131m. Sahild\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131qca d\u0259nizin s\u0259si aram-aram \u00e7\u0259kilirdi qulaqlar\u0131mdan. Prospekt\u0259 qalxan pill\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fanda qula\u011f\u0131 birkal\u0131 itl\u0259r quyruqlar\u0131n\u0131 bulaya-bulaya m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7d\u0131lar. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, acm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, amma onlara veril\u0259si he\u00e7 n\u0259 yox idi m\u0259nd\u0259.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n marketd\u0259n bir az pendir, k\u0259r\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131, \u015f\u0259k\u0259r tozu v\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00f6d\u0259ni\u015f etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kassaya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. \u018flini a\u011fz\u0131na tutub \u0259sn\u0259y\u0259n sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n q\u0131z ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u0259rzaqlar\u0131 hesablay\u0131b sat\u0131\u015f \u00e7ekini m\u0259n\u0259 uzatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrs\u0259n, hardasan? – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– \u0130\u015fim var idi, buralarda yox idim, – deyib \u00e7eki ondan ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 edim ki yalan dan\u0131\u015fa bilmir\u0259m. O da hiss etdi ki, yalan deyir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Sat\u0131c\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n uzun barmaqlar\u0131 var idi. Bu barmaqlar onun q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 paltar\u0131n\u0131n fonunda daha g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n q\u0131z g\u00f6zl\u0259rini s\u00fczd\u00fcr\u00fcb m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 baxd\u0131 ki, yalan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131ma x\u0259cal\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kdim. Sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xanda:<\/p>\n

– Bir problem olsa, yax\u0131nla\u015f, utanma, – dedi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yell\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc bildirib, marketd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Kiray\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m evin bloku qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda sahibsiz pi\u015fikl\u0259r boy-boya vermi\u015fdi. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, onlar da m\u0259nim kimi ac idi. Yenid\u0259n market\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131m. Sat\u0131c\u0131 q\u0131z yen\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini a\u011fz\u0131na apar\u0131b \u0259sn\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k:<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 oldu, niy\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u00fcb dedim:<\/p>\n

– Demirdiniz problem olsa g\u0259l, utanma? M\u0259n d\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m…<\/p>\n

O da g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di v\u0259 m\u0259ni bir d\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bax\u0131\u015flarla s\u00fczd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 sosis g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb ona yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m:<\/p>\n

– Bunlar\u0131 pi\u015fikl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn al\u0131ram. Blokun qaba\u011f\u0131nda oturub m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yirl\u0259r, – dedim v\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 manat verib, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015fa yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. Sat\u0131c\u0131 q\u0131z ucadan:<\/p>\n

– D\u00f6rdayaql\u0131lar\u0131 pis \u00f6yr\u0259tm\u0259, – dedi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n sosisl\u0259ri pi\u015fikl\u0259r\u0259 yedizdirib ota\u011f\u0131ma qalxd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

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S\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yind\u0259n sonra \u00e7arpay\u0131da uzand\u0131m. H\u0259r g\u00fcn e\u015fitdiyim, z\u0259hl\u0259mi aparan c\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131 indi n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rim\u0259 toxunmurdu. \u018fll\u0259rimi ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u00e7arpazlay\u0131b siqaret t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259n avaz\u0131m\u0131\u015f tavana bax\u0131rd\u0131m. \u018fhval\u0131m yax\u015f\u0131yd\u0131. D\u0259nizin saf havas\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 can\u0131mda hiss el\u0259yirdim. K\u0259nanla s\u00f6hb\u0259tim, daim sahil\u0259 can atan l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259rin p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131, ayl\u0131-ulduzlu s\u0259ma, n\u0259hay\u0259tsiz mavi \u0259nginlik… kino lenti kimi g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u0259lib ke\u00e7irdi. Bel\u0259c\u0259, yuxuya getdim.<\/p>\n

…Taqq\u0131lt\u0131ya oyan\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi a\u00e7d\u0131m. Qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Kim ola bil\u0259r, xeyir ola?! Saata baxd\u0131m. On birin yar\u0131s\u0131 idi. M\u0259nzilin sahibi g\u00fcnortadan sonra g\u0259lm\u0259li idi ax\u0131. M\u0259n ucadan:<\/p>\n

– G\u0259lin, – dedim v\u0259 tez d\u0259 gedib qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131m. Qar\u015f\u0131mda b\u0259st\u0259boy bir g\u0259nc xan\u0131m dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018fynind\u0259 qara r\u0259ngd\u0259 uzun donu, \u00e7iynind\u0259 iri \u00e7antas\u0131 var idi. Uzaq yol q\u0259t el\u0259yib g\u0259l\u0259n adamlara ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n onu i\u00e7\u0259ri d\u0259v\u0259t el\u0259dim. O, d\u0259hliz\u0259 ke\u00e7ib \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6hn\u0259, s\u0131n\u0131q-salxaq \u015fkaf\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. Divardak\u0131 \u00e7oxdan silinm\u0259y\u0259n oval g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259liq\u0259y\u0259 sald\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Sizin bu be\u015fm\u0259r\u0259t\u0259b\u0259 lap \u00fcr\u0259yimi \u00fczd\u00fc, – dedi, sonra:<\/p>\n

– Siz Seymursuz, d\u00fcz bilmi\u015f\u0259m? – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259\u0259, Seymuram, – dedim.<\/p>\n

