Bu g\u00fcn hiss el\u0259di ki, daha \u0259vv\u0259lki adam deyil. \u018fvv\u0259lki h\u0259v\u0259si yoxdur, heyi d\u0259 qalmay\u0131b. G\u00fcc-b\u0259la birt\u0259h\u0259r yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259ndi, aya\u011fa durma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bildi ki, bir az da uzansa, daha qalxa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k, fikirl\u0259r onu didib-da\u011f\u0131dacaq. Fikir d\u0259 bir ola, iki ola…
\nAmma onun dinclyini \u0259lind\u0259n alan F\u0259xrinin ondan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz evl\u0259nm\u0259yi v\u0259 bir g\u00fcnd\u0259 qay\u0131nanas\u0131gil\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259yiydi. Ona he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n, xeyir-dua bel\u0259 almadan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k…
\nF\u0259xri bel\u0259 etm\u0259m\u0259liydi. Ax\u0131 atas\u0131n\u0131n onu bu d\u00fcnyada nec\u0259 sevdiyini ham\u0131dan yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi…
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 F\u0259xri sevdiyi q\u0131z\u0131n ondan 10 ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck oldu\u011funu \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n dem\u0259s\u0259ydi, o da bilm\u0259zdi, bilm\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259tin \u0259leyhin\u0259 getm\u0259zdi. Sonras\u0131 da bel\u0259 olmazd\u0131…
\n\u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilir ki, bu dedikl\u0259ri bir t\u0259s\u0259llidir, sad\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc aldatmaqd\u0131r. Y\u0259ni F\u0259xri g\u0259r\u0259k onu aldadayd\u0131, yalan dey\u0259ydi?
\nSonra, i\u015f-i\u015fd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra n\u0259 olur-olsun, h\u0259? Sonra da ba\u015flayayd\u0131 ki, niy\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc dem\u0259mis\u0259n?
\nAmma daha gecdir. F\u0259xrinin onu g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k g\u0259lini il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f etm\u0259k ist\u0259yin\u0259 el\u0259 pis reaksiya vermi\u015fdi ki, guya d\u00fcnya da\u011f\u0131l\u0131b:
\n– Bu n\u0259dir bel\u0259? Q\u0131z tapa bilmirdin? Bel\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirdin evl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259?
\nSonra da \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 deyir ki, he\u00e7 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n k\u0259nara qoydun ki, kiminl\u0259s\u0259 oturub dursun, yax\u015f\u0131-pis n\u0259dir bilsin. \u0130lk rast g\u0259ldiyi bu oldu, onu da q\u0259bul el\u0259di…
\n– H\u0259m d\u0259 o, d\u00fcz yolun yol\u00e7usu olsayd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fc buna raz\u0131la\u015fmazd\u0131. Y\u0259qin ya\u015f\u0131 ke\u00e7ir dey\u0259 yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b s\u0259nd\u0259n.
\nF\u0259xrinin bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra n\u0259l\u0259r ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 indi t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r:
\n– Ona \u0259r yox, ona-buna g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi “u\u015faq” laz\u0131md\u0131r. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi t\u0259hsilli, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131-ba\u015fl\u0131 bir “u\u015faq”.
\nAtas\u0131n\u0131n bu dedikl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra F\u0259xrinin r\u0259ngi \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 a\u011far\u0131b, sonra qapqara olmu\u015fdu. Onu t\u0259k b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259n, min z\u00fclml\u0259 bu ya\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131ran atas\u0131na ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b bir k\u0259lm\u0259 bel\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bir h\u0259ft\u0259 sonra sakitc\u0259 evd\u0259n getmi\u015fdi. Ki\u00e7ik bir m\u0259ktub qoymu\u015fdu: \u201cAta, bu g\u00fcn\u0259 kimi etdikl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 sa\u011f ol. Amma m\u0259n \u00f6z q\u0259rar\u0131m\u0131 verdim… \u00c7al\u0131\u015f s\u0259n d\u0259 sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qoru v\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt ol!\u201d
\nBu \u00fc\u00e7 c\u00fcml\u0259 onun d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131, arzular\u0131n\u0131, x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131 tar-mar etmi\u015fdi, inana bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi, t\u0259krar-t\u0259krar oxumu\u015fdu…
\nBu ya\u015fa kimi \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin g\u00fcnl\u0259ri olmu\u015fdu. Amma bu, ona d\u0259y\u0259n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck z\u0259rb\u0259ydi. M\u0259ktub yaz\u0131b getm\u0259k n\u0259ydi?
\n26 ildir ki, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259nas\u0131 F\u0259xriydi.
