{"id":50910,"date":"2025-08-31T07:27:54","date_gmt":"2025-08-31T03:27:54","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/?p=50910"},"modified":"2025-12-23T07:47:19","modified_gmt":"2025-12-23T03:47:19","slug":"ebulf%c9%99t-medetoglu-uzum-gulmek-isteyende","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/?p=50910","title":{"rendered":"\u018fb\u00fclf\u0259t M\u018fD\u018fTO\u011eLU : &#8211;  \u00dcZ\u00dcM G\u00dcLM\u018fK \u0130ST\u018fY\u018fND\u018f&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Vaxts\u0131z yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 a\u011f\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Q\u0259rib\u0259dir, biz g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck, e\u015fitmi\u015fdik ki, yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc pay\u0131zda olur. V\u0259 bu g\u00f6r\u00fcb e\u015fitdiyimiz\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nib h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 pay\u0131z\u0131 bir az nisgilli, bir az x\u0259z\u0259l qoxulu ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f\u0131q. El\u0259 bilmi\u015fik ki, tapdanan x\u0259z\u0259ll\u0259rin alt\u0131nda \u00f6mr\u00fcn m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n anlar\u0131 da, m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n xatir\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259, h\u0259tta el\u0259 bir par\u00e7as\u0131 da \u0259zilir, x\u0131\u015flan\u0131r v\u0259 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131r torpa\u011fa. Amma s\u0259n dem\u0259, t\u0259bi\u0259t hadis\u0259sini biz fantaziyam\u0131zla, t\u0259x\u0259yy\u00fcl\u00fcm\u00fczl\u0259, h\u0259tta biraz \u015fairliyimizl\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 uy\u011funla\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Y\u0259ni insan \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc, t\u0259bi\u0259t \u00f6mr\u00fc\u00a0\u00a0 il\u0259, daha d\u0259qiq ifad\u0259 ets\u0259m, onun pay\u0131z f\u0259sli\u00a0 il\u0259 \u00a0paralell\u0259\u015fdirmi\u015fik. El\u0259 burdaca tez-tez t\u0259krar olunan v\u0259 az qala m\u00fcdrik bir k\u0259lama \u00e7evril\u0259n \u201c\u0130nanma \u015fair s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yaland\u0131r\u201d misras\u0131n\u0131 yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 dedikl\u0259rimiz\u0259 tam uy\u011fun bildim. V\u0259 bir daha anlad\u0131m ki, \u015fair s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 inanmaq, uymaq he\u00e7 d\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcl rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259tirmir. Bir d\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, \u015fairl\u0259r x\u0259yalp\u0259rv\u0259r olur! -deyirl\u0259r. N\u0259 is\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Art\u0131q qorabi\u015fir\u0259nin, y\u0259ni avqustun n\u0259f\u0259sinin darald\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc g\u0259ldi d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc yad\u0131ma, \u00f6mr\u00fcn yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc&#8230; Seyr\u0259l\u0259n s\u0131ram\u0131z\u0131n, azalan dostlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n, kasadla\u015fan g\u00fcv\u0259ncimizin yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc. Bir anl\u0131q b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fck adam\u0131 El\u00e7in m\u00fc\u0259llimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Y\u0259ni El\u00e7in \u018ff\u0259ndiyevi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. \u018fd\u0259biyyatda s\u00f6z\u00fc, izi olan K\u0259ram\u0259ti xat\u0131rlad\u0131m. B\u00f6y\u00fck poeziya adam\u0131 M\u0259mm\u0259d \u0130smay\u0131l\u0131n p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u201cD\u00f6y qap\u0131m\u0131, a\u011facd\u0259l\u0259n, d\u00f6y g\u00f6r\u00fcm!\u201d misras\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fckd\u0259 \u015feirini sanki ilk d\u0259f\u0259 dinl\u0259dim. Vicdan\u0131n susmas\u0131na etiraz ed\u0259n Vidadi Babanl\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcsahib\u0259l\u0259rini el\u0259 bil yenid\u0259n dinl\u0259dim. D\u0259y\u0259rli V\u00fcqar Tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u0259l boyda kitablar\u0131n\u0131n yenid\u0259n kitab r\u0259find\u0259ki yerin\u0259 diqq\u0259t yetirdim&#8230; H\u0259, bunlar bir ay\u0131n yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn cizgil\u0259ridi. V\u0259 o cizgil\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259-d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259tlik F\u0259rman K\u0259rimzad\u0259nin \u201cQarl\u0131 a\u015f\u0131r\u0131m\u201d \u0259s\u0259rind\u0259ki q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n\u0131n, y\u0259ni K\u0259rb\u0259layinin s\u00f6z\u00fc yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. T \u0259xmin\u0259n bel\u0259 deyirdi:<\/p>\n<p>&#8211; Biz g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck ki, sel g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l\u00a0 \u00e7\u00f6r-\u00e7\u00f6p g\u0259tir\u0259r, amma\u00a0 indi qaba\u011fa k\u00f6t\u00fckl\u0259ri veribl\u0259r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>B\u0259li, m\u00fcqayis\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 do\u011fru deyil, amma avqustun yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n d\u0259y\u0259rlil\u0259rini, s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn a\u011falar\u0131n\u0131 silk\u0259l\u0259di. T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, bu yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n adamlar\u0131n, x\u00fcsusil\u0259, \u0259d\u0259biyyatda olan adamlar\u0131n he\u00e7 t\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259tm\u0259di. Sanki d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259nl\u0259r onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 bir \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t k\u0259sb etmirdi, sanki bu \u201cbo\u015falmalar\u201d onlara meydan a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Amma m\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla inan\u0131ram ki, d\u00fcnyada, o c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259d\u0259bi m\u00fcst\u0259vid\u0259 he\u00e7 kim he\u00e7 kimin yerini tutmur, he\u00e7 kim he\u00e7 kimin yerind\u0259 oturmur. H\u0259r k\u0259sin \u00f6z s\u00f6z\u00fc, \u00f6z yeri var!<\/p>\n<p>Bax bu m\u0259nada m\u0259n ki\u00e7ik dair\u0259d\u0259, y\u0259ni ail\u0259m, k\u0259ndim dair\u0259sind\u0259 itirdikl\u0259rimi d\u0259 xat\u0131rlay\u0131b \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259\u00a0 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131ram:<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u00dcz\u00fcm g\u00fclm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259m g\u00fcl\u00fcr,<\/p>\n<p>El\u0259 bil ki, dayan\u0131bd\u0131 g\u00fcd\u00fckd\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Niy\u0259 m\u0259ni ham\u0131 q\u0259md\u0259n d\u0259m bilir &#8211;<\/p>\n<p>Havam\u0131 da s\u0259sl\u0259ndirir d\u00fcd\u00fckd\u0259!<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Bil\u0259-bil\u0259 dizl\u0259rimin t\u0259p\u0259rin,<\/p>\n<p>Tapdamad\u0131m bir kimins\u0259 \u00e7\u0259p\u0259rin,<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n s\u00f6yl\u0259dim d\u0259rm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n b\u0259h\u0259rin \u2013<\/p>\n<p>\u0130lk s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc son s\u00f6z\u00fcm t\u0259k g\u0259dikd\u0259!..<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Bu talehdi &#8211; bir d\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259, g\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259,<\/p>\n<p>H\u0259sr\u0259t olsun ax\u0131 kim\u0259, g\u00fcl, n\u0259y\u0259?<\/p>\n<p>Ni\u015fangahd\u0131 ,\u00fcr\u0259k g\u0259l\u0259n g\u00fcll\u0259y\u0259 &#8211;<\/p>\n<p>S\u0259n \u0259sdirm\u0259 barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259tikd\u0259!<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>B\u0259li, h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu h\u0259yat\u0131n son 40 ili dem\u0259k olar ki, a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131 il\u0259, itkil\u0259rl\u0259 v\u0259 bir d\u0259 i\u00e7im\u0259 axan g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131mla yad\u0131mda qal\u0131b. Onun 30 ili v\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259nsiz ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131mla \u00a0ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r. \u015e\u00fck\u00fcrl\u0259r olsun ki, B\u00f6y\u00fck Z\u0259f\u0259r v\u0259t\u0259nsizliyim\u0259 son qoydu. Amma i\u00e7imd\u0259ki o s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131 bir tarix kimi, bir yadda\u015f kimi qald\u0131 v\u0259 qalacaq. Bunun da \u0259sas s\u0259b\u0259bi yadda\u015fs\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za, unutqanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za etiraz olaraq qalacaq. Bizi bir daha \u00e7oma\u011f\u0131 \u0259ld\u0259n yer\u0259 qoymama\u011fa k\u00f6kl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Amma qalan sonrak\u0131 onillik is\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259rin, taleyin yox, b\u0259z\u0259n vaxts\u0131z \u0259c\u0259lin d\u0259 vurdu\u011fu z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rin budad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131d\u0131r, itkil\u0259ridir.