O, \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di. M\u0259n onu masaya d\u0259v\u0259t el\u0259dim:<\/p>\n

– \u018fyl\u0259\u015fin, indi siz\u0259 \u00e7ay g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

O is\u0259:<\/p>\n

– \u00dcz\u00fcm\u0259 bir az s\u0259rin su vurmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m, istidir, – dedi.<\/p>\n

– Buyurun, – dedim v\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7dim.<\/p>\n

\u00c7aydan\u0131 qaz\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydum, soyuducudan pendir, ya\u011f \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b masaya g\u0259tirdim. O, \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259smalla sil\u0259-sil\u0259:<\/p>\n

– Siz Allah \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yin, m\u0259n yem\u0259k yem\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m, amma bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259r\u0259m, – dedi. N\u0259f\u0259sini d\u0259rib, ota\u011fa g\u00f6zucu n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131. Sonra \u00e7aydan bir qurtum al\u0131b:<\/p>\n

– Niy\u0259 ayaq\u00fcst\u0259 durmusuz? \u018fyl\u0259\u015fin, – dedi v\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.<\/p>\n

– Siz d\u0259 anan\u0131z kimi, h\u0259m istiqanl\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 qonaqp\u0259rv\u0259rsiniz. Kim oldu\u011fumu bilm\u0259d\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri buraxd\u0131n\u0131z, indi d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 qulluq g\u00f6st\u0259rirsiniz, amma he\u00e7 soru\u015fmursunuz kim\u0259m?<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcn\u0259 xo\u015f bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm yay\u0131ld\u0131. Bam\u0259z\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131. O \u0259rkl\u0259:<\/p>\n

– Diliniz yoxdur? Dan\u0131\u015f\u0131n da…<\/p>\n

– H\u0259r kimsiniz, qona\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z. N\u0259 deyim? Xo\u015f g\u0259lmisiz.<\/p>\n

B\u0259st\u0259boy xan\u0131m\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fi m\u0259ni \u00e7ox maraqland\u0131rsa da, he\u00e7 n\u0259 soru\u015fmurdum ondan. G\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim \u00f6z\u00fc dan\u0131\u015fs\u0131n. O, \u00e7aydan bir qurtum da i\u00e7ib, \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131, bir b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu.<\/p>\n

– Bu pullar siz\u0259 \u00e7atacaq, – dedi v\u0259 \u00e7antan\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131b s\u00f6hb\u0259tin\u0259 davam el\u0259di. – M\u0259n ixtisasca jurnalist\u0259m. Ad\u0131m Ay\u015f\u0259ndir. “\u0130nsan h\u00fcquqlar\u0131” jurnal\u0131nda m\u00fcxbir i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m. \u0130ndi is\u0259 sizin k\u0259ndd\u0259n g\u0259lir\u0259m, Ya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131dan. Anan\u0131z g\u00f6nd\u0259rdi bu pullar\u0131. \u0130ki g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l is\u0259 qad\u0131n t\u00fcrm\u0259sind\u0259 olmu\u015fam. C\u0259za \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n, islah olunan qad\u0131nlar\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131ndan kitab yaz\u0131ram ax\u0131. Orda sizin bac\u0131n\u0131zla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm – L\u0259manla. Onunla ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 idi g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u0130ki ay \u0259vv\u0259l tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fduq. C\u0259za\u00e7\u0259km\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259ssis\u0259sind\u0259 onu ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 diqq\u0259timi \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi. Dedil\u0259r, yegan\u0259 dustaq qad\u0131nd\u0131r ki, on ildir onunla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 birc\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259yib. Ke\u00e7\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 demi\u015fdi ki, n\u00f6vb\u0259ti g\u0259li\u015finizd\u0259 bir d\u0259ft\u0259r ver\u0259c\u0259m siz\u0259. Onu \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131n Seymura. Ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 s\u0259f\u0259rimd\u0259 verdi bu d\u0259ft\u0259ri m\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

Ay\u015f\u0259n \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131n qabaq g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7d\u0131, boz r\u0259ngli, on iki v\u0259r\u0259qli d\u0259ft\u0259ri \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b, – dedi:<\/p>\n

– Buyurun, h\u0259min d\u0259ft\u0259rdir. L\u0259man xahi\u015f edib ki, \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n sizin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ay\u015f\u0259n \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131n qabaq g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7d\u0131, boz r\u0259ngli, on iki v\u0259r\u0259qli d\u0259ft\u0259ri \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b, m\u0259n\u0259 uzatd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Buyurun, h\u0259min d\u0259ft\u0259rdir. L\u0259man xahi\u015f edib ki, \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n sizin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131m.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcn\u0259n oxumu\u015fam onun yazd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc art\u0131q d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 rica el\u0259mi\u015fdi, demi\u015fdi ki, oxuyub sonra Seymura ver\u0259rsiniz. \u00c7ox maraql\u0131 yaz\u0131b, h\u0259r \u015fey oldu\u011fu kimi, y\u0259ni b\u00fct\u00fcn olaylar v\u0259 o m\u00fcdhi\u015f q\u0259tl nec\u0259 olub, el\u0259 d\u0259 yaz\u0131b. Siz d\u0259 oxuyun, m\u00fctl\u0259q oxuyun v\u0259 bir g\u00fcn L\u0259man\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 gedin. \u0130ndi sizd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kimi yoxdu onun. Azadl\u0131\u011fa burax\u0131lma\u011f\u0131na bir ild\u0259n az qal\u0131b. Onda otuz bir ya\u015f\u0131 olacaq. Bilir\u0259m, sizd\u0259n yeddi ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fc. \u00d6z\u00fc deyib m\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