\nO do\u011fulan g\u00fcn x\u0259st\u0259xanada h\u0259kim: “O\u011flunuz oldu” – dey\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt anlar\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, \u201cAllah \u00e7\u0259kdiyim \u0259zablar\u0131n m\u00fckafat\u0131n\u0131 verir\u201d – demi\u015fdi. Be\u015f qurban demi\u015fdi ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131 ocaqlara…
\nEl\u0259 bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259xanada h\u0259kim v\u0259 tibb bac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259la\u015fla ora-bura qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc…
\nYar\u0131m saat \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di o xo\u015fb\u0259xt anlar…”Q\u0131colma ba\u015f verdi, qoruya bilm\u0259dik anan\u0131”, – dedil\u0259r…
\nHiss etdi ki, \u00fcr\u0259yi bulan\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r. \u0130st\u0259di \u00a0F\u0259xrini haylas\u0131n ki, \u00e7aydan\u0131 qoysun isinm\u0259y\u0259. Zo\u011fall\u0131 \u00e7ay ke\u00e7di \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n… Yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, evd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kim yoxdur. Lap dilxor oldu… Be\u015f ayd\u0131r bu evd\u0259 t\u0259mt\u0259kdir…
\nZorla yerind\u0259n qalx\u0131b p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0131n istisini hiss etm\u0259k ist\u0259di. B\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259ki \u00fc\u015f\u00fctm\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k olar dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.
\nP\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni a\u00e7\u0131b \u0259trafa baxd\u0131. Qon\u015fu h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 domino oynayan \u018fliyl\u0259 Musa onu g\u00f6r\u00fcb s\u0259sl\u0259dil\u0259r:
\n– Ay Nazim, indi durursan? \u018f, n\u0259 vaxt\u0131n yatma\u011f\u0131d\u0131r bu?
\n– Zal\u0131m o\u011flu, burda \u00e7empionat gedir e, bayaqdan q\u0131r\u0131r\u0131q bir-birimizi, e\u015fitmirs\u0259n?..
\n– Oyun\u00e7u apars\u0131n – dedi v\u0259 geri \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi ki, Musa yenid\u0259n ona s\u0259sl\u0259ndi:
\n– Oyun\u00e7u bilmir\u0259m, amma \u0259vv\u0259l-ax\u0131r \u018fzray\u0131l aparacaq. S\u0259n Allah, o g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259l ged\u0259k bir Quzu Orucun yerin\u0259, bir tik\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yey\u0259k, bir az da i\u00e7\u0259k…
\nN\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcs\u0259 ard\u0131nca:
\n– Hesab \u00a0da m\u0259nlikdir ha… – dedi.
\n“\u0130\u00e7\u0259k?” Diksindi…
\n\u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ill\u0259r ke\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 i\u00e7ki s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 eyni hissl\u0259ri ke\u00e7irirdi. O hadis\u0259d\u0259n sonra dilin\u0259 i\u00e7ki d\u0259ydiyini xat\u0131rlam\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n
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Gec evl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. 35 ya\u015f\u0131 olanda ata olmu\u015fdu. Bu da s\u0259b\u0259bsiz deyildi. Ail\u0259d\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 bac\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259k qarda\u015f\u0131 idi. \u0130ndi d\u0259 dey\u0259 bilmir ki, bu, onun xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi idi, ya b\u0259db\u0259xtliyi?
\nDo\u011frudur, onun \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ki\u00e7ik bac\u0131lar\u0131yla h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259-bacada oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, onlar\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 apar\u0131b-g\u0259tirdiyini, bac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n ona nec\u0259 sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nl\u0259r h\u0259s\u0259dl\u0259 deyirdil\u0259r ki, bu \u00fc\u00e7 bac\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259k qarda\u015fa olan \u00a0sevgisi Nazimi \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu \u00a0xo\u015fb\u0259xtl\u0259rin xo\u015fb\u0259xti ed\u0259c\u0259k, Nazim t\u0259klik n\u0259dir bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k…
\nAmma bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey d\u0259yi\u015fdi, bel\u0259 dem\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u0259, alt-\u00fcst oldu, bir andaca Nazim h\u0259m t\u0259kliyi g\u00f6rd\u00fc, h\u0259m d\u0259 itkini. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt yeri doldurulmayacaq bir itkini…<\/p>\n
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O g\u00fcn\u00fcn xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini indi d\u0259 h\u0259m l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259 x\u00fcsusi bir a\u011fr\u0131yla xat\u0131rlamaqdad\u0131r.
\n\u018fsg\u0259rlikd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n g\u00fcn\u00fc atas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 qurban k\u0259sdirdi. Dedi:
\n– \u00dc\u00e7 \u00a0bac\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259k qarda\u015f\u0131na \u00fc\u00e7 qurban demi\u015f\u0259m.