<\/p>\n<p>Dey\u0259 bil\u0259rsiniz ki, s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259rind\u0259 qeyri-adi he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdur. Ham\u0131s\u0131 h\u0259r k\u0259sin bildiyi, h\u0259r g\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 adi hallard\u0131r. Olsun! M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm, bildiyim kimi bunu dil\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259kl\u0259 h\u0259m duy\u011fular\u0131m\u0131 sizinl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, h\u0259m d\u0259 ititrdikl\u0259rimin ruhu qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ba\u015f \u0259yir\u0259m. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n v\u0259fas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6mr\u00fcn q\u0131sal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bir iyn\u0259 ucu i\u015f\u0131q kimi k\u00f6z\u0259rdir\u0259m. V\u0259 el\u0259 o k\u00f6z\u0259r\u0259n i\u015f\u0131qda da m\u0259nim xat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kimi m\u0259nim d\u0259 xat\u0131rlanaca\u011f\u0131ma \u00fcmid edir\u0259m v\u0259 yaz\u0131ram:<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>S\u00f6yk\u0259ndiyim qaya qopub, da\u015f qopub,<\/p>\n<p>N\u0259riltisi yeri, g\u00f6y\u00fc titr\u0259dir&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Kirpiyimin ucunacan ya\u015f hopub &#8211;<\/p>\n<p>Anlam\u0131ram, he\u00e7 bu nec\u0259 fitr\u0259dir?!.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Bu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm b\u0259d \u00fcz\u00fcd\u00fc h\u0259yat\u0131n,<\/p>\n<p>Kims\u0259 bo\u011fur sanki m\u0259ni t\u0259k \u0259ll\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Bax\u0131b ged\u0259r&#8221; p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldayan bayat\u0131m &#8211;<\/p>\n<p>S\u0259n dilimd\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q k\u0259k\u0259ll\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Sanki g\u0259zir ruhum indi h\u0259r yan\u0131,<\/p>\n<p>X\u0259yal\u0131mda k\u00f6rp\u00fcl\u00fcd\u00fc da\u011f, aran&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u0259kib gec\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 al-qan\u0131 &#8211;<\/p>\n<p>Ya b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 dan yeridi a\u011faran!..<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Ac\u0131s\u0131n da s\u0131x\u0131b i\u00e7dim g\u00fcnl\u0259rin,<\/p>\n<p>Bir \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yin, bir g\u00f6z\u0259lin ad\u0131na&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Aras\u0131nda dola\u015fanda g\u00fcll\u0259rin<\/p>\n<p>Bir k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259k salar m\u0259ni yad\u0131na&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>H\u0259yat\u0131n \u201cOl!\u201ddan \u201c\u00d6l!\u201d\u0259 olan m\u0259saf\u0259si h\u0259l\u0259 ki rekord olaraq, y\u0259ni \u201cQ\u0131rm\u0131z kitab\u201da inansaq 150 il\u0259 yax\u0131nd\u0131r. Lap olsun 200 il. Dem\u0259li, \u201c\u00d6l!\u201d qa\u00e7\u0131lmazd\u0131r. Bel\u0259 olan halda biz niy\u0259 bir-birimizl\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r dart\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q? Biz niy\u0259 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf hissini itir\u0259 &#8211;\u00a0 itir\u0259 kor\u015fald\u0131r\u0131q? Ax\u0131 yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 var. Vaxtl\u0131 v\u0259 ya vaxts\u0131z&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>Az\u0259rbaycan.media<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Vaxts\u0131z yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 a\u011f\u0131 &nbsp; &nbsp; Q\u0259rib\u0259dir, biz g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck, e\u015fitmi\u015fdik ki, yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc pay\u0131zda olur. V\u0259 bu g\u00f6r\u00fcb e\u015fitdiyimiz\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nib h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 pay\u0131z\u0131 bir az nisgilli, bir az x\u0259z\u0259l qoxulu&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":64583,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[54],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-50910","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kos"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50910","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=50910"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50910\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":64584,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50910\/revisions\/64584"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/64583"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=50910"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=50910"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/azerbaycan.media\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=50910"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}