Ay\u015f\u0259n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bitirib aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131, m\u0259n gedim, yol\u00e7u yolda g\u0259r\u0259k, – dedi.<\/p>\n

\u00c7antas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7iynin\u0259 ke\u00e7irib qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n d\u0259 aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– Sizi yola sal\u0131m, – deyib, \u00e7antan\u0131 ondan ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

O, he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di. Biz pill\u0259l\u0259ri enib h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. Blokdan \u00e7\u0131xanda o, yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda a\u011f r\u0259ngli ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rib dedi:<\/p>\n

– Narahat olmay\u0131n, \u00f6z\u00fcm ged\u0259c\u0259m. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz o a\u011f ma\u015f\u0131n m\u0259nimdi. Bilirsiz, ma\u015f\u0131ns\u0131z bizim i\u015fimiz ke\u00e7mir. H\u0259\u0259… Yax\u015f\u0131 yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. He\u00e7 soru\u015fmad\u0131z k\u0259nd\u0259 niy\u0259 getmi\u015fdim? L\u0259man m\u0259nd\u0259n xahi\u015f el\u0259mi\u015fdi, pul vermi\u015fdi ki, verim anan\u0131za. Bac\u0131n\u0131z dustaqlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f toxuculuq sexind\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, h\u0259r ay maa\u015f al\u0131r. Hesab\u0131nda pul y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b. M\u0259n d\u0259 getdim siz\u0259, pulu verdim G\u00fcls\u00fcm xalaya, sizin o mehriban, i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 d\u00fcma\u011f anan\u0131za.<\/p>\n

Biz ma\u015f\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131q, m\u0259n \u00e7antan\u0131 arxa oturaca\u011fa qoydum.<\/p>\n

– Dem\u0259li, bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki, sizin m\u0259n\u0259 verdiyiniz pullar\u0131 L\u0259man g\u00f6nd\u0259rib? – M\u0259n q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q, tutula-tutula, bir az da h\u0259y\u0259canla soru\u015fdum.<\/p>\n

– Yox… Bu pullar\u0131n L\u0259mana d\u0259xli yoxdur. O, sizin halal pullar\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r, – dedi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n onun s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t verm\u0259d\u0259n:<\/p>\n

– Bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 dayan\u0131n, m\u0259n indi g\u0259lir\u0259m, – dedim.<\/p>\n

\u0130ti add\u0131mlarla bloka girib, pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 qalxd\u0131m. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131m, Ay\u015f\u0259nin masaya qoydu\u011fu pullar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, el\u0259 h\u0259min s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 d\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. G\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fcz, mehriban xan\u0131m s\u00fckan\u0131n arxas\u0131nda da yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, cazib\u0259dar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. O, art\u0131q m\u00fch\u0259rriki i\u015f\u0259 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ay\u015f\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sini a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 endirib:<\/p>\n

– Siz tam arxay\u0131n ola bil\u0259rsiniz, – h\u0259y\u0259tinizd\u0259ki meyv\u0259l\u0259rin puludur, sizin vaxtil\u0259 \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259rinizl\u0259 \u0259kdiyiniz a\u011faclar\u0131n m\u0259hsulunun. G\u00fcls\u00fcm xala sat\u0131b, pulun bir hiss\u0259sini d\u0259 siz\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rib. O bildirdi ki, L\u0259man\u0131n g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi pullar\u0131 onun \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn saxlayacaq.<\/p>\n

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Ay\u015f\u0259n bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri deyib, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u00fcr\u0259tini art\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 bir g\u00f6z q\u0131rp\u0131m\u0131nda uzaqla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

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Vaxt ke\u00e7irdi. M\u0259nzilin sahibi Muxtar ki\u015fi indil\u0259rd\u0259 g\u0259lib m\u0259ni evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xarmal\u0131 idi. \u018flli-\u0259lli be\u015f ya\u015flar\u0131nda, dolu b\u0259d\u0259nli, \u015fi\u015fman, l\u0259ng\u0259rli yeri\u015fi olan bu adam aradan \u00f6t\u0259n m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259 yana\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 olub on-on be\u015f g\u00fcn gec \u00f6d\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m ev pulunu, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259ni yola verib. Amma h\u0259r \u015feyin bir \u0259ndaz\u0259si var v\u0259 m\u0259n o \u0259ndaz\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7oxdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilirdim.<\/p>\n

Pulsuzluqdan da, t\u0259mir\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 olan bu birotaql\u0131 kas\u0131b m\u0259nzild\u0259n d\u0259, yatanda c\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 beynimi did\u0259n \u00e7arpay\u0131dan da, el\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u0259 bezmi\u015fdim.<\/p>\n