\nH\u0259y\u0259t adamlarla doldu-bo\u015fald\u0131, g\u0259l\u0259n-ged\u0259n, s\u0259s-k\u00fcy… Toy-bayram oldu o g\u00fcn.
\nEl\u0259 h\u0259min ax\u015fam yax\u0131n qon\u015fular atas\u0131n\u0131 Orucun k\u0259ndd\u0259n bir az aral\u0131da, “\u015eaml\u0131q” deyil\u0259n yerd\u0259ki yem\u0259kxanas\u0131na apard\u0131lar.
\nAtas\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 ya\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini, s\u0259ad\u0259tini dostlara verdiyi qonaql\u0131qla, \u00a0yeyib-i\u00e7m\u0259kl\u0259 bildirirdi. El\u0259 bu qonaql\u0131q da h\u0259m Nazimin, h\u0259m d\u0259 ail\u0259sinin \u00a0evl\u0259rind\u0259ki \u0259min-amanl\u0131\u011fa, sakitliy\u0259, bel\u0259 des\u0259k, h\u0259min \u00a0“o” xo\u015fb\u0259xtliy\u0259 son qoydu.
\nO ax\u015fam h\u0259tta bu k\u0259ndin tarixind\u0259 bel\u0259 olmayan bir faci\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. Dostlar\u0131yla evin\u0259 qay\u0131dan ata qaranl\u0131qda evin arxas\u0131ndak\u0131 ot tayas\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131r\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 odun i\u00e7in\u0259. Q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra-q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra yan\u0131b k\u00fcl olmu\u015fdu.
\nEvd\u0259kil\u0259rin q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131na, f\u0259ryad\u0131na ham\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb g\u0259ls\u0259 d\u0259, \u00a0onu xilas ed\u0259 bilm\u0259dil\u0259r. Atas\u0131 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 bel\u0259 xo\u015f bir g\u00fcnd\u0259 onlar\u0131 t\u0259k qoyub \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc se\u00e7mi\u015fdi…
\nH\u0259r\u0259 bir s\u00f6z deyirdi:
\n– G\u00fcnorta qurban \u0259ti yeyib ax\u015fam da araq i\u00e7ib…
\nBiri deyirdi:
\n– Allah bilir n\u0259 d\u0259rdi var imi\u015f ki, a\u00e7\u0131b-a\u011farda bilm\u0259yib?..
\nBiri deyirdi:
\n– N\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131 vard\u0131sa, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bel\u0259 c\u0259zaland\u0131rd\u0131…
\nO biri deyirdi:
\n– Allah\u0131n q\u0259z\u0259bin\u0259 g\u0259lib…
\nBa\u015fqa birisi:
\n– Bir \u00f6z\u00fc bilir, bir Allah\u0131…
\nBiri deyirdi:
\n– \u018fli qurban \u0259tin\u0259 d\u0259yib, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 oldu.
\nBiri deyirdi:
\n– \u00d6mr\u00fc boyu h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n naraz\u0131 idi, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 bel\u0259 etdi.
\nBiri deyirdi:
\n– Olaca\u011fa \u00e7ar\u0259 yoxdur. Olubsa, dem\u0259li, olmal\u0131yd\u0131…
\nBa\u015fqa birisi deyirdi:
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131 adam\u0131n sonu bel\u0259 olmamal\u0131yd\u0131…
\nNazimin anas\u0131 is\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ax\u0131da-ax\u0131da o\u011flunu qucaqlay\u0131b tamam ba\u015fqa \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131:
\n– Onun d\u0259rdi vard\u0131, bala, d\u0259rdi. D\u0259rd onu yand\u0131rd\u0131…
\nN\u0259ydi bu “d\u0259rd” ki, atas\u0131 onun \u00e7ar\u0259sini \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yand\u0131rmaqda tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131?
\nNazim bunu anas\u0131ndan sonralar da \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259di.
\n– D\u0259rdi vard\u0131, bala, d\u0259rdi…<\/p>\n
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Anas\u0131ndan bir cavab ala bilm\u0259y\u0259n Nazimi bu hadis\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu yand\u0131r\u0131b yaxacaq, ona dinclik verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k:
\n– Ax\u0131 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn? N\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259?
\nBunu da bilirdi ki, bu sual\u0131na atas\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kim do\u011fru cavab ver\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k.
\nYanan tayadan v\u0259 atas\u0131ndan qalan o qoxu h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 can\u0131ndayd\u0131…<\/p>\n
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Atas\u0131n\u0131n yeddi m\u0259rasimind\u0259n sonra ham\u0131 da\u011f\u0131l\u0131b getdi.
\nEl\u0259 o g\u00fcnd\u0259n qara g\u00fcnl\u0259ri ba\u015flad\u0131. Atas\u0131ndan sonra g\u00fcnd\u0259n-g\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259riy\u0259n ana, bir-birind\u0259n balaca bac\u0131lar, bir d\u0259 ki o v\u0259 ona zill\u0259n\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259r.
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr boyu bazar-d\u00fckan g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259n ana v\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 tam d\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259n bac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n taleyi h\u0259min g\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015flayaraq ondan – 20 ya\u015fl\u0131 Nazimd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131…
\nG\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 i\u015f axtard\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fc g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 ac-susuz qald\u0131, amma h\u0259r ax\u015fam ev\u0259 \u0259li dolu g\u0259ldi. Harda i\u015f oldusa, getdi, az-\u00e7ox dem\u0259di, n\u0259 verdil\u0259rs\u0259, qane oldu.
\nBa\u015fqa yolu yoxuydu… \u00dc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd cavan\u0131 da ba\u015f\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131b evl\u0259rd\u0259 t\u0259mir i\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.
\n\u0130lk i\u015fl\u0259ri qon\u015fular\u0131 S\u0259l\u0259mb\u0259r xalan\u0131n evi oldu.
\nBundan sonra t\u0259rifi h\u0259r yer\u0259 yay\u0131ld\u0131. \u018fl qabiliyy\u0259tind\u0259n, s\u0259liq\u0259sind\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar ki, h\u0259tta bir g\u00fcn rayonun ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 dal\u0131nca adam g\u00f6nd\u0259rib yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rtd\u0131rd\u0131.
\n– Qonaq evini s\u0259n t\u0259mir ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. G\u0259l\u0259nimiz-ged\u0259nimiz \u00e7oxdur. El\u0259 olsun ki, qonaqlar\u0131m burdan raz\u0131 getsinl\u0259r, – dedi.
\n\u00dc\u00e7 aydan sonra t\u0259z\u0259 t\u0259mirli qonaq evind\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259y\u0259n qonaqlar\u0131n a\u011f\u0131zdolusu t\u0259rifind\u0259n sonra ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131 Nazimi yenid\u0259n yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 bu d\u0259f\u0259 onu bird\u0259f\u0259lik i\u015fl\u0259 t\u0259min etdi.
\nNazim \u0259linin z\u0259hm\u0259ti, halal qazanc\u0131 il\u0259 anas\u0131na da, \u00fc\u00e7 bac\u0131s\u0131na da he\u00e7 bir korluq verm\u0259di, t\u0259hsil almalar\u0131na k\u00f6m\u0259k oldu, toylar\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259di, cehiz ald\u0131, onlar\u0131n xo\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 qol qald\u0131r\u0131b oynad\u0131.
\nOtuz d\u00f6rd ya\u015f\u0131nda hiss etdi ki, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 t\u0259kdir v\u0259 bu t\u0259klik onu s\u0131x\u0131r. G\u00fcnd\u0259n-g\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259min olurdu ki, ya\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259ncliyi art\u0131q onunla vidala\u015fmaqdad\u0131r…
\nBel\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey bir andaca d\u0259yi\u015fdi. \u0130dar\u0259y\u0259 yeni g\u0259l\u0259n g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fczl\u00fc, b\u0259st\u0259boylu K\u00f6n\u00fcl \u00e7ox xo\u015funa g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Hiss edirdi ki, bu, tamamil\u0259 ba\u015fqa bir hissdir, ba\u015fqa bir duy\u011fudur. H\u0259r g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0259 \u00e7atan kimi d\u0259rhal bir b\u0259han\u0259 tap\u0131b onun ota\u011f\u0131na boylanard\u0131.
\nG\u00fcn g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131 ki, K\u00f6n\u00fcl d\u0259 Nazim\u0259 bi\u011fan\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etdirdi. Rayonda b\u00f6y\u00fck toy m\u0259clisi quruldu…
\nBir il xo\u015fb\u0259xt ya\u015fad\u0131lar… Amma F\u0259xrinin do\u011fulma\u011f\u0131ynan h\u0259r \u015fey alt-\u00fcst oldu. H\u0259yat\u0131n \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r g\u00fcnl\u0259ri ba\u015flad\u0131…<\/p>\n
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Soyuducuya baxd\u0131. Zo\u011fal m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259si \u00e7oxdan a\u00e7\u0131q qab\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 qal\u0131b qurumu\u015fdu.
\nBir qa\u015f\u0131q g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb st\u0259kana t\u00f6kd\u00fc, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 qaynar su ald\u0131.