Ota\u011fa qalx\u0131b, el\u0259 d\u0259hlizd\u0259c\u0259 pullar\u0131 sayma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bu qeyri-iradi h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tim m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, yava\u015f-yava\u015f yaramaz oluram. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, bel\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131. \u0130ndi nad\u00fcr\u00fcstl\u0259rin, yaramazlar\u0131n i\u015fi el\u0259 r\u0259van, el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l gedir ki, adam d\u00f6n\u00fcb yaramaz olmaq ist\u0259yir. Bu fikirl\u0259ri beynimd\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259y\u0259-\u00e7\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 pullar\u0131 say\u0131b qurtard\u0131m. Min be\u015f y\u00fcz manat pulun ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259st\u0259l\u0259yib cibim\u0259 qoydum. O pulun alt\u0131 y\u00fcz mant\u0131n\u0131 iki ay \u00f6nc\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6d\u0259yib Muxtara ver\u0259c\u0259yimi, K\u0259nandan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u0259lli manat\u0131 qaytaraca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015fib bir az t\u0259skinlik tapd\u0131m. El\u0259 bu vaxt qap\u0131 yenid\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc v\u0259 ehmalca a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Muxtar f\u0131s\u0131ldaya-f\u0131s\u0131ldaya ota\u011fa daxil oldu. Salam verib hal\u0131m\u0131 soru\u015fdu. M\u0259n ona t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr el\u0259yib iki ayl\u0131q pulunu qabaqcadan \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi dedim. V\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, Muxtar bu x\u0259b\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7ox sevin\u0259c\u0259k. O, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulay\u0131b d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131. A\u011f\u0131r b\u0259d\u0259nli bu adam k\u00f6hn\u0259 \u00e7arpay\u0131ya oturanda e\u015fitdiyimiz qulaqbat\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 s\u0259s\u0259 ikimiz d\u0259 b\u0259s deyinc\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fck. M\u0259n arada yaranm\u0131\u015f bu yum\u015faq m\u00fcnasib\u0259td\u0259n, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, faydalanmaq ist\u0259dim v\u0259 cibimd\u0259n topa pullar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131m. Alt\u0131 d\u0259n\u0259 y\u00fczl\u00fck ay\u0131r\u0131b Muxtara uzatd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– Buyurun, Muxtar day\u0131, iki ayl\u0131q kiray\u0259 haqq\u0131n\u0131 qabaqcadan \u00f6d\u0259yir\u0259m. Sizin m\u0259n\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tiniz \u00e7ox ke\u00e7ib. \u0130ndi m\u0259nim imkan\u0131m var, deyir\u0259m, bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n n\u0259 is\u0259 bir i\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcm sizin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. El\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bir az rahat n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131m, pul s\u00f6hb\u0259tind\u0259n bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t can\u0131m\u0131 qurtar\u0131m, – dedim.<\/p>\n

Zahir\u0259n kor-kobud, \u00fcr\u0259yi is\u0259 ip\u0259k kimi yuxa olan, onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn pul probleml\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0259birl\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259n bu adam m\u0259ni ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f kimi, t\u0259p\u0259d\u0259n-d\u0131rna\u011fa s\u00fcz\u00fcb soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

– Hardand\u0131r, bir bel\u0259 pul s\u0259nd\u0259?<\/p>\n

A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131, Muxtar\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259 sual ver\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdim. Suala haz\u0131r olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan \u0259limi geri \u00e7\u0259kdim v\u0259 pullar\u0131 qeyri-ixtiyari cibim\u0259 qoydum. Su\u00e7lu adamlar kimi ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yer\u0259 dikdim.<\/p>\n

Muxtar aram-aram dill\u0259ndi:<\/p>\n

– Adam pulu halal qazanar, haram\u0131n ax\u0131r\u0131 yoxdur. Pul g\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, ged\u0259r d\u0259, amma hans\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 olursansa-ol, g\u0259r\u0259k adaml\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 itirm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

– O pullar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 evd\u0259n g\u00f6nd\u0259ribl\u0259r. Bu g\u00fcn, bir saat \u0259vv\u0259l g\u0259tirib veribl\u0259r, – dedim v\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b Muxtar\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 q\u0259ti bir inamla baxd\u0131m ki, onun ba\u015fqa bir sual verm\u0259sin\u0259 daha l\u00fczum qalmas\u0131n. Muxtar b\u0131\u011falt\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib \u0259ll\u0259rini qoynunda \u00e7arpazlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Muxtar day\u0131, s\u00f6zl\u00fc adama ox\u015fay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? N\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz var, deyin. \u0130st\u0259s\u0259niz, m\u0259n sizin bu m\u0259nzili el\u0259 bu saat t\u0259rk el\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m. Qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m son yeddi g\u00fcn\u00fcn pulunu da \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Muxtar bir an fikr\u0259 getdi:<\/p>\n