\nBir qurtum i\u00e7di. Amma hiss etdi ki, zo\u011fal\u0131n dad\u0131 yoxdur.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131nda dad qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 …<\/p>\n
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…K\u00f6rp\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn he\u00e7 kimin yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdi. D\u0259fn, g\u0259l\u0259n-ged\u0259nl\u0259r…
\nD\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcn x\u0259st\u0259xanadan z\u0259ng g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. K\u00f6rp\u0259nin yax\u0131nlar\u0131 q\u0259rar verm\u0259liydil\u0259r. R\u0259hm\u0259tliyin anas\u0131: “Q\u0131z\u0131mdan qalan t\u0259k yadigard\u0131r” – deyib u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 aparmaq ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, Nazim raz\u0131la\u015fmad\u0131:
\n– U\u015faq \u00f6z evind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259c\u0259k, kim d\u0259 ist\u0259s\u0259 g\u0259lib g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259k, – dedi.
\nYa\u015fl\u0131 anas\u0131yla birg\u0259 onu b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcl\u0259r, gec\u0259ni-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u0259 qatd\u0131lar… F\u0259xri iki ya\u015f\u0131na \u00e7atanda n\u0259n\u0259si d\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getdi.
\n\u018fn \u00e7\u0259tin g\u00fcnl\u0259r idi…
\nBac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259kidi il\u0259 c\u0259mi iki il \u0259rd\u0259 olub u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 bo\u015fanan M\u0259lah\u0259tl\u0259 evl\u0259n\u0259si oldu. H\u0259kim M\u0259lah\u0259t\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt ana ola bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini demi\u015fdi. Bunu e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 Nazim ona ac\u0131sa da, bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n d\u0259 sevinmi\u015fdi: “Anal\u0131q sevgisini b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fckl\u0259 F\u0259xriy\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r, ona daha \u00e7ox ba\u011flanar”, – demi\u015fdi.
\nAmma n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 M\u0259lah\u0259t n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r “qay\u011f\u0131ke\u015f” oldu\u011funu canf\u0259\u015fanl\u0131qla ona n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da, bir fikir ona rahatl\u0131q vermirdi – u\u015faq gec\u0259l\u0259r a\u011flayanda M\u0259lah\u0259t – yerind\u0259n \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 qalxar, u\u015fa\u011fa cand\u0259rdi yax\u0131nla\u015fard\u0131…
\nBir g\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6ys\u0259 d\u0259, a\u00e7an olmad\u0131. \u00d6z a\u00e7ar\u0131 il\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259tin yuxar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 hamamdan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitdi. Arada da q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131q s\u0259sl\u0259ri v\u0259 \u015fapp\u0131lt\u0131… Yax\u0131nla\u015fanda M\u0259lah\u0259tin F\u0259xrini \u00e7imizdirdiyini v\u0259 qaynar suyun alt\u0131ndan qa\u00e7ma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n rezin ayaqqab\u0131 il\u0259 k\u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 vurdu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fc.
\n– \u0130t balas\u0131, \u00e7im qurtar daa.
\nQuruyub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O an M\u0259lah\u0259tin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki ifad\u0259, s\u0259sinin tonu onu qorxutmu\u015fdu. \u00a0O, balas\u0131n\u0131 kim\u0259 etibar edib?
\nEl\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn M\u0259lah\u0259ti yola sald\u0131 v\u0259 and i\u00e7di ki, bir d\u0259 bu ev\u0259 qad\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131 d\u0259ym\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. \u00a0D\u0259ym\u0259di d\u0259…
\nO, bir d\u0259 balas\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 kim\u0259 etibar etm\u0259di. Ham\u0131 onun atal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ham\u0131 onun F\u0259xrini nec\u0259 sev\u0259-sev\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdi…<\/p>\n
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– G\u0259lirs\u0259n? Gedirik haa…
\n\u018flind\u0259ki st\u0259kan\u0131 k\u0259nara qoydu.
\n“Yox, bu d\u0259f\u0259 o da zo\u011fal ara\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k!” Q\u0259rarl\u0131yd\u0131: “B\u0259lk\u0259 bir az y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015f\u0259r…”.
\nGeyinib iti add\u0131mlarla h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 ged\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 qo\u015fuldu.
\nMusa ona bax\u0131b qay\u0131td\u0131 ki:
\n– B\u0259s deyirdin x\u0259st\u0259s\u0259n, ma\u015fallah, bizd\u0259n q\u0131vraqsan ki…
\n– S\u0259ni ki evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131q – biz q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131q…
\nBunu da \u018fli dedi. Oturdular.