– Bilirs\u0259n, bac\u0131o\u011flu, s\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 o\u011flansan, amma g\u0259l, a\u00e7\u0131q dan\u0131\u015faq. Deyirs\u0259n, bu pulu s\u0259n\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259n g\u00f6nd\u0259ribl\u0259r. Kim g\u00f6nd\u0259rib, Allah can\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011f el\u0259sin, yax\u015f\u0131 el\u0259yib. Amma o adam kimdirs\u0259, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 pul g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k ax\u0131. Bir-iki aydan sonra s\u0259nin pul problemin yen\u0259 qalxacaq. M\u0259nim d\u0259 bu ya\u015f\u0131mda kiminl\u0259s\u0259 pul s\u00f6hb\u0259ti aparma\u011fa, m\u00fcbahis\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259sim var, n\u0259 d\u0259 h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259m. Yen\u0259 deyir\u0259m, s\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 o\u011flansan. S\u0259ni itirm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m, m\u0259ni d\u00fczg\u00fcn ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f. M\u0259nim d\u0259 \u00f6z probleml\u0259rim var. H\u0259r ay banklara kredit verir\u0259m. S\u0259n bir h\u0259ft\u0259dir kiray\u0259 haqq\u0131n\u0131 gecikdirirs\u0259n, m\u0259nim d\u0259 kreditl\u0259rimin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 faizl\u0259r g\u0259lir. Amma bu pullar\u0131 vaxt\u0131nda m\u0259n\u0259 vers\u0259ydin, indi m\u0259n d\u0259 rahat n\u0259f\u0259s alard\u0131m. Ax\u0131, bel\u0259 olmaz, h\u0259r \u015feyin \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, bi\u00e7imi, h\u0259r \u015feyin bir dir\u0259n\u0259n yeri var.<\/p>\n

Muxtar s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ara verib aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. A\u011f\u0131r add\u0131mlarla p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131:<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 demir\u0259m. Bax, s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn de. De g\u00f6r\u00fcm, m\u0259n n\u0259 edim? Nec\u0259 edim, n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r edim?<\/p>\n

– Sizi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, Muxtar day\u0131, m\u0259n n\u0259 deyim. M\u0259nzilin sahibi sizsiz, nec\u0259 deyirsiz, el\u0259 d\u0259 olsun. Amma m\u0259n\u0259m ki, bu m\u0259nzild\u0259 qal\u0131ram a… He\u00e7 k\u0259s g\u0259lib burda ya\u015famaz. Ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131 qopuq divarlar adam\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lir, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r n\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259dir? H\u0259l\u0259 tualeti, hamam\u0131, m\u0259tb\u0259xi demir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n pullar\u0131 cibimd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b aras\u0131ndan bir y\u00fczl\u00fck ay\u0131rd\u0131m, m\u0259nzilin a\u00e7arlar\u0131 il\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 dolab\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydum.<\/p>\n

– Sa\u011f olun, – deyib qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f getdim.<\/p>\n

Muxtar:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n\u0259 bir s\u00f6z deyim, he\u00e7 vaxt yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xarma.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n dayan\u0131b onun n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini qeyri-adi maraqla g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. Bu adamla bundan sonra, b\u0259lk\u0259 bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim. Bu adam\u0131n s\u0259sini y\u0259qin bir d\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim. B\u0259li, m\u0259hz el\u0259 bu anda fikirl\u0259\u015fdim ki, “Muxtar day\u0131” dey\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m, \u00f6z\u00fc demi\u015fk\u0259n, m\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt pis olmayan bu q\u0259rib\u0259 adamla bel\u0259 soyuq \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 ayr\u0131lma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 n\u0259 Allah g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r, n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bil\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Tez ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 geyinib ota\u011fa d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. Muxtar s\u0131n\u0131q-salxaq p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131nda dayan\u0131b h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b \u0259limi onun \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoydum v\u0259 \u00e7ox yum\u015faq \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 dedim:<\/p>\n

– Buyurun, Muxtar day\u0131, deyin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc, e\u015fidir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Muxtar d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131b, m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Onunla \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 qald\u0131q. Muxtar\u0131n \u015fi\u015fman qarn\u0131 m\u0259ni bir az geri \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur etdi. O, cibind\u0259n d\u0259smal \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b boynunu, bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131, sonra aln\u0131n\u0131 sildi. A\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r dill\u0259ndi:<\/p>\n

– \u0130ncim\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n s\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n?<\/p>\n

– Yox, Muxtar day\u0131, Allah el\u0259m\u0259sin. Siz s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc deyin, he\u00e7 a\u011fsaqqal s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n incim\u0259k olar? – dey\u0259 m\u0259n ona \u00fcr\u0259k-dir\u0259k verdim ki, o, fikrini rahat s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259 bilsin.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n \u00e7al\u0131\u015f, Seymur, he\u00e7 vaxt he\u00e7 kim\u0259 m\u00f6htac olma; n\u0259 ataya, n\u0259 anaya, n\u0259 qarda\u015fa, n\u0259 d\u0259 bac\u0131ya – he\u00e7 kim\u0259. Ki\u015fi olan k\u0259s \u00f6z\u00fc qazanar, \u00f6z qazanc\u0131n\u0131 yey\u0259r. Az, ya \u00e7ox, d\u0259xli yoxdur – \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 doland\u0131rar, arvad-u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da. M\u0259n dediyim kimi ya\u015fasan, h\u0259yatda h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 nail olacaqsan. Yox, \u0259g\u0259r el\u0259-bel\u0259 ba\u015f girl\u0259s\u0259n, ax\u0131r\u0131n olmayacaq s\u0259nin, – deyib, t\u0259krar p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evrildi v\u0259 nazik yay penc\u0259yinin cibind\u0259n siqaret \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b yand\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fa bilmirdim, nitqim qurumu\u015fdu. B\u0259lk\u0259, bu adam\u0131n h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259ri var. H\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259k olmaz, b\u0259lk\u0259 bu adam m\u0259nim bac\u0131m\u0131n dustaq h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da \u00f6yr\u0259nib, dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm v\u0259 bu fikirl\u0259r m\u0259nd\u0259 bir rahats\u0131zl\u0131q yarad\u0131rd\u0131. Susurdum, amma dan\u0131\u015fmal\u0131 idim. N\u0259 is\u0259 dem\u0259li idim bu t\u0259zadlarla dolu \u015fi\u015fman adama. \u018fslind\u0259 d\u00fcz deyirdi, amma niy\u0259 indi? Evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdiyim anda, ovqat\u0131m\u0131n bel\u0259 t\u0259lx vaxt\u0131nda, h\u0259m d\u0259 pullar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259n sonra dedi bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri m\u0259n\u0259. B\u0259li, m\u0259n n\u0259 is\u0259 dem\u0259li idim. Muxtara cavab verm\u0259d\u0259n bu evi t\u0259rk etm\u0259yimi \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamazd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– Siz bilirsiz, bu pullar m\u0259nd\u0259 hardand\u0131r? – dey\u0259 m\u0259n yava\u015fca Muxtardan soru\u015fdum.<\/p>\n