\nQuzu kabab\u0131n\u0131n s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259yinn\u0259n qurtarma\u011f\u0131 biriydi. Yan\u0131nda da duzlu xiyar, motal pendiri v\u0259 zo\u011fal ara\u011f\u0131…
\nS\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 qulluq ed\u0259n qad\u0131n\u0131 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc -yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, uzun qam\u0259tli, qapqara sa\u00e7l\u0131. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, bural\u0131 deyildi. Dumanl\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 ha baxd\u0131sa, tan\u0131ya bilm\u0259di. Fikrind\u0259n ke\u00e7di ki, h\u0259yat\u0131n q\u0259rib\u0259liyin\u0259 bax: bel\u0259 bir qad\u0131n\u0131 burda i\u00e7kili ki\u015fil\u0259r\u0259 qulluq etm\u0259y\u0259 vadar ed\u0259n n\u0259dir? Eyni zamanda bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc bu qad\u0131na qar\u015f\u0131 q\u0259rib\u0259 bir do\u011fmal\u0131q da hiss el\u0259di.
\n– Ay S\u0259h\u0259r, Allah raz\u0131 olsun s\u0259nd\u0259n, bura kimi g\u0259ls\u0259 d\u0259, inanmazd\u0131q ki, i\u00e7sin.
\n– S\u0259h\u0259r s\u00fcz\u0259ni kim i\u00e7m\u0259z ki? Z\u0259h\u0259r olsa bel\u0259, bal kimi ged\u0259r.
\n– Bald\u0131r da bal…
\nNazim n\u00f6vb\u0259ti q\u0259d\u0259hi ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib uzaqla\u015fan qad\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131nca baxd\u0131. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, qad\u0131n bu d\u0259f\u0259 ondan bu do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131 hiss edib \u018flinin, Musan\u0131n \u015fit s\u00f6zl\u0259rini, eyhaml\u0131 atmacalar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259di.
\n– \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259dir g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Burda n\u0259 vaxtdan i\u015fl\u0259yir ki? H\u0259m d\u0259 n\u0259 \u0259c\u0259b…
\n– Adam i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan ki, bil\u0259s\u0259n n\u0259 var-n\u0259 yox? \u00a0Qon\u015fu rayonda da yem\u0259kxanada i\u015fl\u0259yib. Oruc bura t\u0259z\u0259 kabab\u00e7\u0131 g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 bu da yan\u0131nda g\u0259ldi. Sonra kabab\u00e7\u0131 getdi. Amma S\u0259h\u0259r qald\u0131. Oldu “bizim” S\u0259h\u0259r… Dey\u0259s\u0259n, buralar xo\u015funa g\u0259lib.
\n– B\u0259s harda qal\u0131r?
\n\u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259di niy\u0259 soru\u015fdu\u011funu…
\n– \u0130\u00e7\u0259k, \u00f6z\u00fc g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 dey\u0259r.
\nNazim bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 ax\u0131ra kimi i\u00e7di. V\u0259 hiss etdi ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 xo\u015f istilik yay\u0131lmaqdad\u0131r.
\n– Ay S\u0259h\u0259r, a\u011fsaqqal soru\u015fur ki, s\u0259n harda qal\u0131rsan?
\nS\u0259h\u0259r cavab verm\u0259yib sad\u0259c\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di… Ona yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b q\u0259d\u0259hini dolduraraq \u0259lini Nazimin \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoydu v\u0259 yava\u015fca:
\n– Axtaran tapar, – dedi…
\nNazim diksindi. B\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259ni titr\u0259di. Hiss etdi ki, ayaqlar\u0131ndan ba\u015flayaraq b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 xo\u015f hissl\u0259r yay\u0131l\u0131r.
\nNazim n\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini anlam\u0131rd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tan\u0131ya bilmirdi. Yox, dey\u0259s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc idar\u0259 ed\u0259 d\u0259 bilmirdi.
\nS\u0259h\u0259rin otuz \u00fc\u00e7-otuz be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131.
\nNazim bird\u0259n \u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131b utand\u0131. H\u0259tta d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckl\u0259rind\u0259n qorxdu.
\n– Yox, olmaz, he\u00e7 olmaz…
\n– Niy\u0259 d\u0259 olmas\u0131n? Y\u00fcz ilin ba\u015f\u0131nda bir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u0259lmis\u0259n i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259, ona da “olmaz” deyirs\u0259n?
\n\u018fli onu y\u00fcng\u00fclc\u0259 d\u00fcms\u00fckl\u0259di.
\nBa\u015f\u0131 dumanl\u0131-dumanl\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 \u0259trafdak\u0131lar onun \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259kil\u0259rd\u0259n bix\u0259b\u0259rdil\u0259r.
\n\u00d6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n utand\u0131. Aya\u011fa durdu:
\n– M\u0259n gedim, – dey\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, S\u0259h\u0259rin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxmas\u0131n. \u00c7\u00fcnki baxsa, ged\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k.
\n\u0130ti add\u0131mlarla uzaqla\u015fmaq ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, i\u00e7kinin t\u0259sirind\u0259n ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n bir-birin\u0259 nec\u0259 dola\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss edirdi.
\nBird\u0259n kims\u0259 qoluna girdi:
\n– M\u0259n sizi bel\u0259 yola sala bilm\u0259r\u0259m, – dedi. – Eviniz\u0259c\u0259n \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcm…
\nNazim t\u0259kidl\u0259:
\n– \u0130\u015fin\u0259 qay\u0131t, s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z g\u0259l\u0259r, – des\u0259 d\u0259, xeyri olmad\u0131.
\n– U\u015faqlar qulluq ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r, – dedi. -M\u0259ns\u0259 a\u011fsaqqala qulluq ed\u0259c\u0259m…
\nEv\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 tez g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131lar. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7evrilib onunla sa\u011folla\u015fmaq ist\u0259di.
\nAmma S\u0259h\u0259r:
\n– Evinizi g\u00f6r\u00fcm, sonra ged\u0259r\u0259m, – dedi. – Ax\u0131 dostlar\u0131n\u0131z t\u0259k ya\u015fasan\u0131z da, nec\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259-sahmanl\u0131 oldu\u011funuzdan \u00e7ox dan\u0131\u015f\u0131blar.
\nFikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki, dostlar\u0131 ondan daha n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131blar g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n?
\n– Bax, m\u0259n d\u0259 orda – yem\u0259kxanan\u0131n yax\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda balaca bir ev kiray\u0259 etmi\u015f\u0259m. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259miz saxlasam da, t\u0259miri olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan h\u0259r yan\u0131 u\u00e7ub-t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr…
\nS\u0259h\u0259r evi g\u0259zdi, h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 baxd\u0131, Nazimin stolun q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 k\u00f6yn\u0259kl\u0259rini \u015fkafdan asd\u0131, m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259ki st\u0259kan\u0131, bo\u015fqab\u0131 yuyub yerin\u0259 qoydu. El\u0259 bil \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu bu evd\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131…
\nNazim ondan g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kmir, h\u0259m d\u0259 Allaha yalvar\u0131rd\u0131 ki, S\u0259h\u0259r tez getsin. S\u0259h\u0259r is\u0259, dey\u0259s\u0259n, t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259n\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u00c7aynikin alt\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131r\u0131b \u00e7ay d\u0259ml\u0259di, iki st\u0259kana s\u00fcz\u00fcb oturdu divanda.
\nNazim bilmirdi neyl\u0259sin, lap yan\u0131nda oturan bu qad\u0131na n\u0259 desin, n\u0259 ist\u0259sin?
\nD\u00f6n\u00fcb h\u0259tta onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 baxa bilmirdi.
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ayd\u0131r, – dedi.
\n– Amma nan\u0259, mix\u0259k tapmad\u0131m, he\u00e7 dar\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n da yoxdur.
\nN\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcs\u0259, Nazim\u0259 bax\u0131b:
\n– Eybi yox, g\u0259l\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm al\u0131b g\u0259tir\u0259r\u0259m… – dedi.
\n“G\u0259l\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259?”.
\nNazim n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini bilm\u0259di…
\n– N\u0259 \u0259c\u0259b bu ya\u015fda ev-e\u015fiyini burax\u0131b g\u0259lib burda qal\u0131rsan, bel\u0259 bir i\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olursan?
\nS\u0259h\u0259r el\u0259 bil bayaqdan bu sual\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. G\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 yay\u0131ld\u0131. H\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra-h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:
\n– D\u00f6rd sinif oxumu\u015fam, atam-anam \u00f6l\u00fcb, xalam saxlay\u0131b m\u0259ni. Ona da saxlamaq dem\u0259k olarsa…
\nBir az susub:
\n– H\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00f6y\u00fcb ki, m\u0259ni… Sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 darayanda o q\u0259d\u0259r daraqla ba\u015f\u0131ma vurub ki…
\nNazim bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 S\u0259h\u0259rin a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 can\u0131nda hiss el\u0259di. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq onun \u0259lind\u0259n tutdu.
\n– \u0130yirmi ya\u015f\u0131mda qon\u015fuluqda ya\u015fayan bir o\u011flana qo\u015fulub qa\u00e7d\u0131m… Bir il sonra ayr\u0131ld\u0131q.
\nNazim onun \u0259ll\u0259rini b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk s\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131:
\n– Xalam geri qay\u0131tma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259di. El\u0259 o vaxtdan kafel\u0259rd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259dim…
\nYen\u0259 susdu:
\n– Evim olmay\u0131b m\u0259nim he\u00e7 vaxt. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 kimins\u0259 k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259… Amma \u00e7ox arzulam\u0131\u015fam \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn yuvam olsun. \u00d6z\u00fcm t\u0259mizl\u0259yim, y\u0131\u011f\u0131m-y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131m, b\u0259z\u0259yib-d\u00fcz\u0259yim.