– \u00d6z\u00fcn dedin ax\u0131, evd\u0259n g\u00f6nd\u0259ribl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

– O\u011flunuz ya\u015f\u0131nda bir adam\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131rmaq, utand\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yirsiz. Sizin ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131za-ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131za yara\u015fm\u0131r ax\u0131 bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259t. M\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini yem\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. K\u0259ndd\u0259 meyv\u0259 a\u011faclar\u0131 il\u0259 dolu iri h\u0259y\u0259timiz var. H\u0259r ilin bu vaxt\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131nlarla g\u0259lib al\u0131rlar bizd\u0259n. B\u0259li, anamla birg\u0259 \u0259kdiyimiz meyv\u0259 a\u011faclar\u0131n\u0131n, min \u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259 \u0259rs\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259tirdiyimiz, bu g\u00fcn b\u0259hr\u0259sini g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz alman\u0131n, heyvan\u0131n, nar\u0131n, qozun, f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131n d\u0259y\u0259ridir bu pullar, – dedim v\u0259 iti add\u0131mlarla qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f getdim.<\/p>\n

Muxtar ard\u0131mca:<\/p>\n

– Burda bir d\u0259ft\u0259r var, y\u0259qin s\u0259nindir? – dedi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n qay\u0131d\u0131b Ay\u015f\u0259nin g\u0259tirdiyi on iki v\u0259r\u0259q d\u0259ft\u0259ri dolab\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb Muxtara yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. Onun qan\u0131 qaralm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini yer\u0259 dikmi\u015fdi. Bir \u0259li \u015falvar\u0131n\u0131n cibind\u0259ydi, o biri \u0259lind\u0259 tutdu\u011fu siqaretin k\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ucu il\u0259 yer\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n \u0259limi onun \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoyub:<\/p>\n

– \u018fg\u0259r x\u0259triniz\u0259 d\u0259ydims\u0259, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, – dedim v\u0259 otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u0130ki ild\u0259n \u00e7ox ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu k\u00f6hn\u0259 be\u015fm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li binadan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131qca \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n k\u00f6vr\u0259k hissl\u0259r ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131m. M\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fma olan bir yeri, oca\u011f\u0131 sanki \u0259b\u0259di t\u0259rk el\u0259yirdim. Halbuki m\u0259n bu evd\u0259 sars\u0131nt\u0131lar da ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, el\u0259 olmu\u015fdu g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc c\u0259mi bir d\u0259f\u0259 yem\u0259kl\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, kiray\u0259 pulunu vaxt\u0131nda Muxtara ver\u0259 bilm\u0259yib, utanc hissi ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdim. On iki saat g\u00fcn\u0259muzd f\u0259hl\u0259lik el\u0259yib, yorulub, \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, ev\u0259 birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7ataraq c\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rimi oynadan \u00e7arpay\u0131ya \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fccl\u0259 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. He\u00e7 inanmazd\u0131m ki, bir g\u00fcn bu evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda bel\u0259 nostalji hissl\u0259r ya\u015fayacam. M\u0259n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rmaq, h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flay\u0131b \u00fcr\u0259yimi bo\u015faltmaq ist\u0259yirdim. Niy\u0259? S\u0259b\u0259bini \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bilmirdim. Bundan \u00f6tr\u00fc m\u00fctl\u0259q d\u0259niz\u0259 getm\u0259liydim. Sahild\u0259 kims\u0259nin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yer tap\u0131b hayq\u0131rmaq da, a\u011flamaq da m\u00fcmk\u00fcn idi. Amma indi yox, gec\u0259 yar\u0131dan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 – s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131n dan yeri s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259nd\u0259, l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259zin-h\u0259zin p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lda\u015fanda, \u0259n ba\u015fl\u0131cas\u0131, K\u0259nan da orada olanda getm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim d\u0259niz\u0259.<\/p>\n

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M\u0259n hara getdiyimin f\u0259rqin\u0259 varm\u0131rd\u0131m. Yem\u0259kl\u0259rin menyusu yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f l\u00f6vh\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 sata\u015fanda bildim ki, bir kafenin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fam. Kafey\u0259 daxil olub xidm\u0259t\u00e7i xan\u0131ma \u00fcz tutdum:<\/p>\n

– Bo\u015f ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131z var? – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdum.<\/p>\n

O, m\u0259nim sual\u0131ma sualla cavab verdi:<\/p>\n

– Ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259rsiniz?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n t\u0259k oldu\u011fumu dedim.<\/p>\n

– Yox, biz t\u0259k adam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn otaq vermirik. M\u00fcdir biz\u0259 bel\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131b, – dedi v\u0259 uzaqla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259ki otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xan xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan \u0259lind\u0259 m\u0259cm\u0259yi yan\u0131mdan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 onu s\u0259sl\u0259dim:<\/p>\n

– Sizin m\u00fcdirin ota\u011f\u0131 hans\u0131d\u0131r?<\/p>\n

Xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan:<\/p>\n

– Bu otaq el\u0259 m\u00fcdirin ota\u011f\u0131d\u0131, m\u0259n ona yem\u0259k g\u0259tirmi\u015fdim, – dedi v\u0259 getdi.<\/p>\n

Qap\u0131n\u0131 ehtiyatla d\u00f6y\u00fcb, icaz\u0259 alaraq i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7dim. El\u0259 m\u0259n ya\u015fda, s\u0259liq\u0259li geyinmi\u015f bir g\u0259nc idi kafenin m\u00fcdiri. O yem\u0259k yeyirdi v\u0259 m\u0259ni d\u0259 masaya d\u0259v\u0259t el\u0259di. T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc bildirib dedim:<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n\u0259 bir otaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. Gec\u0259 saat on ikiy\u0259, \u0259n geci bir\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Kafenin m\u00fcdiri:<\/p>\n

– Bura kafedir, otel deyil, – dedi, bir \u0259lind\u0259 \u00e7\u0259ng\u0259l, bir \u0259lind\u0259 b\u0131\u00e7aq yem\u0259yin\u0259 davam el\u0259di.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s yem\u0259k yem\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ksiniz? – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– Yox, yem\u0259k yey\u0259c\u0259m. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, indi nahar el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m, el\u0259 ax\u015fam yem\u0259yini d\u0259 burda yeyib ged\u0259c\u0259m, – dedim.<\/p>\n

– Biz gec\u0259 on ikiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r i\u015fl\u0259yirik.<\/p>\n

– \u018fla, lap yerin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. M\u0259n on bird\u0259 yem\u0259k yeyib, on ikid\u0259 burdan \u00e7\u0131xaram. D\u0259niz\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259m, saat d\u00f6rdd\u0259 bir n\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm var.<\/p>\n

Kafenin m\u00fcdiri \u00e7\u0259ng\u0259l-b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 bo\u015fqaba qoyub, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 salfetl\u0259 sildi. V\u0259 maraqla soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

– Gec\u0259 saat d\u00f6rdd\u0259? O n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc el\u0259?<\/p>\n

– M\u0259nim K\u0259nan ad\u0131nda bir dostum var. H\u0259r gec\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131n \u0259lil arabas\u0131nda d\u0259niz\u0259 g\u0259lir. H\u0259\u0259, \u00e7ox maraql\u0131 adamd\u0131. S\u00fcbh tezd\u0259n g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin d\u0259nizd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131na bax\u0131r v\u0259 bundan l\u0259zz\u0259t al\u0131r.<\/p>\n

– Dediniz \u0259lil arabas\u0131nda g\u0259lir, y\u0259qin m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 olub, qazidir? – dey\u0259 o soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– Bilmir\u0259m. M\u0259n onunla bu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fam, bir aya\u011f\u0131 dizd\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yox idi.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bu vaxt ota\u011f\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. Xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan \u00e7ay g\u0259tirib masaya qoydu. Kafenin m\u00fcdiri ona:<\/p>\n

– St\u0259kan\u0131n birini d\u0259 g\u0259tir, – dedi.<\/p>\n

Xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan:<\/p>\n

– Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259, – deyib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Siz deyirsiz on ikid\u0259 burdan \u00e7\u0131xacaqs\u0131z, d\u00f6rdd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcz var. Yax\u015f\u0131, b\u0259s on ikid\u0259n d\u00f6rd\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r siz neyniy\u0259c\u0259ksiz? O vaxt hava soyuq olur, \u0259yniniz d\u0259 \u00e7ox nazikdir.<\/p>\n

– He\u00e7 n\u0259 olmaz. Yayd\u0131r, havalar isti ke\u00e7ir, – dedim.<\/p>\n

– Yoox, olanda olur.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259timizin al\u0131nmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 art\u0131q g\u00fcman el\u0259yib:<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131, m\u0259n gedim. Sa\u011f olun, – deyib, qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– Sizin ad\u0131n\u0131z n\u0259dir? – dey\u0259 kafenin m\u00fcdiri arxamca s\u0259sl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

Ona ad\u0131m\u0131 dedim. O is\u0259:<\/p>\n

– M\u0259nim d\u0259 ad\u0131m Arifdi, – dedi.<\/p>\n

O, m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b \u0259lini uzatd\u0131. Bel\u0259c\u0259, biz tan\u0131\u015f olduq.<\/p>\n

– Bir yerd\u0259 oxuyub el\u0259misiz? – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu Arif.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259\u0259, ali t\u0259hsilli aqronomam, – dedim.<\/p>\n

Arif g\u00fcld\u00fc. \u018fll\u0259rini qoynunda \u00e7arpazlay\u0131b:<\/p>\n

– Qarda\u015f, dem\u0259li, s\u0259nin yerin \u015f\u0259h\u0259r deyil.<\/p>\n

– Tamam do\u011fru, el\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn d\u0259 diplomuma heyfim g\u0259lir, – dedim.<\/p>\n