\nD\u00f6n\u00fcb Nazim\u0259 baxd\u0131:
\n– S\u0259n bilirs\u0259n, m\u0259nim he\u00e7 vaxt g\u0259linciyim d\u0259 olmay\u0131b. M\u0259n\u0259 kim alacaqd\u0131 ki, onu? H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 arzulay\u0131rd\u0131m ki, toyumda ilk g\u0259linciyimi \u0259lim\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259m… O da olmad\u0131…
\nYen\u0259 susdu:
\n– Ham\u0131 deyir g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n. Amma b\u0259xtim ki, g\u00f6z\u0259l deyil. Yax\u0131nla\u015fan ancaq vaxt ke\u00e7irm\u0259k ist\u0259yir, m\u0259nims\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcm ke\u00e7ir. Evim-e\u015fiyim olsun deyir\u0259m. M\u0259n d\u0259 bir evin xan\u0131m\u0131 olmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\nNazim dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca, a\u011flad\u0131qca daha da m\u0259sumla\u015fan, g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259llik qat\u0131lan S\u0259h\u0259ri \u00fcr\u0259k a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nBayaqdan getm\u0259yini ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, indi qorxurdu ki, durub ged\u0259r.
\n– S\u0259nc\u0259 m\u0259n bel\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259ms\u0259, niy\u0259 b\u0259xtim d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l deyil? Ka\u015f ki bu g\u00f6z\u0259llikd\u0259ns\u0259, tanr\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259xt ver\u0259ydi, b\u0259xt…
\nNazim:
\n– El\u0259 dem\u0259, – deyib bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 \u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 c\u00fcr yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di. “Bunun bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 d\u0259xli var e”- deyib \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131nad\u0131.
\nS\u0259h\u0259r aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b qap\u0131ya do\u011fru getdi…
\n– Sizi d\u0259 yormay\u0131m. Kafe ba\u011flanmadan gedim he\u00e7 olmasa qablar\u0131 yuyum…
\nBunu deyib bo\u015f ota\u011fa g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdi, k\u0259d\u0259rli g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n– Amma \u00e7ox q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng eviniz var, adam getm\u0259k d\u0259 ist\u0259mir…
\nBunu deyib \u0259lini qap\u0131ya uzatd\u0131.
\n– Getm\u0259!!
\nNazim \u00f6z s\u0259sind\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fc diksindi….
\nOrtaya uzun bir s\u00fckut \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc…
\nS\u0259h\u0259r e\u015fitdiyin\u0259 tam \u0259min olmaq ist\u0259di.
\n– Ax\u0131 getm\u0259s\u0259m olmaz, sonra da Oruc \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015f\u0259r, i\u015fd\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarar.
\n– \u00c7\u0131xars\u0131n, – dedi. – Daha n\u0259 ona, n\u0259 d\u0259 onun i\u015fin\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131n yoxdur…
\nS\u0259h\u0259r a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lib bayaqk\u0131 yerind\u0259 oturdu…<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Su s\u0259si g\u0259ldi qula\u011f\u0131na. Ax\u015famdan suyu a\u00e7\u0131q qoyub yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb dilxor oldu.
\nAmma su s\u0259si itdi, \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 burnuna xo\u015f bir qoxu g\u0259ldi. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 yuxuda oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc…
\n– S\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r n\u0259l\u0259r haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fam s\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r.
\nYuxu deyildi, S\u0259h\u0259r idi onun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131… \u00a0Bilm\u0259di neyl\u0259sin…
\nBu, he\u00e7 vaxt ya\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u0259h\u0259riydi. Xat\u0131rlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131…
\nAmma he\u00e7 vaxt bu q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131…
\nQap\u0131da taqq\u0131lt\u0131 s\u0259si g\u0259ldi. Sonra kims\u0259 d\u00fcz \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259f\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 vurdu. \u00a0Z\u0259ng ola-ola h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259c\u0259 taqq\u0131ldadan F\u0259xri olard\u0131. H\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131: G\u00f6r\u0259n kimdir bel\u0259?
\nDurub t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259 qap\u0131ya sar\u0131 getdi. S\u0259h\u0259r i\u00e7\u0259ri ota\u011fa ke\u00e7ib qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fc.
\nNazim qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7anda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirdi…
\n– Ata, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, s\u0259n haql\u0131yd\u0131n…
\nAtas\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131:
\n– M\u0259n qay\u0131td\u0131m…
\nNazim yerind\u0259c\u0259 donub qald\u0131. Durub uzun-uzad\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 baxd\u0131lar.
\n\u0130\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259s\u0259 S\u0259h\u0259rin \u00fcr\u0259yi q\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259ki qu\u015f ur\u0259yi kimi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n
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