\u018fslind\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259timizin ba\u015fqa s\u0259mt\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259yini ist\u0259mirdim. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 yen\u0259 m\u0259ni narahat el\u0259y\u0259n \u0259sas m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131m:<\/p>\n

– Siz m\u0259n\u0259 bir otaq t\u0259\u015fkil el\u0259yin, m\u0259n bu gec\u0259ni birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6t\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcm. Yem\u0259yin hesab\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa, \u0259lav\u0259 iyirmi manat da ver\u0259r\u0259m, – dedim.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bu vaxt xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan i\u00e7\u0259ri girib \u0259lind\u0259ki st\u0259kan\u0131 masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu, – Ayr\u0131 n\u0259 is\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z var? – dey\u0259 Arifd\u0259n soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– Var.<\/p>\n

– Buyurun, e\u015fidir\u0259m, – dey\u0259 o\u011flan dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

– Bu qarda\u015f\u0131n ad\u0131 Seymurdur. M\u0259n indi gedir\u0259m, el\u0259 bu otaqda qulluq el\u0259yin ona. \u00d6z\u00fc n\u0259 vaxt getm\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259, getsin.<\/p>\n

Xidm\u0259t\u00e7i o\u011flan:<\/p>\n

– Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259, – deyib otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Ba\u015fqa bir obyekt d\u0259 var, ora getm\u0259liy\u0259m. Siz rahat istirah\u0259t edin. Bu otaqda h\u0259r c\u00fcr \u015f\u0259rait var. Hamam\u0131, kondisioneri, divan\u0131, y\u0259ni \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa ehtiyac yoxdur. O dediyiniz \u0259lav\u0259 iyirmi manat da laz\u0131m deyil. N\u0259 sifari\u015f vers\u0259niz, pulunu \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259rsiniz, b\u0259s el\u0259y\u0259r. H\u0259, gec\u0259 saat 3-d\u0259n tez getm\u0259yin. \u0130\u015f\u00e7il\u0259r on ikid\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. G\u00f6z\u0259t\u00e7i saat \u00fc\u00e7d\u0259 sizi yola salacaq.<\/p>\n

Arif bunlar\u0131 deyib, m\u0259niml\u0259 sa\u011folla\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. O ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bel\u0259 rahat ota\u011f\u0131n, el\u0259 Arifin \u00f6z\u00fc demi\u015f, gec\u0259nin yar\u0131s\u0131nad\u0259k ixtiyar\u0131mda olmas\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259 xo\u015f bir ovqat yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u0259limin \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fc, n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi v\u0259 nec\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdir\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim o \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u00fc anlar ka\u015f he\u00e7 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u0259 yaz\u0131lmayayd\u0131. Anla\u015f\u0131lmaz bir durumda qal\u0131b hara getm\u0259yimin f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmadan saatlarla qa\u00e7\u0131b “b\u0259sdi” deyinc\u0259 yorulmaq, haldan-hala d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, \u015f\u0131d\u0131r\u011f\u0131 ya\u011fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n alt\u0131nda diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb, torpa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcqoylu uzan\u0131b, t\u0259rki-d\u00fcnya olmaq ist\u0259yimin can\u0131mda t\u00fc\u011fyan el\u0259diyi bir vaxtda Arifl\u0259 tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n onunla s\u00f6hb\u0259timin al\u0131nmas\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi h\u0259r \u015feyi, el\u0259 bu c\u0259nc\u0259l d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, h\u0259r bir insan onun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda yaranan \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259r\u0259 \u0259l qald\u0131r\u0131b, “qism\u0259t bel\u0259ymi\u015f” deyib t\u0259slim olmamal\u0131d\u0131r, m\u0259qs\u0259din\u0259 do\u011fru h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259lidir. Bel\u0259 olarsa, n\u0259 vaxtsa onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir \u015fans\u0131n yaranmas\u0131, y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b-durdu\u011fu, b\u00fcdr\u0259diyi, t\u0259l\u0259sdiyi \u00f6m\u00fcr yollar\u0131nda ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n yanmas\u0131 m\u00fctl\u0259q v\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131lmazd\u0131r. Bel\u0259 \u015fanslar is\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259 yaranm\u0131r. Ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131qlar h\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259 yanm\u0131r qar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda.<\/p>\n

Yad\u0131mdad\u0131r, universitet ill\u0259rind\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 o\u011flanlar\u0131n v\u0259 g\u0259nc m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rin yuxusunu qa\u00e7\u0131ran, onlar\u0131n ciddi v\u0259 qeyri-ciddi t\u0259klifl\u0259rini r\u0259dd el\u0259y\u0259n G\u00fclg\u0259z adl\u0131 olduqca g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 m\u0259sum bir t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6z yolda\u015flar\u0131 aras\u0131nda m\u0259n\u0259 olan sevgisini a\u00e7\u0131q etiraf etm\u0259si b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259s-k\u00fcy\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b olmu\u015fdu. Halbuki o q\u0131z h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259nim diqq\u0259timd\u0259n k\u0259narda qal\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00fclg\u0259z haqq\u0131nda he\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fcm d\u0259. Amma o q\u0131z m\u0259nim \u00f6m\u00fcr yolumda yanan ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131q idi, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259.<\/p>\n

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